Sigh. I'm always so full of good intentions. They never get me anywhere, though. My absence here is a good indicator of the difficulties I've been having the past few weeks.
A list of health issues in chronological order since Baby Kindy arrived:
Incorrect latch/no weight gain for baby = major stress for me
Poison Ivy contracted through the bedding since I never set a foot outside. Ick. :(
Mastitis and recurring clogged ducts
Thrush in baby
Gallstones leading to an attack that landed me in the ER the night before my husband's trip away for a 3 day audit (oh, the drama)
Currently, I'm dealing with what I think is a BV infection and still struggling with yeast issues. Ick. I also have this strange sore spot in my mid-abdomen, feeling it strongly when I bend and sit. I can tell my gall bladder is still unhappy with me.
Right now, I'm struggling a bit with just trying to figure out what I can eat. The ER doc referred me to a surgeon to have my gall bladder removed, but I'm not ready for that step right now. However, as I research, I'm feeling so confused. I read so many varying opinions and advice on the correct way to eat and deal with gall stones, I'm not sure what to do. I don't believe I was eating so poorly before so as to have created this issue, but apparantly I was and still am since I'm struggling to find something reasonable to eat.
Admittedly, I've been eating poorly these last few weeks. I've developed a nasty liking for diet soda. I know *that* isn't good and had just started contemplating the negative results of daily intake of my favored Diet Dr. Pepper. I've also been joining my husband in his great love for chips. He would happily enjoy a bag of chips each day and I've been bad about sharing that with him, though not quite daily. ;) Sigh. These things certainly could have triggered the stones to flare up, but likely they've been there a long while.
One bright spot is that I strongly suspect that this is the cause of my sleep disturbances in recent years. I've blogged on that before. When this attack started, I was convinced it was the same sleep issue I've battled. When it grew worse and became unbearably painful, I didn't know what to think. But, now I would not be surprised if what I've felt in the past is a minor attack. Knowing that is certainly helpful to me. It could also tip me towards the surgery in the future if I can't find a good way to regulate what is going on in my body.
So, I continue to read and try to find some balance between the ER doc's orders of simply avoiding "fried, fatty foods" to the other end of the pendulum where I need to go vegetarian, no nuts, few beans, and pretty much eat cardboard. One irritation with this wonderful tool called "internet" is the complete frustration over having way too much information filling my head. Just wish I knew of a reliable resource that could walk me through this. In my dream world, that would be a doctor I know and trust. Sigh.
Whatever comes of it, I need to make a plan for adding in some kind of exercise and better eating. I'm hoping to get back to 50% raw food on my menu and *at least* getting in a family walk each day. We're currently working on getting into a new routine for choring and school, so I hope that as we get a groove there, I'll find a natural spot in our day to fit in some exercise.
Sorry I'm so intermittent. I'm tired, tired, tired. Longing for more sleep in my life. Longing for a body that doesn't feel like it's falling apart. Longing for some direction. Longing for results even though I am doing nothing to bring them about. Longing for your prayers, bloggy friends. Any who are still around to offer.
