Classic TV Boyfriends

I've been watching a lot of classic tv, and I've developed a few tv crushes.

Sadly some of them are dead.

Thankfully others are still working.

Let's Talk About Body Shaming

I'm a fat girl. I wasn't always though. In my twenties I wore a size 2. Yup, you read that right, a 2.

Then something happened.

My grandmother died.

Then my dad got sick.

My life totally changed and with all the changes, my body changed too, and not in a good way.

I'm sick of people being nasty to fat chicks. I have to say, I admire the girls that can wear their bikinis and be comfortable in their own skins, because I am not.

If you are a fat chick like me, most of the time, you feel bad about your body. And you try hard to change.

I still make it to the gym, but with my responsibilities it isn't easy to get there with any regularity and it makes me feel bad.

It makes me feel bad that I can't wear the clothes that I want to wear.

I don't need anyone shaming my body anymore than I do myself.

I hate self righteous people that think that because I'm fat means I'm lazy. For the last 7 years I've been a caregiver for my parents, doing all the shopping, laundry etc that goes along with that. You can't be lazy and do that.

But do you know what?

You can be depressed.

So before you shame someone that is overweight, especially if they are lucky enough to feel comfortable with themselves then shut your pie hole, because you don't know their life situation.

The same goes for those girl's that you want to buy a cheeseburger.

I Need Motivation

This month has been not so fun, which is why I haven't been blogging here much.

I started out with the stomach flu.

Mom ended up in the hospital for a few days.

I just don't know what to say anymore.

I'm really trying hard to make low sodium meals for her that have flavor. I've found a few. Yesterday I made a Poor Man's Pepper Steak for dinner.  I had to buy lite Soy Sauce. Have you ever checked the sodium count on Soy Sauce. Oye to the vey! But this had lots of lovely veg and the gravy is 1 cup of water, 1/3 cup of soy and 2 tablespoons of flower.  I used minute steaks, but you can use cubed steaks. Anyone want to explain the difference in the two of these for me, except the price? I actually think the minute steaks taste better, and are more tender.

The other day I made Honey Dijon Pork Chops, which was totally easy and pretty tasty.

And lastly my only offering that wasn't low sodium, but I did change the tomato sauce to a no sodium variety; chicken cacciatore

So I guess, I've been cooking. Now if only I could be motivated to do something else.

If you want the recipes for any of these, just ask.

Musical Television

For the last few months I've been watching the musical 2 hours on Antennae TV on Sunday afternoons. The first hour is The Monkees and the second is The Partridge Family.

It really is amazing how very different these shows could be.

I've loved The Monkees for years and years and I find the show to be very enjoyable even now, but when aired next to The Partridge Family, it is easy to see how bad the show actually was.

The music is timeless, and the guys were decent actors, but the writing for The Monkees was terrible, awful even.

There was such potential if they really did a show about a band. If they would have even done a show that parodied A Hard Day's Night, which was supposed to be what the band was about, it could have been great.

I'm not saying that there weren't good episodes, because there were, especially in the second season. The Devil and Peter Tork and The Christmas Episode, but this was a show that could have been so much more, especially with the talent of the stars

Its really only been recently that I've taken a shine to The Partridge Family. I watched them a little bit when I was little, but not much. Seeing the two shows back to back, you can really see the differences and yet both shows have a lot of similarities.

The primary difference is that The Partridge Family didn't try to be a real band, it was David Cassidy.

This show only started a year or so after The Monkees ended, but this show was so much more developed. There are actual stories that make sense, rather than just silly ones.

Sure this show was based on The Cowsills, but they did so much and the show is entertaining, regardless of how you feel about the music.

Which show did you like better?

La La La La Feeling Blerghy

Last Friday I had a bout with a very nasty stomach bug that rendered me useless for most of the weekend.

I've been very cautious with what I eat, but now it seems my sinuses are going to help make sure I'm miserable.

I swear the only thing that doesn't make me want to wretch is jello.

I was trying Campbell's Soup In Hand, cos they were easy and they taste pretty good, but the sodium content is insane. 1 cup of soup has 960 mg of sodium, and I'm trying to watch my intake, because I have my mother's bad genes.

The worst part of not being able to eat much and all of this..I haven't lost a freaking pound.

There is something wrong with the world.

I have to say that I have now caught up on all the old Drew Carey episodes I missed back in the day, and probably all the old Night Court episodes too.

Why can't tv be funny like that anymore?

I Need To Vent

I am depressed.

My life started its downward spiral in 2008 when my grandmother passed away. After that it was dad's illness, and then his passing.

I've packed up the plantation and moved in the last year, still caring for my mother, who lives with me.

I haven't had a proper hair cut in months.

I don't wear makeup anymore, except for bb cream and sometimes lipstick.

I'm fat.

I don't like myself or my life.

My mother offers help financially while she can, but I don't want to take it, because I know at some point she won't be there, and I need to see what I can do on my own.

I'm terrified most of the time.

I used to have people to talk to, but they felt they couldn't share their problems with me, and now I don't want to share mine with them.

I'm lonely, miserable and frustrated.

I don't even feel like a human being anymore.

I feel like a lump.