Infant items for sale!

I have 3 infant items up for sale. I have not put them on Ebay yet. I wanted to see if anyone here had an interest in them first.I will post a picture at the bottom.I have a 3 pack of Gerber newborn bottles, new in package, never opened. They are 5 oz bottles in green, blue and purple with rubber slow flow nipple for newborn. Shatter and leak proof.Asking $3.

I have a 2 pack of Nuk pacifiers, new still in plastic never opened. They are for 0-6 months, silicone, both orthodonic pacifiers, includes a keeper that says I love mommy. 1 pacifier has hearts on it the other says I love mommy.Asking $3.

And the last item is a set of Carter's newborn booties, size 0-3 months. They are white and yellow with a cute duck on each bootie. They are brand new, never used and in a plastic display box.Asking $3.If you want all 3 items I will ship to you in a priority flate rate box for $8.95.If you want individual items, the shipping cost depends on what item you are getting and where I am mailing it to.100% of proceeds go into our adoption funds to help us bring home our dream of a miracle baby.

1 April 2008

It's an emotional day. I dont know what is wrong with me. Actually nothing is wrong...it is all right. It will be alright. I am just so overwhelmed by all the love and support we have been getting. I never thought that doing this would draw in such care and concern. It is absolutly amazing.

Im off to post office to mail 3 packages that were won on Ebay. I will be posting another one today. I will let you all know what it is. It most likely is another baby item unless I can talk myself into putting something else up for auction. I just have so many baby items to sell!

31 March 2008

Let me just say, I cant believe March is over. This year is going fast, and honestly...I hope it continues to go fast.

Not much going on here. I must admit...my blogging is really boring now that we are not doing IUI's or IVF anymore. We have moved and are settled for the most part...so I have nothing to talk about. I apologize for the boringness.

I am continuing to sell things on Ebay for our adoption fund. Every penny helps. Im not making much...but I am getting our website out there and making a couple dollars here and there so it all adds up. Right now I have a little girls dress up on ebay...the picture is at the top. Here is the link,
http://cgi. ebay. com/ws/eBayISAPI. dll?ViewItem&item=120240534902&ru=http%3A%2F%2Fsearch. ebay. com%3A80%2Fws%2Fsearch%2FSaleSearch%3Fsofocus%3Dbs%26satitle%3D120240534902%26sacat%3D-1%2526catref%253DC5%26dfsp%3D32%26from%3DR7%26nojspr%3Dy%26pfid%3D0%26fsop%3D32%2526fsoo%253D2%26fcl%3D3%26frpp%3D50%26fvi%3D1
I dont know why it's so long. Just copy it and paste it into the browser. The page should come up. Thank you to Jody, my neighbor, who donated this dress to us along with many many other items.

I have also decided to experiement with making a "Stress Buster" today. If all goes well, I will make a couple and try to sell them and see how that goes. I thought of this last night when I couldnt sleep. I had bad cramps. The tylenol and motrin didnt kick in for a while. I sat at the computer and researched how to make them, and so far I think I can do it. I will post a picture and let you know how it goes.

Again, I apologize for being so boring lately. Hope everyone is happy and well!

28 March 2008

HOLY EARTHQUAKE!! Yup, I said Earthquake....why? Because yesterday at 6:06 a.m. I was awakened from a deep sleep and a dream. Nick and I were able to sleep in since he had the day off. The bes was shaking. I woke up...kind of, but not really...and I said to Nick "It's that cats." He said, "NO IT'S AN EARTHQUAKE!" Then I thought, Woah..and it was LOUD. I mean...you can hear the wood on the bed rattling, you can hear everything shaking, the house...everything. It was loud. It was our first earthquake! Although, my neighbor Jody said she felt one a few days ago...but I was knocked out and didnt hear or feel a thing.

A freakin earthquake! We were told by several people that Guam gets earthquakes a lot. But I thought....once a year. Nope...we been here 1 month and 1 week and have had 2 of them already. Holy cow!

Here's the news article:
The U.S. Geological Survey has tracked a fairly aggressive earthquake that literally shook residents out of bed at sunrise on Thursday. For about 30 seconds, Guam experienced a temblor that geophysicist Paul Hattori says registered 5.4 on the Richter Scale, the epicenter of which was only about 13 miles to the northeast of Hagatna.He also notes that the intensity of the shaking was such that the USGS computer workstations that record data were knocked offline temporarily due to cards perhaps coming loose.No damages or injuries have been reported.

And yesterday we had a power outage too. That happens a lot on Guam. So an earthquake AND a power outage in one day? Crazy. I love this place. I know, thats crazy too.

Oh and the boys onsie and socks is SOLD.

26 March 2008

2nd post of the day...update.

Well, ya know I just mentioned this morning that today is the 1 year anniversary of my first miscarriage? Well, wouldnt ya know that today I finally started red blood. Not much but it's there everyone in a while. And it's texture ( I wont go into details ) is just like a miscarriage. Its not a lot, but I expect that any minute now. My back and abdomen feel like just before AF arrives. This sucks...but ya know what? I guess it was just meant to be for some reason. I hope soon I know that reason.

I also added another auction on ebay. Its for baby boy infant. Check it out.

http://cgi.ebay.com/Infant-boys-Old-Navy-onesie-with-socks_W0QQitemZ120238209099QQihZ002QQcategoryZ57774QQssPageNameZWDVWQQrdZ1QQcmdZViewItem

So far on my other auctions, I have a bid on my Old Navy purse and 2 bids on the baby girls pink onesies and 1 bid on the Partylite candle holder. Yeah! Here's to hoping I get a bid on the boys onesie!!!!!

26 March 2008

1 year ago today...I started bleeding from miscarriage number 1. Crazy. Now here I am waiting to bleed from miscarriage number 2. I just would love to know why I am being put through all this. I know there has to be a reason, although I dont agree with it or understand it. But I know deep down...there is a reason.

Better news...OUR WEBSITE IS UP AND RUNNING! Yeah!!!
Here is the link....
http://www.freewebs.com/nick06tc/index.htm
On our site you can read our story, read about all we been through with TTC, with infertility. All the procedures we went through. We have a photo gallery up. You can sign the guest book, you can contact us through the site, you can sign up for our mailing list, you can check out fundraising items for sale, and you can donate to our funds, financially or with love and support. You can even keep up with how much money we have raised.

I ask you to please pass around our site.

Other ramblings....YUM-O...today is Wednesday! That means its Chamorrow Village night! Thats the market downtown we can go to and get local food! A whole fiesta plate is only $7 per person and let me tell you.....IT'S SOOOO WORTH it! I am just craving Lumpia right now!!

New item for sale!!!!
http://cgi.ebay.com/Partylite-Ball-Candle-Holder-Tray_W0QQitemZ120238133210QQihZ002QQcategoryZ39620QQssPageNameZWDVWQQrdZ1QQcmdZViewItem

25 March 2008, Up for auction...

I have another item up for auction on Ebay. Check it out.
http://cgi.ebay.com/Old-Navy-Womens-Black-Purse_W0QQitemZ120237731277QQihZ002QQcategoryZ15629QQssPageNameZWDVWQQrdZ1QQcmdZViewItem

I want to make a shout out to my blogger/nw friend...Cindy, and her DP. Cindy, you are 1 of the most kindest people I know. You have helped me when I really needed it. You always know when I need your words of wisdom and encouragment. You are are a wonderful person and I wish I could tell you how thankful we are for you generous donation. I wish I could put it into words. Surely, God has something special in the works for you too.

Nothin much going on here. Still working on the house. Got most of the boxes out of the house and they lay in the drive way, overflowing the drive way. Thank God trash day is tomorrow!

I had a job interview today. The interview went great, but I dont think Im going to take the job. It was Cashier for the NCO club here on base. Sounds cool huh? Nope...they actually told me I would be serving food AND ringing it up on the register...on nights like, fajita night and wing night and special events. This would only be 2 nights per week, at 3-4 hour shifts...or as needed. Then once a week I would be in the cashier's cage. Taking payments for the club members, cashing checks and things like that. Then the guy wouldnt tell me what the pay rate was. He was asking me what I expected. I just dont think this is the job for me.

So, Jody (my neighbor) and I are trying to in touch with the director of the class to get certified to do in home daycare. Jody left a message for her today and she hasnt called back yet. So looks like I will be doing daycare! Which is fine with me!!

24 March 08

Yup, 2nd post of the day...but I got something cool to post. Our first ebay auction for our adoption fundraising is up!! We are very excited and hope we are successful! I wanted to share it with you all. In the auction is the link to our adoption website, although it is not completely up and running yet. The auction is for a set of 3 baby girl's onesies. If it's not for you, be sure to pass the word around to anyone you know who might be interested. We would really appreciate it. Check it out!

http://cgi.ebay.com/Set-of-3-baby-girls-onesies-size-0-6-months_W0QQitemZ120237407491QQihZ002QQcategoryZ57812QQrdZ1QQssPageNameZWD4VQQcmdZViewItem?_trksid=p1638.m124

24 March 2008

Not really blogging, just trying to sell a book...Hope everyone had a good holiday weekend!\

I have Toni Weschler's book, Taking Charge Of Your Fertility for sale, soft cover. It's the 2006 edition and in like new condition. I've only read through it a couple times and only used it for a couple of cycles. Taking Charge of Your Fertility, is the ultimate guide for women who are trying to become pregnant or just trying to take care of their bodies so they can conceive later on in life. This book can be more than $20 from a book store. I am willing to sell the book for $5 and shipping $10. 100% of proceeds go directly into our adoption fund account through paypal. I will attach a picture of the book. If this is not a reasonable price, please let me know. Message me or email me, Nicksboo824 @ yahoo.com

23 March 2008

Short post, I am exhausted. We got most of our house unpacked. I think this until I see the spare room......ugh.

Happy Easter everyone. Hope you day is filled with fun, laughter and love, good food and lots of candy. We had a good time.

Just wanted to make a shout out to a very kind, generous and thoughtful couple for our very first donation. Because of you we are that much closer to reaching our goal. We are that much closer to becoming Mommy and Daddy. We are that much closer to giving an unwanted baby the life he/she deserves.
Tawnia and Shannon,
Your kindness means the world to us and we appreciate it more than words can say.
Thank you so incredibly much again.

*IVF medical supplies, sold! Auction closed.
Things for sale as of today:
I am offering donor profiles I will no longer need. I have 1 of donor 323, and 2 of donor 554, both NW donors. I had 1 pregnancy with donor 554 which ended in my first miscarriage. I am willing to send the profile at no cost, but asking for a small donation. As small or as large as you wish. If this is not reasonable, please let me know. I will work with you. Message me, or email me at Nicksboo824 @ yahoo.com.

I have 4 individual packs of Preseed, unopened purchased from NW. I have 6 speculums, all size small. They were in a bag of 10, 4 were used so six are left unopened. I can send pictures if requested. I am willing to sell these items for $25, shipping cost of $8.95 flat rate box included for priority mail. The rest of the proceeds, 100%, will go directly into our adoption funds. If this is not a reasonable price please let me know. The first person to respond, or email me gets the supplies. Message me here or email me.

20 March 2008

Things are slowy coming around. Today Nick is picking up his car and tomorrow we get 3 of our 8 crates of household goods. I hope one of them is our bed. The bed we are borrowing from the military SUCKS. I wake up sore every morning.

Still havent started bleeding. Still no spotting. No cramping. My lower back hurts every now and then but I think that has more to do with the stupid bed we are sleeping on. I just want to get it over with. I want to get the bleeding over with. I want to move on.

Not much to report here, but wanted you all to know if you havent already read it that our adoption website will soon be up and running. It's still being worked on but should be ready to go within a week or so. I cant wait to share it with you all. On the website is our history of us and of everything we have done with ttc,and pictures of us. We have included a paypal donation link where 100% of proceeds go towards adoption funds. If you dont want to donate, we would just appreciate words of support and encouragement! We are getting our household goods real soon. 3 crates tomorrow and the rest early next week. When that happens I will have lots of things up for sale! 100% of the proceeds will go towards our adoption fund.

For now, I do have a couple of things up for sale. If you need to email me about anything please do at Nicksboo824 @ yahoo.com

I have 1 sharps container left over from my IVF cycle that I did not use. I will give it to you for free, just pay $5 for shipping cost.$5 will go into our adoption fund. Let me know if you would like a picture or additional information.
I also have brand new, unopened and unused needles, gauze pads and alcohol pads for $10. I can provide pictures and more details if needed.$10 will go into our adoption fund.
If you or anyone you know is going through IVF, I have an unused, still in box, bottle of progesterone in sesame oil. Just pay shipping for that, $5 to adoption fund.

17 March 2008

Me at the beach. So, not much going on. Just wanted to stop in to thank you all for the support, and to say hello and let you know I'm alive and well. Still no bleeding, spotting or cramping. I'm just so ready to bleed my insides out so I can mentally and physically move on. Get it out.

We are still without our household goods, and Nick's car. We have our fingers crossed that we get both this week. Our household goods were supposed to be on island last Wed, but for some reason the boat is running days behind. Maybe they had a pit stop? I dunno, but I want my stuff.

Although we don't have stuff, we are settling in. It is slowly starting to feel like home here. We have become good friends with the neighbors. I will call them *J&J. They are in the house attached to us to our left. They arrived on island a day after we did. They moved into their house the same day we did. They are our same ages, they have a 5 month old baby girl who is just precious. We have been eating dinner with them almost every night, on the patio on the grill which can do all year round here. :)

Nick and I decided to adopt from Kazakhstan. I mean, we have PLENTY of time to decide, but this country has been in the back of our minds for a couple years now so it was easy to decide on after ready the country's requirements, and other reasons to choose them.

1 requirement is you have to be 25 years old. I am only 24 and wont be 25 until mid January. But that doesn't matter because we need 2 years to save money anyways. ( money issues I will come back to ) All the other requirements, we can easily meet.

Another reason we choose this country is because infants are immediately available and within 1-3 months of submitting the dossier paperwork, you get a referral for a child and travel to pick him/her up. This timeline won us over.

Also, you get to choose gender/age/ethnicity of your child. We want as young as possible and we are leaning towards choosing a baby girl. Depending on how much longer the wait would be for a baby girl, we might go with that. We also want a Caucasian child. If it were up to me, I wouldn't have a preference...but Nick really wants Caucasian.

Now back to the money issue. Like I said, its going to take about 2 years to get money in order. We HAVE to have the money in 2 years or the whole adoption thing is not going to happen. For us to be able to do this, we have to have 18 months left on station. So in the next 2 years we will be scraping pennies. Nick is currently building a website about us and our history. There will be a donation link on there. Also, when we get our household goods, I will be building boxes of things to sell. All the stuff around the house that isn't necessary to keep, an extra, something I haven't used or seen in a while...I'm going to sell it on our web page, on Ebay, or on chat boards. A lot of maternity wear and infant baby items will be included. I have also thought of...when I am ready..to go the on base chaplain here and ask him if we would be allowed to have a bake sale during the Sunday services. I could put together mini scrapbooks that are cookbooks and sell them. I could make small quilts and sell those as well. A car wash is also an option. We will do what it takes.


As far as a job for me....yeah, well, it's not happening. Since we been here I have applied to 10+ jobs with not 1 single call. The BX on base doesn't even have 1 opening. Not even temporary positions. Jobs are extremely hard to get here. For ever 1 military spouse they hire on base, there has to be 2 locals hired. It takes away job opportunities for the spouses and it really sucks. But what can I do? So *J and I have decided to do daycare together. We have to go through 2 days of class to get certified and then an inspector has to come to our houses and pass us. We can take on 4 kids each, but we can only have 7 because of *Js daughter. The base will provide cots for nap time and toys. At the end of every year we get refunded for our grocery bills with our taxes. The only expense is paying for insurance. We could easily charge $150 per kid per week. So t that's $150 x's 4 = $600 per week, which is $2,400 per month. That is $28,800 per year. That would easily pay for our adoption. And if we add in some of Nick's income to that fund, plus the small income from selling things, and our donation link...I think we could do it. It does mean though, no days off, no vacations...but we gotta do what we gotta do to have a baby in our arms.

Well, that's all for now. We don't have a computer desk...just a love seat and an end table and its killing my arms and back now so I gotta end this blog for today. If any of you have any fundraiser ideas, please let me know. Thanks again for all the support and all the emails. My blogger gals are the best.

Happy St. Patrick's Day!

13 March 2008

I havent officially said it on my blog yet, so here it goes...
This pregnancy is over. For those who don't know the details, here they are.

6 Mar 2008- First ultrasound at 7w2d. Saw OBGYN first. She didn't see anything on the TransVaginal Ultrasound.(TVU) She did point out a white blob that might have been something.We are expected to have a miscarriage. We had my beta drawn and left the hospital. Results came back at 2,440. Because I have had no spotting,bleeding or cramping we went back to the hospital to radiology. The guy saw nothing on the abdominal u/s. Another radiologist did a TVU and he said he "might" have seen something. Another doctor saw the pictures and wouldn't confirm or deny seeing something. So we are left with, are we pregnant or aren't we pregnant?

10 Mar- Repeat beta test today at 7w6d. Had blood drawn in my normal dominant arm and vein. Same one docs always use. Never have any issues. Blood was taken, band aid put on and I walked out of the lab. I felt a trickle and looked down and blood was gushing down my arm for a few minutes. This has never happened. Now waiting for results.Beta dropped from 2,440 to 2,100. Yet again, another miscarriage.

13 Mar 08- Still no bleeding but I did wke up to some pinching. I expect the contents of my womb, the tissues of what was supposed to our baby's lifeline, spill out in the next few days.

It didn't take us long to decide this was the end. At least for now. Maybe in another 5 years we can do IVF again. After our tour here in Guam. We have decided adoption is our only option right now. We are tired of loosing babies. We want a baby. Weather birthed physically, or in our hearts, we want a baby. Adoption is a long process, but in the end we will not have a miscarriage.
Of course, we cannot start right away. We have debt from this last IVF. We have a car payment. We need to pay that off and start on an adoption fund. God doesn't listen to us, but maybe he will help us build this fund. Sometime in the near future Nick will create a website. He will explain all we been through. He will post pictures. We will auction things on there, sell things on there and all proceeds will go to our fund. I will offer to make quilts, scrapbooks...whatever. I will sell all the baby items we own. I am applying for jobs and my entire pay check will go into the fund. We will not travel and take vacations. We will create a link through paypal and accept donations weather it be only $1, or $10. Every penny helps. We will have fundraisers. We will do what it takes.

But for now, we need to heal and mourn the loss of another baby. I need to mourn the loss of knowing that I could possibly never birth a child. Never know morning sickness or the pain of labor and then birth. I may never know what it feels like to experience what women are supposed to experience....giving their husbands children. For now I must live with a 10 ton concrete brick on my shoulders. I must live with an empty broken heart and look at the faces of pregnant women and babies every single day knowing that I cant have it. I obviously need time to heal, although I will never get over this.

12 March 2008

6 years ago today, Nick and I got engaged. 8 years after knowing each other, we are still a childless couple.



There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better. I will be better not because of genetics, or money or that I have read more books but because I have struggled and toiled for this child. I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed. I have endured and planned over and over again. Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams. I will notice everything about my child. I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life. I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me. I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see. Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love. I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain. I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body. I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall. I have prevailed. I have succeeded. I have won. So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs. I listen. And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes. I have learned to appreciate life. Yes,. I will be a wonderful mother, someday.

5 March 2008

Sorry its been a while. We did move into our house on Monday and we just go internet hooked up today, and I have MY computer now! I don't like Nick's laptop at all. The only problem is, is that I don't have all our current pictures on this computer. I have to wait until Nick transfers them on to here before I can share them with you. I cant wait to share them with you!

Our house is great. Its smaller than what we are used to but we like it. It is only one floor. Houses are only built with 1 floor here and a very flat roof to protect it and you from typhoons. We only have 1 bathroom which we aren't used to at all. But what makes up for those 2 things is 1) its a remodeled house and 2) the kitchen is great! We got all new appliances...stove, fridge, dishwasher, washer and drier. All brand spanking new. We have a nice front yard that I have plenty of room to do up real nice. I even planted coconuts already out front so I can grow palm trees. 3 of them and I'm working on a few more once I find more brown coconuts laying around the neighborhood.

So far, we are in love. We love Guam. Everything about it. Well, OK, except maybe the shopping for clothes really SUCKS! I really need new clothing with my waist line growing already. Yes, already. Looks like I'm going to have to resort back to shopping online which stinks cuz I don't know what size I am anymore. We went to 3 malls, all the clothing stores are meant for petite Asian women. I even went to my favorite store, Ross and found not 1 single thing. They had about 10 pairs of old lady shorts and aisles FULL of jeans. What the heck? Who's wearing jeans in GUAM??!! But other than that..Guam is amazing. The beaches are amazing. The water is so clear and clean and blue and warm. And you can swim with the fishes! Nick got pics of them with his underwater camera case. ( THANK YOU MOM AND DAD!) I even found hermit crabs on the beach. Its all so beautiful. I've never seen anything like this place. Europe was beautiful but in such a different way. Im afraid pictures just wont do this place justice.

Anyways, Yesterday we entered into the 7th week of pregnancy. This is the scary week for me only because my last pregnancy I miscarried at 7w1d. But this time feels different. I feel pregnant unlike last time. My boobs are huge but not sore. My pants don't fit in the waist. I'm hungry. I have had no morning sickness and hope to be one of the lucky girls who never get it. I've had a lot of CM which I read is normal since the mucus plug is forming. My last pregnancy, I felt nothing at all. Tomorrow is our first ultrasound. I am so scared. Nick is so confident, but I am scared. I just want the best. We need this baby.

2 March 2008

I tried to make a slide show and post pictures but the internet in this hotel room is as slow as a snail and I cant do it. Dang it. We move into our house tomorrow and should have internet by Wed, so I will post then. We got some great pictures of the local area and our new house.