Dec 31 2007

Sorry for the blog neglection. Im sick. I guess it's better to be sick now rather than closer to my IVF. I feel like poop. 4 more days until Lupron injections start. 9 days until BCP's are over and done with. Yay!


Happy New Year's all!

28 Dec 2007

Sorry it's been a while since I updated. This is actually the longest Ive ever gone without blogging. Im going through withdrawl. lol. Nick and I were real busy with Christmas going on. We went up to his parents and had a wonderful time. We were opening presents for over an hour continuosly. It was so much fun. I ended up getting a lot of scrapbook things from his family and him and I am so happy about that. And got some new summer clothing, a blender and lots of small things. We all made out pretty good this year.

We were able to pick up my Lupron injections yesterday on the way home from PA. I cant wait to start taking it. I actually had a dream last night that I was giving myself the injection. Funny.

Nothing really going on here to report. We are taking our tree down today and are going to start getting the house ready to be packed up. I wont be home after the 15th and this week is our only time off together before that happens so we have to do it this week/weekend.

Im sorry this post is so boring. I assure you, the boredom will end soon and life will be busy and full of things to tell you about.

I want to make a shout out to Meg and Kris who just had their first ultrasound after their IVF, and who saw their babIES for the first time. A wonderful sight of Baby A AND Baby B! Im so over the moon thrilled for them and I hope to be just as blessed soon! Congrats mommies! I cant wait for Tracey's ultrasound next!

Oh by the way...Here is a picture of all my lupron. When I start taking them I will start making video diaries. But for now here is a picture. I have 2 boxes, each box good for 14 days. In this picture you are only seeing contents of 1 box. For those of you who arent familair with IVF, in the picture you can see the boxes it all comes in, and the red packs are the alcohol swabs to clean the injection site. The small bottle in between the boxes is the actual lupron. This small bottle will last for 14 injections. Then you see the syringes and needles and an instruction manual. Fun stuff. It all starts on January 4th. My BC pills Im still on, and they last until Jan. 9th. I went to IVFMEDS.COM to see how much this Lupron costs, and I think this picture is about $500 in meds. Good Lord....please give me twins. 2 for the price of one!

Now, what is Lupron for exactly? Well, it is used for many things in the medical field but in IVF it is used to stop the ovaries from ovulating and no longer produce estrogen in women. This will help build up my eggs for when I start the stimulating medications to make lots and lots of eggs.

21 Dec 2007-Nurse's bad day update

So, I guess I just caught T on a bad day. For some reason she called Nick back yesterday instead of me. He said that she apologized and that she must have been thinking that the pharmacy was closed because the IVF clinic is closed next week. She said she would put my presciption in and it would be good for 7 days. So we have to pick it up on the 27th, as originally planned on the way back from PA. The 27th is the last day to pick it up so if for some reason we cant get it, she said she would overnight it to us. And she also said to call at 8 am on the 4th so she can tell us how to do the injections.
So...all is in place and we're on our way. I dont know why, if its just wishful thinking but more and more I can see ourselves with twins. :) Dont get me wrong, 1 baby would be awsome too.
The fear of IVF is slowly subsiding.

I feel like Im forgetting to post something and cant remember what it is....

Oh, thanks Michell and Tracey for offering your help with the injections! We will probably will have to take you up on that offer!

I just wanted to mention something. When I started blogging a little over a year ago I had no idea what it would bring to me. Not only did it help with my sanity to share to the world what I am going through, but it got things off my chest and I learned I was not alone not matter how alone I felt at times. I never in a million years thought that I would develop true friendships. There are actual PEOPLE behind the typed words that have become friends to me. I am so thankful for each and everyone and I at times wonder where I would be in this blogger world and TTC world without them. My blogger pals know more about me than anyone else. I'd even say that my blogger friends know more of my deep inner thoughts more than my husband knows. Most times I dont want to burden him with more stress of knowing my true sadness. So I spill it all out here and he doesnt know. These girls mean a lot to me.

When Meg and Tracey got their BFP's I was just about in tears. I been thinking about them ever since hoping that everyone will turn out healthy for the next 10 months. I have no doubt that they will. You girls have something on the way to you in mail!!! :)

Tammy, knows the hurt and pain that my heart holds. She knows because she has the same thing. We exchange emails almost daily, sometimes more than once daily. I feel comfort in knowing that Tammy is just an email away and can listen and understand to anything I tell her without judging me or my thoughts and feelings.

Michell is a nurse and I am grateful to know her. Someone who was once a complete stranger has offered to help us with injections should we ever need it. She is one of the most kind girls out there...I couldnt see her hurt even a fly. She herself is going through IVF right before us and I know we will get our babies! Michell...We'll be calling you if we get stuck!!

Jacki, Jacki is going through IVF herself too. She is getting ready to bring little Luna into her life...and ours in a way. Jacki has sent me a post transfer relaxation cd to listen to right after my embabies are transfered into their home for 10 months. This was just so kind and thoughtful of her to do.

Cindy always knows how to make a girl laugh. I dont think she knows how much laughter she brings to me daily. She knows just what to say. Any day that I am feeling horrible and sad and angry, and she knows no words can make me feel better....she goes on to tell me a story that is sure to make burst out with laughter. Her being prior military, she understands most of things that I am put through that is an extra un-needed stress put onto me by the military.

Ya know...I could just go on and on but Im going to stop so I dont bore you. Congrats if you got reading through all this. If you did get through all this...that is why I consider you a friend. Because you care.

20 Dec 2007

Well, I was so excited over the good news yesterday, I forgot to post my update.

First thing, Nick got PERMISSIVE TDY orders. This does not mean military will pay for our expenses like we were trying to do. This means that Nick is on TDY and does not have to take leave days for the time we will be in D.C. This does mean that since we will have orders, we will be allowed to stay in a military hotel on a nearby base, Bolling Air Force Base..about 15 miles from Walter Reed. And this means the rooms will be cheaper, at about $40 a night and we will be on a base so we have a BX near by.

Second thing, isnt as nice. Maybe I just caught T ( the IVF Nurse coordinator ) on a bad day..I dont know. But I called yesterday to ask her about the estimated timeline so we can estimate how many hotel days we need. No problem. She answered my question.

Then, I went on to another question. I told her we are going to PA over Xmas and plan to stop at WR on the way back to pick up my Lupron on the 27th, and I wanted to make sure I would be able to do that and that my prescription was put in. She then said, well noone is going to be here on the 27th so you POSSIBLY could pick it up on the 28th. I told her well it's a 3 hour drive so I really would like to know when I can pick it up, I dont want to show up there for nothing. She said well if you cant get it we can try to overnight it to you, but Im not sure if I can.

What the heck? So I have to drive for 3 hours to MAYBE get my Lupron? What if I cant get it and she cant send it? Then I have to drive there another 3 hours to and from, (6 hours total ) to pick it up before Jan 4th? Its so frustrating!

Then she said, well, who is giving your shots to you? And I answered with my husband. She then asked if he was medically licensed. I said well no. She then asked well how is he going to do it. Then I then told her, that I was told that someone would teach me over the phone how to do it. She then said, Yeah call us at 8 am on the 4th so we can go over it.

I just am frustrated that I have to drive all this and then its only a MAYBE to get my meds. She just didnt seem her normal helpful self when I talked to her and after I talked to her I was a bit upset.

Nothing ever goes easy for us. I mean REALLY...not be sarcastic or over exaggerating. Really..nothing goes good for us. I feel like we are just doomed sometimes. Like there is a curse on us or someone with voo-doo dolls of us or something. I just dont get it.

The good news is Im starting to feel more confident in our IVF cycle. So much success has been around me from IVF. My cousin just told me that her sister in law is pregnant with twins from IVF. I just pray to God, this curse is lifted from us during this IVF cycle and the next 10 months. The fear is still here of course, but each day I feel a little more confidence and positivity. Each day more and more I think about mulitples. Of course I would be beyond thrilled for 1 singleton healthy baby, but each day I hope we are blessed with 2 to make up for all this lost time at being a mother. That would be a dream come true.

Totally off topic now, Im not sure how much I will be on here to post updates from on now. We are leaving to PA for the holidays on Monday and wont be home until Thursday. Not sure how much computer time I will have then. Once we get home I will try to update but we will be busy with getting our household goods into piles of "mail, household goods, unacompanied baggage, suitcases, and get rid of." We are going to be busy for the next week. Then semi busy for 2 weeks then I will be busy makin a baby.

I will end this post with a video, Fertility and Faith...
http://youtube.com/watch?v=Y8EEYQdfRZ8

**UPDATE** I got through to the pharmacy at WR just now and was told they are open every single day next week except Xmas Day. Which makes sense to me. They cant close that pharmacy...I mean they have injured soliders living there for God's sake!!! So I called T back and left a message to her. I said they ARE open and I want to make sure my prescription IS put in so I can pick it up. I dont know what her deal was yesterday but she has me freakin out. I need my meds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AGHH! Hopefully she calls me back today.

19 Dec 2007

Oh my gosh. I am beyond thrilled. I am elated! I cant believe it and Im so happy!
TRACEY had IVF on Nick's birthday. This morning she got a positive pregnancy test! Shes PREGNANT! And Meg, who got her positive pregnancy test 2 weeks ago, has her ultrasound next week and her and the doctors are sure of a twin pregnancy due to her high numbers. OH M GOSH! GOD, PLLLLLLLLLLLLEASE can I follow these wonderful girls with a pregnancy? Nick and I wont mind at all if you bless us twice, or even thrice!
YYYYYYYYYYYYIIIPPPPPPPPPPPEEE!

17 Dec 2007

First of all, I have to say...check out my hubby!!
http://www.langley.af.mil/news/story.asp?storyID=123079562

**WARNING** Long post! A Friday night story and some rambling that you may not care about!

Well..what a hectic life. I dont think married life has ever been this crazy with things going on. I cant wait until its all over. I cant wait until March. By then everything will be over and we will be in our new house.
Our Friday was crazy. As you know our orders got denied. I was in the middle of grocery shopping when I got this call so I didnt even finish shopping. The store got so hot and stuffy and I was so upset I just wanted out of there.

Then I went to 3 different stores looking for a top to wear to the Christmas party. I went to the BX, then JC Penny and then to Ross before I even found the top that I had in mind. I had been trying to call Nick for hours to tell him the news with no answer. He was mandatory bowling with work and had his cell phone in his boot. I guess he couldnt hear it. Needless to say, by the time I got I home I was not happy. When Nick got home I finally told him the news and his attitude when down the drain. We thought of every single person we could think of to help us. We thought of a friend that Nick knows in his car club. We will call her T. She lives about an hour from D.C. which is better than 3 hours from here. She very quickly responded and said of course you can stay with me, you are family. So...we are covered. No need to worry about hotel expenses. THANK YOU GOD.

So we went to the Christmas party where I asked Drena if she was sure she wanted to help me out. I will need a chaperone for the 3 days Nick has to be home to pack up our household goods. ( more on the later in the post ) I felt bad asking her because it's a lot to ask for from someone with 2 little ones. But the wonderful, kind person she is...she is willing to go. She said she wanted to be part of the baby process for us. She said she wanted our baby named after her and birthrights of some kind! LOL!!! Drena, your prayers are so a part of our baby making process and I thank you more than you can know!

When we came home Friday night after the Christmas party, Nick was drunk. I mean 8 beers and 8 rum and cokes later drunk. Couldnt see or walk drunk. He does this about once a year, and that was his once this year.

I pulled up to our house and saw a black guy, dressed in all black and on cell phone walking in the grass next to our driveway, next to Nick's car. He was just pacing back and forth. I told Nick to wait, just sit here for minute but his drunken state didnt listen to me and he got out right away. I wanted to see if this kid was going to do anything.

Nick went up to him and asked can I help you. He said no Im just walking. Now you have to know that we live on the end of a row of houses and there is absolulty nothing near our house fom him to be walking there. Nick went on to ask why he walking where he was walking and this kid wouldnt answer. So Nick got up in his face demanding him to tell us why he was there. He wouldnt answer and I just saw a fight breaking out. I tried 2 times to get Nick away from this guy. He wouldnt move.

So I just went into the house to change clothes and wash off my make up. I came back out side and both guys were gone. I tried calling Nick about 30 times total, no answer. I start to panic. He is drunk. Wont find his way home. He has no ID on him. I had his military ID to get onto base ( he left mine at home in his wallet) and he dropped his driver's license in my car while he was looking for my ID. I walked our block and couldnt find him so I got into my car and still couldnt find him. All while trying to call him with no answer.

So I called Drena and Mike told me to call 911. I figured I would get to the front gate before 911 would get there. So thats where I went. When I got there I saw 6 cops come flying through the gate with their lights on and right away I think the worst. Drunk guy hurt. Then Mike calls me back and says dont worry, he is alive. He talked to him for a few seconds. Im standing in the gaurd shack for what feels like forever before I know anything. We are about 30 minutes into this whole deal. Nick calls me and says everything is fine. He comes to get me at the shack and then tells me what happened.

The guy was walking away from our house and Nick followed him. He wasnt letting him go. He was on the phone with 911 the whole time while I was trying to call him, thats why he didnt answer. The kid walked to a playground and sat down. We have about 10 playgrounds in our neighborhood so Nick didnt know where he was at. The cops didnt find him cuz the kid wouldnt tell Nick where they were at. Nick finally gets the kid to walk near a street sign. The cops find him and the kid. This kidwas not military. He was brought onto base by someone illegally. When you bring a non-military person onto base you are supposed to sign them in and get a pass for them that they have to carry around at all times and they are not to be wondering around base without the sponser. He was doing the opposite. He never did give a reason why he was near our house by Nicks car. The cops were on Nick's side even though he was drunk. Nick did do the right thing. The cops told us to start putting the car in the garage and locking our door. We never locked our door.

This kid WAS up to something. Saturday morning I worked while Nick was sobering up. When I came home Nick showed me a hand print on the back of his car. It was just washed and wasnt around anyone for a hand print to be on it. The hand print was on the back of his car on the wing and was positioned just right for someone leaning over the trunk to see the system in the back of the car.
If Mike and Drena didnt leave the party when they did, we wouldnt have left at that perfect time and we wouldnt have caught this kid planning something terrible. Thank you lord.

Now, back to what I wrote earlier, kind of. We have just come to realize that after my baseline appointment on Jan 16th, I wont be in our house ever again. We are leaving Jan 15th to D.C. since my first appointment is at 0630. I will be in D.C. for 2 weeks for IVF since I will be seen by them as much as daily. Our household goods are being packed up the last 3 days in January and Nick moves us into the hotel on base on Feb 1st. I wont be home until sometime the first week of Feb. Which means, I only have 1 month left my house here at good old Langley Air Force Base Virginia. Which means, that right after we get back from PA on Dec 27th, we have to get the house ready. Go through everything, get rid of stuff. I have to separate our unaccomanied baggage so Nick knows what to tell the packers to take. Unaccompanied baggage is the 1,000 pounds of household goods that gets packs first and we get that shortly after being in Guam. I have to separate the things that Nick has to mail to Guam and separate the things that we will be using to live out of our suitcases for 1 month.

Yikes...it's getting close.

14 Dec 07

Orders denied. $HIT! We certainly cant afford a hotel out of pocket. Our credit card's monthly payment is at it's max from the cost of the IVF medications. The only other way, dip into savings account or try to find someone who lives closer to D.C. that is willing to let us shack up there for 2 weeks. Ouch.
Orders are denied because this is an "elective" surgery. Yes it's elective in a way, but in most ways this is not elective. If I want any shot being a mother like everyone else in the world, this is not elective by any means. Do they think I WANT to do this? No, I HAVE to do this.
America's fertility laws and policies must change. I hate this.

Im going to go eat my fullmoon sushi now....
Then I gotta find something to wear for the stupid xmas party tonight so Im going to JC Penny's. I really dont want to go. I dont want to shop and I dont want to party. I dont want to have to put on a smile tonight and pretend everything is fine.

13 Dec 07

Can I just say that the world is not fair? Am I allowed to say that I dont agree with God's plans? Will he get mad at me and withhold my dream from me longer if I say that? Im just grieving today. Grieveing from what exactly I dont know. I guess Im grieving for everything... How come some girls get PG on their first try? And Tammy and I have done 8 and 9 with no baby in our arms. Not to mention all the other girls I know who have done more than this. How is this at all fair and how are we supposed to accept this? How??? How are we supposed to accept that the girls with the most potential to be the best mothers, arent mothers? Why do we have to suffer so much before we can be happy?

We are still working on getting Nick TDY orders. I have an appointment with the doctor today at 11 am to get a refferal. We have to have the doctor give the military permission for us to be in D.C. for medical care. Then from there it should hopefully be accepted. We are hoping to know more by tomorrow, the end of the week. That would be nice. But with the military, you just never know.

12 Dec 2007

This is where we stand now...well, not a steady stand but we are working on it.

We found out that we could possibly get Nick on TDY orders for the stay at Walter Reed during my IVF cycle. We are trying to get him on orders by saying he is a required medical attendant for me. I chat on a board with other military women going through IVF at various military facilities, who have gotten orders. So I called the IVF nurse yesterday and got the paperwork from her. On it, it said both Nick and I will be needed there as much as daily from Jan 16th-Feb 7th. Nick took the paperwork today to work to see if he can get the commander and the hospital and Tricare (insurance) to approve of it. If so, it will be a great great thing. This means that the government will pay for our lodging and food the whole time we are there. So we could stay the consecutive 2 weeks instead of driving the 6 hours to and from there every few days or less. I dont know what we will do with the cats while we are there. If we get approved this means it will save on us eating 3 meals a day out for 2 weeks, and save us about $800 in hotel expenses assuming its about $70 per night. Hopefully we will get to stay at a near by military base and get a nice room with a kitchenette. I think some of the medications require a fridge.

Man, I am so scared to go through all this. Not because of what it entails though. I guess Im just so scared of the outcome. So scared....you have no idea. What if we go though all this, spend all this time and money and then nothing comes out of it? Then I cant be a mother for many years. How and I going to be able to deal with that? Live with that daily for several years? How will I be able to accept it?

But, what if the outcome is as a great as we hope? What if this is the answer? What if this is what we were supposed to do all along instead of so many failed IUI's? With as much money as we spent on IUI's, we could have done 2 rounds of IVF. If the dumb doctor would have only accepted us into IVF a year ago. Ugh. What if this gives us our dreams? What if we do come out of this pregnant? What if we get double the miracle? Oh God....pllllllllllllllllllllllease!

K&H, Im so sorry for another BFN. If I could send all the BFN's to HELL, they would be there in a heartbeat. I hate them. They are evil.

9 Dec 2007

Emotionally, no updates. Still feeling the same. Lousy, but now add scared to death on that list. Scared to death that IVF wont work and I be a monther for 5 more years. Because we will have to wait that long to save up the funds. I know I know, I need to go into this with a better attitude. Maybe as the time gets closer my attitude will change.

We are financially cleared and broke, officially.

The IVF nurse called me Friday. I stop my BC pills on January 9th. So far no side effects even though its been 8 years since I been on them.
We have to pick up my Lupron injections by January 2nd. Thats my start date for that. So I guess on the way back from visiting in PA we will stop in D.C. and pick that up...maybe the 26th or 27th December. I will be doing 20 units once a day in the leg or under belly button.

On January 16th, my 24th birthday, we will be spending the day at Walter Reed Army Medical Center. Yay. We have to be there at 6:45 am for our baseline appointments. That is when they schedule us for EVERYTHING. We are about 3 hours from there which means we have to leave the house about 3 am.
Then at 9 am the same day we have my injection class. Fun.

The thing that majorly sucks is I will most likly need to be in D.C. Jan 28,29 and 30 and that is the days that hour house hold goods are being packed up so Nick HAS to be home. So...I need someone to chaperone me. They will not do the egg retrieval or embryo transfer without a chaperone. CRAP.

So this is what looks like is going to happen.
Started my BC pills already.
1 month prior I start my Lupron 20 units daily, January 2nd.
Jan 9th stop BC pills.
Jan 16 Baseline appointment and injection class. Bring a huge bag for all my medications.
Baseline scan 15 days before retrieval, day 1 of cycle.
Cycle day 3 start low dose of Lupron, 12 units daily.
Cycle day 4 begin Fertinex, continue Lurpon daily.
Cycle days 5-9 Continute Fertinex and Lupron daily.
Cycle day 10 return for scan and blood draw, continue Lupron.
Cycle day 12, scan and blood draw, continue Lupron.
Cycle day 13 or 14, scan and blood draw, HCG injection at night.
Cycle day 15 or 16, egg retrieval in a.m. progesterone in p.m.
Cycle day 16-18, Progesterone and antibiotics, tylenol and PNV.
Cycle day 18 or 19, Embryo Transfer in p.m. Stop antibiotics.
Cycle day 29 or 30, pregnancy test.
If pregnant, continue progesterone for 6 weeks. Ultrasound in 2 weeks from + test.


Now, the thing that is scary is we fly out of here on Feb 20th, so I have to call Monday to make sure none of this goes beyond that date....yikes.

Can my life EVER be non-stressful? I mean, really.

7 Dec 2007

2 nights ago, I cried, I begged and I pleaded with God, to take away my desire to be a mother. I told him, between the tears and breaths that I could take, I dont want it anymore. I dont want it. I just want to be happy. I want a normal life with my husband and I want us to be happy. I asked him to make me be like my friends Lillian and Carrie who dont want to ever have children. Im just so tired and exhausted and drained and hurt and depressed. The list of emotions could go on and on.
So, just take it all away from me....unless this IVF is meant to be...take it all away from me. I dont want to want it anymore.

Im still waking up wanting it, and I dont want to want it anymore. So, IVF here we come I guess.

I started my BCP's last night and paid for IVF yesterday. Hello credit card debt. The financial coordinator said the IVF nurse will call me in a day or so. I hope she calls today I dont have to wait until Monday. I guess she will call me with baseline appointments or something. Not sure...

Today is Pearl Harbor Day....all the troops are in my thoughts and close to my heart.

5 Dec 2007

What kind of wife am I, to come home from work on my husband's birthday and tell him that my period started and I am not pregnant?
What kind of wife am I that on my husband's birthday, I make him curl up into a ball, hide under a snowman pillow, and cry his eyes out in pain, for yet another fatherhood dream shattered?
What have I done wrong to get this kind of life?
What kind of person am I that God is making me be this kind of wife?
Why cant we be parents as easily as those all around us? Will we not be good enough? Are we being punished for something? What have we done to deserve so much pain and heartache in our lives? Why cant God just take away the desire and ease it all? Or better yet, let us accomplish the greatest thing in life.

Some of you know, some of you dont, that Nick and I went through another IUI 2 weeks ago. It was out last attempt before moving onto IVF, and today we were proved that it didnt work. We did 3 vials, perfect timing. Obviously, to God, not the perfect time. And I dont and cant and wont understand.

Tomorrow I call the IVF clinic and put thousands of $ on the credit card, and just hope and pray we are able to make the monthly payments, and hope and pray that the monthly payments we struggle to make will be worth it.

Tomorrow I will start my birth control pills to supress my ovaries from making any more eggs until it's time.

And hopefully soon we get our baseline appointments, a time line of everything that is going to happen.

Everyone, please pray for us that God will ease our pain tonight, and for the next how ever many nights it takes.

Thank you for the support.

Dec 3 2007

I got the call from the IVF clinic and we are MEDICALLY CLEARED! Now, they just want our money. $4,440.00 to be exact. And that's not even the total cost.

Thanks Cindy for the candy...now my baby, and your baby and Tammy's baby need to come get it! Loved your pep talk! Have a great Disney trip and check on us...dont forget us!

Cindy's pep-talk to eggies..
"
The odds just HAVE to be in your favor! You had 3 BFNs then a BFP, followed by 4 BFN's, so now it's time for a BFP!! This is according to Cindy's logic of I really really really want this to be a BFP.
Okay, this part is for your egg.
Okay now listen Michell's Eggie, it's time to get stern. You're just playing around in there but it's time to knock it off and get down to business. Now, I know you're fertilized and you had best be implanting. Don't you want to be a sweet little egg and give your mama a BFP? Are you somewhere goofing off with Tammy's baby?
Listen, ya'll need to stop fiddling around! You two can play around and goof off all you want once you get here. Didn't Tammy's baby tell you about the dog and the sucker? Well, you can't do that until you get here. So both of you be sweet babies and lets get this show on the road.
PS: I have candy."

Then she posted this picture.....



I love it and just HAD to repost it.
Im so thankful for my online friends. They are total strangers and at the same time they know me more than my real life friends. They are complete gifts to me!

3 Dec 2007-poll

Just curious...take my poll that I posted on the right hand side. I will be open until morning of Dec. 5th. Thanks!!!!!

2 Dec 2007

bm4 (testing Dec 2nd), Lillbit (testing Dec 5th), JPhoenix, Baksop, Wannabemommies, K&H (testing after Dec13th), Twondra (testing Dec 13th), S&J&J (testing Dec 13th), Cindy...this is for you girls!!!!!!!!!!!!...........




Just 79 days until we are on the plane outta here to a Tropical Paradise!