Tak bincang

Bermula semalam I kurang sihat

Tekak tak selesa dan suara serak

Rasa nak demam

So ambil panadol je

Pagi tadi mula ada stuffy nose

But masih boleh buat stir fried veggies 😅

After brekky mula rasa nak demam

Rasa panas badan, sakit bhg mata dan sakit kepala

Alhamdulillah buat saliva test negatif

But still kena jaga2

But badan rasa lesu

Mengantuk pun ya.

Kiranya after brekky...

mcm seharian I terbaring

Kecuali bangun utk mandi, solat..

Ambil food dan makan

Ya walaupun tak sihat

I tetap berselera...

Petang and malam ok sikit

But malam fikiran terganggu

Kerana kerja lah...

How la certain team memandai buat perubahan

Tanpa bincang dengan semua

Tanpa di bawa ke mesyuarat

Yes...saya hargai tugas dan usaha mereka

Saya pun tak larat nk pegang tugas tu

Apa masalah dengan prosedur lama?

Apa rasional buat perubahan?

Mereka boleh pilih sendiri?

Adilkah konsep first come first serve ?

dalam konteks tempat kami?

Of courselah mereka pilih yg mereka kenal

Yg nampak hebat dan baik utk mereka

So adilkah untuk kami?

Yg tak dikenali?

Or mungkin mereka tak suka cara kami

Eh kami boleh pilih mereka juga???

Boleh pilih lebih awal?

Dah tu how kami nak pilih?

kami pun tak kenal mereka

Adilkah???

So end up kami yg tak dikenali

Tak jadi pilihan mereka

Dan mereka yg bagus pula telah dirembat

Maka tinggallah yg bermasalah untuk kami

See...

..inilah bila team yg memandai2

Lagi2 bila ada ahli2 yg baru

Konon nk buat perubahan

Tapi lupa konsep keadilan 

Dan ahli2 baru ni 

Memang byk idea yg konon nak memudahkan

Tapi ikut pengalaman...hmmm

Ada yg buat borang 

tapi makin mengelirukan

Ni bukan i kata but org lain kata

Ada yg cadang guna dokumen sama

Tapi tak betul dari segi prosedur

Ada yg konon nak bincang

Tapi rupanya bincg depan customer

Memalukan coz nmpk kami tak sepakat

Eh banyaklah....

Tu belum cerita masalah attitude

I terpaksa dump my nagging here 😅

By writing it...

Habih tu...to whom may I talk to?

I called my friend lambat pick up...

Bila pick up..ada bunyi dan mcm terputus

Tapi tak call semula

Whatsapp tak reply...

Sedih...kecewa...

When I am in need

People could not be bother

Tapi when they in need 

I always lend my ears 

Tak kisahlah I sibuk or not

Bukan 5 minit...

Tapi biasanya antara 30 minit-2 jam

Lebih 2 jam pun ada....

Eh!membebel ni macam org sihat pulak kan....

Sick and Alone

Few months ago 

Due to my health problem

I underwent certain procedure at KPJ

Then I underwent the same procedure at public hospital

As well as a test

Guess what?

Based on the test result

the doc just asked me to just bear with it

Seriously??😡😡

But it affect my daily life and focus to work🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

So I kinda getting upset and raised my voice

Finally the doc have refered me to undergo the MRI test at the main hospital

Even though I was really worried 

For driving there alone

And very risky in my condition

Not to mention I lost my way 😅

And hard to find the vacant parking

Anxiety of hearing the mri sound

And claustrophobic

And have to get inside the tube twice

Alhamdulillah I was safe and sound

Inside the changing room after the mri test

Unfortunately due to the late follow up action by the district hospital staff

Only after 3 months I got the result

Which was last week

I could not share the result here

But it made me shock, sad and in tears 😭😭

The doc had to refer me to "*......surgery"

Luckily they managed to arrange the appointment with that department for next week

But my problem is

Who gonna accompany me there?

Moreover my condition getting worst this week

I am really worry if something happened while I am driving

My family is at kampung

My friends here only my colleague

After all they definitely super busy

I do not like and seldom ask for help

But this time I have to do so

So I just asked my SIL this afternoon

In case she can come here

And accompany me

She not only just starting back with her work

After a week leave

But on the appointment date she has something too

So how???😭😭😭

Even though I understood her situation 

and her early arrangement

One thing I learnt here

I am not one of her priority

After all I should aware

Why bother to ask help from in laws

If I still have my own sibling

But I know them ....

To Allah I seek help 🤲🤲🤲

Please grant me ease in everything

And complete syifa

Anxiety attack

Today..
WFH did not run smoothly 😰😭
I got migraine attack
And I notice these two days I had anxiety
Feeling worry
Sometimes shortness of breath
Sometimes fast heart rate
Sometimes hissing in my ears
Not sure due to coffee for my brekky
Or high histamine level
Or due to my urgent work of checking/editing customer's document
And the deadline is the day after tomorrow

O..Allah...
Please forgive me
Please grant me good health
Please stop my worry
Please help me
Please guide me
Please ease my work
Amiin

Don't simply judge and accuse people !!!

Hello peeps
Let's STAY@HOME
DONT EXPOSE YOURSELF TO ANY RISK
BE SAFE
BE SOCIALLY RESPONSIBLE
PLEASE DO NOT DO PANIC BUYING

Yes those people who balik kampung
for "saja nak cuti-cuti"
"nak berehat dan bertenang di samping ayah bonda"
are really SELFISH
However please do not just simply judge, accuse and make nasty remarks to EVERYONE who balik kampung
You are not in their shoes
You never know maybe one day you will be in their shoes
Instead, why don't you pray for them
For example those who have to balik kamping
due to unforeseen circumstances
How about to look after for their sick parents?
How about students who were instructed to leave the hostel?
How about those covid19 front lines who in need for their family to look after their children?

Yes those who seemed to buy a lot
seemed in panic buying frenzy
and again selfish
But do we ask them?
May be they do so for their relatives/neighbours
who has no transport
who has financial difficulty
who are again covid19 front lines family
Or may be he is the supermarket staff like the viral post in FB 😅

Ok enough of ranting
I just wanna share my experience to KPJ today
I did not know that the main entrance is closed
And the visitors have to use the new building entrance
Luckily the driver of the buggy told me and drove me to there
Seram juga lalu di tepi covid19 screening tent

Once arrived at the foyer
I have to queue
One staff asked my intention there
Another staff check my temperature
Another staff asked for my ID card and phone number
As well as whether I have in contact with covid19 patient,
Whether I recently came back from overseas
Or in contact with those who came back from overseas
And Whether I have fever
Finally at the entrance another  staff asked me to sanitize my hand
I saw hand sanitizer everywhere
Be it at the customer service counter,
Outside the elevator
On the specialist clinic counter
On the specialist table
On the speacilist sink
👍👍👍

At first I am ok with the ear endoscopy procedure
But quite scary when the specialist do the nasal endoscopy procedure
I hardly breath 😅

When I went to the pharmacy
I'm impressed with the distance tag on the seat
But I am not happy with the medicine bill 😅
Here they are ....

Then, I went for mask and hand sanitizer hunting
Out of stock at Watson

As I was queing at AEON
Surprisingly
I saw a notice
Hand sanitizer is available at customer service counter
What?
For customer to use or buy?
Definitely to buy
But Two bottles limit at AEON

No stock at Wellness pharmacy

No limit buying at Caring

No limit buying at Guardian
The just arrived hand sanitizer

But I hate the smell 😅

May Allah protect us from Covid19
May this pandemic ends soon

FB friend request from dead friend

Have you ever get that request?
I got that today 😨😱.
Isn't it horrifying?
She passed away on 2016.
But her profile was updated yesterday.
She got 7 FB friends only.
When I checked it few hours later the number increased to 12.
I wonder why people just accepted the request.
As expected when I googled about it...
Hmm....maybe a scammer
So guys just be careful when you face this problem

Here was my dinner today...

Colourful aglio olio pasta 😍
The funny thing when I almost forgot to put the important ingredient...chili flakes 😅🤣

As usual my weekend is not productive
Full of plan but ended up down the drain
🤦‍♀️🙈😅🤣
However I got excuse this week
I am still down with cold since 8 days ago.
I got mild fever, itchy throat, runny nose and sneeze more than 10 times for two days.

After 3 days I went to clinic.
The doc said it's viral infection
My precription as the following
1. For allergic rhinitis, urticaria-fexofinadine 180mg(sanofi telfast)
2. Cair kahak-bromhexine(prehexine)
3. Demam/pening-paracetamol
4. Dry cough-dextromethorpan (tussidex forte linctus)
5. Strepsil 😅
But since I have been suffering with sinus as well she said she will only give me antibiotic if after 5 days I am still not recover.
Well! My dear doc it seems that I really need that antibiotic.
I am still suffering with runny and stuffy nose as well as cough ....

Bila sakit...

Dah la selalu migraine
Then perlu pi fisioterapi pula
Petang semalam sehingga pagi ni diarea pulak
Hadap je la...
Ujian masing2....

Selera orang puasa

Semalam puasa
Tak...bukan puasa sunat
Puasa ganti la 😭
Padanlah muka kan
Bila last minute...
Every year gitu...
Harapnya tak ulang for next year...

Since sampai rumah lewat
Cecepat reheat food
Then baru tukar baju
Tiba2 azan pun kedengaran
Minumlah air kosong dan jamah puding caramel dari majlis isnin....

Then barulah makan leftover nasi arab.

Ada jenis coleslawkan tu...
Yg putih semacam tu leftover kfc punya
Cheapskate kan 🤣🤣🤣....

Dah lepas isyak
Teringin pula mangga asam boi...
Tak sempat cari asam boi serbuk di kedai
Gali peti sejuk
Jumpalah 3 biji asam boi stok ntah bila...
So tumbuk kasi hancur
Nak pedas stok cili api tak dak
Cili flakes dominos kan ada...
So be creativelah kan....

Sedapnya mangga asam boiku
🤣😋😍

Dah nak tido
Nampak pulak tart nenas memanggil

Makan satu je la
Seriously...antara tart tersedap
Jem yg sedap dan basenya terasa lemak masin butternya...

Tu diakan...
SELERA ORANG PUASA
😅😅🤣🤣🤣

Actually semalam...
Memang byk list of things to do
Out of sudden my custome7r yg senyap sunyi tu
Tanya her status
Bila reply senyap
Bila call x angkat

So senang je report to her family
Tanya staf psl her status
Inform coordinator juga
Kalau nak teruskan, usahalah
Kalau tak nak teruskan, maklumkan
Why burden us like this
Selagi she is under me
Selagi tu I pikul tanggungjawab
Tak pasal2 I kena soal siasat nanti
😡😡😡😡

Tu kisah orang lain
Ni kisah me
Nak buat appointment utk fisioterapi punyalah susah
Sebelum tu call ofc disuruh hubungi staf lain
Bila call x angkat2 pula
Semalam call barulah angkat
Disuruhnya hantar butiran thru whatsapp
Tapi tak reply
Call ofc lagi tak angkat pula
Bila dapat katanya hp di atas
Rasa ada mesej masuk
Then petang tu replylah kan
Takpun pagi ini...
Takde pun...
Habis tu bila I nk tau slotnya

Bila call hospital nak buat appointment jumpa pakar
Pun susah nak get thru
Perlu cuba byk kali
Alhamdulillah dapat gak set appointment
Bertabahlah walaupun perlu tunggu lama

Keluar sekejap cuba cari farewell gift
Tak tau nak cari apa
Coz my friend ni lain sikit 😅
klu tak suka mmg tak suka
Risau either tak pakai or dia buang je
Bila dah set mind hanya beli utk anaknya
Tiba2 terfikir why not a pen...
Geram pun ada awatlah masa pi AEON Seremban and Nilai tak terfikirkan pen

But pi Kedai pertama brand entah apa2
Layan tak layan je
Pi kedai kedua ada parker and sheaffer
Tapi stok lama
Warna yg I nak macam tiada
Akhirnya tauke jumpa stok dalam paket yg dah kuning
Siap ada keychain world cup lagi
World cup bilalah tu 🤣🤣🤣
Harga rm64
Dia nak jual rm60
Sekali I belek belakang harga RM54
Dia beri RM50
Mintak kurang tak mau beri
Siap kena marah lagi
Jika ikut hati I blah je
Tapi disebabkan terdesak I tahan je lah...
Hmm...tak guna masuk TV jika sombong ya nyonya
Nak je rasa viralkan...
Tengok gaya pun dah lama takde pengunjung
Dulu pernah beli binding tape dah reput 😅
Nampak sangat takde new stock
Apapun Alhamdulillah ada gak something for my friend

Balik office
Kepenatanlah....
Tiba2 my colleague ajak join her CSR end of this month
Bagus jugakan to learn something new

Then rasa serabut...
Tak tau how to rearrange my customer's document
Banyak school of thoughts
Belek sana sini
Makin confuse
Makin takut
Tapi kena follow juga our place restriction 😅
Semoga Allah beri saya ilham dan permudahkan urusan
Amin

Bila ditarik satu nikmat

I have been suffering from pain at A PART OF MY RIGHT ARM for more than ten years...
But it just COMES and GOES
And I feel like there is a LUMP/SWELLING as well

In 2010
I made a check up at a private hospital
The consultant confirmed that there is NO CANCER MASS ...

In December 2017
I went for a Malay Massage
The lady said that the swelling may lead to STROKE
😨😱😨😰

In July 2018
When I had an hospital appointment for my headache
The doctor also check the so called swelling
But she said there is NOTHING

However in Disember 2018
My WHOLE ARM feels painful
And I had problem to move my arm to the back
I just went for a THAI massage

In January 2019
I went for a massage at Batang Kali
This time I told the therapist about my painful arm
So she focused on massaging the swelling
Even though the swelling was reduced
But still I can feel the pain

In 4 February 2019
My condition getting worse
Arm, shoulder and back pain
I can't any longer hook or zip my clothes in the back
I went for a Thai massage again
The lady spent longer time on the swelling
The result was just the same...

On 18 February 2019
I went to see my panel doctor
She admitted that my right part is harder and bigger than the left part
It seems like a mushy fat that pushing the muscle
Not a cancer mass
Not even due to infection coz no redness
Anyway, I better see a specialist to confirm
So she diagnosed as muscular pain and prescribed me with nerves vitamin and pain killer ... neurovit and fenagesic 500

When I told my colleague...
Mungkin Cyst katanya 😅
When I googled
It more like carpal tunnel syndrome
Or polymastia 😰

Then I went back to my hometown
Since I worried my pain may due to something else
So on 23 Feb 2019
I went to see ustaz@Darul Syifa
Alhamdulillah nothing
But ustaz asked me to exercise regularly
😱😰😅🤣🤣🤣🤣

When I was back at my hometown again
I lost my voice
Due to that I went to see the doc on 11 March 2019
I complained about my painful arm as well
And definitely about shoulder, back and neck pain
However that is not the doctor's area of expertise
So I asked for reference letter to get the diagnosis
Here what she precribed for my arm and throat...
Suniton paracetamol, mucoxin and Lozenges.

On 12 March 2019
I went to see an orthopaedic
He asked whether there is any numbness
Definitely no...
I had to undergo a physical check up and an x-ray...
Hmm....frozen shoulder?
Accordingly I have to take the medication to relax my muscles...koyok 🤣🤣, myonal and cerebrex

And undergo physiotherapy session
Here was my first session for one hour...
Arm exercises, vibration and ultrasound....

However, if both treatments do not work
He will give me injections

Unfortunately, for two nights I was surfering with back pain, whole arm pain, arm pit pain, palm numbness and burning. I can't even sleep even though the the medicine suppose to cause drowsiness.

But the comsultant noticed the SWELLING
So he suggested to me to go for another check up....

On 14 March 2019
I went to see my workplace's doc
As expected she said nothing there
I requested for reference letter...
In her notes...
no swelling/mass
But there is a MILD TENDER
So I better see the pathologist
And get the report

I even noticed that this week I had difficulty in tying my hairs...
Anyway, Alhamdulillah less pain....

#CatatanLengkap
#SenangRujukBlogBilaDocTanya

BILA HILANG SATU NIKMAT
Peringatan, Ujian atau Balasan
Silalah REFLEKS DIRI
dan INSAFI DIRI....

Aku dan hand sanitizier

Semalam aku ada temujanji ketiga di hospital
A bit frustrated when the doc seemed reluctant to listen to my eyes pain complaint
And did not ask me any question about it
Anyway let us forget about it

Bukan I je sorang pesakit kan
Beggar can't be chooser
Byk komplen kalu sila p hospital swasta kan
Mampu???
Setakat jumpa pakar sekejap
Buat blood test
Masuk camera dlm hidung
Menggigil nak bayar RM800

Yang warded tak sampai seminggu
Buat test itu ini
Dengar pun nangis RM19 ribu
So senyap sudah
😅😅😅

Anyway semasa menunggu di farmasi...
Pakcik: Nak nak..apatuh? Dok perati...ingat syampu
Me: Hand sanitizer...pembersih tangan
Pakcik: Owh! Senanglah nak basuh tangan...bunuh kuman. Nanti nak cari jugaklah
Me: Ada jual di pekan...di farmasi

Bila pakcik tu ulang beberapa kali nak cari/beli...
Tak faham2 jugakkah?
Common sense kot...
Lantas ku cabut tali silikonnya
Dan serahkan my hand sanitizer to him
He seems surprise and excited
Dia tak tahu camna nak sangkut tali silikon di begnya..I pun buatkanlah
Alhamdulillah! I am happy with my action and his reaction
Alhamdulillah! I managed to make someone else happy just by giving a very small thing....
#smallthingmademyday

Petang tu pi Guardian
beli lah lagi...RM6.00 je kot

Tapi nak gelak juga bila I noticed something
Bukannya original scent but the cammomile scent...
Harap pakcik tu tak digelar pakcik bunga
😂😅😁

Tomyam brocoli

Setelah 4 hari berehat sakan...
This morning...
Barulah kelam kabut jemur dan lipat kain
Dan kemas dapur sikit juga 😅

Akibatnya lewat pi office
Tapi sunyi sepi you
Our unit office pun golap gulita

Buat keroje sikit
Updated my document
Labelkan image...
Susahnya nak update dlm software
Nak tindan guna text box microsoft word tak boleh pulak...
Siap kena google cara 😅😅😅
Have to change the color of the object to lighter color as well...
Checked comments my colleagues as well
Dah la dua2 ni cerewet dan OCD
Bila print ada warna image yg tak nmpk beza 😭
Kena ubah lagi...
Bukan senang nk ubah pun
Pulak tu many objects 😰...
Hadap je la...

Then pi lunch sensorang
Tak sangka pula bila makan kedai ni murah
Biasa lebih rm7.50
Habih tu biasa ambil ikan bakar kan
Kali ni Rm4.50 for rice+gulai nenas ikan masin+sayur bende+sambal paru

Then pi town
Pi link Tabung Haji with my Rimau card 😁
TH mmg dah link with Bank Islam
But this one senang nak transfer duit
Dah gaji/claim masuk akaun rimau kan
What a relief once I transfered my claim money to TH...
Takut terpakai je..
Dah guna duit TH beli laptop
So perlulah ganti with any resource available 😁

Next pi ambil baju yg ditempah
4 pasang je yg dah siap
2 pasang lagi kain belum disembat
Bila check kad rupanya suppose ambil 28 dis overexcited pulak 😅😅😅...

Total upah jahit for 6 pasang baju rm346
Kurung Pahang kain cotton RM56
Kurung Pahang kain crepe RM60
Kurung Pesak RM59
Utk I yg kedekut ni I rasa mahal la
Tapi apa pilihan yg I ada?
bila badan dah gems perlulah buat baju baru 😅...
Beli siap ada je la yg tak kena...

Bila balik rumah
Suddenly I was not feeling well
I got migraine attack and mild fever 😰
Setakat minum air jambu di kala panas terik
Boleh jadi gitu pula
Telan panadol n rehatlah...

Then off I went to office
Baiki another document pulak
Ada object yg looks weird.
Siap google nak pastikan yg betul
Jenuh nak baiki
Pulak tu masalah printing from letter to A4
Alhamdulillah finally it was done
Unfortunately it cant be submitted
The boss is on leave

Talking about my boss...
When the big boss asked him to prepare a paper work
He asked me about it
I guess it just for huge budget
He asked me to help him as well tommorow 😅
Kesian juga my boss
He is on leave for family matters
But has to submit the paperwork on friday
Luckily I canceled my plan to take leave tommorow
So bolehlah tolong my boss
Tu la kan keroje sendiri bertimbun
Tapi bila boss minta tolong perlulah diutamakan juga

Owh! Before going back
I typed a leaking report letter
I should teach this people a lesson
Don't play2 with me huh...

Anyway...here was my quick meal for dinner

Tomyam brocoli
Just dumped everything in the leftover tomyam soup 😂😂😂
Sodap di makan panas2 ketiko di luar hujan...

Ok rehat jap...
Sat gi sambung with the report letter...

Sick: Kisah di hospital

I got hospital follow up appointment at 9am Wednesday
Unfortunately I reached the registration counter at about 9.10am because of slow traffic due to several teucks on road, parking problem and have to change parking for grass mowing.
Guess what ?
I have to wait more than one hour to get the number...
Seriously?
Too long wait just to get a number...

I became impatient when people who came later than me got their number first...
So I went to the counter asking why I still do not get the number.
The staff told me she already called my name.
I asked her when did she do so...
She said just now ...
Ok fine I was in the toilet.

Few minutes later she called me
Guess what???
My file have yet to be prepare...
So I need to give her my phone number, address, the first appointment date...
She even need my first prescription.
Luckily I brought the tablets box
Seriously?
Second appointment masih tiada fail?
they do not have a record of me after first appointment two months ago and after blood test were done just a week ago.
Peraturan/prosedur rekod hospital memang beginikah atau kes staf cuai/terlepas pandang?
Whatever....yg penting dah dpt nombor

Then I have to wait again for the body weight measurement and blood pressure check up...

Once done with it...
Another waiting to see the doc
The weird thing was the numbers after me were called and mine was not appear...
So, I have to ask the staff at the counter again
She seemed uncomfortable with the question
and just said something like "doktor ambil yg lainlah dululah kot"
Ok fine...

Alhamdulillah
Only at about 11.20am my number appeared
Seriously?
Different doctor from the previous one for follow up?
Since they have not prepare my file yet
I have to recall everything and explain my history to him...
Sempat lagi bebel why after two months my file is not prepared...
Terkial2 doc tu nak jawab 😅
He seemed relief knowing that I did not see him on the first appointment 😂😂😂

However since I still got the headache he kept on asking me about
1. Rasa sakit lagi tak after mkn ubat
2. Ada apa2 sign before the headache
Hish manalah I perasan ...
Yg perasan bila sakit je lah...
Even kalau I focus with work I ignore je la
Ada juga ditanya the level of pain on the scale of 1-10..
I said 5 to 6...

Rasa tekanan atau denyut?
Tekanan darah macam mana
Lah kan tadi dah check bp doc ooi....
Barulah dia tengok 😂...
Lepas tu dia tunjuk result test darah yg dibuat minggu lepas...
😱😱😱😱
Hanya ada jalur2 je takde result.
Luckily I pernah buat blood test oada bulan 7.
Tunjuk jelah pada doc.
But is it still valid?

Then he left me for a while.
Maybe to ask second opinion for my case and to check the available medicine in the pharmacy
And he came back with the plan of new medication for me...
Another doc agreed with his plan
He asked me to make note for my sickness and medicine intake as well...

Actually hospital mungkin ada masalah ruang
So satu bilik utk 2/3 docs
Memang tak privacy
Dengarlah juga kes pesakit lain
Sakit jantunglah
Ubat hospital ni tak sama dengan IJN
Teruk gak result nih...
Datang lagi next month
Pesakit dah keluar
Panggil semula
Silap tengok rekod lama 😅
Rekod baru seems better
Then, masuk pula isteri pesakit lain
Dah pi farmaai
Precsription doc tiada cop doctor pula
Terpaksa datang semula
Macam2 kan
Doc dah penat sangatlah tu
Sampai hilang fokus...
Just imagine yg tak tido seharian and on call pula...
Kesian mereka berkorban demi pesakit

Once out of the doc room
Only 5 people left waiting 😅
So tunggu lagi....for prescription.
What? Perlu buat blood test lagi?
What? Yg haritu result cant be analysed ...
Why? due to darah beku?
How it can be like that?
Tapi memang sebelum jumpa doc perlu buat blood test.
So next time kena buat elok2 lah supaya darah tak beku.
Berubah muka nurse tu 😅.
Kesian dia yg tak bersalah kan.
Dia jadi penyampai je.
I yg kecewa mesti tanya macam2 dan ingatkan.
Tapi idoklah I marah or meninggi suara.
Faham2 jelah reaksi kecewa dan bengang tapi terkawal....

Then hantar prescription di kaunter farmasi.
Kena tunggu lagi...
Around 12.30pm barulah dapat ubat sebeban
On the way balik singgah beli roti and had lunch...keli bakar, sambal ikan masin+petai dan kerabu

Balik rehat je lah...
Bila sakit makan je ubat.
Bila belek2 ubat...
Apa ke hal ada label for hbp?
Doc hanya tanya bp but we didnot discuss anything about hbp.
Risau tersilap ubat je.
Maka, I called pharmacist.
She argued why I did not ask while taking the pills at the counteer and asked me to come back..
Dah tengahari, dengan lapar dan sakit kepala dgn ramai yg menunggu ko rasa aku nak baca ke label tu masa di kaunter?
Anyway she willing to ask the doc about it.
Based on her revision and doc info that medicine can be used to treat migraine too....

Huish! Macam2 hal 😅

Sick: allergic lagi ...

Gara2 makanan dan degil tak kawal makan...
Hah! Hadaplah kan...

Hari Rabu ...
pi makan gulai ayam+sambal bilis for lunch
and laksa +karipap sambal for dinner
Malam tu dah siap2 makan adezio
So pagi khamis oklah sikit

Tapi pi makan mee goreng+sambal for lunch
and nasi arab for dinner
Malam tu dah ambil ubat lain
Tak berani nk ambil adezio

Pagi Jumaat as expected rashes on certain parts of my lips and around mouth 😅 ...
Lepas tu tak sedar diri pi makan daging for lunch
And satay for dinner

Pagi sabtu pulak
Pi makan mee kari yg dibeli on Tuesday for brekky and dinner
Maka makin teruklah allergicnya
Udah dagu pun kena gak...

Hari Ahad
Makan telur hancur pedas for lunch and dinner
Lagilah naik rashesnya...

Hari Isnin
Makan kari ikan merah dan sayur tumis
Tapi pelik after that pun ada rasa itchy...
Sayur tu ada rencah ayam kot...

Malam tu I had sambal tenggiri
Pun macam tak ok je...

Hari Selasa
Coz tak larat keluar pi beli food di cafe
Hmm...tak insaf gak
Pi makan sambal ikan kembung

Petang tu barulah pi klinik
Doc kata allergiclah tuh..
Even spicy food boleh buat allergic
Dialah antara mangsanya 😅
Anyway mmg doc pesanlah elak le makan penyebab allergy tu...

I risau gak kok fungus ke apa kan
Doc kata klu fungus ni berakarlah...
Suka tempat lembap...
So elaklah the oily cream...
better jgn pakai antifungus coz it will make the infected area darker once its healed.
Cucilah muka bersih2 sebelum wudhuk tu katanya dan lap properly...
I like this doc very much
She is very positive, friendly and manja

Anyway  for my allergy doc prescripted me with cetrizine and ubat sapu...

Sick: Blood Test Again

On Monday
I had to rush from kampung to office
Bila dah terlewat
Maka faham2lah how ELITE traffic is....

Beria applied time off
For blood test appointment in hospital
Sekali sekejap je 😂😅
Pulak tu rasa macam senior citizen
Coz yg sama2 menunggu tu semuanya 60++ yo 😅
Tapi everytime buat blood test mesti tak sanggup nak tengok semasa dicucuk...

Singgah farmasi ambil ubat
Suppose jika ubat habis perlu datang on 3rd october...
Tak kuasalah kan
So just buat sekali harung

Tapi pharmacist mcm tak percaya
'Siapa nama"
"Ubat habis ke? dengan muka heran
 ..........................
"Maksimum 6 kali satu hari ya"
Hmm...nak je jawab
Memanglah dapat dua kotak yg nmpk byk isi
Tapi sekotak ada 6 biji pil je..
Cukupkah 12 biji untuk 47 hari?

Balik tu singgah kedai makan.
Bagus around 10.30am dah ada lauk.
Even dah orang makan nasi campur waktu tu...
Ambillah ikan bakar+gulai rebung+ulam.
Total RM11.50....

Bila pi hospital
Jika tak berapa sakit pun boleh rasa sakit
So rehat kejap...

After lunch hour back to office
Dah boss suruh semak meeting report
Buat je la...
Boss banyak keroje lah tu kot
Kesian kat dia dan tak mau dia stress
dan selain for the sake of our unit
Kita tolong mana yg termampu
Jenuh edit/tambah sana sini
Call orang lain juga nak pastikan event yg dinyatakan betul...
Pelik pulak ada evaluation management tak dinyatakan...
Terpaksa trace tarikh several meeting for that
Agak2 mcm ayat kurang jelas, letaklah comment....
Alhamdulillah nearly 5.30pm it was done

True Color

On friday
I got meeting at 9am
Hard to leave this important and once in a blue moon meeting 😅
Why???
I got another meeting at 10am that involved outsider...
So should know which one is the priority...
Quite funny with this second meeting
About a big event...
It gonna be held so soon
But seemed to have problem with the date and venue
Whatever...don't think
There are many other things to think
Let them manage the big things
So just listen and do my part only 😅

Once back to the other meeting
It was good to hear when the seniors gave comments
and kinda expressed their feelings as well...
Yup...after keeping it for so long
So this is the right time to let go ...

Few of us just stayed there after the meeting ended
So we just talked about the event
About certain people who always involve in any event coz being boss's favourite...
We pity them...
And yes when certain people made complaints due to work overload we the invisible group now become visible 😂😂😂...
I even talked about people who hard to pay my money back...
Little that I know our ex-boss was still there
Behind the 😱😱😱😱...
Why my colleagues did not tell me about him?
How could they let me reveal my TRUE COLOR to him 😰😰😰😰....
Luckily I did not talk about him 😅😅😅😅

Once back to my office
I ate kuih cucur badak and donut
I was blank and clueless of what to do
I even got headache
So I took sumatriptan for my migraine...
But my condition getting worse ..
Seemed like mild fever, nauseous and neck pain

I got two appointments after 4pm...
Regardless of my condition I need to stay strong and focus...

It left office around 5.30pm
Very unsual when left earlier than my colleagues 😅

When I am feeling unwell
Normally I will craving of something
Something crunchy and hot
So here are my dinner before taking panadol 😁....except the bun ...

Before off to bed I shared with my customers about people in need. However certain people need a proof before sharing or contributing because being extra careful of scammer.

Nagging, Nervous and SICK

Backdated post

Pagi khamis
I thought of something
Lantas ku hantar mesej yg pnjg to this people
Reminder about their intention
And list of things to do
No more compromise...
No more appeal  ....

Lewat pagi khamis ...
Ada perjumpaan...
Tak cukup Selasa
Khamis kita brainwash lagi...

Kalau dah pesan kali pertama
Kerap ulang pula...
Dah tegur baik2
Dah bebel...
Dah marah...
Pulak tu tau I macam mana
Tapi buat jugak
Kenapa tak berubah?
Boleh kena sakit kronikkah atau matikah kalau ikut pesanan?

Tu tandanya apa?
Tak faham bahasa?
Tak kisah?
Tak sedar diri?
Tak insaf
Hati batu?
Saja nak cabar?
Memang tak hormat orang?
Stupid?
Attention seeker?
Kurang kasih sayang?

Lepas tu bawa mulut
Kata I tak sporting
Dok marah2/bebel
Takut dengan I
Ramai pulak yg percaya membabi buta
Tanpa selidik apa punca

Maka wujudlah analogi
Dah tau api tu panas dan menyakitkan
Yg sahaja bakar diri tu kenapa?
Dah alang2 acah2 panggang tangan sendiri
Meh I bakar sampai rentung...

Satu lagi...
Dah tau harimau tu garang
Yg sengaja masuk kandangnya dah kenapa?
So tak bolehlah stress/marah kalau harimau terkam dan serang...

Dah beranalogi...
Makan itu perlu 😂😂😂
Jom Penyet...tapi sambalnya sikit and banyak belacan pulak...

Makan laju2...
Ada meeting 2pm pula...
Terlewatlah pulak 😰...
Ada yg tak nampak bayang lagi 😠😠😠
So yg muncul...sesi refleksi diri dulu 😉😉😉
Nak tergelak pun ada
There is someone who is always act and talk randomly
This time he is the only one mentioning about COMMON SENSE...
Yes my favourite and frequent word to them...
Anyway our discussion went quickly...

Once done with the meeting
Kalut nk pi klinik
Nervous nak tau blood and urine test result...
Tu yg BP mula2 94 ....
then baru turun 89 😅😅😅
Alhamdullilah both test result are ok
But cholestrol tepat2 5.2 😰😰...
But another doctor pula
Perlu explain lagi what are my problems 😅
So what is wrong?
Severe migraine that cause headache and blurry vision?
Doc siap uji my strength by asking me to push her in various position
Event ask me to do the touch nose test while following the movement of her finger...
That is for brain function test...
Anyway....to be sure...she gave me referal letter to hospital for further investigation...

Then off I went to pay my credit at the printing shop.
Dah alang2 pi that area...jom pi tupperware outlet looking for nutri metics two way cake...
Hmm kena order pulak...Tak kuasalah tunggu
Jomlah beli set burger for dinner 😅😅😅

Then back to office since I left my laptop there
Buatkah keroje sikit...
Baru terhegeh2 download bahan for project mapping...
Memang asyik lupa or tak berkesempatan
Yg relevant party pun tak beri reminder

Malam konon nak siapkan that task..
Hmm...terbongkang di sofa...
Abaikan jelah customers yg bertalu2 hntr mesej
Masa jumpa tak mau tanya 😠
So I am sorry...
I need my me time ya....

Be fair...

Backdated post 😅😅😅.....

Pagi Rabu after brekky
Datang semula sakit kepala umpama batu atas kapla dan tegang tengkuk...
Ah! Sudah...
Padahal minum jasmine tea je ...
Nak kata pasal mkn udang...awat dari awal pagi tak sakit kepala kan...

Pulak tu once again when the attention seeker bikin kecoh...
Berapa kali nak inform kami da...
Kalau nak wish our collegue for the success of their program, perlukah inform you pi mana?
Owh I lupa 😅....
Kan hebat pi meeting dengan orang besar
Di tempat besar 😂😂😂...

Eh! Their program tu memang takde orang lain...
Balik2 muka tu je...
Balik2 kroni mereka...
Awatlah tak beri peluang orang lain
Bukanlah dengki
Bukanlah nak sangat
But be fair to ALL...
Orang lain pun nak juga cuba,  belajar dan timba pengalaman dalam tugasan lain juga
Selain turut memberi sumbangan...

Bila disuarakan kpd senior
Selain org yg sama pegang itu ini
Senang cerita agihan tak adil
Isu kroni pun dh mcm biasa..
Katanya unit kami perlu main peranan juga
Tapi rupa2nya due to issue with the big boss dia juga serahkan tugasnya kpd si attenton seeker ...since she got the experience
Tapi sudah dipesan utk libatkan semua...
Tapi hmm....kalau betul libatkan idok le I bebel di sini 😅

A bit annoyed when she highligted about fair concept...
Not necessarily to equally divide
But to appoint the relevant person...
Habih tu how la org lain be relevant if they never given a chance...
Unless they refuse to join....
Seriously I am not happy with this unfair issues...

Bebel pun still perlu makan 😂😂😂...
Well here is my lunch ...

Dah kenyang makan, rehatlah di rumah....
Then I checked my trainee tasks via online....seems ok. But of course I gave feedback for certain aspects that need to improve.....

Then, I prepared a report for problematic people...long list of it together with chronology and actions that has been taken. Yup better be prepared...before the bosses arguing and blaming for no action taken....

SICK: TAK SEDAR DIRI

I kan selalu ada sakit/berat kepala, tegang tengkuk dan rasa mata nak terjojol. Lately it comes together with nauseous 😰...
So before fasting month, doktor klinik panel suspected high cholestrol and suruh buat blood test.
Tapi nk buat test di tempat kami ada hari yg ditetapkan and perlu puasa dari 10 pm supaya boleh buat test pagi.
But I could not make it previously.
Bila bulan puasa bersemangat nak pi. Tapi rupa2nya perlu datang petang pula 😅. Tertangguh lagi...

Akhirnya setelah sekian lama bertangguh, semalam ku ke klinik membuat ujian darah....

Sakit you masa nak ambil darah. Dulu2 idoklah i terjerit...ni dah tuo pulak ngada2....

Tiba2 nurse suruh buat urine test jugak. Ah sudah....Bila letak the urine bottle outside the lab, I noticed mine was the darkest...seems like honey. These few days maybe since sunday I noticed it got pinkish color...Info from google stated that either from food color or infection. Harapnya bukanlah jangkitan. Ye la...mungkin from asam tembakau merah tu, supplement containing saffron or berries, brekky tea or lack of water consumption.

Definitely I feel nervous waiting for both result in one week time. Please pray for me ya....

Selain sakit kepala dan tegang tengkuk, I got blurry vision since 2 years ago. No point wearing glasses since I cant see things sharply at certain time. Jahat betul orang kedai spek tu. Bila buat eyes di klinik, doc kata I tiada masalah rabun pun....the eyes specialist said it got to do with my nerve system. The worst happened this year when my I got double vision especially last week...So, definitely it is not safe to drive and I can't do my reading/typing works whenever it happens 😭😭....

As we all know the normal bp is 120/80 and the hbp or hypertension if the reading more than 130/90. Before Raya I went to klinik pakar usim. ..What??? My lower reading is 91 😱😱😱...oh no!!! Hbp????...Doc related this with my frequent headache n blurry vision. And I became worry when he associated all these with diabetes and kidney failure 😰😰😰....So doc suggested to me to monitor my bp for 3 days. Since it was Raya ...well you know what happened.....

Anyway...what was my bp reading yesterday?
132/94 !!!!
😱😱😱😱
Getting higher 😭😭😭....
I tak mahu makan ubatlah....

Actually I met the new doc yesterday.
Nasiblah dpt jumpa siapa. I pun lupa nak request doc yg dah biasa. Doc ada juga kait my frequent headache with previous history which is sinus. So perlu jaga makan....habih tu I nak makan apa kalau seafood, daging, ayam dan telur I tak boleh makan? How to live life as vegetarian? Definitely not me... Doc terkejut bila dengar my sinus got worse when I ate chicken. Kalau nak kurangkan sakit kepala, gatal dan naik bintil2 di muka...so perlu ambil ubat. Tapi sampai bila nak bergantung kpd ubat?

Habih tu what to do?
Tapi tetap tak sedar diri makan apa saja 😅

Food poisoning pulak

Pagi khamis tu brekky with coffee n roti+butter
Frozen bread then defrost n reheat in microwave...
Pada hujung brekky tetiba rasa tak selesa
Perut rasa perut memulas dan cramp
Hah sudah....
Awat gini???
Takkan period pain gini

Hmm lepas tu dok keluar masuk toilet
Memang diarea la ...
Tapi kadang masuk toilet je
Bila baring lagilah perut sakit
Nak jalan pun terbongkok2
Sendawa pun byk kali
Memang perut byk anginlah tu

Bila naik atas ambil baju
Tekak rasa semacam
Cecepat lari ke bilik air
Habih keluar roti brekky
Adoi...siksa bila muntah
Sampai 3 kali tuh...

So bila dah muntah bagai
Confirmlah food poisoning
Tapi tak pastilah apa puncanya
Ayam nasi kerabukah?
Roti frozen itukah?
Atau mungkin microwave need proper cleaning and disinfectant

Bila dah keluar semua
Tak larat dah nk pi kerja
So ambil EL dan rehat je lah
Bila rasa dah lega sikit..
Makan sikit tepung pelita...
Hmm keluar balik...

Tengahari memang lapar
So makan kurma je
Setakat makan itupun....
Perut rasa pedih n cramp

Tapi tiba2 demam pula
Hah sudah...
Minum air banyak2...

Malam makan nestum je la
Bila masih demam lagi
Makan je la panadol

So, pengajarannya
Masak jelah...
Kalau teringin menu tertentu
Beli di kedai biasa
Bukan di Bazar Ramadhan ya...

Priority ...

My dilema in making decision...
How to choose among department work, customers and health????
Whatever it is...I should know my priority...
But definitely I have to sacrifice one of it.

My schedule was so packed on Friday.
I involved as one of the panel in the pitching session in the morning.
However, suddenly I was not feeling well during the session...like mild fever, heavy head and nauseous.
Then, I have to check my customers' documents which due on that day 😰.
And leave early to prepare for my outstation

Around 11.30am I checked my customers' docs I was very dissapointed with their works.
Regardless so frequent reminder, their works are just the same.
As a result, my task was not only to check but to edit and improve their docs as well.
To do that I have to find the references.
Accordingly,  I spent about 1.5 hours to check and edit work done by one customer only.

Why I have to do all that???
Certain people only check and correct their customer's docs for less than 10 minutes. Either the work is so excellent, they do not have high expectation, they could not be bother, so busy or whatever...
They have their own reason.
Same goes with me....
In my case, I can stand with improper work
Moreover if it for international event.
You see that is my problem...
I always care and think about other people
and neglecting mymain responsibilities and myself.

I told my colleague that I might not join the 3pm call time due to my health condition and may get a lift from the staff later in the evening. I hope that I am getting better, finish my checking/editing work and have enough time to pack my clothes for that second call time.

Anyway I left office around after 1pm.
Hurriedly bought food for lunch and dig into it 😅....
It seemed that I was gett8ng better after lunch. I decided not to take active fast since I need to back to my checking/editing task.
By 3pm  I was still struggling with the second customer's docs
Around 4pm,  I felt uncomfortable and took active fast.
By 5.30pm I made decision not to join the staf for the 6.30pm call time.
I had dinner around 8.40pm
Back to checking/efiting work.
Alhamdulillah I sent the latest version of the docs via email to the fourth customer by 9.40pm.
I could not believe that I managed to improve their docs to another level by relating it with all the future demand and challenge.
Big pat to myself..
Alhamdulillah...

But my work still not finish yet.
I saw latest email from my junior customer.
So need to comment on her work as well...

Then, later that night I thought of going for the outstation by ETS on Saturday morning
But around 4am my health condition was still the same and ended up taking active fast again. As a consequence, I have to cancel my plan for the outstation once again.

How can I went through the day with just had a rest? So, I sent long whatsapp messages to my customers with things to be reconsider and to be taken into account in improving their works. Later I even sent  to one of them suitable references to add value in her work.

I had leftover laksa and omelette for lunch

Before lunch once again I thought of going for the outstation by the afternoon ETS. It seemed that there are lot to be done on that day and not fair to my colleague facing the burden while I was in recovering phase. But I know my body still not fit to go there and even I should not jeopardize my health for the travel as well as in air conditioned  train and workshop venue.

You see...
I can change mind in a split second 😅

Selera orang tak sihat

**postponed post, updated on 15 feb****

Hari sabtu walaupun tak sihat
Tapi tak boleh layan
Kena siapkan kriteria penilaian
Benda sikit je
Tapi bila tak tahu apa yg nak dimasuk
Bila cari info ada banyak pilihan
Dah jadi keliru
Jika tak tamak 😅
Akibatnya dok mengadap keroje from 9am-4pm....

Kata tak sihat
Suppose makanlah sup or bubur
Tapi pi makan kari kapla ikan beli semalamnya

Nikmatnya....

Lepas tu around 5.30pm pi keluar
Pi cari gas...Mahal RM120 utk tong baru 😰
Tunggu orang kedai hantar dan pasang sekali
Risau dan takut juga
Buka pintu luas2 lah....
Dia pi dapur...kita standby kat luar 😅
Bila dia dok pasang api dapur
I pi tinjau dari dining hall 😅

Nilah kan when we are single
We have to manage on our own
Takkan asyik nak mengharap bantuan orang
Takkan nak menyusahkan orang waktu weekend
Apa pilihan yang saya ada, melainkan mohon perlindunganNya...
"Tak elok..."
"tak manis..."
"Mana boleh"
"You should not do this..."
"Why not do that?"
Well makcik bawang....
Cakap memang senang if you are not in our shoes...
Takkan nak tunggu ko jadi macam kami baru ko faham ?
Setakat cakap berapi2....
Tapi pernahkah ko tawarkan diri nak membantu kami yg kesusahan???
Yg sensorang ni?

Anyway dah petang tu macam tiada idea nak beli food apa nearby my house...
Tiba2 kereta bergerak ke town
Cari burger sedap, kedai tutup pula
Apa ek...
Macam tak selera thai food
KFC baru makan haritu
Ok pi secret recipelah
Eh...pi beli sataylah....
Sementara tunggu tu pilah dominos

Sebelum maghrib makanlah...

Tapi macam kembang tekak makan yg cheeze tu. So makan sikit je....
Then before isyak makan satay pula

Hari ahad pun makan merapu
Dah lewat petang teringin bubur tepung
Tiada santan, susu lowfat pun bolehlah...

Tu dia kan...
Menu weekend tak sesuai untuk orang tak sihat...