I'm not feeling terribly fit right now. This week has been hard. I got in a couple of Ttapp workouts but have been mostly feeling worn and nauseas and not wanting to move at all.
I step on the scale during the week and it has me hovering between 158 and 159 most every day. Then, today, it's bouncing all around in the lower 150's. I finally got some consistent readings at 154. It doesn't make sense to me to see the scale dip so low like that and then jump back up the next several days by a few pounds. However, I know my hormones are going all sorts of different directions and I have been struggling to eat much of anything in the last few days.
I don't really feel like I can count on a number for my weight for sure, though. It's fluctuating so much. What I can feel good about right now is that I haven't gained into the next decade. A few weeks into this pregnancy and I haven't eaten myself forward. That's a good thing. Especially with the lack of activity I have right now.
I'm working hard to get those folate foods down. It's not been easy. The texture and smell of the legumes is really making me ill. I've been reaching for bland and textured foods that comfort me like rice and toast. Not the best for nutrition but still far better than the boxed and canned foods I've relied on in the past.
I need to get groceries today. That will be a challenge.
The children have done well keeping up with making meals for themselves and for me. I feel terrible that I am so repulsed by the kitchen, but also grateful for the skills they've acquired to keep us afloat.
I went out with David on Wednesday this week and caved into a craving for a buffalo chicken wrap. It tasted lovely on the way down and my stomach enjoyed feeling full with something of substance. I thought, well...I guess meat is okay for me. A few hours later I was feeling quite ill and yesterday was my worst day of sickness yet. I also struggled with loose bowels all day. Now, that could all be coincidence, I'm not sure. But, it sure did seem that my system had something in it that it wasn't used to having in there.
I think I'm seeing a tiny bit of difference in my hips, thighs, and waist using ttapp. I hope to be able to keep getting it in each day to work on those improvements.
You are doing SO GREAT, Mama! You really are!
ReplyDeleteDay by day, and with each passing moment,
Strength I find, to meet my trials here;
Trusting in my Father’s wise bestowment,
I’ve no cause for worry or for fear.
He Whose heart is kind beyond all measure
Gives unto each day what He deems best—
Lovingly, its part of pain and pleasure,
Mingling toil with peace and rest.