Hello, me.

"Till this moment

I never knew myself."
-Lizzie to herself (Jane Austen, Pride & Prejudice)

I stayed up late last night reading my journals. (Something about yesterday's "anniversary" just drew me in.)

Looking for entertainment? Borrow my journals.
Looking for compelling drama? Borrow my journals.
Looking for great romantic comedy? Borrow my journals.

OH. MY.

But, looking for confirmations of God's existence? Read my journal.
Looking for evidence of His involvement in our lives? Read my journal.
Looking for a visual of His mercy and His love? Read my journal.

I think the thing I love most about my journals is watching my evolution.
My testimony.
My confidence.
My dreams.
My faith.
My heart.
My brain.
My needs.
My trust.

In so many ways I'm a girl now I've never been before.

I'm not naive enough to think that I've figured it all out.
But, I do have this sense that I know me.

I suppose on some level I always have.
You can read where I had inklings about how some things in my life would play out.
You can read where I had turning points I didn't recognize as such at the time.

But, I had impressions.

Some I chose to ignore.
Some I followed to the letter.
Some others chose to ignore.

My life has not played out the way I thought I wanted.
But it has played out the way God knew it would.
And I guess on some level, I knew it too.

I can finally say I wouldn't trade my life for anyone else's.
There have been times that I wanted to.
But not anymore.
Because I trust I'm right where God knew I would be.

And I know myself better today than I ever have before.
And I like the me I've come to know.