Today's Good Things:
Busy and productive
Felt better than the day before
I did better emotionally today than yesterday
Talked with nurse and am pleased with their attitude regarding my glucose test
We're doing well with our new MOTH schedule, considering it's new ;)
Today's Not So Good Things:
Didn't have exercise time this morning
Should have been a little more strict with my menu - the fridge is getting bare so my choices aren's so great
I'm up late
So, my results from the 1 hour glucose challenge came back and my number was high, 157. Anything over 139 shows risk for GD. No surprise on my end. I faxed over the results yesterday and they called me right back. I spoke with the nurse today and she was very pleasant. She went over the plan for the 3 hour test that I now need to take. Again, no surprise on my end. ;) But, I was surprised to hear her say that it was not a big rush. She wasn't concerned at all about me getting it done by my next appointment on the 12th. That was pretty cool. So far, this office has been way more laid back than I expected.
So, at some point next week-ish I'll have to do a carb load for 3 days. Yuk. Then I'll go in for the 3 hour test. At this point, I'm resigned that I'll fail it and then see what they'll want to do from there. Is it a lack of faith on my part that I haven't even prayed and asked the Lord to help me pass this test? Honestly, it just doesn't even seem possible in my mind. I've been praying for the grace and strength to get through this pregnancy without fear and abuse. I haven't even thought to pray that my body would just work right. Why am I not doing that? I think I've been so intent on working through accepting the GD that I haven't even considered praying it away. I've been WORKING it away. Yet, I know it is not by works, but by grace that He is glorified. Help me be faithful in DOING what is right, yet still TRUSTING in your ability to deliver and accomplish your purposes in this. Forgive me for failing to bring all aspects of this to you, Lord. Forgive me for not walking in the hope that you give. I know that I've been afraid to truly hope because I don't want to be disappointed and go through the mourning of a normal pregnancy again. Help me work through these emotions, Lord.
Tracy, I will be praying that you pass. That your body will work as it's supposed to. (((HUG))) I am so sorry that you are having to struggle with this. -Dee
ReplyDeleteDee, thank you so much for your prayers and for leaving a comment here. They both mean a great deal to me. :)
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