Random ?

5 random things for the day.

• Extended short case, which I have just done today with Dr . Bashir. 
• I left my phone in my room for a day, and so restless thinking that I might have lost it. 
• I love my parents, and I love them a lot. I love my family and you too :)
• I should start saving! Going to be like a walking pieces of bones, for another 4 months!
• InsyaAllah, I will be going home for Deepavali :)

Hello. ;)

Hey you.

I kinda miss you.

:").

1 hari 1 resepi.

To you, thank you for the birthday gift. I knew you kept saying sorry for the delayed birthday gift, but I just want you to know that, getting a birthday wish from you was actually more than enough. :-*..

Here are the gifts.

Thank you! =) I know the first one was demanded by me, heee =p..


Well, as per saying, I have tried two recipes from the recipe book, 1 hari 1 resepi. There were the simple ones, since I didn't have so much time and plus, I didn't have enough ingredients, maybe next time I will try a complex one, ready with the ingredients.

Here it goes! All the ingredients and recipes will be explained in Malay since this is Malay food, and I am a bit comfortable in explaining things in Malay actually. Hope it would be fine. :)
1) The first one was sambal sardin. 


Ingredients:
Bahan A:
I tin kecil sardin
2 biji tomato
1 labu bawang besar
3sudu minyak masak
Garam secukup rasa.

Bahan B:
3 sudu cili boh ( half cooked)
separuh labu bawang besar ( dicincang)
3 ulas bawang putih (dicincang)

How to do:
1. Panaskan minyak masak didalam multi cooker, tumis bahan B hingga pecah minyak.
2. Masukkan sardin, bawang besar dan garam. (Boleh tambah sos tomato). Kemudian, kacau rata.
3. Masukkan tomato dan kacau rata.
4. Tutup api dan sedia dihidang. ;)

2) Kubis goreng

Ingredients:
500gm kubis manis
2 biji telur
1 labu bawang besar (dihiris)
3 ulas bawang putih (dihiris)
3 sudu minyak masak
Garam secukup rasa

How to do:
1.Kubis dipotong kecil dan dicuci bersih. Kemudian tuskan.
2. Panaskan minyak dan tumiskan bawang besar dan bawang putih sehingga wangi.
Masukkan kubis. Kacau rata.
3. Pecahkan telur di dalam kuali.
4. Kacau rata.
5. Rasakan masinnya.
6. Sedia dihidang.

I know, it seems so simple, but that's only I could help cooking myself, for the busy life as medical student, plus not much ingredients I had during the time. I will try to cook something a bit complex later. Hee. Till now, salam.

Block

Tomorrow is the day, the block test. Medicine block test. I just hope everything goes well, even I know I didn’t complete the readings yet. I am tired already. I just hope that I can tahan for another at least one hour. Medical student is like this, full of hard work, busy in a day but at the end of the day, we are all seemed very lethargic and tired. Running here and there in the ward, clerking case, doing examination, being scolded by nurse, m.o, h.o, consultant and even being scolded by the patient for disturbing their sleeps are actually our routines. How can we say no? Being in a 4th year, is a bit near to the end of the journey. I just have to be strong, keep my spirits up high, ready for the next battle. I really pray that I can face all of these very well, I really hope so. Amin. Amin. 

Empty little box

Salam. It's been a while since I blogged last time. Sorry, I am a bit busy with the new posting, Medicine and plus, I am the group leader. So many things to deal with, so many people to be tolerated to, and so many stuffs left unsettled.

Sometimes, at the end of the day, I feel like running away.. Running away from all the hectic medical student life, tired of all the people who keep look down on me, tired of all the things I learn but I keep forgetting, tired of all the feelings I buried deep down my heart, but nobody really cares or if they do, they can't do anything at last. Being a doctor, is what I wish once upon a time when I was a child. When my parents asked what would I be when I grew up, or when my teacher asked, I immediately said that I want to be a doctor without a pause between the question. Even when I read my profile in my friends' book, my ambition was a doctor. I don't know why I prefer that career those time, although I didn't have any of my family who was a doctor, or soon to be a doctor. Maybe mass media played an important roles to all of these.

Now, when it is so near to the exam, I keep thinking that, can I pursue to the next level, can I? I'm not a distinction, great great student, I study but I sometimes, forget what I already learnt, and I'm not a good student, bright one. I become restless in the wards, still learning on how to take good history, being condemned by the lecturers for the simple mistakes is a routine. What I can do now, pray hard and work hard. :(.

Still, I feel like I want to run away, away from here, away from everyone else, where nobody can find me. I know I burden people so much, especially my parents, and you. I know. I'm of no good, I demand a lot, really a lot. I know, they always get annoyed to me, I know. They never miss me, do they? :(. Demanding things for a birthday isn't a good thing, Nurul Fitrilina. Who do you think you are? A princess? Or a celebrity whom being love by everyone? I am like an empty little box who is ready to be thrown out from any place. I am like that, true story. To vomit out what I say, I never do that. Because if I do, I just add up the burden to them. Don't dream of a good treat, good gift, from them, because you know you are nothing to them, really. You are nothing. You are meaningless to them.

Hello there, wind, or the rain,
Bring me away from here,
Let me disappeared, with no trace,
Let me fly and gone and never come back,
The existence of me  isn't a dream for others,
They never care, never even look up for me,
Yes, I am, an empty little box,
Ready to be kicked out.

=(