I am working on a comic book!

This may seem silly but tonight while walking home I looked at my shadow and I thought "hey this is me, I am really a woman now..."

I had my meeting with my editors tonight. Going there was pretty intense. I was unsure about my makeup and my dress was too light, the wind blew heavily and messed really badly my hairs. All this combined made me super anxious and I started thinking that I was not passing, and once I started doubting myself I started panicking knowing that being self confident is what really make us pass or not. I nearly cried and I was really tempted to walk back home.

But I did not, I walked to the bar and I used the bathroom as a refuge. I tried to arrange my hairs but they were too tangled, I was really uncertain of what I looked like. My editors arrived and texted me. I took a deep breath and I joined them. I told them I was not feeling super well and I explained why. After a few minutes we started talking comic books and the meeting went very well. :)

I am glad that I stood by myself.

While walking home I was pretty emotional and when I saw my shadow I strongly felt who I am now.

I am super determined now to go to Expozine and to exist as a woman and a comic book author.

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19/10/2017

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First time in the Metro!

Yesterday I had to take the metro for the first time in "girl mode" to meet with some of my friends in a bar (Le Cheval Blanc).

I was super nervous but everything went well.

Walking outside at night now feel pretty natural and kind of normal.

But being in the metro made me feel quite uncomfortable, I felt super exposed standing still under the neon lights. Nothing bad happened but still it was not easy. But once I was outside I was super proud of myself for this little accomplishment.

I realize how much people are trained to not look around them or at other people (their phone helping for this).

My night in the bar was also my first time as myself in a public space. I was a bit nervous when I entered but once I meet my friends, I easily felt at ease. So a other tiny accomplishment! :)

This evening was super encouraging. But I also realized that I need to spend a lot more of money on clothing, makeup, etc and other transition stuff. But hey one step at a time. 

I am thinking of opening a new blog to talk about my more personal stuff. To keep the Chaudron focused on gaming art. But I will see...

New Blog and a coming out.

So some days ago I made my coming out as a trans women on G+ but I just realized that some readers of my blog dont follow me on G+, so I decided to post a quick update here. :3

This is not a new thing for me,  I was presenting myself as a woman back in 2006-2008 when I was blogging illustrations and comic strips. But I had a big break down and I went back in the closet for a long time, now I have decided to stop hiding and to reclaim my past. Now I go by the name of Evlyn.

(me in 2008)

Anyway, if you want to read about it and to follow me as my true self on G+ follow this link:
https://plus.google.com/111286359499923362582/posts/K7erjFZsYj3

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Also! I have started a new collective blog about making paper miniatures biomes!
You can check this out there: https://paperbiomes.blogspot.ca

I am not abandonning the Chromatic Cauldron but I want to focus back on drawing comic books and I am working on two print on demand compilations of the work I did in 2006-2008.

After that I want to try to submit a comic book project to a local editor.

I feel so much better since my coming out and I am drawing non-stop, so other projects are also on the go.

Oh yes I forgot! Following my friends advices I relaunched a Patreon page. This is simply a tip jar linked to no project, but I often post random drawings over there. You can support me if you feel like. Anyway, this is just a thing that exist:  https://www.patreon.com/evlynmoreau