Serendipity, But Not Quite

I saw an old friend, JR in a bar in Malate one night. I haven't seem him for a while since I have been out of town most of the time recently and have not been visited Malate as often as before. Anyway, we spent some good time talking and laughing, and he finally asked me to go to his birthday party. I suddenly remembered that JR knows a guy I know, one of the 2 guys I dated when I first broke up with my (ex)boyfriend in August. I asked JR if he could invite that friend, too, and he said he will try. He didn't give me the assurance, though.

Yesterday was the birthday party.

Although I have some hesitations about attending the party as (ex)boyfriend might be there too, I decided to go anyway. Afterall, some friends will be there and it would be nice to see them after a long time. I have to admit though that the reason I would be going is that I am hoping to see that guy I asked JR to invite. Lets just call him J.

 I was very excited to see J. I was hoping he will be at the party. Finally, I arrived a little later, and slowly I opened the door, and voila, I saw J first. My lips were filled with smiles, though I tried not to be too obvious. It felt good to see him again, but then again, I'd have to do the basic courtesy. I greeted the birthday boy, and then went to the rest of the friends, and finally went to J last.

I first met J in August last year. After I first broke up with my boyfriend, I decided to look for someone to occupy the other room in my 2-bedroom condo unit.  He went to see the place, and we started seeing each other since then.

I hang out with J most of the time that evening, simply just catching up while flirting on the side. However, as much as I would like to just hang out with him the whole time, I also had to catch up with other friends, and at the same time, I found out that J had his boyfriend with him that night. Pooffff!

I didn't know he had a boyfriend. I din't know much about what had happened to him since we lost touch in late October when he went back with his then boyfriend, while I patch things up with my (now) (ex)boyfriend. He introduced me to his boyfriend and his boyfriend remarked "so you are #%^& as he shook my hand.  Apparently, his boyfriend have explored his phone before and have read my name (or probably my messages) somewhere.

Anyway, I thought getting a little bit closer to him would not cost me trouble with his boyfriend, and so we just went on talking, drinking, and dancing, and some more flirting.

So how do I go about this now?

I have to admit that I still am very fascinated with J, and given a chance, would like to have him as a partner. I always found J a very good, though not necessarily 'perfect' material for a partner. He is a very fine man-- very reserved and refined with his manners, and I feel like he has a good heart. I have high respects for the man.

Despite knowing that he is now in a relationship, I would still like to stick around and spend more time with him. I promised myself, though, that I would only go as far and would make sure not to cause him troubles with his relationship.

Lets see where will this episode go. Who knows? There might have serendipity.