Soul Boot Camp

Sometimes you need one.
A Boot Camp, that is.
It sounds hard...and like it will require a lot of discipline.
But, that's exactly what I need right now,
And so I got myself enrolled.

But, this isn't just any Boot Camp.
This is SOUL Boot Camp.
Body + Spirit = Soul
Laurel + needing to change = Boot Camp

And interesting that I woke up this morning, my first day of Boot Camp, having awakened from a dream about shoes (get it? boots = shoes?)

EFast got me into interpretting my dreams (though I mocked her terribly at first). It's so slick that if I awake in the middle of the night, having had an odd one (a dream, that is), I can turn over, grab my BB and go right to the dream interpretation page (ALMOST as good as being in Jail with Joseph in Egypt!)

"In general, shoes represent your approach to life...also represents your convictions about your beliefs".

So, what was my "shoe dream", you ask?

Well, in my dream (at a mall, be we won't interpret that part), I had taken off my shoes while talking to a boy (he who sends flowers on Tuesdays).
"Not wearing any shoes, represents your playful attitudes and relaxed, carefree frame of mind. You have a firm grasp and good understanding on a situation."
(hey, that sounds good...and in this one aspect of my life, I am oddly relaxed...FINALLY relaxed.)

But, then, I forgot them...the shoes, that is...didn't realize it until I was leaving the mall.
"If you forget your shoes, then it suggests that you are leaving restraints behind you. You are refusing to conform to some idea or attitude." OH, there is so much to say about THAT.
I have some "ideas" (i.e. beliefs) about myself and my life that are no longer serving me well (maybe they never have, but you aren't my therapist...and so you can't make me talk about that) but they've molded and shaped who I am...for good and for bad...and have defined me and what I've done.
But, since some of those ideas are no longer serving me well, WELL, I'm ready to leave them behind...oh so ready.

That wasn't the end of the dream, though. You see, I went back to find my shoes, and I couldn't find he who sends flowers on Tuesdays (perhaps not relevant) OR the shoes (me thinks very relevant). "If you dream that you lose your shoes, then it suggests that you may be searching for your identity and finding/exploring who you are."

And that, my friends, is Boot Camp in a nutshell. I'm in it, rather intensely, for the next few weeks and thought I might as well blog about it. It's a little bit of everything and completely self-imposed. But, clearly, I'm ready. I mean, I dreamt about shoes!

So, I'm in.
In like flin.
And I suspect, that there will be things I'll do along the way that are hard and that I don't want to do....and there will be things along the way that make me learn things I haven't wanted to learn.
But, I suspect that's the point of Boot Camp.
Especially Soul Boot Camp.

The planets have aligned the last few weeks and I can't deny it any longer.
It's all been stirring inside me since the beginning of the year and slowly but surely I've been preparing to take a step...no, a LEAP...forward.
Yeah, it's time.

It's my first day of camp.
Gotta get my boots on.