i'm such a baby

is it bad that i cry when i read my own posts?

i do.

i can't help it.

that feeling just comes back with out even being invited.
(go away you mean feeling you)

i really should try to look at the bright side of things.

he's up there probably telling all the sibs future

children about how silly we all are.

he probably isn't even sad at all.

and he probably feels like hardly anytime has passed since the last time

i hugged him.

even though it feels

so. long.

and now that its nearly may...

its that month.

the one where i got that phone call that changed everything.

will it get better after this month?

i hope so.

until then, i'll put on a happy face and maybe.

just maybe.

the tears won't come too often

slacker

thats me, i'm a slacker. i don't know why i haven't really been writing lately... but i haven't. so here's the long and short of it. i lost my job on tuesday at about the same time that i came down with a nasty case of a flu. i'm slowly recovering from the flu and my ego is recovering as well. hopefully i'll get better quickly and i'll i find a job as well.