It's been few years of my defiance silence ... here I am, back to the old asylum of my own rants.
If you wonder what I have been up too past two years? I honestly can say, I've drifted away from any love hiccups and give my full concentration to finish up my Ph.D. research. But again, there is something happens to me that needs to be "discussed" in here.
If you are not a grammar nazi freak, I invite you to read these few post Part 1, Part 2, Part 3, Part 4 so you'll understand what happen.
First of all, let me tell you that the owner of the hazel eyes that I loved before was married for nearly two years until one day, the best friends of mine tell me this secret (which I don't want to hear it....)
A: You know Zizie, I've been dying to tell you this. Although he asked me to not tell anyone.
Me: What is it?
A: He's divorced.... and I'm freaking say "Padan muka" right on his face
Me: He is?? (normally I should be glad to hear it right????.......... but I don't)
A: Yup.... recently, he himself doesn't know why it is happening but his wife insists on getting a divorce. Doesn't want to see him anymore.
Me: um.... pity. (But, we both stop talking and you are no longer my concern)
Honestly, I don't know how to react to the news because both of us are no longer talking. Both of us couldn't feel the connection like we used to be. For example, if he wants to know what am I doing right know, he just simply asking it to my best friends.
That's all. There is no point of us talking. I know he gets the idea. I respect his decision to get married so I stop talking to him.
That's all. There is no point of us talking. I know he gets the idea. I respect his decision to get married so I stop talking to him.
I've been in a relationship with another guy past few months and it ends with same fate like Mr. hazel eyes and me. I too decide to stop talking to him as well. Same approach :p
Strangely, my ex-man keep asking about me from my another best friends (I have few best friends, each one of them holds my different love story)... asking if I merajuk (what do you say merajuk in English?) towards him. He feels that I'm not "talking" to him in Whatsapp group... nor I talking to him in personal Whatsapp anymore. But when my best friend asked him to talk to me personally. He never did it.
How could you keep "disturbing" my best friends when both of you are actually my friends? Both of you do have my phone numbers, and were on my FB friends list. Pardon me for stop talking, but I guess ego does prevent you from talking back to me huh?
Both of you did say that "Jodoh ditangan Tuhan" (Love is in God's hand)... I guess you should know that my decision to stay out from your life is also from God's hand. Stop pretending you care about me. I dare you to talk to me face to face.
