1.
I is for I don't know.
That's pretty much my mantra anymore.
I don't know about teenagers or what is going on in this world or why COVID is the weirdest thing that ever happened or the internet. All the things, I just don't know.
When I pray, it's mostly just me saying I don't know, I don't know, etc.
And I swear to you this has been me for a long time, so today when I saw this artwork thingy on instagram:
I was like: um what. who highjacked my picture and my thoughts and put them on the internet?
So yeah, I don't know.
2. Avery is sitting here telling me about middle school stuff, friends who have crushes and stuff like that, and I have to promise not to tell their mom.
Andrew came along and interrupted us to read his table of contents for the book he is writing. Koda is laying on my feet. Jim is beside me studying pilot stuff because he is flying for the first time as captain on Sunday. Evan is drumming on his practice pad. I can't wait for him to get that snare drum he asked for.
3. Me and Jim and Koda walk around Lincoln park in the dark while Evan is at basketball practice.
Jim brings a bright flashlight and I wear a dim headlamp. The cold air feels so good as we walk up and down the trails.
Tuesday a baby owl flew and landed on this branch in front of us. It was so cute. Fluffy. Eyes glued on Koda. Mama hooting deep in the forest.
4. This dang dog. So many times throughout the day I yell "I hate you!" to her, but I don't hate her.
She is a stinker, but she's also lovely. She's a good dog. So loyal. So cuddly.
It's hard to explain how you can have two extreme feelings for something, but I feel so much comfort and love from her. She just wants to be right next to us. Right at my feet as I make dinner.
One night I felt crappy and I was laying in bed trying to sleep it off, and she lay right by my legs. The feeling of her warm, loving body next to me felt so...healing.
Jim is her absolute boyfriend. She licks his face OFF in the morning.
5. One night Andrew sat by Jim and asked "do you like being a dad?"
He laughed and said yes and they talked about stuff.
6. Guys. When I think about Alex Trebek not being in this world anymore, I can't believe it.
He's childhood staple. It means I'm so old. It means Jeopardy will never be the same.
7. There are three shepherds in this picture. Me Lisa and Lindsay take our dog pack to the rockpile and it just hit me today that for some reason we each have a shepherd. How did we get there? Covid.
The last third of the walk is in the dark because the sun goes down so early, and we refuse to be bossed around by the dark anymore.
8. A Galbraith sesh where the boys took the dogs, then "rinsed" them off in a nearby ditch.
Then we go eat a burger at 5 Guys.
9. Avery got braces! What a dang teenager, right?
10. Yesterday Me and Roxanne climbed up Chuckanut mountain. I love it so much.
She has teenagers, so she helps me wade through this new territory.
Every single mom who has teenagers says the following:
"I don't know"
and somehow that is very helpful.
And this:
all the water in the world can't sink a boat unless the water gets inside that boat.
10. Sunday for family home evening we took turns showing our best dance moves and then everyone said something nice about that person - "let your words tend to edifying one another."
Andrew did some amazing break dance moves. I don't even know where he learned/saw break dancing, but it was amazing.
Then I told Alexa to play some dance music and I danced and the children were so embarrassed. Avery literally hid her face and told me to stop. Evan die laughed.
No one else would dance, but we still said nice things to each other.
mommmm. stopppp.
11. Evan made these snowmen out of the first snow of the season.
12. Avery made this wreath in her horticulture class.