6 Week - Day 35 & 36

I missed posting last night. Got home late and was really tired.

I don't remember all that I ate yesterday, but I do remember my dinner. We went to visit a couple from church and she made us a lovely meal. Very little of it was on plan with ETL and the dessert definitely was not. 

I admit I was torn. I wanted to stay on course.  Yet, I wanted to be grateful, honoring, and gracious to my host. She worked hard to make us a delightful dinner and evening. That matters more than my scale.

Looking back, I should have had just one of the offered desserts instead of feeling the need to try both, even though I was sharing with the baby. I could have simply been honest and said I was trying to avoid sweets and just fed the baby a dessert and enjoyed my coffee alone.  In fact, I really think if I had done that, it would have been fine. I wouldn't have offended her at all.  Yet, there was that fear and voice in my head overruling my judgment. Where does that come from?

I need to think and pray on this because I'm making choices to please a voice or appease a fear that isn't even valid. 

Today (Day 36)

Food:

Breakfast was breakfast salad, thanks to my guy

Lunch was a plate of romaine topped with black beans, hot sauce, and a toasted corn tortilla, carrots sticks and a few pieces of broccoli

Dinner was roasted sweet potato, Brussels sprouts topped with vegan cheese sauce; oven baked onion rings (onions dipped in almond milk and coated with seasoned cornmeal) and mushrooms; strawberry milkshake (frozen berries, almond milk, vanilla), 1 ear of corn on the cob

Rather heavy on the starches at dinner but I tried to keep my portions small, especially on the potato.

I didn't step on the scale this morning.  It wasn't worth it.

Looking Ahead:

I made a Mexican casserole today to reheat for dinner tomorrow. I had my daughter make a spice cake for breakfast.  I've got a lot more kitchen work ahead of me this week.  I'm hoping I can just move forward with the days, get excited about my choices and let the past be in the past while I work through the reason for it.