The Rocking Hijab

I gather that almost everyone knew this song by Maher Zain right? Well, how about the story of an australian revert named Ruben(Abu Bakr)? Yesterday i went to an usrah program. The program started with iftar jami'e and then we have a talk that night by the mas'ulahs, Kak Cah and Kak Das. During the Kak Das' slot, she showed us the Open Your Eyes clip(Ruben was also in it).  You can search for the clip on Youtube. While watching, Kak Das said something about people who are lucky to be given hidayah. When she was talking, I can't stop myself from crying publicly. I was sobbing terribly and i need 10 minutes to stop crying. Usually i would restrain from expressing my feelings but this time, i just can't hold it in. I watched the clip before way back when i was still in KTT but the feeling is so different. Watching the clip, makes me feel so grateful to be one of the few people who search for the truth, searching for a guide, searching for Islam. I am so grat...

Dapatkan Mesej Bergambar di Sini Baru 2 hari bertadarus al-Quran dan hari ni saya try baca sorang2. Alhamdulillah dapat baca tapi tak lancar lagi. kena eja dulu baru boleh baca semua. Itu pun setelah beberapa kali percubaan. Hari ni saya try baca surah Al-Alaq. Alhamdulillah. Saya rasa nak senyum je sepanjang hari. Happy sebab sebelum ni, nak mengeja pun susah. ALLAH lembutkan hati kot. :P Wah! Happy gila!!!! :DDD

This week has been most exhausting. Mentally and physically. I'm literally running here and there to get to my lecture hall. Maybe if you see something that look like a 'cendawan' from afar running, yeap, that's me. Yeah, aside from choosing to wear the hijab, i chose to wear a very long hijab. Yang tudung besar dan bulat tu. The first time i'm wearing it, i can really feel the chills running up my neck. I feel...like an alien. Because i'm the only one in my dental class clad in that kind of outfit. I feel so tremendously alienated but i reminded myself over and over, "Ikut panduan Tuhan, bukan panduan orang."  So, alhamdulillah, it has been 3 days since i started wearing that type of headscarf and i got used to it. :) Sangat seronok dapat pakai macam tu. :) Anyway, about dental, unlike the dental course in other universities, we have to learn both medical(wholly) and dental at the same time. Kind of hard to keep up with the pace because we only...

Ya. Akhirnya saya mengambil keputusan untuk mengenakan hijab. Ramai yang agak pelik kerana 2 hari yang sebelumnya saya tidak bertudung namun saya tidak mengendahkan tanggapan mereka. Hanya ALLAH yang tahu. Hanya ALLAH yang tahu. Berulang-ulang saya membisikkan kata tersebut pada diri sendiri. Saat keseorangan di sini, saya jadi tak tentu arah. Tidak tahu untuk berbicara dengan siapa. Kejahilan demi kejahilan terpampang di hadapan mata. Hati saya rasa sakit, sedih kerana kecewa. Kecewa dengan budaya hedonisme yang begitu ligat diperjuangkan di sini. Namun di sebalik keperitan yang dirasakan, alhamdulillah, terdapat beberapa insan yang mahu membantu meskipun baru sahaja berkenalan beberapa hari. Mereka tidak mengetahui kisah keseluruhannya hidup saya namun masih sudi menghulurkan bantuan. Sedikit sebanyak namun begitu dihargai. Biarpun saya akhirnya telah membuat keputusan ini, namun jiwa saya masih terluka. Saya keliru, apakah tepat pilihan saya? Adakah saya terburu-buru? Say...