Hello I'm back.....
As my schedule is getting packed.... I'm trying to save some ideas or (at least a memory) of what I'm gonna write in my personal blog. Honestly, I could shared so many things to you but I'm bad with composition, narrating, grammar etc.. My English sucks and my Bahasa Melayu is something to worried too.
Last two weeks I'd learned something in order to control myself and be focus to all the things I'll do. I'd given my best and my faith to God as I'm trying to change my life and become a better woman. I'd juggled few task and responsibilities in my hands. Business is something challenging. Stress is my friend and my close friends is my angels. Of course having a big sister is a bless. We had fought a lot and befriend again, fought and befriend... it's never ending. We respect each other, shared lot's of secret and we could be a great hang out buddies. My big brother ? He's having his own world and responsibilities to taken care of. I've nothing much to say about my best friends, it's just that they're the best friends I'd meet in my life. I thank them for being a supportive and willingness to be my partner in crime.
I feel sorry to my parents as they keep worrying about me, going out and come back home late ,lack of sleep and emotionally stressed... I could get mad easily. But at this moment I'm in a process of acting more rational, calm and learn to happy.... yeah, happy. I must be happy of this new process. I should be proud of myself because I don't ask people to help me or showing sympathy... I can do it and yes I could ... Only 1 or 2 things that I need my big sister to help me and monitoring our strategy, as we both had vowed to always work together to make our plans works. Thank you Nina...
Oh yes, I'm still single.... thank you very much. Being a physically disadvantage makes me keep holding on the fate... I'd vowed to myself for not to chase over the fate of life as a woman.. Yes, I want to feel what love is all about. I must be honest that I do want to have a right man in my life.... seeing the man that I'd my crush on went out together with his girlfriend is a not a good moment, not good at all for me :( ... and it pooped out very frequently now. I'm not sure why God wants me to witness these two "loving birds" moment but it hurts... really-really hurts !!! I must say his girlfriend must be lucky to have him. He's the one that you could parade in front of your girlfriends and someone that you can quickly introducing him to your parents ... Although it's impossible to forget him, I'd accept the fact that he's NOT for me. I pray that both of them will be live happily ever after.
As I'm trying to dig these love "mysteries" I'd to witness another moment in people life. Some of my friends is having the bad moment in their marriage life.... couple that could have ended up fighting over some minuscule things. As they try to seek my advice, I say that I couldn't helped much as I'm NOT in any love relationship before and NOT married. I'm very sad when they are crying about it... but what can I do??? I pray that they can work things out.. Marriage is about bonding 2 lives together (of course not to forget .... respecting your family-in law *sigh*), a bond that indicates a vow of sharing life together thick and thin.
I've my own thoughts about marriage... If people getting married is just for sake of having children, following people "urges" and at the end couples no longer building the passion of love like what they did before married, so what exactly marriage is for ??? Marriage is not measured by how grand your ceremony is, how pretty your invitation card isor how big your sexual drive is... marriage is like a surprise moment... endless love moment. Children is a precious gift... not something that turns your wife like a child factory or makes her bears your egos and priority... You can't own woman... you'd been "asked" to love her and in returns she'll thank your love and devoted her life to be with you.
So, I'd ended up stuck in the middle of needs or fact of life. I could stay single by now but how long I've to be like this and If I did meet a man one day, will he accept my disadvantages and shared his love with no less??? ... I let God decides what best for me and I know He wouldn't turn me down. But this time, I'm learning to become Ms Independent and I need to have something to "back me up" in the future, Insyallah !!!
As my schedule is getting packed.... I'm trying to save some ideas or (at least a memory) of what I'm gonna write in my personal blog. Honestly, I could shared so many things to you but I'm bad with composition, narrating, grammar etc.. My English sucks and my Bahasa Melayu is something to worried too.
Last two weeks I'd learned something in order to control myself and be focus to all the things I'll do. I'd given my best and my faith to God as I'm trying to change my life and become a better woman. I'd juggled few task and responsibilities in my hands. Business is something challenging. Stress is my friend and my close friends is my angels. Of course having a big sister is a bless. We had fought a lot and befriend again, fought and befriend... it's never ending. We respect each other, shared lot's of secret and we could be a great hang out buddies. My big brother ? He's having his own world and responsibilities to taken care of. I've nothing much to say about my best friends, it's just that they're the best friends I'd meet in my life. I thank them for being a supportive and willingness to be my partner in crime.
I feel sorry to my parents as they keep worrying about me, going out and come back home late ,lack of sleep and emotionally stressed... I could get mad easily. But at this moment I'm in a process of acting more rational, calm and learn to happy.... yeah, happy. I must be happy of this new process. I should be proud of myself because I don't ask people to help me or showing sympathy... I can do it and yes I could ... Only 1 or 2 things that I need my big sister to help me and monitoring our strategy, as we both had vowed to always work together to make our plans works. Thank you Nina...
Oh yes, I'm still single.... thank you very much. Being a physically disadvantage makes me keep holding on the fate... I'd vowed to myself for not to chase over the fate of life as a woman.. Yes, I want to feel what love is all about. I must be honest that I do want to have a right man in my life.... seeing the man that I'd my crush on went out together with his girlfriend is a not a good moment, not good at all for me :( ... and it pooped out very frequently now. I'm not sure why God wants me to witness these two "loving birds" moment but it hurts... really-really hurts !!! I must say his girlfriend must be lucky to have him. He's the one that you could parade in front of your girlfriends and someone that you can quickly introducing him to your parents ... Although it's impossible to forget him, I'd accept the fact that he's NOT for me. I pray that both of them will be live happily ever after.
As I'm trying to dig these love "mysteries" I'd to witness another moment in people life. Some of my friends is having the bad moment in their marriage life.... couple that could have ended up fighting over some minuscule things. As they try to seek my advice, I say that I couldn't helped much as I'm NOT in any love relationship before and NOT married. I'm very sad when they are crying about it... but what can I do??? I pray that they can work things out.. Marriage is about bonding 2 lives together (of course not to forget .... respecting your family-in law *sigh*), a bond that indicates a vow of sharing life together thick and thin.
I've my own thoughts about marriage... If people getting married is just for sake of having children, following people "urges" and at the end couples no longer building the passion of love like what they did before married, so what exactly marriage is for ??? Marriage is not measured by how grand your ceremony is, how pretty your invitation card is
So, I'd ended up stuck in the middle of needs or fact of life. I could stay single by now but how long I've to be like this and If I did meet a man one day, will he accept my disadvantages and shared his love with no less??? ... I let God decides what best for me and I know He wouldn't turn me down. But this time, I'm learning to become Ms Independent and I need to have something to "back me up" in the future, Insyallah !!!
