Monday, May 31, 2010
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Almost a week
So, its been almost a week since I have blogged. Hubby pointed that out to me last night and said he didn't like it. Funny..he lives with me 24/7 yet he likes to read my blog.
*I am on Week 3 Day 1 of my running program. And I'm seeing a difference. Week 1 was walk 6 minutes, run 1 minute and repeat 3 times. By the 3rd time I was struggling to finish. Maybe even finished a few seconds short. Week 2 was walk 5 minutes and run 2 minutes, repeat 3 times. The first couple of times I couldn't even do the 3rd repeat. By the end of the week it was easy peasy. This morning was the start of week 3 day 1 and I looked up my program and saw for w3d1- walk 3 minutes, run 3 minutes, repeat 4 times and my first thought was..I cant do that.
But I did it. Easily. Minus my legs hurting. I can breathe fine and have the energy but my legs are so sore. So...we will see how this week goes. The program says to do this 4 days a week, but I have been doing 5-6 days a week.
And now, with my handy dandy treadmill in Caden's room...its even easier to hop on and run with the AC in the house. Compared to outside where you feel like you cant breathe because its so darn hot and humid out. Yay for the rainy season coming up.
*Its hard to say how much weight I have lost. The very first weigh in could have been a mistake. I thought I saw it say 149 but the next morning I read 156. I don't know if I made a mistake or I gained 7 pounds overnight due to a new monthly cycle starting just a week later. I feel like I lost weight. Clothes are fitting better and I'm able to wear a few shirts that I haven't been able to wear in a while. So I think its safe to say I made a mistake on that first weigh in and I have lost 7 pounds.
*Caden has finished sweet potatoes, and applesauce and now we are working on squash and bananas which both he likes so far. He is such a pork chop. Eating half a jar of baby food twice a day mixed with a scoop of cereal. And hes not even 4 months old yet.
*Both Kayla and Caden are now in size 4 diapers.
*We are getting our family pictures taken today! Our first family pictures since before Caden was born. The first family pictures since Kayla was 6 months old...so its very much over due.
*I am on Week 3 Day 1 of my running program. And I'm seeing a difference. Week 1 was walk 6 minutes, run 1 minute and repeat 3 times. By the 3rd time I was struggling to finish. Maybe even finished a few seconds short. Week 2 was walk 5 minutes and run 2 minutes, repeat 3 times. The first couple of times I couldn't even do the 3rd repeat. By the end of the week it was easy peasy. This morning was the start of week 3 day 1 and I looked up my program and saw for w3d1- walk 3 minutes, run 3 minutes, repeat 4 times and my first thought was..I cant do that.
But I did it. Easily. Minus my legs hurting. I can breathe fine and have the energy but my legs are so sore. So...we will see how this week goes. The program says to do this 4 days a week, but I have been doing 5-6 days a week.
And now, with my handy dandy treadmill in Caden's room...its even easier to hop on and run with the AC in the house. Compared to outside where you feel like you cant breathe because its so darn hot and humid out. Yay for the rainy season coming up.
*Its hard to say how much weight I have lost. The very first weigh in could have been a mistake. I thought I saw it say 149 but the next morning I read 156. I don't know if I made a mistake or I gained 7 pounds overnight due to a new monthly cycle starting just a week later. I feel like I lost weight. Clothes are fitting better and I'm able to wear a few shirts that I haven't been able to wear in a while. So I think its safe to say I made a mistake on that first weigh in and I have lost 7 pounds.
*Caden has finished sweet potatoes, and applesauce and now we are working on squash and bananas which both he likes so far. He is such a pork chop. Eating half a jar of baby food twice a day mixed with a scoop of cereal. And hes not even 4 months old yet.
*Both Kayla and Caden are now in size 4 diapers.
*We are getting our family pictures taken today! Our first family pictures since before Caden was born. The first family pictures since Kayla was 6 months old...so its very much over due.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Monday, May 24, 2010
Birth Father Package
Im going to kind of Copy Mrs. R.'s idea here. Many times before she has blogged about ideas to making 'care' packages for Birth Mothers. I'm not short handed for ideas for our Birth Mother (at the moment, look for future blogging about this!), however I do have trouble coming up with things for Kayla's Birth Father. After all, he is a man. What would have special meaning to him as opposed to a woman, Kayla and Caden's Birth Mother?
(If you have any ideas or advice on this topic please dont hesitate to leave a comment.)
As of right now, in his 'care' package is:
*One of the papers Kayla finger painted during her first finger paint session.
*A blue sun dress in size 18 months that she used to wear a lot, but has outgrown.
*Some root beer barrel candies, because Kayla loves to drink Root Beer as an occasional treat. (She also loves root beer floats)
*A pamphlet from the base library because last month I started taking her to the library and she cant get enough of that place.
*Im currently waiting to hear back from her Birth Father to find out if he drinks coffee. My reasoning is to have Kayla dip plastic white spoons in chocolate, let them harden and then wrap them up in clear cellophane and ribbon. Then when he drinks his morning coffee he can use a chocolate covered plastic spoon made by Kayla to stir.
(added to note: He does drink coffee sometimes, but I didnt get to make the chocolate spoons before I mailed the package)
*And:
This 4x6 picture of Kayla:
And..
as of this morning, my weight is still at 151. Nothing lost over the weekend, but I ate nicely at a bbq on saturday :)
(If you have any ideas or advice on this topic please dont hesitate to leave a comment.)
As of right now, in his 'care' package is:
*One of the papers Kayla finger painted during her first finger paint session.
*A blue sun dress in size 18 months that she used to wear a lot, but has outgrown.
*Some root beer barrel candies, because Kayla loves to drink Root Beer as an occasional treat. (She also loves root beer floats)
*A pamphlet from the base library because last month I started taking her to the library and she cant get enough of that place.
*Im currently waiting to hear back from her Birth Father to find out if he drinks coffee. My reasoning is to have Kayla dip plastic white spoons in chocolate, let them harden and then wrap them up in clear cellophane and ribbon. Then when he drinks his morning coffee he can use a chocolate covered plastic spoon made by Kayla to stir.
(added to note: He does drink coffee sometimes, but I didnt get to make the chocolate spoons before I mailed the package)
*And:
This 4x6 picture of Kayla:
And..
as of this morning, my weight is still at 151. Nothing lost over the weekend, but I ate nicely at a bbq on saturday :)
Saturday, May 22, 2010
Random Updates
** Kayla is still teething terribly. Today is day 4 of this. She still has a light fever, but mostly is just in pain. Still only 1 of the 4 canine teeth are through. The other 3 are just big white bubbles that look like they are going to burst a tooth the size of a shark. She has 3 fever blisters now all on the inside bottom lip. She is just miserable.
** Still haven't got any tylenol or motrin at any stores here on island but I did score an unopened bottle of children's ibuprofen. Kayla's motrin bottle is now gone, so we will start this, this evening. Hopefully before that runs out she will be all better, or we come across some more meds somehow.
** Caden is up to 16 pounds and hes not even 4 months old until June 4th. He is only 5 lbs less than Kayla now. He is quickly growing out of almost all of his pajamas. I scored some clothes this morning that a lady is selling for $1 a piece that I will get to pick up on Monday!
** He is reaching for his feet and anything within his reach. He has finished one week of rice cereal mixed with sweet potatoes, so onto the next: applesauce. He is becoming a pro in his Jumperoo. We are still waiting for him to release his laugh, he is so close!
** I am down 5 pounds. Still cant run worth anything, but Im taking long heavy walks and also doing the walk 6 mins/ run 1 min thing, repeat 3 times. The scale this morning said 151.
** Find a great Key Lime Pie recipe here: http://michellespathofrecipes.blogspot.com/
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Fever
Last night I only did a walk. My legs were so sore!!
Kayla has had a terrible fever for 2 days now. Yesterday at 5 am it started. My poor girl. I dont even know what to say. I just hate seeing her like this. She is OK after a nice dose of Motrin, for a couple hours her temp will stay steady at 99, then it just all hits her again. She will sky rocket back up to 102. At this point she is too tired to cry...she just climbs up to the couch and falls asleep. Once it goes down to 101-100 she has just enough energy to cry and be miserable.
She has 4 teeth coming in. Both the 2 on top and 2 on bottom, canine teeth.
I took her into the doc today hoping we could get some prescription tylenol. The bx is all out due to a recall. But even the clinic is out. The shipment hasn't come in yet. This rock we live on just kills me sometimes. The doc said to go downtown to a local grocery store to get some...but I didnt realize until I got home that they too would probably be out. Its a recall for goodness sake. A worldwide recall. So they too most likely wont have it.
Im down to one half bottle of motrin. And hoping that we can find something else weather it be a children's ibuprofen or a non name brand something. Anything.
Is it time to move off this tiny rock in the middle of nowhere in the pacific ocean yet???
Kayla has had a terrible fever for 2 days now. Yesterday at 5 am it started. My poor girl. I dont even know what to say. I just hate seeing her like this. She is OK after a nice dose of Motrin, for a couple hours her temp will stay steady at 99, then it just all hits her again. She will sky rocket back up to 102. At this point she is too tired to cry...she just climbs up to the couch and falls asleep. Once it goes down to 101-100 she has just enough energy to cry and be miserable.
She has 4 teeth coming in. Both the 2 on top and 2 on bottom, canine teeth.
I took her into the doc today hoping we could get some prescription tylenol. The bx is all out due to a recall. But even the clinic is out. The shipment hasn't come in yet. This rock we live on just kills me sometimes. The doc said to go downtown to a local grocery store to get some...but I didnt realize until I got home that they too would probably be out. Its a recall for goodness sake. A worldwide recall. So they too most likely wont have it.
Im down to one half bottle of motrin. And hoping that we can find something else weather it be a children's ibuprofen or a non name brand something. Anything.
Is it time to move off this tiny rock in the middle of nowhere in the pacific ocean yet???
Monday, May 17, 2010
Exercise goals and rewards and current status
Where I am currently, my goals and my rewards.
Currently:
First let me just say, either I cant read or my scale is nuts or the saying you can gain up to pounds before the start of a new monthly cycle is true. 2 days ago I got on the scale, 149. Yesterday I got on the scale, 155. What?? I cant gain 6 lbs over night. Time for a new digital scale. I weigh more than I thought I did which makes me feel even worse. I havent yet gotten on it this morning.
Currently:
The day I decided to do something about myself, I went out and bought a new pair of running shoes. $63.50 later I came home with these babies.
Ok, here is more serious picture of new said shoes.
I wanted to come home with a nice new sports bra, but that didnt happen. The BX did not have my size. I will continue to look though.
2 night's ago's session. 2 nights ago was Day 1 of Week 1 and it kicked my butt. I was able to finish doing the brisk walking for 6 minutes then jogging for 1 minute, 3 times. The first set was good, the 2nd set was hard then 3rd set I struggled but I did make it.
Last night's session was Day 2 of Week 1, the same brisk walking for 6 minutes and then one minute of jogging. Only this time I went with a friend. The results were the same. The first round was ok, the second round was hard and the third round I struggled. Then I did run an extra 45 seconds after the 3rd round. My legs HURT. Ever inch of them. But this morning just my thighs are sore.
This morning will start off with a brisk 9 am walk with another friend.
Goals and rewards:
My ultimate goal is to lose 20 pounds. That would put me at 129 pounds.
Once Im down 5 pounds I will allow myself a $30 shopping trip FOR MYSELF. Not the kids, not my husband, not a friend or a family...but for MYSELF. I know this isn't much, but hey..this is only after losing 5 pounds!
Once down 10 pounds I will allow myself to replace the belly button ring that I been wanting to replace but have gone without because I think to myself, "Why get one when I wont be showing my belly anyways? I need to lose weight first." Also, buy a new bathing suit!
Once down 15 pounds I will allow myself a $60 shopping trip.
Once down 20 pounds...Im not sure yet. I wish I could see myself losing this much weight, but that is a lot of work. Work Im trying to push myself to get through. Once I loose a little...maybe I will totally redo this goal/reward list and come up with something good.
**The scale says 154 this morning.** Never imagined myself ever reaching this weight. Wow. Im still in shock. I guess 5 years of infertility and 2 babies can do that to a person. I have really let myself go.
Currently:
First let me just say, either I cant read or my scale is nuts or the saying you can gain up to pounds before the start of a new monthly cycle is true. 2 days ago I got on the scale, 149. Yesterday I got on the scale, 155. What?? I cant gain 6 lbs over night. Time for a new digital scale. I weigh more than I thought I did which makes me feel even worse. I havent yet gotten on it this morning.
Currently:
The day I decided to do something about myself, I went out and bought a new pair of running shoes. $63.50 later I came home with these babies.
Ok, here is more serious picture of new said shoes.
I wanted to come home with a nice new sports bra, but that didnt happen. The BX did not have my size. I will continue to look though.
2 night's ago's session. 2 nights ago was Day 1 of Week 1 and it kicked my butt. I was able to finish doing the brisk walking for 6 minutes then jogging for 1 minute, 3 times. The first set was good, the 2nd set was hard then 3rd set I struggled but I did make it.
Last night's session was Day 2 of Week 1, the same brisk walking for 6 minutes and then one minute of jogging. Only this time I went with a friend. The results were the same. The first round was ok, the second round was hard and the third round I struggled. Then I did run an extra 45 seconds after the 3rd round. My legs HURT. Ever inch of them. But this morning just my thighs are sore.
This morning will start off with a brisk 9 am walk with another friend.
Goals and rewards:
My ultimate goal is to lose 20 pounds. That would put me at 129 pounds.
Once Im down 5 pounds I will allow myself a $30 shopping trip FOR MYSELF. Not the kids, not my husband, not a friend or a family...but for MYSELF. I know this isn't much, but hey..this is only after losing 5 pounds!
Once down 10 pounds I will allow myself to replace the belly button ring that I been wanting to replace but have gone without because I think to myself, "Why get one when I wont be showing my belly anyways? I need to lose weight first." Also, buy a new bathing suit!
Once down 15 pounds I will allow myself a $60 shopping trip.
Once down 20 pounds...Im not sure yet. I wish I could see myself losing this much weight, but that is a lot of work. Work Im trying to push myself to get through. Once I loose a little...maybe I will totally redo this goal/reward list and come up with something good.
**The scale says 154 this morning.** Never imagined myself ever reaching this weight. Wow. Im still in shock. I guess 5 years of infertility and 2 babies can do that to a person. I have really let myself go.
RIP Bandit ♥
1993-17 May 2010
Bandit had a very long happy life. There's not much to say. There arent words to say how much we will all miss him. Crazy how animals can take to a family just like a human can...or in our case better than some humans can.
" A pet is a special part of your family who will always have a special place in your heart".
They are gone from our sight, but never our memory, Gone from our hearing but never our hearts, Gone from our touch but their presence is felt, And the love that they gave us never departs.
Bandit had a very long happy life. There's not much to say. There arent words to say how much we will all miss him. Crazy how animals can take to a family just like a human can...or in our case better than some humans can.
" A pet is a special part of your family who will always have a special place in your heart".
They are gone from our sight, but never our memory, Gone from our hearing but never our hearts, Gone from our touch but their presence is felt, And the love that they gave us never departs.
Learning to run in 8 weeks
Alright, so time to do something with myself. I think learning to run will make me a better Wife and a better Mother in so many different areas.
1. More confidence in myself which in turn will make me a better wife for many reasons.
2. Some time to myself which in turn will make me a better Mother for many reasons.
Problem is....I CAN NOT RUN. Never have, not even as a kid.
If I work at it, I think this problem can be solved.
My other problem is, I need help keeping motivated.
My plan?
My plan is an 8 week plan to teach myself how to run.
Week one: Walk for 6 minutes, then jog at an easy pace for 1 minute. Repeat 3 times. Aim for three sessions with that same sequence for week one.
Week two: Walk for 5 minutes, then jog for 2 minutes. Repeat 3 times. Aim to do three sessions in week two.
Week three: Walk for 3 minutes, then jog for 4 minutes. Repeat 4 times. Aim for four sessions in week three.
Week four: Walk for 2 minutes, then jog for 5 minutes. Repeat 4 times. Shoot for four of those sessions in week four.
Week five: Walk for 2 minutes, then jog for 8 minutes. Repeat 3 times. Do four of those sessions in week five.
Week six: Walk for 2 minutes, then jog for 9 minutes. Repeat 3 times. Try to do four sessions for week six.
Week seven: Walk for 1 minute, then jog for 11 minutes. Repeat 3 times. Do four sessions this week.
Week eight: Congratulations on making it to week eight! For your first run this week, try walking for 5 minutes to begin and end the workout, and run for 20 minutes in between. By the end of the week, try to run for 30 minutes without stopping.
Aim to run for 30 minutes four times a week, and you'll notice that your stamina and fitness will continue to improve. Soon you'll be ready to run your first 5K!
Tips:
Use your breathing as your guide when running. You should be able to carry on a conversation while running and your breathing shouldn't be heavy.
The first day of week one begins tonight. When Nick gets home from work I will be making a trip to the BX to get a pair of running shoes and cost is not going to be a factor. I will not let it. (My old pair hurt my feet and I ruined them by mowing the lawn in them)
I know I have posted about diet plans on here several times but after I while I never stick with them because I dont see much difference. This combined with running, I think will be much better. I think.
This isnt a promise. Just a plan. Lets hope I can stick with it.
I will let you know how it goes.
Monday May 17;day one of week one;149 pounds
1. More confidence in myself which in turn will make me a better wife for many reasons.
2. Some time to myself which in turn will make me a better Mother for many reasons.
Problem is....I CAN NOT RUN. Never have, not even as a kid.
If I work at it, I think this problem can be solved.
My other problem is, I need help keeping motivated.
My plan?
My plan is an 8 week plan to teach myself how to run.
Week one: Walk for 6 minutes, then jog at an easy pace for 1 minute. Repeat 3 times. Aim for three sessions with that same sequence for week one.
Week two: Walk for 5 minutes, then jog for 2 minutes. Repeat 3 times. Aim to do three sessions in week two.
Week three: Walk for 3 minutes, then jog for 4 minutes. Repeat 4 times. Aim for four sessions in week three.
Week four: Walk for 2 minutes, then jog for 5 minutes. Repeat 4 times. Shoot for four of those sessions in week four.
Week five: Walk for 2 minutes, then jog for 8 minutes. Repeat 3 times. Do four of those sessions in week five.
Week six: Walk for 2 minutes, then jog for 9 minutes. Repeat 3 times. Try to do four sessions for week six.
Week seven: Walk for 1 minute, then jog for 11 minutes. Repeat 3 times. Do four sessions this week.
Week eight: Congratulations on making it to week eight! For your first run this week, try walking for 5 minutes to begin and end the workout, and run for 20 minutes in between. By the end of the week, try to run for 30 minutes without stopping.
Aim to run for 30 minutes four times a week, and you'll notice that your stamina and fitness will continue to improve. Soon you'll be ready to run your first 5K!
Tips:
Use your breathing as your guide when running. You should be able to carry on a conversation while running and your breathing shouldn't be heavy.
The first day of week one begins tonight. When Nick gets home from work I will be making a trip to the BX to get a pair of running shoes and cost is not going to be a factor. I will not let it. (My old pair hurt my feet and I ruined them by mowing the lawn in them)
I know I have posted about diet plans on here several times but after I while I never stick with them because I dont see much difference. This combined with running, I think will be much better. I think.
This isnt a promise. Just a plan. Lets hope I can stick with it.
I will let you know how it goes.
Monday May 17;day one of week one;149 pounds
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Ladies and Gentleman...We have..
A TOOTH!
Caden has a tooth. Yes. A tooth. He is only 3.5 months old! I thought I saw something yesterday so I asked a friend to check it out and I wasnt crazy...she saw it too.
This morning, I know I def see a tooth. Its white and starting to poke through it his gums already.
How is this possible?!
Caden has a tooth. Yes. A tooth. He is only 3.5 months old! I thought I saw something yesterday so I asked a friend to check it out and I wasnt crazy...she saw it too.
This morning, I know I def see a tooth. Its white and starting to poke through it his gums already.
How is this possible?!
Thursday, May 13, 2010
1, 2 and 3 years ago- kind of long post
I thought it would be neat to dig back into my blog 1 year ago, 2 years ago and 3 years ago to see where at in life we were. Funny I decided to do this today, this morning on this date. Today, 2 years ago is when I announced to everyone on my blog, "It's a girl." Up until that post, I had posted no details. Anyways, my blog from THREE years ago, 2007 when Nick was deployed and I was trying to conceive without him. (Boy, that sounds funny)
Nothing to report. I helped some good friends move over the weekend. That kicked my butt and Sunday I was feeling horribly worn out. But Im ok now.
I wasnt going to post much detail on here about our TTC again. This cycle is going to be very low key, very relaxed, very calm, very happy, and no stress. I'm not going to obsess over it, Im not going to talk about it, Im not going to post about it. Im not telling any family members details just to keep my sanity. My family reads this, so I cant post much detail on here. But I will let you all know that I have finished my fertility medication ( clomid ) for this cycle.
I also cant post a date that Nick will be home, but we are down to close to 3 weeks now. Not much longer at all. I cant wait. It's going to be crazy at first getting used to him being home again after 7 months without him. I cant wait!
TWO years ago, 2008:
We are preparing to adopt! Can you believe it?
I hardly can. I'm sitting here and don't even know what to type. I'm speechless, wordless. I cant even think of the proper words to describe what is happening. I don't think they exist. Maybe I can invent them? I'm so happy. As happy as I have ever been in years. But, I'm not letting myself get excited just yet. In my heart of course I am excited, but in my mind I know that things could quickly change. Just like the 2 miscarriages we had. But it's crazy how everything is just falling into place. Everything is just falling right here, right into our lap...and if you have been a sincere blog reader for the past 1 1/2 years of my blogging life, you know things don't fall on our lap. Never. But it is. Things are falling into place and it is a surreal feeling. It feels so right. Could our dream really be coming true? Could one unselfish, courageous, brave young girl love her baby so much so, that she wants a better life for her, so she will be placing OUR dream into our arms?
I'd like to think that it all has fallen into place for a many reasons. Our orders to Guam- if we wouldn't have gotten orders to Guam when we did we wouldn't have rushed into IVF when we did. Our miscarriage- if it wouldn't have happened at the time it did we would not have built our website at the time we did. If Aunt Deb wouldn't have said Goodbye so soon, Mom would not have been able to send her an email to heaven asking her to help us. And the 'what-if's' can go all the way back to the 7th grade. Yep, 7th grade when I was 12 years old. You want to know how? Because 7th grade is when I met my friend Jen Snead. There are so many 'IF's' in all of this that I would like to think it is all falling into place for a reason. I cant even begin to explain the feeling.
And before all this came about, miraculously about 2 weeks before, I had been waking up in the morning with a new sense of hope. A new strength, a stronger belief in God. I felt more than ever that God had bigger better plans for us and I was at peace with that. I was at Peace with the 2 angel babies that left us. I was OK.
So the details you ask? I will post what details I feel comfortable sharing. And maybe as time goes on and I feel more confident in what is unfolding, I will post more.
So how does Jen come into play? Let me tell you. Jen Snead has a cousin who has a friend who has a sister. The sister (who we call K on this board) was told about our website not long after we made it. But it took her a while to look at our website. She finally did and decided WE are the family shes been looking for. "WHAT?" you say? Because I said the same thing. Are we lucky enough to be chosen for a baby so special? And with God's perfect timing?
K is due on August 3rd, with a baby girl. Which just tops it all and makes it that much more sweeter. Because you see, Nick and I been secretly hoping for a baby girl. Of course either boy or girl would be absolutely perfect for us, but I just saw us with a baby girl. I have dreams of a baby girl, shopping for a baby girl. I think of Nick's parents spoiling our baby girl. I am drawn to baby girl names, toys, cloths, Daddy and Daughter events. I can just see Nick being wrapped around his little girl's fingers.
And August 3rd? Well, August is the month we got married SIX years ago. July 4th is the day we started TTC on our own 5 years ago. Baby girl's due date is suspiciously close to these 2 dates. For the past 5 years, I have always wondered what month our future baby will be born in.
We do not have a name for her. For many reasons, 1 being I don't want to get attached yet. There is always that what if. Even though this just FEELS so real and right, I don't want to be attached just yet. And 2- no names have spoken to me. I have a few that we like but nothing that says "You just know." So for now- she is just Baby Girl.
Even though we, we as in Nick and I and K, are sure and feel this is right, I plan to take a trip back the states to visit with K. I want to know her. When Baby Girl asks about her, I want to be able to answer her. I want her to be able to know what her birth mom is like and I want her to know how special she and her birth mom are.
I want to meet K's family, her mom and sister. I want them to be as happy as K is with us. I want them to all know so much, that Baby Girl is going to be so loved, so taken care of, so nurtured, so smart and have all the opportunities life has to offer, and not to mention so spoiled.
Well, I wont bore you with the details of the legalities. Just sit there and take in all this information. Pray for us and for K and her family. Pray that things will just continue to fall into place. Thank God, Thank Aunt Deb, Thank Poppy for everything that has lined up for us. Please hope for things to continue to line up the way they should. Pray this is what is meant to happen. Most of all Pray that it works out and no one will get hurt.
Thank you ladies for the team of support you give me. I wouldn't be here without you all.
ONE year ago, 2009:
Kayla wasn't herself yesterday.
This morning she woke up in tears. This NEVER happens. She was hot. I took her temp...100.1 and then I gave her a bottle. Which ended up all over me 10 miuntes later. Apple juice seems be staying down.
My poor girl.
I hate seeing her sick.
I hate it.
I hate it.
I HATE IT.
Pretty neat if you ask me.
Nothing to report. I helped some good friends move over the weekend. That kicked my butt and Sunday I was feeling horribly worn out. But Im ok now.
I wasnt going to post much detail on here about our TTC again. This cycle is going to be very low key, very relaxed, very calm, very happy, and no stress. I'm not going to obsess over it, Im not going to talk about it, Im not going to post about it. Im not telling any family members details just to keep my sanity. My family reads this, so I cant post much detail on here. But I will let you all know that I have finished my fertility medication ( clomid ) for this cycle.
I also cant post a date that Nick will be home, but we are down to close to 3 weeks now. Not much longer at all. I cant wait. It's going to be crazy at first getting used to him being home again after 7 months without him. I cant wait!
TWO years ago, 2008:
We are preparing to adopt! Can you believe it?
I hardly can. I'm sitting here and don't even know what to type. I'm speechless, wordless. I cant even think of the proper words to describe what is happening. I don't think they exist. Maybe I can invent them? I'm so happy. As happy as I have ever been in years. But, I'm not letting myself get excited just yet. In my heart of course I am excited, but in my mind I know that things could quickly change. Just like the 2 miscarriages we had. But it's crazy how everything is just falling into place. Everything is just falling right here, right into our lap...and if you have been a sincere blog reader for the past 1 1/2 years of my blogging life, you know things don't fall on our lap. Never. But it is. Things are falling into place and it is a surreal feeling. It feels so right. Could our dream really be coming true? Could one unselfish, courageous, brave young girl love her baby so much so, that she wants a better life for her, so she will be placing OUR dream into our arms?
I'd like to think that it all has fallen into place for a many reasons. Our orders to Guam- if we wouldn't have gotten orders to Guam when we did we wouldn't have rushed into IVF when we did. Our miscarriage- if it wouldn't have happened at the time it did we would not have built our website at the time we did. If Aunt Deb wouldn't have said Goodbye so soon, Mom would not have been able to send her an email to heaven asking her to help us. And the 'what-if's' can go all the way back to the 7th grade. Yep, 7th grade when I was 12 years old. You want to know how? Because 7th grade is when I met my friend Jen Snead. There are so many 'IF's' in all of this that I would like to think it is all falling into place for a reason. I cant even begin to explain the feeling.
And before all this came about, miraculously about 2 weeks before, I had been waking up in the morning with a new sense of hope. A new strength, a stronger belief in God. I felt more than ever that God had bigger better plans for us and I was at peace with that. I was at Peace with the 2 angel babies that left us. I was OK.
So the details you ask? I will post what details I feel comfortable sharing. And maybe as time goes on and I feel more confident in what is unfolding, I will post more.
So how does Jen come into play? Let me tell you. Jen Snead has a cousin who has a friend who has a sister. The sister (who we call K on this board) was told about our website not long after we made it. But it took her a while to look at our website. She finally did and decided WE are the family shes been looking for. "WHAT?" you say? Because I said the same thing. Are we lucky enough to be chosen for a baby so special? And with God's perfect timing?
K is due on August 3rd, with a baby girl. Which just tops it all and makes it that much more sweeter. Because you see, Nick and I been secretly hoping for a baby girl. Of course either boy or girl would be absolutely perfect for us, but I just saw us with a baby girl. I have dreams of a baby girl, shopping for a baby girl. I think of Nick's parents spoiling our baby girl. I am drawn to baby girl names, toys, cloths, Daddy and Daughter events. I can just see Nick being wrapped around his little girl's fingers.
And August 3rd? Well, August is the month we got married SIX years ago. July 4th is the day we started TTC on our own 5 years ago. Baby girl's due date is suspiciously close to these 2 dates. For the past 5 years, I have always wondered what month our future baby will be born in.
We do not have a name for her. For many reasons, 1 being I don't want to get attached yet. There is always that what if. Even though this just FEELS so real and right, I don't want to be attached just yet. And 2- no names have spoken to me. I have a few that we like but nothing that says "You just know." So for now- she is just Baby Girl.
Even though we, we as in Nick and I and K, are sure and feel this is right, I plan to take a trip back the states to visit with K. I want to know her. When Baby Girl asks about her, I want to be able to answer her. I want her to be able to know what her birth mom is like and I want her to know how special she and her birth mom are.
I want to meet K's family, her mom and sister. I want them to be as happy as K is with us. I want them to all know so much, that Baby Girl is going to be so loved, so taken care of, so nurtured, so smart and have all the opportunities life has to offer, and not to mention so spoiled.
Well, I wont bore you with the details of the legalities. Just sit there and take in all this information. Pray for us and for K and her family. Pray that things will just continue to fall into place. Thank God, Thank Aunt Deb, Thank Poppy for everything that has lined up for us. Please hope for things to continue to line up the way they should. Pray this is what is meant to happen. Most of all Pray that it works out and no one will get hurt.
Thank you ladies for the team of support you give me. I wouldn't be here without you all.
ONE year ago, 2009:
Kayla wasn't herself yesterday.
This morning she woke up in tears. This NEVER happens. She was hot. I took her temp...100.1 and then I gave her a bottle. Which ended up all over me 10 miuntes later. Apple juice seems be staying down.
My poor girl.
I hate seeing her sick.
I hate it.
I hate it.
I HATE IT.
Pretty neat if you ask me.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Matt and Courtney- Hoping to Adopt
Matt and Courtney are hoping to adopt!
"Matt is a Pilot and Courtney is a Photographer. And we are your typical, fun loving, creative, slightly eccentric, popcorn loving, movie going, swing dancing, conservative, hot cocoa drinking, book devouring, ticklish, devoted couple! We've been married 7 wonderful years. And we are hoping to adopt!"
Visit them HERE.
Help them find their forever family by spreading the word.
Im 64
I took a quiz on Face.Book about what age I really am. And turns out Im not 26, Im 64. Some days I feel it. The results are right on. I am totally what the quiz results say I am.
Just took the quiz What Age Do You Act? and got the result: You Act Like You Are 64 Years Old
You are a mature adult. You've experienced a lot - and you definitely have some "street smarts." You've been through a lot, and it's hard to shake you. You can deal with most things that come your way. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. Enjoy it!
Just took the quiz What Age Do You Act? and got the result: You Act Like You Are 64 Years Old
You are a mature adult. You've experienced a lot - and you definitely have some "street smarts." You've been through a lot, and it's hard to shake you. You can deal with most things that come your way. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. Enjoy it!
Sunday, May 09, 2010
Food and Potty Training
1. Half of a grilled cheese sandwich on wheat bread
2. 1 whole cheese hot dog
3. 1 fruit cup of oranges
4. 2 bowls of strawberries
5. 1 bowl of rice
6. 1 banana
7. Another whole fruit cup oranges (minus a few that spilled on floor/table
8. A few bites of mac and cheese
9. 1 whole slice of Domino's pineapple/mushroom pizza
10. Another whole fruit cup of oranges
11. Almost a whole kiwi fruit
She also asked several times today for yogurt, which we are out of.
And now it's 7 pm and I hear her saying, "What do you want?" which indicates she is trying to figure out something else to ask for to eat.
I have a whole bowl of frozen fruit (topped with Sweet and Low) thawing out that she will eat most of. We like share this together on the couch before bed time a few times a week. She eats all the raspberries and blackberries and I get to eat all the cherries and blueberries.
Endless cups of Apple juice and Crystal Light's Cherry Pomegranate juice.
I did notice finally she has a tooth poking through, the top right pointy tooth!
Growing much?
Today 10 May 2010, I have committed myself to take 3 solid days of not leaving the house to potty train Kayla. Today I may just loose my mind. It's not going well. Its 15 minutes until noon and she has pooped once and peed in various places all over the house 4 times with only once on the potty and that was only because I made her sit there for 45 minutes, through tears and all. She sat there drinking from her cup. I tried to bribe her with books, chocolate and even presents. She did eventually pee but didn't even realize she did it. I just happened to check the potty and noticed she went. After that, she peed in the kitchen.
After all this she went on to slap her brother in the face 3 times. I was folding laundry and I could hear it and then I heard Caden scream. I asked Kayla if she hit brother in the face and she said Yes. Oh boy....
This is hard.
2. 1 whole cheese hot dog
3. 1 fruit cup of oranges
4. 2 bowls of strawberries
5. 1 bowl of rice
6. 1 banana
7. Another whole fruit cup oranges (minus a few that spilled on floor/table
8. A few bites of mac and cheese
9. 1 whole slice of Domino's pineapple/mushroom pizza
10. Another whole fruit cup of oranges
11. Almost a whole kiwi fruit
She also asked several times today for yogurt, which we are out of.
And now it's 7 pm and I hear her saying, "What do you want?" which indicates she is trying to figure out something else to ask for to eat.
I have a whole bowl of frozen fruit (topped with Sweet and Low) thawing out that she will eat most of. We like share this together on the couch before bed time a few times a week. She eats all the raspberries and blackberries and I get to eat all the cherries and blueberries.
Endless cups of Apple juice and Crystal Light's Cherry Pomegranate juice.
I did notice finally she has a tooth poking through, the top right pointy tooth!
Growing much?
Today 10 May 2010, I have committed myself to take 3 solid days of not leaving the house to potty train Kayla. Today I may just loose my mind. It's not going well. Its 15 minutes until noon and she has pooped once and peed in various places all over the house 4 times with only once on the potty and that was only because I made her sit there for 45 minutes, through tears and all. She sat there drinking from her cup. I tried to bribe her with books, chocolate and even presents. She did eventually pee but didn't even realize she did it. I just happened to check the potty and noticed she went. After that, she peed in the kitchen.
After all this she went on to slap her brother in the face 3 times. I was folding laundry and I could hear it and then I heard Caden scream. I asked Kayla if she hit brother in the face and she said Yes. Oh boy....
This is hard.
Saturday, May 08, 2010
Lost
Happenings in the Alessi household have gotten lost in the shuffle since my friend's tragic news. I thank each and everyone one of you who either read my blog and left a comment, or just thought of my friend and her family. Im still in the state of disbelief of all of this. Its like the things you see in horror movies and on the news to people you expect it from. Its like a bad dream that I can not wake her up out of.
There have been a lot death things going on. The 2nd anniversary of Aunt Deb's death, the 1st anniversary of my Pappy's death and my Great Grandma wrote me a card saying she forgot to tell me when I talked to her, that my Great Aunt Sofie passed away in March. This was a shock. I mean, she was in her 80's but still very unexpected. And then the even more unexpected loss of one of my only and best friend's parents.
Anyways, back to the Alessi household. Let's see. What's been going on here?
*May 3rd was our last final post placement visit for Caden's adoption! Finalization is still set for June 9th at 9 am. Because of the time difference and 8,000 miles between us and Jacksonville, FL we have to do a tele-conference on the phone at 11 PM June 9th our time at the on base legal office. It's going to stink dragging both babies out of bed at that time. Im NOT looking forward it, but dont get me wrong...it's oh so well worth it.
*Our big furry Pooh Bear turned 9 (NINE?!) years old on May 5th. Feels like there was never a life before him, only with him. He is still a big pest-y kitten at heart.
*May 4th Caden hit 3 months old. He is smiling a lot, fussing a lot (he is such a gassy baby) sleeping a lot, chewing on his hands a lot. He has certainly discovered chewing his hands. He has also discovered his voice! Yesterday May 8th he let out his very first giggle. Just to show how different blood siblings can be...Kayla didn't do any of this until 4 months old. However, I am predicting he will be behind on all the other things like sitting, standing, crawling. We shall see!
*Caden has slept from 7pm to 7am 2 days in a row with only one feeding at 3:30 am. This makes for a happy Mom.
*Kayla has a new fascination with being naked. Naked to her is wearing a diaper only, so most days we are hanging around at home, she's naked.
*Caden upgraded to a size 3 diaper. Kayla upgraded to a size 4 diaper, but only because she has gained some serious height. The 3's were too short for her and the 4's are too big in the waist. I need to seriously start potty training her. I just havent had the desire to commit to that yet.
*I (we) made my (our) first fondant cake. Pics and blog post about this to come later.
*Kayla is now 21 months old and I have her birthday theme set as Butterflies!
*Today is Mother's Day. Happy Mother's Day to all the Moms, birth moms, moms to be,moms who are still waiting, and moms who have angels because you are moms too.
If you would have told me last year, or even the year before, or even 3 years ago that by Mother's Day 2010 I would have TWO babies...I would have laughed at you.
There have been a lot death things going on. The 2nd anniversary of Aunt Deb's death, the 1st anniversary of my Pappy's death and my Great Grandma wrote me a card saying she forgot to tell me when I talked to her, that my Great Aunt Sofie passed away in March. This was a shock. I mean, she was in her 80's but still very unexpected. And then the even more unexpected loss of one of my only and best friend's parents.
Anyways, back to the Alessi household. Let's see. What's been going on here?
*May 3rd was our last final post placement visit for Caden's adoption! Finalization is still set for June 9th at 9 am. Because of the time difference and 8,000 miles between us and Jacksonville, FL we have to do a tele-conference on the phone at 11 PM June 9th our time at the on base legal office. It's going to stink dragging both babies out of bed at that time. Im NOT looking forward it, but dont get me wrong...it's oh so well worth it.
*Our big furry Pooh Bear turned 9 (NINE?!) years old on May 5th. Feels like there was never a life before him, only with him. He is still a big pest-y kitten at heart.
*May 4th Caden hit 3 months old. He is smiling a lot, fussing a lot (he is such a gassy baby) sleeping a lot, chewing on his hands a lot. He has certainly discovered chewing his hands. He has also discovered his voice! Yesterday May 8th he let out his very first giggle. Just to show how different blood siblings can be...Kayla didn't do any of this until 4 months old. However, I am predicting he will be behind on all the other things like sitting, standing, crawling. We shall see!
*Caden has slept from 7pm to 7am 2 days in a row with only one feeding at 3:30 am. This makes for a happy Mom.
*Kayla has a new fascination with being naked. Naked to her is wearing a diaper only, so most days we are hanging around at home, she's naked.
*Caden upgraded to a size 3 diaper. Kayla upgraded to a size 4 diaper, but only because she has gained some serious height. The 3's were too short for her and the 4's are too big in the waist. I need to seriously start potty training her. I just havent had the desire to commit to that yet.
*I (we) made my (our) first fondant cake. Pics and blog post about this to come later.
*Kayla is now 21 months old and I have her birthday theme set as Butterflies!
*Today is Mother's Day. Happy Mother's Day to all the Moms, birth moms, moms to be,moms who are still waiting, and moms who have angels because you are moms too.
If you would have told me last year, or even the year before, or even 3 years ago that by Mother's Day 2010 I would have TWO babies...I would have laughed at you.
Friday, May 07, 2010
update
News update here. Its not going well.
http://www.jacksonnewspapers.com/news/x289801192/BREAKING-NEWS-Police-investigating-apparent-murder-suicide-in-Ripley
http://www.jacksonnewspapers.com/news/x289801192/BREAKING-NEWS-Police-investigating-apparent-murder-suicide-in-Ripley
Thursday, May 06, 2010
Great regret
It is with GREAT regret that I have to sit down at my computer this morning and blog about this. But, this is my life. My blog is an open book. This is me take it and read it and support me, or leave it and run.
Jennifer Snead and I have been friends since the 8th grade. Like all good friends, we have had our moments. Those moments may have once lasted a year, maybe have lasted a week, may have lasted a couple days, maybe even a few minutes.
But now at 26 years old I can say I have held steady a friend since age 13? I dont know..how old are you in 8th grade?
She has always been there for me. Through high school, in my wedding party, she was there to say goodbye to me when I got married and left the United States. She was the only one for that.
Through our 5 years of infertility she was at the other end of my computer to talk at anytime. She is one of only TWO friends who make the sacrifice to come visit me whenever I get the opportunity to be in the United States. She had a big helping hand in our Birth Mother finding us. You can find that blog post from May 16, 2008 here.
And now, through this horrible, devastating, life changing, tremendous loss in her life, I cant be there for her. Really this loss has no words to describe how profound it really is.
My heart and my shoulders are so heavy thinking of all that she is now going through and all that she will go through in the coming days, weeks, months and years. She will not be the same old Jen Snead I have known for what seems like forever.
What I can do though, is be on the other end of the phone.
What I can do is please ask all of my blogger friends, everyone reading this right now, to please this very moment send prayers or thoughts of much needed strength to her.
And Jen- if by chance you are reading this...just like you did this morning, please call me at any time. Any time. I mean that. WE will get through this. You are not alone. Im not with you physically, but you never for a moment far from my thoughts. Since yesterday, YOU have been my thoughts.
There arent many details. I dont want to share the little bit of details Jen shared with me quite yet.
But here is the news article.
http://wboy.com/story.cfm?func=viewstory&storyid=79382
Jennifer Snead and I have been friends since the 8th grade. Like all good friends, we have had our moments. Those moments may have once lasted a year, maybe have lasted a week, may have lasted a couple days, maybe even a few minutes.
But now at 26 years old I can say I have held steady a friend since age 13? I dont know..how old are you in 8th grade?
She has always been there for me. Through high school, in my wedding party, she was there to say goodbye to me when I got married and left the United States. She was the only one for that.
Through our 5 years of infertility she was at the other end of my computer to talk at anytime. She is one of only TWO friends who make the sacrifice to come visit me whenever I get the opportunity to be in the United States. She had a big helping hand in our Birth Mother finding us. You can find that blog post from May 16, 2008 here.
And now, through this horrible, devastating, life changing, tremendous loss in her life, I cant be there for her. Really this loss has no words to describe how profound it really is.
My heart and my shoulders are so heavy thinking of all that she is now going through and all that she will go through in the coming days, weeks, months and years. She will not be the same old Jen Snead I have known for what seems like forever.
What I can do though, is be on the other end of the phone.
What I can do is please ask all of my blogger friends, everyone reading this right now, to please this very moment send prayers or thoughts of much needed strength to her.
And Jen- if by chance you are reading this...just like you did this morning, please call me at any time. Any time. I mean that. WE will get through this. You are not alone. Im not with you physically, but you never for a moment far from my thoughts. Since yesterday, YOU have been my thoughts.
There arent many details. I dont want to share the little bit of details Jen shared with me quite yet.
But here is the news article.
http://wboy.com/story.cfm?func=viewstory&storyid=79382
Wednesday, May 05, 2010
JENNIFER SNEAD SANSONI
JENNIFER SNEAD SANSONI
PLEASE get in touch with me asap, just in case you are reading my blog. Although at a time like this I am sure you are not. But Im trying every way possible to get in touch with you.
I am in shock. I cant believe it. It cant be true. You are not out my thoughts or heart for more than 10 seconds at a time. Im with you through this as much as I can being so far away.
Please get in touch with me, any way you can, any time you can.
Please.
Monday, May 03, 2010
3 May 2008
Blog post from today, 2 years ago. Hard to read this and know it was TWO YEARS ago. I totally believe she aided a higher power into matching us with a Birth Mother. Its too much of a miracle and perfect timing to be just a coincidence.
3 May 2008
Please everyone, say a prayer for Nick's Aunt Deb to pass quickly and peacefully.
About 2 weeks ago she was wondering her neighborhood in her nightgown, dazed and confused with a bloodied face and all she could say was she fell down the stairs.
A few tests later showed a tumor on the front part of her brain blocking her speech and balance. This explained why she was in the condition she was in when found.
After a biopsy, Lukemia was confirmed. Prognosis is grim. We just found out about this yesterday. Nick's Mom told us Aunt Deb was already unconsious and probably wont wake up. Mom told us she has a week. Today, according to the message Nick's Dad left us, she has much less time than that. They were headed to the hospital right then. I wish we were home to get the call. Unfortunatly we were volunteering our Saturday monring helping at a children's soap box derby.
I cant believe it. Its not fair. Shes only in her 50's. Its not fair. She was a kind woman. She had a big heart and loved to talk your ear off, a chatterbox. She often let us know that she was praying for our baby. She called me Cookie because I "was as smart as a cookie for my age." She would often times tell me the story of her and Uncle Fran having so much trouble getting pregnant. Then they started to adopt from China and then bam...she was pregnant. She always wanted to give me hope that it would happen. She always asked about my Mother, my family, knowing that I havent had any of their support. She would remind me that it would be ok, I had her and all of Nick's family to love me. She would tell me how proud of me she was, how happy she was that Nick choose me. She would tell me how strong I was and she had no doubt that I would be a mother. She would tell me she loved me just like she loved her biological nieces and nephews, like I was supposed to be part of the family.
It's all just so quick. So sudden and not fair. Not fair. Why?? Why cant the murderers, rapists, child molesters in jail rot like this? Why isnt it them who cant father children? I dont understand. I often times wonder if there really is a God. If there was a God, why would things happen like this? Why would so many good people be made to suffer? One week she is fine and then to only have just days to live? How? Why?
Aunt Deb was struggling to get through life. She was unhappy and unstable for many reasons for a while now, so I wonder if she is just ready to go. Me thinking that she is wanting and ready to go makes it a little more bearable.
Please pray she makes its safely, painlessly, and quickly. Pray that she will soon see her Father again and finally be happy again.
Pray that the family can get through this time. Her sisters- Nick's mom and Aunt Ellen, her daughter, her grandsons, her Mother, her nieces and nephews, her husband.
Maybe she can plea with God and get him to agree to send us our baby sooner rather than later. It really hurts me that she will not get to see Nick and I become parents. She has wanted this for us as much as we do. And she wont even be here to see it happen.
Its not fair.
Me, Mom, Aunt Ellen and Aunt Deb.
Today, 3 May 2010
It all makes sense now. As much as its not fair that she is not here to enjoy our babies with us, I understand. I understand why she is not here. I know she is happy and I am at peace with that. She was chosen for a reason, for many reasons, and I understand.
3 May 2008
Please everyone, say a prayer for Nick's Aunt Deb to pass quickly and peacefully.
About 2 weeks ago she was wondering her neighborhood in her nightgown, dazed and confused with a bloodied face and all she could say was she fell down the stairs.
A few tests later showed a tumor on the front part of her brain blocking her speech and balance. This explained why she was in the condition she was in when found.
After a biopsy, Lukemia was confirmed. Prognosis is grim. We just found out about this yesterday. Nick's Mom told us Aunt Deb was already unconsious and probably wont wake up. Mom told us she has a week. Today, according to the message Nick's Dad left us, she has much less time than that. They were headed to the hospital right then. I wish we were home to get the call. Unfortunatly we were volunteering our Saturday monring helping at a children's soap box derby.
I cant believe it. Its not fair. Shes only in her 50's. Its not fair. She was a kind woman. She had a big heart and loved to talk your ear off, a chatterbox. She often let us know that she was praying for our baby. She called me Cookie because I "was as smart as a cookie for my age." She would often times tell me the story of her and Uncle Fran having so much trouble getting pregnant. Then they started to adopt from China and then bam...she was pregnant. She always wanted to give me hope that it would happen. She always asked about my Mother, my family, knowing that I havent had any of their support. She would remind me that it would be ok, I had her and all of Nick's family to love me. She would tell me how proud of me she was, how happy she was that Nick choose me. She would tell me how strong I was and she had no doubt that I would be a mother. She would tell me she loved me just like she loved her biological nieces and nephews, like I was supposed to be part of the family.
It's all just so quick. So sudden and not fair. Not fair. Why?? Why cant the murderers, rapists, child molesters in jail rot like this? Why isnt it them who cant father children? I dont understand. I often times wonder if there really is a God. If there was a God, why would things happen like this? Why would so many good people be made to suffer? One week she is fine and then to only have just days to live? How? Why?
Aunt Deb was struggling to get through life. She was unhappy and unstable for many reasons for a while now, so I wonder if she is just ready to go. Me thinking that she is wanting and ready to go makes it a little more bearable.
Please pray she makes its safely, painlessly, and quickly. Pray that she will soon see her Father again and finally be happy again.
Pray that the family can get through this time. Her sisters- Nick's mom and Aunt Ellen, her daughter, her grandsons, her Mother, her nieces and nephews, her husband.
Maybe she can plea with God and get him to agree to send us our baby sooner rather than later. It really hurts me that she will not get to see Nick and I become parents. She has wanted this for us as much as we do. And she wont even be here to see it happen.
Its not fair.
Me, Mom, Aunt Ellen and Aunt Deb.
Today, 3 May 2010
It all makes sense now. As much as its not fair that she is not here to enjoy our babies with us, I understand. I understand why she is not here. I know she is happy and I am at peace with that. She was chosen for a reason, for many reasons, and I understand.
Sunday, May 02, 2010
Birth Mother's Graduation
I am happy to say that our Birth Mother is among the class of 2010. She was one of many, of the biggest class to graduate in the history of her high school for GED. She worked hard at finally getting her high school diploma and graduated this past Wednesday. She continues to go to college and will graduate in June from a 9 month program for medical coding. Her plan is to then go back to college to become a nurse and her goal is to work on the Labor and Delivery unit.
Its good to know her son is seeing her accomplish all this. And in the future it will great to know that Kayla and Caden will see what she has accomplished in her life.
Im also happy to say since Caden's birth she has been on the right rack. Keeping her head up, being a good Mom to her son, taking care of herself and not hanging out with the wrong crowd.
I hope it continues on this path!
*Im only showing blurring pictures because I doubt she would want her face all over my blog/the internet for anyone to see!
Its good to know her son is seeing her accomplish all this. And in the future it will great to know that Kayla and Caden will see what she has accomplished in her life.
Im also happy to say since Caden's birth she has been on the right rack. Keeping her head up, being a good Mom to her son, taking care of herself and not hanging out with the wrong crowd.
I hope it continues on this path!
*Im only showing blurring pictures because I doubt she would want her face all over my blog/the internet for anyone to see!
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