Words Cannot Express

So I woke up this morning with a heart attack...so to speak.
My sweet, amazing neighbors got together and made us tons of little love notes and left them on our door step. It made my morning for sure. I have always wanted to do that to someone but never have. Now I will definitely have to.

Then, as I was sitting in chemo, I got a text message from my friend Lyndsey. She sent me a picture of what looked like the entire student body of the elementary school, where I served as PTA President for the last 2 years, dressed in pink. Fortunately, I do not hold that position anymore. (Can you imagine? Just put me in the grave now folks. That definitely would have been bad.)
Unfortunately, I do not get to see these amazing people on an almost daily basis like I am used to, and I am having withdrawals! I don't miss the work, but I do miss the people, my friends.

These people are some of those who are "loving me through this," and I feel it. Again, I just sat there with tears streaming down my face. I know it's OK to cry, and I do cry sometimes (for those who may think otherwise). I love a good cry as much as the next person. It clears your head.
These were definitely happy tears- tears of joy.
Tears of wonder and amazement to see and feel the love that people have for you. Not many people are lucky enough to experience something like that in their lifetime. I truly feel very lucky to be in that category because it...is..incredible.



These lovely people are the faculty and staff. I worked with them for 2 1/2 years and I have made some of my dearest friends through that experience. It was a challenging 2 1/2 years with some rocky places, but I would do it again in a heart beat because I loved the job. I loved helping the school, and I loved being there for the kids, teachers, and faculty to help them with what they needed. I just tried to do my best, stay organized, and to make sure we were involving as many people as possible. I think it went well and a lot of great things happened at the school. It was one of the best experiences of my life.

Some people may think I am crazy to say that- but look where it has gotten me? I have a massive support system for the hardest challenge in my life. When I accepted the position as PTA president, I did not expect to make so many friends along the way. I just did the job like I do everything else- giving 100% (ok sometimes 125.2%), trying to be nice to people and giving them a chance to help if they wanted to, loving the kids (which is so easy), and having fun in the process. And somehow, I ended up with all of this love in return. I did not get paid for my volunteer service as PTA President, but this is better than any paycheck I ever could have received.
Love you all so much at our wonderful elementary school. Thank you so much for your love and support. You guys rock.

*I took some pics at the cancer center today, but my brain is about to shut down for the night and I can't add them to this post. But I do want to highlight a few things...

*The PET scan showed that there is no measurable cancer anywhere else. Huge relief. Now that is not to say that there are not little floaters out there somewhere, but that we can handle. Chemo will zap those suckers easy. I am just so thankful that there are no other tumors out there anywhere.

*The actual Chemo portion went well. I was a little anxious, but it went really well.
One down, 7 to go.

*I was surprised at how quickly some of the side effects have settled in. I am very tired, have waves of nausea, and a sinus type headache. So I am going to sign off for the night, and I will tell you more about the day tomorrow.

Scoreboard: Desirae (family & friends) -80 Cancer- 4
I am including my family and friends in my scoreboard now, because it's together that we are going to fight this. Right now I have almost 80 pictures from people who care about me and my sweet family, and I do not have the words to express how much this means to me. I love you all.