Wednesday, July 7, 2013

Today felt hard.

I woke up late because I stayed up too late.  I felt tired and dealing with a lack of motivation most of the day.

I still got our schooling done, got in 3 session of exercise. Though, my pre-lunch didn't happen until well after lunch.  I still got in three bits of activity with my three meals.

I'm feeling a little uninspired with food.  Maybe just bored.  We made veggie wraps today. Big bowl of lettuce and all manner of vegetables, fruit, beans, and nuts to fill it.  I was actually REALLY wanting to make a wrap for myself. It was HARD to build a salad and not enjoy that chew tortilla wrapped around it. I took a LONG time to eat my salad.  But, I was glad at the end that I didn't have the bread/grains. 

When dinner came around, I was equally down.  None of the leftovers seemed good to me.  I ended up with a small bowl of beans and a green apple with a few little pieces of walnut. I was feeling bad that I didn't have more greens or vegetables. That apple is a lot of sugar.  But, I was just plain worn out and didn't want to work so hard at feeding myself. At least I stayed on course, right? It wasn't quite the level of nutrition it should be, but it wasn't anti-nutrient either.

I need to find a good balance between prepping foods and getting school done. This is getting hard to do both.

I didn't weigh in this morning. I'm a little scared to see that the number that I was at yesterday go up because it was in error or something. 

I did got with David tonight to try some tennis. First time we've played alone. I need to change the name of that game to Chase-Balls cause that's pretty much all I did. 

Tuesday, May 29 2012

Today's Good Things:
Good choices for meals
Did well on my first solo day
Did well on our first outing
Small bit of tidying up around the house = activity
Chose popcorn for snack instead of the sweet I was craving

Today's Not So Good Things:
Not always as patient as I should be
Missed an afternoon nap

Today was pretty good for a first day solo. The children were quiet this morning, so I was able to sleep in a bit after a very long night with baby. I'm feeling a little down, as she's down another 2oz on the scale today from Sunday.  I struggle so much every time and was SO hoping this baby would be better. Just can't seem to get that hindmilk in her system. Sigh. Pray for me to deal with this patiently and trust the Lord is going to bring us through.

I took the fam to my dd's sewing lessons today. I figured just driving in the car wouldn't be so bad. The littles played while we were there and I nursed baby. However, just carrying her around in her seat was tiring. I'll be staying home the rest of this week, for sure. ;)  Tomorrow is supposed to be really nice. After a rainy day, I'd love to take the children to the park, but I think I best stay home and rest. Maybe I can help them set up some kind of fun thing to do in the yard and hang out with baby on my swing instead. Just trying to balance the rest, nursing, and time with the others as best I can.

Hope to get a chance to read your updates tonight. Enjoying a movie with the bigs right now, though. Kinda special to stay up late together. :)

Quick Update

I haven't journaled for a bit. My numbers have all been amazingly low.  So much so, that I have even gotten a little lax on how I round out each meal. I'm still being cautious on portions and amounts of protein. Actually, what I've been lax about is not eating enough most of the time.  I don't leave the table hungry, and with all these snacks, I guess it's just feeling hard to make my meals as large as the menu says they should be.

That said, I had 2 slices of Sam's pizza over the weekend while we were out shopping.  I thought for sure it was going to do me in.  Not so! My numbers were perfect! I don't get it because pizza before, especially 2 slices, would have sent me way over. Could be the meter. Could be insulin, I guess, even though I'm still only taking 10 units at bedtime.  Could have been all the activity I had that day with shopping and such.  Whatever it was, I'll take it!

I haven't been doing any official exercise.  We have, however, been doing a lot of cleaning, purging, and moving as we are rearranging most every room in our house right now.  My husband finished his last exam this past weekend (woohoo!) so we emptied his office and that leads to an avalanche of "newness". ;) 

His new "thing", he declared, now that this year of studying and testing is over, is Diet and Exercise. I'm excited! First my daughter, now my hubby!  It's amazing to watch everyone get excited about health and strength and want to do it together!  A little weird it is happening now that I can't fully join in, but I'm so thankful.  And, to be fair, I *am* working hard on my health, just not on weight loss, so I guess I am still part of the team. ;)  Just need to focus a bit more on strength than I have been.

The last two days I've worked hard at rearranging shelves, books, toys, furniture, you name it.  Today is going to be a rest day while I catch up on grading and school stuff.  I'm hoping to get out for a walk after lunch, though.  I have one here who has been super hard to love and I think a walk for the two of us would be a good thing.

My daughter and husband have been planning a family celebration for Valentine's day.  She's planning to make some mini-muffins for our dessert so we have something more "healthy". Love that girl.  I'm feeling a little bad that I'm not real involved in the planning and prep. But, honestly, I'm feeling swamped right now with duties and I just can't keep up.  So, I'm choosing to be blessed and enjoy their efforts. :)

Blessings to you all this Valentine's day!  Enjoy your treats, but remember to strive for balance as well as grace!!

Tuesday November 15, 2011

Today's Good Things:
Up and dressed before the children
Woke them with a smile
Bible & journal
Morning walk with the fam
Followed meal plan fairly well until dinner (enter date night)
Worked out some strategy to deal with tough home issues

Today's Not So Good Things:
Children were not so enthusiastic about my fresh start to the day
Tough issues with one dear child
Date night dinner was too hard to resist

Today I started well.  I am very glad for that.  I'm sad because I can see the transition to get us back on our regular routine is going to be a rough one.  Today was hard, dealing with a lot of those emotions and working on behavior that has been let go for too long.  Emotionally, I'm drained. 

We had a wonderful date night tonight, though.  I'm grateful the Lord always gives hope even when we don't even know where to look for it. 

Tomorrow I hope to start as strong.  I also hope to get in an afternoon walk instead of sitting in my own emotional pity-party.  I should have at least walked off those blues. 

I also have my first mw appointment tomorrow. I wasn't expecting to go this soon, but I am excited to meet with her and hear more on her thoughts for keeping my blood sugars balanced. 

Oh, and starting to think about the Thanksgiving day menu.  I want to include my family's favorites, but I want to be cautious about tempting myself with all of those goodies.  It will be a challenge, for sure.

Wednesday February 2, 2011 Where's the Balance?

Today's Good Things:
A bit of extra sleep this morning, decent sleep for the night too
Timely start to our day
Baby was back on her nap schedule
Healthy meals made even while a bit behind
Helped dd learn to make stir fry for dinner, she also made some yummy cookies
Got caught up on school work and added in a new subject

Today's Not So Good Things:
No exercise
Too many yummy cookies
No bible time
Still struggling to get enough rest


I keep wondering if there will ever be a time when I can Get It All Done.

This week I've been working hard to get us caught up in schoolwork after last week's downfall. I think we've got it now, and I was even able to add in a subject that we haven't been working on since before Christmas. Granted, we weren't done until 4 this afternoon but, I'm pleased with our progress.

I've been able to make some decent meals as well. Lunch is especially hard, and so far we've had Leftovers (M), Salsa Black Bean Soup (T), and Taco Salad (W).  That's a big score when I'm focused elsewhere.

However, my house is untidy, my laundry is a load behind, (do not mention the baskets of unfolded clothes waiting on the couch ::blush::) and I haven't worked out all week. Today I didn't even get my 15's in. Sigh.

So, it always ends up being one or two things done and one or two things undone. I wish I could find the balance, because they really all need to be done. I mean, it's not like I'm trying to do more than the basics on any given day.

Meals
School
Exercise
Laundry
Clean (and really that's just tidy & quick cleaning, no deep stuff here until our days off)

Oh yeah, and somewhere in there I try to sleep. Sleep is a depressing subject for me, worthy of its own post. Suffice it to say, more could get done if I was getting all the rest my body needed. And there lies the battle I've been fighting for several years now. I struggle to not use it as an excuse, but the reality is, without adequate rest, you cannot reach the level of health that is best for you.

And so, some weeks I can push and get in the exercise. Other weeks I can push and keep up with lessons. Some weeks my house will look great.  And some weeks I rest, trying to buy a couple extra hours of sleep where I am able. It doesn't feel like a balance, but, maybe, if I turn my head and look at it funny, it really does even out.