Self care.
In 2020, I have come to understand the term more than ever.
I have always been someone who has, in times of stress, simply put my head down and worked harder. In times of stress, I have always put the needs of others ahead of my own. While noble sounding, it has sometimes got me into trouble. (In fact, this very site was created out of a need for self-care, a creative outlet to talk about something I loved. A way to get away from problems in my life for 45 minutes.)
If I ever needed self care it has been 2020.
In late 2019 I began divorce proceedings, proceedings which are still on going.
I have been living on my own for the last 6 months.
More than any other year, I needed self care. And something that has always provided me some important 'me time' has been the summer comic convention season. And more than any year, given a newfound sense of individuality and (frankly) freedom, I needed this year's con season.
And then, in 2020, the COVID pandemic hit the United States. That carries its own stressors. Add my profession and there is an added layer.
Sadly, that meant that conventions, such as Terrificon (my favorite con), have been canceled. That meant this little slice away from it all ... a time to hang with friends, a time to meet creators, a time to just be Anj ... was gone.
And now, there is the frank reality of systemic issues within our national police forces as well as civil unrest rampaging across the country.
More than ever I would love to go to a place where I feel united in a group. But cons aren't happening.
It seems foolish even to be talking about this.
No Terrificon.
No Fan Expo Boston.
No Plastic City Comic Con.
These were things I have been looking forward to for months, maybe selfishly.
It sounds so privileged to be talking about this when tear gas is being fired.
When people are dying.
When events like the death of George Floyd keep happening.
When protests to create change become riots with stores being looted.
When people are still dying from COVID.
I can only hope the world is a better place in 2021.