The Rocking Hijab

Sejak cuti, attitude saye makin lame makin teruk. Adab dengan ibu bapa makin teruk. Ape ni? Sometimes, rase nak lari je dari rumah ni. Tapi nak lari ke mane? Saye dah tak tahan dengan semua ni. Saye ingat, bila saye menyembunyikan keislaman saye ni, saye akan jadi lagi kuat. Tapi kenapa makin hari saye makin teruk? Solusi mudah : Ape susah? Btaw la parents dah masuk Islam, kan senang? Tapi banyak sangat perkare yang dipertimbangkan. Takut nanti bile dah bagitahu langsung x boleh nak beribadah. Tak pun kena tendang keluar rumah. Nak makan ape? Duit sendiri xde, x keje lagi. Banyak sgt nak difikirkan. Saye sedih. Saye sedih sangat-sangat. Saye ingat saye boleh tahan kena pergi ke gereja, ambik risiko makan benda yg mungkin tidak halal dan memalsukan kepercayaan saye, kononnye saye masih kristian. Tapi bile saye jumpe kawan2 mak saye, kawan2 ayah saye, yang semuanye kenal saye smenjak saye kecik, bile mereka cakap " Good luck. Jesus will help you.", saye rase sedih sebab 2 p...

Today, my mum asked me to accompany her shopping for Christmas. In the car, i started to whine. Me : Mum, i don't wanna go the store. Malas, i just want to stay at home.(because by going out=i am revealing my aurat=i don't want to go) My mum: Just teman me la. Don't sulk. Me: Fine. But i thought you and daddy already bought the stuffs earlier. What's the point of buying again?? My mum: We haven't bought the drinks. Remember? Me: Hmm. Ok then. My mum: By the way, i'm asking Y(my mum's cousin and also a caterer, so most people in my town knew her) to cook the chicken curry for the guests later. Me: Why don't you cook it yourself?(my mum is a good cook, seriously) My mum: Well, Y is a Muslim. So, at least when the Muslim guests came to our house, i can say that Y's the one who cooked it and then they won't hesitate to eat it. Get what i mean? Me: Ooooooo...hm. So, we f...

Okay, so, this is my "telekung". I'll use my teddy bear as a model. Okay, the teddy bear look scary because my baby brother plucked out its eyes. Poor bear. =( p/s: Yes, i prayed in this condition, using a blanket to cover up.

I am sure that everyone of us has faced this kind of moments, which i call "Now What? and What Next?" moments. It occurs after we dealt with our problems or obstacles. And you're unsure of the future. Like me, i get a lot of this moments. I think most of you are still wondering what exactly do i mean by this "Now What? and What Next?" moments. For example, Since the last few months, I've been facing troubles regarding my Islam Card. In order to get my Islam card, i have to attend a 5 day Saudara Baru course but I can't go to the JAIS course because if i do, i will jeopardize my terms with JPA which require me to attend class for at least 90% attendance, and also, with the exam coming near and a lot of syllabus to catch up, i just can't afford to skip class. The problem here is that, the time range of the course itself, which will cause me to be left behind in class if i were to attend. And the course is also held at Kuala Selangor which is far aw...