Today's Good Things:
Bible Time - got some important insights there
Morning 15 done - even though I was sure I was skipping it today
Within my ETL calories today UNTIL dh brought me a surprise after dinner treat
Rested and got in about an hour of needed alone time to read
Today's Not So Good Things:
That after dinner treat. Sigh.
No afternoon 15
Did not go outside at all
Feeling fully maxed out emotionally/mentally
I started the day better, but still feeling overloaded. I had dh's directions to make this an easy day. Let the children have fun playing outside and give myself some time to read and rest. I had (lazily) decided I was going to skip my Morning 15. Then, while coming down the stairs, figured I would turn around and at least get my Up-Downs in. I did that, adding 2 reps instead of just one. (the most I've done so far!) After that, I figured I may as well get in my push-ups, too. Did that, adding in 1 rep. Well, since I got those done and was already on the floor, I did my sit-ups, adding 1. So, I was pretty happy that one good decision led to more.
After that, we enjoyed a day of relaxing, everyone doing a bit of what they liked. I didn't get in any more activity, so I felt very lazy. But, I did okay, calorie-wise. I didn't get in enough vegies and ate pretty lazy, but I still came in right on for my Eat To Lose maximum at dinner. I was feeling pretty happy about that when dh brought me a treat he got for me. A little tub of Hershey's Cappucino Crunch ice cream. ::drool::
The guy loves me. He could see I was not dealing well with things the last couple of days. He wanted to do something special for me. He wanted to show me he was thinking of me and get a little reward for working hard this week. Bless his heart.
I could have eaten just 1/4 of the tub. That was 1 serving...220 calories. I could have done that. I was going to do that. Just 1/4 off the top and then bring it back to the freezer, keeping it for a treat on another day. I could have done that. I should have done that.
But, well...then...maybe just half. I *had* had a hard day and I didn't want to make him feel bad, right? So, just half. That would be okay. (Really, I mean half of this thing is still way less than I would have eaten if we went out for ice cream. The whole container is smaller than a DQ Blizzard, which is our Super Treat when we are ever close to a DQ. ;) ) <---yep, that's what I was telling myself. ::hanging head::
Dh and I laughed and gasped over the amount of calories in a whole tub of the stuff. Imagine that!! Then we moved on to other subjects, talking through our day, while my spoon kept scooping.
Pretty soon, to the sound of my spoon scraping the cardboard bottom, dh asked, "Hey! Did you eat that WHOLE thing?!"
"Ummmm...yep."
1000 calories. Gone in One. Fell. Scoop. Ugh. I don't even want to think about what my blood sugar is doing right now. I am so thankful I do not need to monitor it right now. I ended up at the highest calorie level I think I've ever logged. Even above my maintenance calories. I've never done that. Yipes.
I'm going to suggest a new treat for next time. Something without calories. ;-)
Any suggestions?
Just to make you feel better, Tracy...my dh went out and got me a small fry and chocolate shake from McDonald's. Ugh - equally as bad, if not worse, than yours. And I really have no words of encouragement or advice as to what to treat yourself to instead. I really love me some junk. :o) Some people say take a bath, take a walk, paint your nails - phooey to all of that! Sometimes a girl just needs some CHOCOLATE!!
ReplyDeleteSo, you ate all the ice cream. Oh well. There is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. Forgive yourself! Get over it and move on to the next good thing. His mercies are new EVERY morning.
Very true, Sue. :-)
ReplyDeleteReally, I felt like I was getting a treat by getting to read and listen to some music in my room alone. But, dh likes to give treats so I'm going to try to keep brainstorming. Even some frozen fruit pops would be good. But, yeah, I know he was thinking of my love for chocolate and coffee. Who could say no to that combination?
The fries and shake sound yummy, too. ;) (don't get me started on my Mcd favorites. lol!)
DITTO SUE ABOUT THE CHOCOLATE!!!!!!!!! lol
ReplyDeleteI have absolutely no intention of giving up chocolate or treats....lol I won't even bother with 1/4 cup of ice cream either lol.I am very happy with keeping my treats limited to certain days but when those days come,I will enjoy them happily.! My dh is a treat giver too! He loves to buy me chocolate! It makes me feel loved because not only did he think of me to get the chocolate but he obviously loves me as I am.....Imagine if he bought me a bag of carrots or something.Then I would think that he wan't happy with my body and wanted me to lose weight! lol
That ice cream sounds wonderful! I am soooooo looking forward to my free night tonight! Oh and Tracy,my dh and I are absolutely addicted to chocolate and coffee.....:)
I say don't feel guilty at all! I don't think your husbands treats are *the* problem kwim? You are changing your lifestyle around and I know you wil have success.