The Rocking Hijab

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful, Praise be to Allah, the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Worlds, and Peace and Prayer be upon the Final Prophet and Messenger. Abdullah Yusuf Ali, The Holy Quran O you who have believed, when you go forth [to fight] in the cause of Allah , investigate; and do not say to one who gives you [a greeting of] peace "You are not a believer," aspiring for the goods of worldly life; for with Allah are many acquisitions. You [yourselves] were like that before; then Allah conferred His favor upon you, so investigate. Indeed Allah is ever, with what you do, Acquainted. {An-Nisa', 4 : 94} Indeed Allah has given me His favor, so who am I to deny it?  Everchanging, hopefully towards the better. 

You know, growing up, I have always been a very obedient child, because well, if I don't I would've gotten myself a helping of canes and beatings so yeah, one cannot help but be obedient towards their parents when threatened with punishments as such.  But I find myself being extra stubborn at things that I am allowed to, e.g. refusing to cry when scolded etc. Well, they can't beat me up for not crying now can they? So I thought, as I grow(as in now), I finally understood the meaning of such defiance and those are because I wanted to let myself think that I have control in that situation.  To tell you the truth, I was crying all the time while I was writing the Shit Happens post. Yes, big girls do cry over such things and I am not ashamed with that. No one saw me anyway. I would never cry in public, except for a selected few, or as I call them, The Chosen Ones that I choose to let loose my so-called fair maiden tears upon. And after that incident, I deci

T hat's the first thought that comes to mind as I walked my 'Walk Of Shame' out of the Clinical OSCE center.  The doctors were all gawking at me as if I just killed somebody. What I did seems minute but I had to follow the rules, and painfully, the doctors had to 'cut' me off the exam. I got barred from taking the exam because I brought my phone. Of course, it was off and I never intended to cheat or whatsoever, but doctors are not God are they? They had to do that so that others may learn from my mistake, or rather, pardon me, my stupid mistake. I guess the doctor was expecting me to cry rather than be all cool about it when she informed me I had to be barred from the exam. I have learnt since long ago that crying won't change anything but of course, you might wonder where does all that anger and frustration go to? I am still wondering about the same question myself and perhaps, I have been sensitized from being sad about 'shits that happens' like

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful, Praise be to Allah, the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Worlds, and Peace and Prayer be upon the Final Prophet and Messenger. Abdullah Yusuf Ali, The Holy Quran That you may settle yourselves upon their backs and then remember the favor of your Lord when you have settled upon them and say.  "Exalted is He who has subjected this to us, and we could not have [otherwise] subdued it. And indeed we, to our Lord, will [surely] return." I just returned to Kelantan this morning after what seems an eternity at my home in Seremban. I have had 2 weeks study break before my exam which will commence tomorrow until this Thursday. I'm not really sure of what to feel as of now because well, yeah, I don't think I have been preparing enough. So whatever result I get, I'll just gladly accept though I think I will rue it a little bit. Maybe. I don't know really. Anyway, as I was on my journey back earli

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful, Praise be to Allah, the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Worlds, and Peace and Prayer be upon the Final Prophet and Messenger. Abdullah Yusuf Ali, The Holy Quran Everytime me and husband went for a taxi ride, we always get free marriage counseling from the taxi drivers.  It was uncanny how the taxi drivers got excited whenever they knew we're actually a married couple since both of us were like so young(to them) and our looks didn't help that much. I was once mistaken for a 3rd Former. 15 y/o, seriously? So anyways, this one uncle is a Malay muslim and he has been married to his wife for 45 years now. He told us that it will not be the same way as it will be like the first few weeks of marriage. For the relationship to grow, we will need to tolerate and be patient with other  and all that John Gray's stuff. Interestingly, I asked him a question, well, we're all students of the university of life aren't we? Th

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful, Praise be to Allah, the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Worlds, and Peace and Prayer be upon the Final Prophet and Messenger. Abdullah Yusuf Ali, The Holy Quran He's really embarrassed about this but I'm just gonna post it anyway. This scraps was made using Scrap Pad for iPad (That's the name for the app...I think).  Sometimes, things do happen just the way He plans it. :) Am glad we found each other though the story was kind of random. :) "Sometimes we can't just say "Allah has a better plan for us."  We have to believe He does."

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful, Praise be to Allah, the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Worlds, and Peace and Prayer be upon the Final Prophet and Messenger. Abdullah Yusuf Ali, The Holy Quran I may not be the best person alive, and my stories were not really touching hearts. My struggles were probably not as bad as the other person next to me and even if I were to talk, people might not listen to me because I have low self esteem and I tend to tremble a lot. But one thing I do know is that, I write not because I want people to know my struggles or for people to pity me for my never ending list of flaws. I write because I want people to understand how amazing the existence of Islam is in their lives and how it changed mine. Again, I am not the best person alive and I can barely call myself a daie, but each and every one of my writings have an equal message, and that is, "When you read this,  I hope you can look past my looks, my flaws and my hide

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful, Praise be to Allah, the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Worlds, and Peace and Prayer be upon the Final Prophet and Messenger. Abdullah Yusuf Ali, The Holy Quran *** I've indulged in my whim for a few days...3 days to be exact and I find wordpress...BORING. I swear I can almost hear cricket sounds when I typed so yeah since I feel somewhat lazy to do any changes to the wordpress blog, I'll just leave it as it is. I think this is just the pre-exam stress talking. I can get pretty crazy when exam's just around the corner. "Sometimes we can't just say "Allah has a better plan for us."  We have to believe He does."

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful, Praise be to Allah, the Cherisher and Sustainer of the Worlds, and Peace and Prayer be upon the Final Prophet and Messenger. Abdullah Yusuf Ali, The Holy Quran *** Am moving to  http://therockinghijabii.wordpress.com/ Will maintain this blog. I just needed a new platform. "Sometimes we can't just say "Allah has a better plan for us."  We have to believe He does."