Today's Good Things:
Up and dressed before the children
Woke them with a smile
Bible & journal
Morning walk with the fam
Followed meal plan fairly well until dinner (enter date night)
Worked out some strategy to deal with tough home issues
Today's Not So Good Things:
Children were not so enthusiastic about my fresh start to the day
Tough issues with one dear child
Date night dinner was too hard to resist
Today I started well. I am very glad for that. I'm sad because I can see the transition to get us back on our regular routine is going to be a rough one. Today was hard, dealing with a lot of those emotions and working on behavior that has been let go for too long. Emotionally, I'm drained.
We had a wonderful date night tonight, though. I'm grateful the Lord always gives hope even when we don't even know where to look for it.
Tomorrow I hope to start as strong. I also hope to get in an afternoon walk instead of sitting in my own emotional pity-party. I should have at least walked off those blues.
I also have my first mw appointment tomorrow. I wasn't expecting to go this soon, but I am excited to meet with her and hear more on her thoughts for keeping my blood sugars balanced.
Oh, and starting to think about the Thanksgiving day menu. I want to include my family's favorites, but I want to be cautious about tempting myself with all of those goodies. It will be a challenge, for sure.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Monday, November 14, 2011
Monday November 14, 2011
Today's Good Things:
Dressed, bible and journal this morning
Stayed vertical most of the day
Helped with making dinner!
Made some good choices for snacks and meals
Met a good friend for coffee/tea tonight. (it's been too long since I've been able to do that!)
Today's Not So Good Things:
Caved and had a donut
Super slow and crabby day for the whole clan. :(
Couldn't stay focused and motivated this morning
Today was a very difficult Monday. Everyone was slow moving, unmotivated, distractable and crabby. One is sick, so feeling extra whiney. Another was over tired from the weekend, so basically no self-control. And this Momma was about as impatient as she can get. And I did it. I caved in to my stress and ate a donut as an escape. What a dumb thing to do. Of course, I didn't escape anything. I didn't actually FEEL better. (though, that moment the chocolate hits your taste buds...mmmm...ahem.) I likely made my ability to deal with the stresses less effective. Sigh.
But, it's done and we move on, right? Tomorrow I have a Plan of Attack to get us off to a better start, complete with family exercise. I know we could all use the fresh air and activity to give us a better handle on our day.
I enjoyed a lovely evening out with a friend tonight. I've been staying home from my weekly night out with friends because I've been feeling so awful. But, tonight was lovely and I'm so grateful I was able to go again. I've missed the break and the wonderful friendships I'm blessed to have. The break has already left me feeling refreshed and more willing to face the day tomorrow. It' amazing what a little change of scenery and some uplifting conversation can do for a person.
Praying for a better report for tomorrow!
Dressed, bible and journal this morning
Stayed vertical most of the day
Helped with making dinner!
Made some good choices for snacks and meals
Met a good friend for coffee/tea tonight. (it's been too long since I've been able to do that!)
Today's Not So Good Things:
Caved and had a donut
Super slow and crabby day for the whole clan. :(
Couldn't stay focused and motivated this morning
Today was a very difficult Monday. Everyone was slow moving, unmotivated, distractable and crabby. One is sick, so feeling extra whiney. Another was over tired from the weekend, so basically no self-control. And this Momma was about as impatient as she can get. And I did it. I caved in to my stress and ate a donut as an escape. What a dumb thing to do. Of course, I didn't escape anything. I didn't actually FEEL better. (though, that moment the chocolate hits your taste buds...mmmm...ahem.) I likely made my ability to deal with the stresses less effective. Sigh.
But, it's done and we move on, right? Tomorrow I have a Plan of Attack to get us off to a better start, complete with family exercise. I know we could all use the fresh air and activity to give us a better handle on our day.
I enjoyed a lovely evening out with a friend tonight. I've been staying home from my weekly night out with friends because I've been feeling so awful. But, tonight was lovely and I'm so grateful I was able to go again. I've missed the break and the wonderful friendships I'm blessed to have. The break has already left me feeling refreshed and more willing to face the day tomorrow. It' amazing what a little change of scenery and some uplifting conversation can do for a person.
Praying for a better report for tomorrow!
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Saturday, Nov.12 2011
Today's Good Things:
Rested A LOT
Got some laundry put away
Winter clothes organized and sorted (but really, that was not my doing)
Online shopping (but not buying yet) for maternity clothes
Did well with my eating choices, though I didn't follow my plan exactly
Today's Not So Good Things:
Didn't follow my meal plan
Didn't eat enough
Didn't get any exercise
Didn't get enough sleep last night, so feeling awful
Winning the Crabby Mom award for the day (week?? sigh.)
I'm going to do this. I'm forcing myself to get back to daily journaling. Just knowing I have to report my day *should* motivate me to make it worth reporting. I hope.
So, here comes the personal stuff you may not care to read in happy blog land. I finally admitted today that I am not enjoying being pregnant right now. I feel ill, tired, unmotivated, irritable, lazy, achey, and HUGE. I'm battling a lot of negative feelings right now regarding how my body is changing. Remember those skirts I joyfully outgrew and put away? Yeah, they fit great now. :-/
Now, hear me out. I am THRILLED to have a new baby on the way. I am super excited to learn all about how this little one is growing and changing. I see newborns and get all giddy, knowing we'll have our own to snuggle when spring comes around. It's not the baby, it's the pregnancy and the changes and stresses that go with it that are getting me down.
Pray for me. That's what I truly need.
>I need to forget what is behind and strive for what lies ahead. I worked HARD last year and saw some fruit. I can work HARD this year and see fruit as well. Different fruit, but beautiful fruit all the same.
> I need to put my focus back on doing all of this that the Lord is lifted up, not that I can wear a certain size or not look like a tent in what I put on. I got rid of my entire maternity wardrobe after our youngest was born, anticipating that I would never fit in those clothes again. Sigh. So, I'm needing a full new wardrobe about now. With funds tight, I do have yet another chance to see the Lord provide, and I'm grateful. I just need a better attitude regarding how embarrassing and frustrating it is that I can't even fit in the maternity clothes at the stores. Again, I need my eyes on the Lord, not my silhouette.
>The GD stuff is SO scary, stressful and overwhelming. First, the strips are costly and this is not a good season for us to have costly expenses. Second, following the meal plan is costly. (see number one). Thirdly, it's so very stressful to eat just right at just the right times, exercise at the right times and not feel like it's consuming your whole brain. The perfectionist in me fears "failing" those tests, so just having to take them creates a world of stress that is really hard to work through.
So, today is a very emotional day. Writing it out helps, right? Maybe. We'll see. But, for now, at least I'm acknowledging my fears, doubts and disappointments. If I confess these sins of selfishness and self-pity, I'm closer to the freedom the Lord has for me, right? Pray for me to find that freedom and walk boldly in it.
Rested A LOT
Got some laundry put away
Winter clothes organized and sorted (but really, that was not my doing)
Online shopping (but not buying yet) for maternity clothes
Did well with my eating choices, though I didn't follow my plan exactly
Today's Not So Good Things:
Didn't follow my meal plan
Didn't eat enough
Didn't get any exercise
Didn't get enough sleep last night, so feeling awful
Winning the Crabby Mom award for the day (week?? sigh.)
I'm going to do this. I'm forcing myself to get back to daily journaling. Just knowing I have to report my day *should* motivate me to make it worth reporting. I hope.
So, here comes the personal stuff you may not care to read in happy blog land. I finally admitted today that I am not enjoying being pregnant right now. I feel ill, tired, unmotivated, irritable, lazy, achey, and HUGE. I'm battling a lot of negative feelings right now regarding how my body is changing. Remember those skirts I joyfully outgrew and put away? Yeah, they fit great now. :-/
Now, hear me out. I am THRILLED to have a new baby on the way. I am super excited to learn all about how this little one is growing and changing. I see newborns and get all giddy, knowing we'll have our own to snuggle when spring comes around. It's not the baby, it's the pregnancy and the changes and stresses that go with it that are getting me down.
Pray for me. That's what I truly need.
>I need to forget what is behind and strive for what lies ahead. I worked HARD last year and saw some fruit. I can work HARD this year and see fruit as well. Different fruit, but beautiful fruit all the same.
> I need to put my focus back on doing all of this that the Lord is lifted up, not that I can wear a certain size or not look like a tent in what I put on. I got rid of my entire maternity wardrobe after our youngest was born, anticipating that I would never fit in those clothes again. Sigh. So, I'm needing a full new wardrobe about now. With funds tight, I do have yet another chance to see the Lord provide, and I'm grateful. I just need a better attitude regarding how embarrassing and frustrating it is that I can't even fit in the maternity clothes at the stores. Again, I need my eyes on the Lord, not my silhouette.
>The GD stuff is SO scary, stressful and overwhelming. First, the strips are costly and this is not a good season for us to have costly expenses. Second, following the meal plan is costly. (see number one). Thirdly, it's so very stressful to eat just right at just the right times, exercise at the right times and not feel like it's consuming your whole brain. The perfectionist in me fears "failing" those tests, so just having to take them creates a world of stress that is really hard to work through.
So, today is a very emotional day. Writing it out helps, right? Maybe. We'll see. But, for now, at least I'm acknowledging my fears, doubts and disappointments. If I confess these sins of selfishness and self-pity, I'm closer to the freedom the Lord has for me, right? Pray for me to find that freedom and walk boldly in it.
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
The New Plan
Finally, my struggle with thinking about food hasn't prevented me from thinking about food! The last few weeks have been rough, but I think I'm starting to see the green fog lift.
I spent some time today going over my GD meal plans from last time. I've made some adjustments, taking out the yeast breads and getting my daily meals as close to our weekly menu as possible. I know I'll still need to adjust as the days go, but it's good to have a plan and direction on what to do next. I find that especially hard with food, since I really have other things occupying my brain at any given moment. ;)
So, Tracy's New and Improved GD Meal Plan is in place. Ready to print and post on the fridge for all the fam to see and hold me accountable. Along with this eating plan, I'm hoping to get back into my exercise routine. Morning 2 miles, Afternoon 1 mile, and evening 15 minute workout. That's going to be hard for me, and I'll definitely need the push.
The meal plan is based on a 2200 calorie diet. That's what the GD counselor recommended to me last go 'round. Honestly, it's going to be pretty hard for me to get that many calories in every day. Even as I wrote out the menu, I cringed looking at the amount of carbs I needed to include. I guess my thoughts right now are that I will likely increase the protein as I decrease the carbs a bit. Especially the starches, which do not help with my icky yeast issues I have going on right now. Blech.
My mw also told me she has some new research regarding a few ways to help support my blood sugar levels as we go through this pregnancy. I'm eager to hear what she's learned and add that to the plan.
So, if you are interested, click the link above to give my new menu a look-see. Feel free to leave any comments or questions. I'm always open to new ideas and great advice. :D
Also, please keep me in your prayers. Last time I needed to follow this plan for only 3 weeks. This time, I'm starting now, hoping to be as proactive as possible. I struggle in a big way having to think about food all the time like this. Add in the finger pricks and that is a sure recipe for S.T.R.E.S.S. Pray I would move forward in confidence, joy, and gratitude for what the Lord will accomplish during this season. Thanks!!
I spent some time today going over my GD meal plans from last time. I've made some adjustments, taking out the yeast breads and getting my daily meals as close to our weekly menu as possible. I know I'll still need to adjust as the days go, but it's good to have a plan and direction on what to do next. I find that especially hard with food, since I really have other things occupying my brain at any given moment. ;)
So, Tracy's New and Improved GD Meal Plan is in place. Ready to print and post on the fridge for all the fam to see and hold me accountable. Along with this eating plan, I'm hoping to get back into my exercise routine. Morning 2 miles, Afternoon 1 mile, and evening 15 minute workout. That's going to be hard for me, and I'll definitely need the push.
The meal plan is based on a 2200 calorie diet. That's what the GD counselor recommended to me last go 'round. Honestly, it's going to be pretty hard for me to get that many calories in every day. Even as I wrote out the menu, I cringed looking at the amount of carbs I needed to include. I guess my thoughts right now are that I will likely increase the protein as I decrease the carbs a bit. Especially the starches, which do not help with my icky yeast issues I have going on right now. Blech.
My mw also told me she has some new research regarding a few ways to help support my blood sugar levels as we go through this pregnancy. I'm eager to hear what she's learned and add that to the plan.
So, if you are interested, click the link above to give my new menu a look-see. Feel free to leave any comments or questions. I'm always open to new ideas and great advice. :D
Also, please keep me in your prayers. Last time I needed to follow this plan for only 3 weeks. This time, I'm starting now, hoping to be as proactive as possible. I struggle in a big way having to think about food all the time like this. Add in the finger pricks and that is a sure recipe for S.T.R.E.S.S. Pray I would move forward in confidence, joy, and gratitude for what the Lord will accomplish during this season. Thanks!!
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