Doctor has no life is it?

Salam Ramadhan. Hey, all of a sudden just now, I have this thought about what am I gonna be a year later? Am I going to be a good doctor who treats patients well? Or am I gonna regret of getting into medical school? Or am I gonna complain about every single things that a doctor will face like lack of sleep, lack of nice food, and tonnes of works to be done? At this point of time, I don't have any idea what doctor I will become. Actually, LESS THAN A YEAR, I will be a doctor and I will be having Dr. title in front of my name. Dr. Nurul Fitrilina Bt Mustapa. What kind of doctor I will become, only Allah knows. I just hope and pray that I can be a very good doctor, never put a sigh in everything I do, keep on remembering THE ONE up there even in a busy day and do this job with an open heart and maintain the honesty. I know it's going to be hard, in fact if, Allah's will and I will be getting married even before housemanship, and by the time I will become a doctor, I will have to sacrifice a lot. Despite of busy works at the hospital with the on-call and all, I have to take care of my husband, make sure he gets what he needs, loves him and never tired of my responsibility. And again if Allah's will, if I get pregnant during housemanship too, a lot of things I have to bear. With my tired body with the baby kicking inside, I still have to take care of the patients too, never ever regret of what has destined.

Ya Allah, I know it is going to be hard, based on seniors' experiences I have seen, what they have put in their facebook statuses telling about how busy everyday is and how regret they entered medical school before, I can never give up. please Ya Allah give me strength and courage, to bear with this, and to hold this responsibilities as a doctor, as a Muslim in a good way possible, not only me but of course to my future husband too(insyaALLAH) so that we can be strong facing the hard time in future about the busy life as doctors and your slaves. I know, in fact, even now I have to get used to this busy life, make sure I don't mix the emotions with the works and I really have to do that, as I am known person who is so emotionally attached.

May Allah ease our journey, to my future husband and my friends too, so that we can be very good Muslim doctors in future to help ummah. Amin :)

Doctor :)

Being trapped in a place called destine,

The little steps that curved on the muddy road

It sticks but yet no turning back to a finer one

It's not a halfway journey it's more than it

Maybe about a little step more then we reach the peak

My mind suddenly thinks about how I got here

With childhood ambition and awesome support that preceeded

And those times when I was confused

Either here or there, either this or that,

The decision was tough, yet undescribable fate across it

and along with it, tears of joy and confusion followed

They were there, they wiped the tears that shed, and they never go

And yes, here I am upon all the obstacles that have been filtered

One phase ended, and the other phase continues

It's hard, yes it is, with no second thought or doubt

To face the screams, shouts they gave when I was on the wrong path

To stay wide awake learning new terms and knowledge from a zillion words in the book

To practise touching with care and examining the unfortunate one to heal them 

To decide what should I do to treat them well

And yes, it is my duty, our duty and responsibility,

as we took the oath in sincerity and modesty

To correct what's wrong any means possible 

To relieve what's hurt the most

But, the power of healing of all is to the Almighty we shall seek

Above all. 

Less than a year, I may hold big and grand responsibility 

And to those who afford to face it shall face it

And may He guide our way, and ease us, 

To continue this good deed, till the last breath of ours. 

And yes, this is a story of a doctor, insyaAllah :)s