I'm singing the Lord's praises this morning!
Yesterday, I was able to resist the amazing smell of that ooey-gooey pizza served at the children's cast party. I brought along my salad and crunched-crunched-crunched my way through lunch.
I confess, I did nibble the half-crust that the baby left on her plate.
I'm tellin' ya', it was HARD. I went through the pizza line a few times getting the little girls what they wanted. Then I sat there watching the leftovers just sit and call my name. I couldn't believe how difficult it was to avoid eating that food. I ended up moving to another side of the room so I couldn't see it as readily. David left altogether to go get a coffee. The chips and pizza were too strong of a force. I'm proud of him for doing what he had to do.
And, this morning, I'm so thankful to the Lord. Actually, I wish I had thought to pray for strength while in the battle. I need to think harder that this is a battle for my soul as well as my stomach. I won on the stomach end. The scale was down another .7 today.
My soul? I missed the opportunity to commune with the Lord and see Him at work giving me strength and power to resist. He DID do those things, I just missed seeing him do it because I was so focused on the battle.
Help me be attentive to you, Lord. Help me see that the temptations are there for the very purpose of driving me to you. Give me a heart that is sensitive to your work in my life even in the midst of a foolish thing like a pizza party.
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Tuesday, December 3, 2013
Monday, December 2, 2013
Three Years
Three years since I started this blog, almost to the date.
Three years I've been learning and journaling and fretting and fussing and praying and crying and sweating and juicing and eating and fasting and nursing and losing and gaining and birthing and testing and injecting and reading and watching the Lord do a work.
Three years and today I am down exactly 50 pounds from where I started. It doesn't take most people three years to lose that amount of weight, but I spent way more than three years gaining way more than that.
Truth is, I've lost 43 pounds of that 50 in just the last 5 months. Truth is, I spent 2.5 years working at it with other methods and lost about 20 pounds. Truth is, I nursed a baby, grew another baby, and nursed that second baby all during those three years.
This isn't your typical weight-loss adventure.
I'm taking stock today on how far I've come these past three years. I may have started out slow with a lot of bumps and stumbling. But, all the while I was learning, growing, scales of sin and habits of addiction being peeled away. Every small step has led to this big leap to health and freedom from those areas that had me in bondage before.
Shedding 50 pounds doesn't hold a candle to shedding the chains of sin that kept me there!
Three years I've been learning and journaling and fretting and fussing and praying and crying and sweating and juicing and eating and fasting and nursing and losing and gaining and birthing and testing and injecting and reading and watching the Lord do a work.
Three years and today I am down exactly 50 pounds from where I started. It doesn't take most people three years to lose that amount of weight, but I spent way more than three years gaining way more than that.
Truth is, I've lost 43 pounds of that 50 in just the last 5 months. Truth is, I spent 2.5 years working at it with other methods and lost about 20 pounds. Truth is, I nursed a baby, grew another baby, and nursed that second baby all during those three years.
This isn't your typical weight-loss adventure.
I'm taking stock today on how far I've come these past three years. I may have started out slow with a lot of bumps and stumbling. But, all the while I was learning, growing, scales of sin and habits of addiction being peeled away. Every small step has led to this big leap to health and freedom from those areas that had me in bondage before.
Shedding 50 pounds doesn't hold a candle to shedding the chains of sin that kept me there!
Tuesday, November 26, 2013
Looking Back
So, this past weekend we pulled out some home movies to watch. Of course it's so precious to see the children in their tiny little form watching birthdays, Christmases, and births of babies happen before our eyes. Love that.
This time, though, I really saw Me. I saw a woman that has been overweight...heck, I'll just say it, OBESE for a good 15 years or more. I saw a woman that was loving her family, making great memories, but worn out, tired, and struggling to keep up with the memories being made. In fact, a lot of the reason those movies got made was because I was sitting out on the sidelines of family life.
I heard my children gasp as they saw my oversized body move across the screen. I cringed when I saw the rolls and the way I struggled to just move or carry a baby in my belly with all the extra weight. I grieve that I spent those years hurting myself and putting those unborn babies at risk now that I know it was simply the result of my choices and ignorance regarding my food choices and habits.
Today, I am a smaller size than I've been probably since I had my first baby. I have more energy. I think more clearly. I struggle so much less emotionally and hormonally. It truly is amazing.
And, one thing that leaves me grieving is that for the last 5-6 years of that time I believed I was eating for health. I was following the *best* advice. We were eating meat and dairy based whole foods. We eliminated all processed foods and sugar. I loaded our plates with plenty of butter, bacon drippings, olive oil. We even at BEANS several times a week, for crying out loud!
I made so many foods from scratch, I could have given Mrs. Ingalls a run for her money. (okay, well..not really.) I had a huge bin of natural supplements for omegas, stabilizing blood sugar, supporting hormone swings and depression, fighting illness.
I was Doing The Right Things. Everyone told me so. My OBs, my midwives, my mainstream medical friends, my natural crunchy momma friends. I was meticulous about my GD diet plan and I was the pride of the diabetes counselors.
And there I sat. Obese and growing Obese-er. Diabetic. Gall Bladder disease. High cholesterol. Depression. Insomnia. Thyroid symptoms and concerns. Chronic fatigue. Chronic headaches. Chronic yeast infections and mastitis. Chronic misery.
And today, here I stand. FIVE MONTHS of replacing meat, dairy and nutrient-deficient fats by pouring simple, nutrient-rich plants into my body and I am a completely new person! I'll type it again....FIVE MONTHS!!!
Forty pounds - GONE! (after 15 YEARS of trying to lose but only gaining, I am NO LONGER OBESE!! and well on my way out of Overweight.)
Blood sugar symptoms and issues vanished.
Cholesterol levels perfect.
Instead of 3-4 days per week of headaches that sent me to bed for a full day, I have one minor headache each month the day before my cycle begins. Nothing I need to medicate at all. Huge difference.
Cycles are completely pain free. No cramping, no headaches, no fatigue, minimal bleeding for minimal period of time. I barely know it's even there.
Yeast infections and symptoms have disappeared.
Energy! I can DO the work the Lord has called me to do.
Addiction free. No more reliance on foods for good feelings. No more detox symptoms (headaches, shakes, blood sugar swings, hunger pangs) creating the cycle that fed the addictions to caffeine, sugar, salt, and fat.
And, most importantly, freedom from the bondage of my sinful habits. No more choosing food to celebrate, reward, comfort, appease, release stress, hide from my struggles.
I'm free from my emotions and the power food had over me to abuse those emotions.
All because I was willing to challenge my pride and my idea that "I could NEVER eat like THAT!" and just TRY it for a few weeks to see what could happen. I can't help but pour out my heart of thanks to the Lord for so clearly guiding me when, finally, I seriously prayed and asked.
I look at that woman in those movies. I know her heart. It's the same heart as the one I have today longing to honor the Lord and searching for answers on the right way to do it. But today, this woman, she is free of the baggage that all those years of imprisonment to food, addiction, ignorance, and sinful food habits brought. That freedom means I am released in so many other areas in my life as well.
This time, though, I really saw Me. I saw a woman that has been overweight...heck, I'll just say it, OBESE for a good 15 years or more. I saw a woman that was loving her family, making great memories, but worn out, tired, and struggling to keep up with the memories being made. In fact, a lot of the reason those movies got made was because I was sitting out on the sidelines of family life.
I heard my children gasp as they saw my oversized body move across the screen. I cringed when I saw the rolls and the way I struggled to just move or carry a baby in my belly with all the extra weight. I grieve that I spent those years hurting myself and putting those unborn babies at risk now that I know it was simply the result of my choices and ignorance regarding my food choices and habits.
Today, I am a smaller size than I've been probably since I had my first baby. I have more energy. I think more clearly. I struggle so much less emotionally and hormonally. It truly is amazing.
And, one thing that leaves me grieving is that for the last 5-6 years of that time I believed I was eating for health. I was following the *best* advice. We were eating meat and dairy based whole foods. We eliminated all processed foods and sugar. I loaded our plates with plenty of butter, bacon drippings, olive oil. We even at BEANS several times a week, for crying out loud!
I made so many foods from scratch, I could have given Mrs. Ingalls a run for her money. (okay, well..not really.) I had a huge bin of natural supplements for omegas, stabilizing blood sugar, supporting hormone swings and depression, fighting illness.
I was Doing The Right Things. Everyone told me so. My OBs, my midwives, my mainstream medical friends, my natural crunchy momma friends. I was meticulous about my GD diet plan and I was the pride of the diabetes counselors.
And there I sat. Obese and growing Obese-er. Diabetic. Gall Bladder disease. High cholesterol. Depression. Insomnia. Thyroid symptoms and concerns. Chronic fatigue. Chronic headaches. Chronic yeast infections and mastitis. Chronic misery.
And today, here I stand. FIVE MONTHS of replacing meat, dairy and nutrient-deficient fats by pouring simple, nutrient-rich plants into my body and I am a completely new person! I'll type it again....FIVE MONTHS!!!
Forty pounds - GONE! (after 15 YEARS of trying to lose but only gaining, I am NO LONGER OBESE!! and well on my way out of Overweight.)
Blood sugar symptoms and issues vanished.
Cholesterol levels perfect.
Instead of 3-4 days per week of headaches that sent me to bed for a full day, I have one minor headache each month the day before my cycle begins. Nothing I need to medicate at all. Huge difference.
Cycles are completely pain free. No cramping, no headaches, no fatigue, minimal bleeding for minimal period of time. I barely know it's even there.
Yeast infections and symptoms have disappeared.
Energy! I can DO the work the Lord has called me to do.
Addiction free. No more reliance on foods for good feelings. No more detox symptoms (headaches, shakes, blood sugar swings, hunger pangs) creating the cycle that fed the addictions to caffeine, sugar, salt, and fat.
And, most importantly, freedom from the bondage of my sinful habits. No more choosing food to celebrate, reward, comfort, appease, release stress, hide from my struggles.
I'm free from my emotions and the power food had over me to abuse those emotions.
All because I was willing to challenge my pride and my idea that "I could NEVER eat like THAT!" and just TRY it for a few weeks to see what could happen. I can't help but pour out my heart of thanks to the Lord for so clearly guiding me when, finally, I seriously prayed and asked.
I look at that woman in those movies. I know her heart. It's the same heart as the one I have today longing to honor the Lord and searching for answers on the right way to do it. But today, this woman, she is free of the baggage that all those years of imprisonment to food, addiction, ignorance, and sinful food habits brought. That freedom means I am released in so many other areas in my life as well.
"Jesus answered them, 'Truly, truly, I say to you, everyone who commits sin is the slave of sin. "The slave does not remain in the house forever; the son does remain forever. "So if the Son makes you free, you will be free indeed.' "
John 8:34-36
OH What a difference a year makes!!
Fall 2012
Fall 2013
No more sitting on the sidelines for me!
Friday, November 8, 2013
RIGHT on the Line!
Can you believe I am RIGHT on the line for Obese?????!!!! 30.00 BMI. I just can't tip it off that edge for the life of me!
I keep saying TOMORROW it'll happen. Then it goes up or doesn't come down enough or some crazy kind of thing.
Yet, I am pretty excited to be THAT close!
And just think, in my birthday suit, I'm NOT obese at all. :)
So, here's to tomorrow and to the hope of being Overweight. :D
I keep saying TOMORROW it'll happen. Then it goes up or doesn't come down enough or some crazy kind of thing.
Yet, I am pretty excited to be THAT close!
And just think, in my birthday suit, I'm NOT obese at all. :)
So, here's to tomorrow and to the hope of being Overweight. :D
Thursday, October 10, 2013
New Decade in Sight!
The scale was down in a big way this morning!! I have 3 more pounds to go before I reach the next decade. And, only 7 more pounds to go before I am out of The Land of Obese!!!
Whoever thought it would be so exciting to be Overweight. ;)
So, our experiment this week proved successful. Each week David and I go out for date. We typically scrounge around to find a place to eat out that fits our Eat To Live choices. Often, we find something that works, but still has something that isn't ideal. The biggest offenders would be the salt, oil, and white carbs.
This week we decided to skip the meal out and just grab some kind of quick leftovers before we went dancing. (YES! We are taking square dancing lessons!! How nerdy is that?! Super, silly fun!) So, after skipping the restaurant food, I stepped on the scale this morning and saw almost a full pound gone! Clearly, those *cheat* nights with fried mushrooms or salty chips do make a difference.
I don't mind giving them up to see that scale move. I just wish there was SOMEWHERE to go for a nice, relaxing meal together that didn't harm the body. I sure do like having someone else prepare a meal and deal with the messy kitchen once in a while.
Today is a crazily busy day. We have a mad rush to prep food and house before I head out for lessons and shopping with the children. I am going to a different grocery store today, hoping to find some new food items. Especially looking for some variations of the Ezekiel Bread I've been getting for the children. Also planning to stop at an apple orchard for a big bag of drops. I'm not sure when I'll have time to process them, but I can't pass up the price!
Whoever thought it would be so exciting to be Overweight. ;)
So, our experiment this week proved successful. Each week David and I go out for date. We typically scrounge around to find a place to eat out that fits our Eat To Live choices. Often, we find something that works, but still has something that isn't ideal. The biggest offenders would be the salt, oil, and white carbs.
This week we decided to skip the meal out and just grab some kind of quick leftovers before we went dancing. (YES! We are taking square dancing lessons!! How nerdy is that?! Super, silly fun!) So, after skipping the restaurant food, I stepped on the scale this morning and saw almost a full pound gone! Clearly, those *cheat* nights with fried mushrooms or salty chips do make a difference.
I don't mind giving them up to see that scale move. I just wish there was SOMEWHERE to go for a nice, relaxing meal together that didn't harm the body. I sure do like having someone else prepare a meal and deal with the messy kitchen once in a while.
Today is a crazily busy day. We have a mad rush to prep food and house before I head out for lessons and shopping with the children. I am going to a different grocery store today, hoping to find some new food items. Especially looking for some variations of the Ezekiel Bread I've been getting for the children. Also planning to stop at an apple orchard for a big bag of drops. I'm not sure when I'll have time to process them, but I can't pass up the price!
Wednesday, October 2, 2013
Do-Si-Do!
Tonight we headed out for an interesting date.
First stop: A local health fair. We had them check our cholesterol and blood sugars. I think we did pretty well. :)
First stop: A local health fair. We had them check our cholesterol and blood sugars. I think we did pretty well. :)
We also spent some time sharing with others about our adventure moving to a plant-based diet. It's so great to have such a thriving testimony to share. There's just no denying how much our lives have changed for the better by simply changing what we put in our mouths! Just LOOK at us. There's no denying life is SO much better!!
Then we headed over for dinner at Dos Amigos. Vegan Chili burrito in a whole wheat tortilla. Yum. The chips were not so smart with the salt and oil. I'll have to make sure they skip those next time.
After our sidewalk dinner on a gorgeous fall evening, we headed over for our first square dancing lesson. Oh my, what fun!! The people there were amazingly friendly and fun to be with. We worked hard trying to learn the calls, but spent even more time laughing at ourselves! By the middle of the evening, we were sweating. I couldn't believe that we could work that hard learning some basic steps. I think we're going to really enjoy having such a great way to get out and have fun this winter.
We've been getting in our walks in the morning, which is fantastic! Still going strong with the 6 week plan. I chopped up some broccoli, cauliflower, and carrots in the food processor the other day. Those are going great on my head of romaine for lunch every day. I found a great creamy Italian dressing from theprotectivediet.com website. It uses chia seeds to thicken it and make it creamy. Really great flavor, too!
All in all, life is great and I'm plugging along. Down a pound so far this week. :) REALLY close to that 30 pounds down mark. Maybe tomorrow?? Maybe not. Those chips I had at dinner may hold me back a little yet.
Monday, August 5, 2013
Back to School
We're back to a school schedule after a two week break.
I kept the meals simple and familiar so we could focus on getting into a routine.
Breakfast: oatmeal, fruit, and pb for the children, Breakfast bowl for me
Lunch: Taco lentils, served on a bed of spinach for me (we adjusted the recipe to add more lentils and less brown rice)
Dinner: Romaine and spinach topped with a mix of onion, corn, garlic, black beans, mushrooms and salsa
I took the children to the lake this afternoon. We brought along peanuts, carrot sticks, and peaches. One thing I really like about nutritarian focus is how easy snacks are. We often would have these for snacks before, but not it's just so nice to have something easy and simple with all the new meal prep I do lately.
I didn't get in any exercise today aside from running around to various stores before we went to the lake. I'm on my second day of my cycle and feeling tired. Yesterday I had a bit of a headache after church. That's it, though. No cramping at all. I really am starting to believe that eating plant-strong is making a big difference in this area.
Oh, I weighed in this morning and was down again. That was a nice way to start the week. :)
I kept the meals simple and familiar so we could focus on getting into a routine.
Breakfast: oatmeal, fruit, and pb for the children, Breakfast bowl for me
Lunch: Taco lentils, served on a bed of spinach for me (we adjusted the recipe to add more lentils and less brown rice)
Dinner: Romaine and spinach topped with a mix of onion, corn, garlic, black beans, mushrooms and salsa
I took the children to the lake this afternoon. We brought along peanuts, carrot sticks, and peaches. One thing I really like about nutritarian focus is how easy snacks are. We often would have these for snacks before, but not it's just so nice to have something easy and simple with all the new meal prep I do lately.
I didn't get in any exercise today aside from running around to various stores before we went to the lake. I'm on my second day of my cycle and feeling tired. Yesterday I had a bit of a headache after church. That's it, though. No cramping at all. I really am starting to believe that eating plant-strong is making a big difference in this area.
Oh, I weighed in this morning and was down again. That was a nice way to start the week. :)
Friday, July 12, 2013
Those Jeans
You know those jeans I bought a couple of years ago? The ones I got because my skirts were way too loose and I rewarded myself with some new jeans. Yeah, those ones that were still a tiny bit tight and buttoning them held me in. Then, a couple of months ago, they were WAY too tight and I had to do the Squat and stretch thing and wear a really long, baggy shirt if I wanted to wear them.
Okay, you don't remember, but I DO.
Yesterday, while wearing those same jeans, I realized something.
I can pull them off and on WITHOUT undoing the zipper and button at all.
How's that for a Non Scale Victory? :D
Okay, you don't remember, but I DO.
Yesterday, while wearing those same jeans, I realized something.
I can pull them off and on WITHOUT undoing the zipper and button at all.
How's that for a Non Scale Victory? :D
Monday, July 8, 2013
Well, Waddya Know?!
I was just posting on how this cycle has been quite mild for a first pp cycle. I remembered sharing this article on the blog some years back. As I read it again, I can see that I am eating exactly how they recommend. Maybe, just maybe, that has something to do with how well I'm doing, physically, right now.
Emotionally, I have some room to grow. Sigh.
Emotionally, I have some room to grow. Sigh.
Wednesday, June 19, 2013
Daniel Fast - Day Ten
June 19, 2013
Day Ten
Here it is. Day Ten. Sort of a milestone with this fast since it's based on Daniel's fast in which he asked permission to eat only vegetables and drink only water for 10 days and then be tested to see if he and his friends were healthy. They were found to be stronger and healthier than the others who were eating the king's choicest foods. So, of course, I should be examining whether I feel healthier and stronger than I did eating "choicer" foods.
I definitely feel healthier than I did last week. I'm grateful for that.
Based on what I'm accomplishing every day compared to my pre-fast days, I MUST have a greater amount of energy pouring through my body. I feel physically tired every night when I go to bed. Yet, I'm not feeling as emotionally drained as I was before. I am not battling irritability like I was, either.
I'm also starting to feel like this is more of a way of life than just a fast. I mean, I still think of something I'd enjoy eating or drinking that isn't allowed every so often and think, "Well, I'm glad the fast has an end." ;) Still, we're finding a lot of new ways to incorporate vegetables and fruits into our menu that will stick. I'm learning some great things about how I eat, how much I eat, and I'm definitely planning to keep this focus on vegetables and fruits as the core of our diet when this is over.
Today started late for me. I was up with the baby last night and then could NOT make myself sleep. I'm not sure why I was so restless other than my brain wouldn't stop fussing. We were late almost all day long with meals and work and such. Didn't get near what I was hoping to get done done, but I am very happy with what was accomplished.
Bedrooms are all clean and mopped along with the third floor stairway and the second floor hallway. Smells so good. Two large baskets of laundry are sorted and put away. Shoe bins are sorted and ready for storage. Clothing bins were stored away in the attic. School happened and happened well. Three healthy meals with clean up for dessert. ;) A couple more loads of laundry through the machines. A short break with fruit smoothies made by my Benjy-boy this afternoon. Then we all hit the garden beds again, planting some flowers and building up two more flower beds. I had SUCH a nice time with my children working on that today.
I really thought I was too tired for anything, but I was able to tidy up this evening, clean the kitchen, unbury my bed tonight from the work I was doing with sorting clothes and shoes, and help my oldest with a quilting project she started. I know you didn't hear about this, but take it from my absence over the last year or so, I was NEVER getting this amount of work done on a daily basis before.
It could very well be that refraining from the foods that I was eating is helping me feel less slug-like. It could be that the healthier foods I'm eating right now are giving me a great boost of energy. It is very likely that the fast from my internet social scene is making a huge impact on how I spend my time and who I spend it with. Again, this time of refocus, rebooting my body, and renewing relationships has been a treasure I am ever so grateful for. I'm a little afraid of what happens when it ends. Yet, I know the Lord has a plan. He will lead and guide by His word. I'm so grateful.
Day Ten
Here it is. Day Ten. Sort of a milestone with this fast since it's based on Daniel's fast in which he asked permission to eat only vegetables and drink only water for 10 days and then be tested to see if he and his friends were healthy. They were found to be stronger and healthier than the others who were eating the king's choicest foods. So, of course, I should be examining whether I feel healthier and stronger than I did eating "choicer" foods.
I definitely feel healthier than I did last week. I'm grateful for that.
Based on what I'm accomplishing every day compared to my pre-fast days, I MUST have a greater amount of energy pouring through my body. I feel physically tired every night when I go to bed. Yet, I'm not feeling as emotionally drained as I was before. I am not battling irritability like I was, either.
I'm also starting to feel like this is more of a way of life than just a fast. I mean, I still think of something I'd enjoy eating or drinking that isn't allowed every so often and think, "Well, I'm glad the fast has an end." ;) Still, we're finding a lot of new ways to incorporate vegetables and fruits into our menu that will stick. I'm learning some great things about how I eat, how much I eat, and I'm definitely planning to keep this focus on vegetables and fruits as the core of our diet when this is over.
Today started late for me. I was up with the baby last night and then could NOT make myself sleep. I'm not sure why I was so restless other than my brain wouldn't stop fussing. We were late almost all day long with meals and work and such. Didn't get near what I was hoping to get done done, but I am very happy with what was accomplished.
Bedrooms are all clean and mopped along with the third floor stairway and the second floor hallway. Smells so good. Two large baskets of laundry are sorted and put away. Shoe bins are sorted and ready for storage. Clothing bins were stored away in the attic. School happened and happened well. Three healthy meals with clean up for dessert. ;) A couple more loads of laundry through the machines. A short break with fruit smoothies made by my Benjy-boy this afternoon. Then we all hit the garden beds again, planting some flowers and building up two more flower beds. I had SUCH a nice time with my children working on that today.
I really thought I was too tired for anything, but I was able to tidy up this evening, clean the kitchen, unbury my bed tonight from the work I was doing with sorting clothes and shoes, and help my oldest with a quilting project she started. I know you didn't hear about this, but take it from my absence over the last year or so, I was NEVER getting this amount of work done on a daily basis before.
It could very well be that refraining from the foods that I was eating is helping me feel less slug-like. It could be that the healthier foods I'm eating right now are giving me a great boost of energy. It is very likely that the fast from my internet social scene is making a huge impact on how I spend my time and who I spend it with. Again, this time of refocus, rebooting my body, and renewing relationships has been a treasure I am ever so grateful for. I'm a little afraid of what happens when it ends. Yet, I know the Lord has a plan. He will lead and guide by His word. I'm so grateful.
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Another progress report
Today has me 2.5 inches down. That's cool.
However, I'm unsure about measuring and don't really trust it. I feel like I need a sharpie marker to mark where I measured from last time. Seems like a lot of room for user error. At least with me. I'm going to look around for some info on getting the most accurate measurements.
Still happy to see a tiny little part of me disappeared. I didn't want that part anyways. ;)
However, I'm unsure about measuring and don't really trust it. I feel like I need a sharpie marker to mark where I measured from last time. Seems like a lot of room for user error. At least with me. I'm going to look around for some info on getting the most accurate measurements.
Still happy to see a tiny little part of me disappeared. I didn't want that part anyways. ;)
Monday, May 28, 2012
Monday, May 28 2012 - New Start
Today's Good Things:
Took some extra time to nap on my husband's last day off of work
Ate my oatmeal this morning ;)
Did some kitchen clean up, laundry chores, and sweeping around the house today
Today's Not So Good Things:
Cookies for dessert. Sigh. (there are NO more cookies in the house anymore, thankfully)
Massive headache and neckpain since yesterday. Ouch.
So, I got on the scale today. Drumroll please.......209lbs.
I'm down 19 pounds from my last OB weigh-in!! I canNOT believe it! They said I was heavy on fluid and I guess they were right! My lowest point of weight loss before I got pregnant was 206, but I had gained back a couple pounds by the time I had a positive test. I can't believe I'm back at my starting point again. What a gift!!
So, now I've got another great source of motivation and I'm so happy. That mountain I climbed doesn't have to be climbed again. I can start where I left off and keep pressing on. I do, however, need to rebuild the strength that I lost while dealing with my pregnancy. That's going to be a challenge, for sure. But I already know I will feel so good for doing it.
I've set my weight loss goal for 1.5 pounds down each week. I don't know how that will work these first few weeks when I'm not getting in any real exercise, but it's worth aiming for. I'm off to work on my daily/weekly goals and be sure my long term goals are still in line.
I'm excited to get back into reading everyone else's progress and joining in on the encouragement towards you ladies. :)
Took some extra time to nap on my husband's last day off of work
Ate my oatmeal this morning ;)
Did some kitchen clean up, laundry chores, and sweeping around the house today
Today's Not So Good Things:
Cookies for dessert. Sigh. (there are NO more cookies in the house anymore, thankfully)
Massive headache and neckpain since yesterday. Ouch.
So, I got on the scale today. Drumroll please.......209lbs.
I'm down 19 pounds from my last OB weigh-in!! I canNOT believe it! They said I was heavy on fluid and I guess they were right! My lowest point of weight loss before I got pregnant was 206, but I had gained back a couple pounds by the time I had a positive test. I can't believe I'm back at my starting point again. What a gift!!
So, now I've got another great source of motivation and I'm so happy. That mountain I climbed doesn't have to be climbed again. I can start where I left off and keep pressing on. I do, however, need to rebuild the strength that I lost while dealing with my pregnancy. That's going to be a challenge, for sure. But I already know I will feel so good for doing it.
I've set my weight loss goal for 1.5 pounds down each week. I don't know how that will work these first few weeks when I'm not getting in any real exercise, but it's worth aiming for. I'm off to work on my daily/weekly goals and be sure my long term goals are still in line.
I'm excited to get back into reading everyone else's progress and joining in on the encouragement towards you ladies. :)
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Thursday February 2, 2012
Today's Good Things:
Slept in until family devotions. Felt SO good.
I kept up with all the crazy busy-ness of this day
Very good appt. with the GD counselor
Amazing provision from the Lord!
All my numbers were good except my fasting
Today's Not So Good Things:
All the running I did today left no time for exercise
I just got home from my hs meeting and I Can't Sleep!
Saw my husband for all of a half hour today. :(
I'm skipping the food diary and numbers today just because it feels like too much work. I did record it all on my chart, though. My fasting was 96, lower than normal but still not low enough.
My appt with the GD counselor was wonderful. She was so helpful and kind. She showered me with freebies because she knew we were self-pay and wanted to do all she could to help us out. I got a free meter and a pack of 50 test strips. That's a blessing! AND she gave me a voucher so my first vial of insulin was FREE!!! ($70 value) Thank You, Lord!!
We went over my menu and numbers. She was kind and very pleased with the plan I am using. She said I dont' need to change anything but to keep up what I am doing and to work at staying faithful to the exercise after each meal. So, the fact that I am now an insulin dependant GD isn't through any fault of my own. That means something probably only to me. But, along the lines of my recent post, it's an encouragement to me that I *am* doing what is right and best even if the results aren't what I had hoped. I can rest in moving forward knowing that I am walking in faithfulness and that this is clearly God's best for me right now. Another blessing is that I got that first insulin shot in tonight and it wasn't anywhere near as scary as I had feared. The unknown has been conquered. ;-)
So, now we see how my body reacts to this dosage and how it needs to change from here. Currently, she prescribed the lowest dose and I will then adjust as my numbers reveal. I liked her so well. I truly am blessed. From the beginning of this pregnancy I knew everything would be different and hard. Yet, when we finally found the Lord's place for us, I have been so blessed at each turn. I feared I would be shunned. I feared I would be ridiculed. I feared I would be attacked and forced into things against my beliefs. Instead, the Lord has blessed me with kind, supportive, understanding, and respectful people every step of the way. What a mighty God we serve. :)
Slept in until family devotions. Felt SO good.
I kept up with all the crazy busy-ness of this day
Very good appt. with the GD counselor
Amazing provision from the Lord!
All my numbers were good except my fasting
Today's Not So Good Things:
All the running I did today left no time for exercise
I just got home from my hs meeting and I Can't Sleep!
Saw my husband for all of a half hour today. :(
I'm skipping the food diary and numbers today just because it feels like too much work. I did record it all on my chart, though. My fasting was 96, lower than normal but still not low enough.
My appt with the GD counselor was wonderful. She was so helpful and kind. She showered me with freebies because she knew we were self-pay and wanted to do all she could to help us out. I got a free meter and a pack of 50 test strips. That's a blessing! AND she gave me a voucher so my first vial of insulin was FREE!!! ($70 value) Thank You, Lord!!
We went over my menu and numbers. She was kind and very pleased with the plan I am using. She said I dont' need to change anything but to keep up what I am doing and to work at staying faithful to the exercise after each meal. So, the fact that I am now an insulin dependant GD isn't through any fault of my own. That means something probably only to me. But, along the lines of my recent post, it's an encouragement to me that I *am* doing what is right and best even if the results aren't what I had hoped. I can rest in moving forward knowing that I am walking in faithfulness and that this is clearly God's best for me right now. Another blessing is that I got that first insulin shot in tonight and it wasn't anywhere near as scary as I had feared. The unknown has been conquered. ;-)
So, now we see how my body reacts to this dosage and how it needs to change from here. Currently, she prescribed the lowest dose and I will then adjust as my numbers reveal. I liked her so well. I truly am blessed. From the beginning of this pregnancy I knew everything would be different and hard. Yet, when we finally found the Lord's place for us, I have been so blessed at each turn. I feared I would be shunned. I feared I would be ridiculed. I feared I would be attacked and forced into things against my beliefs. Instead, the Lord has blessed me with kind, supportive, understanding, and respectful people every step of the way. What a mighty God we serve. :)
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Sunday January 29, 2012 Happy Birthday Benj!
Today's Good Things:
My sweet boy's birthday!!
24 min of Wii fit this afternoon
Lovely day with the family
Today's No So Good Things:
Several bad numbers for the day
Really off on my diet
Today's Food Choices and numbers:
Fasting: 105
Breakfast: slice of turkey ham, 1 piece buttered ww toast
After: 120
Snack: cheese stick, 1 package pb sandwich crakers
Lunch: 1 slice zuccini bread, then 1/2 hour later 1 soft taco from taco bell (I was desparate. Sigh.)
After: 131
Dinner: 2 small squares of hm grilled pizza, 2 servings of caesar salad w/ hm dressing-no croutons
After: 112
Snack: birthday cake :), and probably cheese and crackers or some type of heavy protein
I started checking my blood sugars again yesterday. Of course, the first two days I start up again are the first days I've been off on my diet in a long while. I was busy doing a family closet purge Saturday and kept forgetting to eat and test. Today was church and that's always hard to get in the right foods at the right time. I was smart and brought along my morning snack, but completely forgot to pack myself a lunch so I could eat at the right time instead of just snacking like the rest of the fam and eating our big meal when we got home. I have to work on Sundays because we don't typically do three meals. Just breakfast and then a later lunch-supper kind of thing.
Anyhow, my numbers aren't great. My fasting for Saturday was my best so far, but still on edge at 93, depending on what numbers the docs like. (90 or 95) I'm still waiting to hear from the GD counselor and I think I'll be putting in a call to the OB office tomorrow to find out what is taking so long. I was encouraged by my good friend that has worked through GD for several pregnancies now to start testing again so I have data for them when they call. She's right. It makes sense. I guess I was just enjoying living with my head in the sand.
Side note, I had a piece of birthday cake tonight and thoroughly enjoyed it. :) No guilt, just fun with the fam.
Good thing is, testing my blood throughout the day creates a huge amount of accountability and motivation for me. I should be seeing some better days ahead. :)
Another good thing is that I got a huge project done this weekend by cleaning out our family closet. A ton of stuff heading out the door to help me with my Mega-Purge challenge I've given myself. I also got the dresser and changing station set up. That means it's all ready to fill with baby's clothes and items. It's still really early by my habits, but I'm excited to do it! I guess knowing she's a girl has made me all the more eager. :)
My sweet boy's birthday!!
24 min of Wii fit this afternoon
Lovely day with the family
Today's No So Good Things:
Several bad numbers for the day
Really off on my diet
Today's Food Choices and numbers:
Fasting: 105
Breakfast: slice of turkey ham, 1 piece buttered ww toast
After: 120
Snack: cheese stick, 1 package pb sandwich crakers
Lunch: 1 slice zuccini bread, then 1/2 hour later 1 soft taco from taco bell (I was desparate. Sigh.)
After: 131
Dinner: 2 small squares of hm grilled pizza, 2 servings of caesar salad w/ hm dressing-no croutons
After: 112
Snack: birthday cake :), and probably cheese and crackers or some type of heavy protein
I started checking my blood sugars again yesterday. Of course, the first two days I start up again are the first days I've been off on my diet in a long while. I was busy doing a family closet purge Saturday and kept forgetting to eat and test. Today was church and that's always hard to get in the right foods at the right time. I was smart and brought along my morning snack, but completely forgot to pack myself a lunch so I could eat at the right time instead of just snacking like the rest of the fam and eating our big meal when we got home. I have to work on Sundays because we don't typically do three meals. Just breakfast and then a later lunch-supper kind of thing.
Anyhow, my numbers aren't great. My fasting for Saturday was my best so far, but still on edge at 93, depending on what numbers the docs like. (90 or 95) I'm still waiting to hear from the GD counselor and I think I'll be putting in a call to the OB office tomorrow to find out what is taking so long. I was encouraged by my good friend that has worked through GD for several pregnancies now to start testing again so I have data for them when they call. She's right. It makes sense. I guess I was just enjoying living with my head in the sand.
Side note, I had a piece of birthday cake tonight and thoroughly enjoyed it. :) No guilt, just fun with the fam.
Good thing is, testing my blood throughout the day creates a huge amount of accountability and motivation for me. I should be seeing some better days ahead. :)
Another good thing is that I got a huge project done this weekend by cleaning out our family closet. A ton of stuff heading out the door to help me with my Mega-Purge challenge I've given myself. I also got the dresser and changing station set up. That means it's all ready to fill with baby's clothes and items. It's still really early by my habits, but I'm excited to do it! I guess knowing she's a girl has made me all the more eager. :)
Friday, February 25, 2011
What If?
Journal Entry: February 21, 2011
"As obedient children, do not be conformed to the former lusts which were yours in ignorance, but like the Holy One who called you, be holy yourselves in all your behavior; because it is written, 'You shall be Holy, for I am Holy.'" 1 Peter 1:13-14
I've been quite frustrated that my efforts at losing weight have not met with the results that I read they should. According to the information out there and the reports of my tracking, I should be having great success in meeting my goals.
Lord, I went into this confident that I could "do it right". That I would discipline myself and it would work. The perfectionist in me wants to scream.
I realize that by being overweight, I feel a disdain for myself. I feel like a failure. Living with the results of my ignorance of the flesh, my lifetime of sinful indulgences - it's painful. You have forgiven me. I am FREE! And I want it to show. Everytime I make a right choice, when I resist a bad one, I want it to be evident in my physical stature. I want to see the good from doing good. And I want others to know as well, so they don't see me and think I am still what I once was.
It's all tied up in me, isn't it? I am so concerned about how I feel about myself. I am so aware of how others view me and my body. I continue to seek the glory in this time and again. I'm so hung up.
Lord, if I never lose another pound, will I still praise You? If I stay this size for the rest of my life, will I remain faithful to a holy life? You have commanded me to not be conformed to the former lusts of my ignorance. You have commanded me to be holy in ALL of my behavior. Will I obey these commands even if my body doesn't change? If I never see that magic number on the scale? Will I walk this path for Your glory rather than my own?
This, again, I must remind myself, is not about me losing weight to become a smaller size. It's not even about me being in perfect health so I can do more for You. This is about me being and doing what You have called me to today--right now. Making right choices right now with my eyes fixed on Your glory right now--not when I've met a goal, dropped a size, or posted a great "after" picture for the world to praise You (and me...::blush::)
You must recieve glory everytime I break a habit, resist a temptation, and do a hard thing to honor You. And no one else may see it, yet You do. You see my heart and these things are my acts of worship--private worship to You.
Show me. Strengthen me to be holy as You are holy.
Friday, February 4, 2011
The Yeast Experiment
So, last month we decided (well, okay *I* decided and the rest of the fam grudgingly went along ;-) ) to give up yeast breads for a month. We've battled yeasty issues forever, so I wanted to see if this would help. I'm not interested in a doing a complete yeast free diet, as that requires us to restrict our food choices to an extreme that I'm not comfortable with for our family. However, I was confident that giving up the yeast breads would be very helpful in a variety of ways, so we gave it a whirl.
I noticed some changes. First, I've battled yeast infections since I was pregnant this last time around. I didn't get it to go away completely and have dealt with itchiness off and on over the months. This past month, not at all. That's cool.
I also noticed a couple of weeks ago that my skin was looking great. I don't have major issues with my complexion, but I have breakouts every so often. I hadn't had any for quite awhile.
So, last weekend was my ds's birthday. We splurged and enjoyed yeast breads for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Also, some breads that we were going to deliver to a friend weren't needed, so we ended up keeping them and eating them all this week. It was sort of like going back our normal habits of having toast with breakfast, sandwiches a couple of times a week, rolls with dinner. Just normal for us. Now, these are "healthy" breads. All whole grain, expensive brands that we are blessed to receive free. So, I don't mind our family enjoying them, and they sure make life easy when I need to serve something fast and easy.
But, guess who broke out this week? Me AND my oldest dd. In fact, I've never seen her have such a breakout on her face.
Guess who's starting to notice a bit of itchiness? Me.
Guess who's NOT going to be getting more yeast breads on a regular basis? ;-)
I'm grateful we don't have allergies or intolerances. Because of that, I don't feel the need to restrict our diet with "Nevers" and "Not Allowds". However, I'm more than willing to keep those things that I know affect us negatively out of our regular diet.
So, Yeast Breads and Sugary Sweets...You Are Outta Here!! We'll enjoy your company if we meet while we're out or visiting or possibly invite you again for a special occassion. But, we're just never going to be Close Friends again. :-P
I noticed some changes. First, I've battled yeast infections since I was pregnant this last time around. I didn't get it to go away completely and have dealt with itchiness off and on over the months. This past month, not at all. That's cool.
I also noticed a couple of weeks ago that my skin was looking great. I don't have major issues with my complexion, but I have breakouts every so often. I hadn't had any for quite awhile.
So, last weekend was my ds's birthday. We splurged and enjoyed yeast breads for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Also, some breads that we were going to deliver to a friend weren't needed, so we ended up keeping them and eating them all this week. It was sort of like going back our normal habits of having toast with breakfast, sandwiches a couple of times a week, rolls with dinner. Just normal for us. Now, these are "healthy" breads. All whole grain, expensive brands that we are blessed to receive free. So, I don't mind our family enjoying them, and they sure make life easy when I need to serve something fast and easy.
But, guess who broke out this week? Me AND my oldest dd. In fact, I've never seen her have such a breakout on her face.
Guess who's starting to notice a bit of itchiness? Me.
Guess who's NOT going to be getting more yeast breads on a regular basis? ;-)
I'm grateful we don't have allergies or intolerances. Because of that, I don't feel the need to restrict our diet with "Nevers" and "Not Allowds". However, I'm more than willing to keep those things that I know affect us negatively out of our regular diet.
So, Yeast Breads and Sugary Sweets...You Are Outta Here!! We'll enjoy your company if we meet while we're out or visiting or possibly invite you again for a special occassion. But, we're just never going to be Close Friends again. :-P
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