A little love

Some days I look at my girls and beg them to share their never-ending supply of energy with me.

Most days it still takes my breathe away that I can use the phrase "my girls" in a sentence! 

The rest of the days I am amazed at how much love I have for them. It's so beyond anything I could have ever imagined, which I know sounds terribly corny. 

It took me a little while to feel that unending love when Gianna was born. I had just met her and she cried a lot! But we got there and that love between a mom and her daughter is powerful stuff. And then I panicked for at least 6 months before Aleesia was born that I might not have enough love to give her or that I would be taking something away from Gianna.  When she was born, it still took me a little while to give my whole heart to her the way I had given it to Gianna but we are totally there now. 

I went and tucked Gianna into bed the other night and realized that when she says "I love you mommy, see you in the morning" it still makes me smile as big as the first time she said it. When Aleesia snuggles into my shoulder it makes me melt just as much as when she was first born. 

I no longer fear that I won't love Aleesia as much because I know that I love them each a little different because they are different people. but I am happy to report that there is indeed enough love to go around. 

Which is a great thing to realize and be comfortable with considering what's ahead for us. 

Christmas is going to be extra special this year and we are so excited to share our love! 

Tuesday Teaser - 100th post addition

dear internet,

I have something really fun to share with you today....

first BFP in 8 months (8.5.08) & 1 is all we need

I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner - had to tell our families and such first since they read this little ol' blog of mine! We are very very excited and more than a little shocked. [and believe me when I tell you that I have renewed faith in the saying "everything happens for a reason"]

Speaking of telling our parents - we waited until this weekend to tell them & it went really great. My mom & sisters found out on our little trip - they were shocked, excited, nervous - but most of all they didn't all the way believe me. My mom is insisting she is too young to be a grandma and my sisters are already arguing over who will be the better aunt! Mike's parents had no idea we were ever TTC - so they were a little more than shocked. It took them about 5min to process what we told them and as soon as his mom realized we were serious she started jumping up and down saying "we're having a baby!" over and over!! His grandma was also really excited, shocked but excited to be a great-grandma - she said now she can brag to her sisters about it!!

So - it went well, the few friends who know are all really excited for us and that means so much to mike and i.

We are of course nervous [b/c well, who wouldn't be a little bit?] but excitement is overwhelming. Mike is adorable always wanting to make sure I have enough sleep [am exhausted] and enough to eat [am nauseus] -- he is very attentive and into the whole thing!

Enough for one day? Probably! Oh ya... and I have an interview tomorrow!