just around this corner...

It's 5am on my birthday.
A Saturday.
I was going to sleep in.

Yet, here I am awake and feeling all contemplative.
About my life.
About me.
About the people I love.
About my soon to be "mr".

I think about where I was a year ago.
Where my heart was...where it really was...and I am blown away by all that has happened.

When I named this little blog of mine, it was a reminder to me that there were things in the works in my life that I did not know and could not see. To be honest, most days I worried that there just wasn't. I worried that what I saw and experienced was kind of going to be it. Sure, it was good. But, it wasn't all I hoped for.

I knew the my 40th year was going to be a game changer.
I just knew it (remember my "preparation for promises" post?)
I just hoped it.
I look at my life this past year and the corners I approached.
I went around every single one of them.
I might have sometimes done it cautiously, but I went.
They weren't all easy, but I went.
And I'm amazed at how things have unfolded.
Amazed and so deeply grateful.

I am 41 today.
FORTY-ONE.
How did I get here?
By turning corners.
By praying for corners.
By hoping for corners.

What I hoped when I started this blog is true...
Things are in the works for our lives that we do not know and cannot see.
My life has turned a corner.
And I could not have imagined the beauty and sunshine and happiness that was
just around this corner
waiting for me.

"You cannot behold with your natural eyes, 

for the present time, 

the design of your God 

concerning those things which shall come...." 

(Doctrine & Covenants 58:3)

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