:: drained ::

I feel drained
physically and mentally
especially mentally
out of creativity
out of ideas
practically feeling that there's no more space in my mind.

Once again,
I seem out of control of my own life
I am letting my studies and projects take control instead
and on the free times I have
I sleep..
because I am so deprived of it.

I have no social life,
almost zero.
I am not going out and enjoying my life as much
as I would like to
I am not seeing the world
and feel left out
desperately..

The world is just running on without me
I am trailing too far behind..
i need to catch up with life
to pursue what I really want
to unleash the creativity hidden within

I need time and control.

:: my back hurts! ::

like hell!
argh!
its back to haunt me!
shit!
how?
my run this saturday!

damn!!!

please recover soon..
like when i wake up tmr it will be okay..
please
i beg.. you... whoever u are..
help!!!!

:: no time ::

Yup. I guess its a bit demoralising for you my friends
to visit my blog to only read some rubbish in chinese
or stuffs that you are able to see elsewhere
like on my school blog diandao
or on mediaweb ourvoicebox.sg
worse
my chinese essays!

haha

but well
that IS the case
i've had no time and no creativity in even expressing my own thoughts
too much effirts have been INDULGED into writing for the above platforms
i've relatively no time in writing for myself
it seems now like a chore to be blogging
and that is sad

i find my life rather stale
not in the sense that its been boring
but i try to bring the "news" in my everyday life
first hand translate into chinese
and post it on diandao
which is supposed to be a platform of "communication"
between classmates and teacher danny yeo
but a you may know
writing there is not like writing as Isaac
because i need to take note of my language and to be able to convey the messages across
carefully and properly
and seriously lor,
how personal can you get writing in chinese right?
haha..

i now try to make it a point
as a promise to myself
that I will blog here,
in ENGLISH
with my viewpoints no matter what
to try to keep a promise and staying true to myself
blog at least three times a week
sharing my thoughts
and not just blaming my no time and no energy on my coursework..
damn..

but then again..

i've got a creative essay of 1000 words due in 2 days
5 business cards and logo designs to complete and a formal presentation
10 photos in different views to take (i need models!)
a project about media in taiwan
a project about social psychology to implement and experiment and report
and a blog to write on and communicate..

whoa.. never felt so "fulfilling" in my life

but well... at least i'm happy! i hope.. :)

:: 朋友？::

是我不了解别人，

还是人家不了解我？

是我孤僻，

还是他们并没归纳我在团内？

我的无声，

传达出的不是敌意吗？

当我太常安静时，

你们是否已习以为常，

忘了我也有感受的？

他人会生气，

我就没有这权利吗？

是因为我年级较大，

更独立，

就不需朋友的关怀？

或许，

或许孤独也不错。

或许，

我能找到更志同道合的朋友，

更能了解我，

多点关心我。

:: bonding . 友谊的考验 ::

今天和几位同学朋友外出
由于今天没上课，
约了一同去唱k。
全场下来
突然觉得莫名的孤独
那孤僻，antisocial 的feeling又回来了。
我真的不习惯如此emo的我。
因为那样真的很难受。
或许是因为我早前身体不适，
头有那么一点痛的关系。
但似乎，旁人也没查到什么不对经。
又或许他们还年轻，
无法了解他人。
朋友朋友。到底如何才是朋友？
我似乎已经忘了。
要到已经分开后才珍惜那段友谊吗？

i can't feel our friendship going anywhere further
is it just me or is it true?
我和中学朋友以及当兵队友那种bonding到了那里呢？
or am i just in the wrong clique?
真的希望不是。

i choose to think i am just too stressed
that i'm thinking too wildly.
its tough to blend in
really
not an age matter
just a personal thing.
当时看到的closeness好像lost了。
我的best friend 真的在这当中吗?
我还在等待。

thats the problem with big groups
you will naturally form small fractions
and when there are extraordinary relationships
things change
and as the quiet, queer, oft emo boy i have always been
i easily feel neglected.

how to make me feel loved? i do not know.
i just wait.. for the correct feeling to come.

:: too free ::

a million plans seems fixed to the back of my mind everyday

when i'm actually freaking free during most of the time in the day

until a certain hour when i have an event to attend/ rehearsal/ meet up..

i seem to be waiting

endlessly

for something to happen..

for now.. i'm just waiting for new year to come

before tt, i am a real slacker..

even my supposed full time job has such flexible working hours n workload

that i don't practically feel its existence..

i bet many people are envious,

but wait till i tell you the environment and the official working hours and weekend load..

well well..

i guess this world IS fair..

but for now..

i shall be the snappy self.. and complain about everything..

i have no plans actually..

because i don't see myself having passion for anyting I do now..

hopefully my application for a poly course gets through and i get a course i like..

even better if i qualify for work in THE ministry i've been wanting so badly..

if all fails.. i hope i'll b able to get a place in a course i like in SIM/MDIS/ACCA..

noting concrete.. just waiting..

not even sure for wat..

(man, i really feel like i'm Eeyore.. though not that pessimistic..)

:: when blogging can't serve its purpose ::

i initially intended to just rant on this blog

views that i have and am closely related to about a club which i am in

but after many thoughts

i tink i shall not

since there may be people reading this and i don't want to hurt their feelings

then i'm tinking of my LJ

since its a more private (to me) avenue to express

but yet i also know there ARE people who might also be reading tt and get hurt indirectly

so this comes to the point

whether blogs are just a way to let out your frustrations?

or to show your love and make it look like a beautiful movie

if its a form of expression

when am I having such reserves

well..

its kind of hard when such a thing occurs

but this being my diary i really want to just say it out without any biasness

and not tt i'm supporting such a stand simply due to the fact tt my opportunities have been taken away

for i do not care about tt at all..

the drama club which i am currently involved in

i feel

is just another act of being too under controlled by higher authorities

not tt it is a bad thing

just that i personally feel

there are some people who are a little daunting in such a sense

and makes it feel very stuffy to work in suddenly

recent turn in events

have made me feel tt it is not ready to open up

i am not a vocal person and will not voice it out directly

thus using blogs as a way to express my thoughts

i understand the higher authority is providing with substantial support and monetary supplies

but however,

the club is currently a school club

and like other clubs

should be run solely by the students itself

and thus should have be given the confidence to do so

however

there seems to be a high level of relience

or is it a high level of protection from the authorities

that makes it rather stiffling...

i mean..

not tt i've been tt experienced to be speaking

just sharing my views..

if you want to open a club

and says right from the start tt you welcome people from all walks of life

and is branded by a student club

i believe that that should be it.

currently

there is a sense of great respect for the "descendants" to the higher authorities

and there feels like it is run under full control of them as well.

it feels closed

like its set up to be a sub group of the "party"

and not tt ready to be welcoming the others..

there has been many such incidents in the past few months tt i've seen

and i've encountered rather bad experiences, probably unknown to many.

i mean..

have confidence

set up and let it run

if you want to constraint it in this way'

you will only be scaring people off.

its good to set a vision and standard

and yes, probably you should have some control

but from what i see

the bond between you all are too close

and its really hurtful to see it going in such a way

some kinda dictatorship way.

maybe its time to grow up

really

because trying is good

but over controlling

will only have its adverse effects

if you want things completely run your way..

then keep it within yourselves

shouldn't have bothered to open up.

:: ignorance is NOT bliss ::

i really like to watch drama serials

especially when the story is worth catching on..

and amidst the stress i'm facing during exam periods

any drama serial seems like a good way to escape

(an excuse to say: i'll watch for 1 hour then go study)

recently got stuck watching a show which

i regretfully say

i watch it because i like the actors..

(Elvin and Rui En!!!)

yup.. Bu Fan De Ai..

but i must shout:

whoa lau!

wat crap shows

its captivating..

somehow touching

but quite nonsensical lo!!

where got so many people don't know the facts about Aids?

even if your whole neighbourhood knows

they won't ostracize you lo..

the whole show is SO exaggerating!!

Please people

AIDs is not spread by saliva

and not permeable through air

its by blood transfusion onli

or accidentally contact by infected needles..

haiz~

then again..

GLBTs have high "opportunity" of contracting aids..

lol..

mayb i should go for an anonymous test when i'm free

after all

you may be looking healthy

but the virus have been in your body for long time

it takes around 5 years for HIV virus to take effect

going into full blown Aids

and even after contracting HIV virus

there's a window period of around 6 weeks before it can be tested

now there's 2 types of test avail

by blood or by inner mouth cell quick test..

for all my friends..

do support the HIV/Aids patients in Singapore and around the region

and support the cause to create awareness for Aids

World Aids Day falls on 1 December

for the first time

Singapore will be holding a concert to commerate the day and promote the cause

Love Amp Concert::

*29th November

*Fort Canning Park

*Tickets at $25 (Student con cession at $15)

*each ticket entitles you to a commemorative tee shirt by Levi's

*features local artiste, headlining with Stefanie Sun and Hady Mirza, Dim Sum Dollies

And Absolutmilo is giving TWO person the chance to go the concert with me!

if interested

just leave me a tag / SMS or Email mrisaaclim@gmail.com

:: lost drive ::

lost the drive

completely

to study anymore

i keep thinking of other things

although entering the workforce is never an option

(at ALL)

but probably due to the talks, conversations, shows, plays, musicals, variety shows, drama,

newspapers.. i read/heard/seen recently

i feel bad

to be studying at all

a subject that i've got completely no interest in

i really don't undertand what i'm studying!

:: roller coaster ride! ::

its examinations week next week
and its going to be a hell of a roller coaster ride
with many things cramped up! oh my god!
emotional and mental torture.. be prepared..

yesterday
watched Avenue Q
its really funny
and wat i watch out more is the story development, characters and production
its a great set and storyline
but i guess its a show for the masses..
noting much technocal to note of
but nonetheless
its a really great performance
since many of the show's 3 weeks run has been fully booked.
will remember the songs like "if you were gay", "internet is for porn" and "It sucks to be me".
well
i'm now listening to the Broadway original cast recording
a really nice memory of a great musical!
anyone wants can borrow from me and have a great laugh at the songs..

read a few comments and reviews about Gemuk Girls by The Necessary Stage
i seems to be a great play
in theatrics and script
but too bad..
just when i wanted to get tickets
its all sold out le!

but I'm gonna catch Flare ( a play bout live during n after a earthquake in a neighbouring country)
by Cake Theatrical and The Finger Players
quite looking forward to it
coz its really interesting to see two companies which i like and are pretty known to be good companies..
hope dearie will be able to watch it with me

that brings me back to another topic
watched Ave Q with weizhi yesterday
because someone was busy
and couldn't make it

well well..
sometimes
i really hope he can relax and take things in different perspective
i hope he can see things through other's life
who knows what happens
he is sometimes domineering
just the way i like it
but then
there are times when i feel he hould think of what people really want
and not simply wat he perceives

sometimes
i might say i'm tired
like really "tired"
because i don't just want to be pampered
i want to be a bigger part of your life
not just someone who gets your love
or how it appears to be "love"

its not easy
you might say again
you don't know what young people think
but hey
if i can understand you and what you really want
mayb you can try to reciprocate that as well
i know work is tough
and you are one who knows how to work hard n play hard
and seperates the two apporpriately

probably you need to separate your social life from mine
i know your friends
but do you know mine?

there are things you do with your friends
and try to pull me in when i might not be interested
then there are other activities
which you simply count me out
you don't seem to care about anyting at all

on the long run
i really don't understand you
your stand on things
and what you are really looking for
your fast changing attitude makes me feel lost
98% of the time
i enjoy the many things
but its the little things that matters more

hopefully
by saying you love me
we can integrate each other into one another's life
and not just say so

be it..
if we are going to live together (forever? long term? i don't know. though i know you want to.. ?)
we have to balance. merge. move on.

sometimes
being simplistic is the best
get back to your roots of being the child-like boy when you are with me
think of being simple
thats easier.. to think and do..
haha.. now i am at a lost myself.. what do i really want??

**ps: anyone wants to go Zoukout, watch Snow white and the seven dwarfs by Wildrice, First Light by Toy Factory, Lee Guitars All Stars Concert, please contact me!**

:: i need a trainer ::

i need a personal trainer

who does not charge too much

and i can afford

who is good and knows his things

and can guide me even outside gym

(including what and what not to eat)

to encourage me on my regiment

to push me to do more

to properly help me lose weight n build muscles

i need to loose weight properly

and not rebound every few days

i need to know all the proper techniques to maintain

because i've just gained weight again..

after 3 days of not going to gym...

and eating carbo.. ARGH!

i'm sinful

i've sinned..

i can't forgive myself

i need to control and go on my tightest diet

and train doubly hard

my ogal is just ther

no more rebounds!!!!

:: post-real run ::

post real run

tired
aching
cramp legs..

first 2km: good momentum.. running through the gates.. reached into the outback trail area.. argh.. bumpy road.. tiring.. keep going! how far le? dunno.. .... ... oh.. 1km.. great.. 2km.. and still in trail.. where's the turn? its damn hot! ah... water point.. (not cold) ice mountain and (quite cold) post mixed 100 plus.. ooh..

out of trail area.. finally.. 3km! yes! long long stretch of road down aviation way.. huh? aiyo.. run run run.. 4km.. yay... water point.. and more long straigh road/airplane taxiway.. aiyoo... gruelling..

finally.. 5km.. 15 km turn this way.. down the park connector cycling route.. erm.. wow.. long stretch with the end no where in sight.. run .. jog.. run.. jog.. 6km... where's the damn water point? jog... walk.. 7km.. water point 500m ahead.. wow.. jog... water point!! a little way more to u-turn point.. half way mark le.. jiayou! run.. run.. 8km! ouch..

now, i tink my underarm there at my triceps, got abrasion.. ouch! it hurts.. must be caused by the rubbing when running.. rubbing with the fbt singlet.. ooh.. endure.. bery pain.. *raises armpit to avoid contact..* endure.. you can do it..

eh.. another waterpoint, directly behind the previous.. ooh.. run jog run jog.. walk.. jog.. 9km! yay.. look at time.. lagging behind target le.. haiz~ shucks.. i feel my shoes not feeling very well.. how.. dun care.. jog!

10km point.. a little more to the last gruelling 5km.. ooh.. reached changi beach park le.. tts good.. water point!! 11km marker! great.. 4 more km.. wow.. i can do it! wahaha..

walk in the park.. literally.. coz i'm so drenched, drained n tired.. hmm.. oh no.. the 600m of beach sand route.. you can de.. walk and try to jog, sand gets into shoe.,. super uncomfy.. endure.. finally, 12km.. and a little more on the beach.. yay! reach normal land again.. should be less than 2.5km more.. look at watch.. super lagging.. W say: eh.. i go biah timing.. you jiayou k, see you at finishing point.. ??????? what the heck.. at kind of bf is tt??? hmpf.. and he chiong.. run jog run jog.. back to the endless taxiway route to finish point.. wow.. 2.4 km never seems so long..

run run run.. 13km..oh no.. the rubber bottom sole of my right shoe peel off le.. walk walk.. aiya.. just tear it out la! unbalanced new balance.. tts the NEW balance? haha.. jog jog.. run run.. 14km.. 1km more onli.. lets chiong.. sprint sprint.. oh no.. the left side sole oso peeling off le..
heck la.. tear it and hold both in hand.. run.. look at camera, smile.. hehe..

run run run.. reaching le.. the SJI bois shout: good job, you can do it.. keep going.. 300m more.. 300? great.. chiong ah!!!! run run run.. reaching le.. over the carpark, then the little bridge.. oh shit.. leg cramp.. wobbly legs.. stop a while and walk.. walk, jog, walk jog.. chiong for last 50m.. made it!!

haha..

great little goodie bag and red new balance tee shirt was the reward for the 15km gruelling run with the most accidents ever.. my shoes.. haiz!

on a side note, i won a prize in the lucky draw..

MO1933.. won the 29th prize.. wow.. its the first time at a run lucky draw tt i win.. haha.. but i go collect the prize n it was only a NB cap n socks.. and some beauty voucher.. thanks hah..

cleaned up, changed out of my shoes, and clothes.. then proceeded on to take shuttle bus out to pasir ris interchange. W followed me to grab a cab down to SRT at Robertson walk for Young Co. auditions.. ooh.. thanks for the chance tt they gave me..

then we headed for lunch at liang court.. we went tampopo deli.. ya.. tt tampopo deli which everyone recommends.. i've been there twice before.. but tis is the first time i recommend it.. haha.. no time in the past.. its a little shop in basement 1 of Liang Court which serves great authentic japanese takeaway,.. here's what we each had..


that's Katsu Don and the famous cream puff..
the katsu don is really good.. with a piece each of fried ebi, fish fillet and chicken, served on a seaweed covered portion of rice with pork floss, and accompanied with a kani salad.. ooh.. its good! the batter is great.. and the rice is really fluffy n tasty. the tartar sauce is very good, adequate sourness and saltiness.. great don set!

then the ever famous cream puf.. It cost $2.60 for one.. and $5 for two.. usually theres a queue for it.. it is really that good.. on weekends, you can onli buy a max of four per person. see..

the bite into it is perfect.. the puff is just right bite, and the cream.. oh.. it oozes out with just the first bite.. oooooh!!! heavenly.. sweet but not overly cloying.. milky and creamy.. really really good.. you should try it man!!

tts all for a tiring sunday morning.. oh my! i'm still aching.. my foot, my calves, my back, my shoulders, my arms, the abrasion part hurts, so does my neck.. haiz~

till the next physical challenges ahead
-Swissotel Stamford Vertical Marathon (72 storeys up)(16 nov)
-Stan Chart Singapore Marathon 2008 (42.195km far)(7 December)

ooh...

:: r.e.c.e.s.s.week....?? ::

recess
a time to rest
to look back..

i'm tired
its monday
time flies
before i know it
the week will be gone

i'm guilty of some stuffs
what is it i want
i seem to not to know..

my ultimate aim?
hahahahahaha..
Isaac just lives and let live

hopefully he will be always to lucky!
to get away with things..

*sidetrack*
today was a Epiphany outing with seniors
things didn't really run too well
but we tried our best
to bond all together
and the small little party turned out fun
and everyone bonded!

tmr going to see biennale at city hall n south beach development
with weizhi, andy n ron
hope to enjoy myself!
wonder! its gonna b spectecular, i hope...

:: while the rest of the world... ::

... gets busy with political turmoil..

isaac plans to write a political play.. hahaha...
and tries to avoid politics..

... gets busy with financial crisis...

isaac is also setting himself into a personal financial crisis..
but i doubt anyone would use a bailout to save me..

... has presidents "quitting"

isaac is getting himself overly busy with a million and one things
even if somethings he can't explain..
doesn't know what to do..
feels dumb
gets bored
completely puzzled by plans and arrangement
doubts his own ability and capability
and feels like quitting on some matters..

... has terrorist attacks..

isaac doesn't understand whagt the heck are they thinking..

... financial markets and large company turns over

isaac seems ambivalent
isaac is also neutral to such
he is an idiot, really..

... when the local theatre scene is proceeding

isaac seems to be letting his creativity backflow
and starts to think of ways writing plays with same ideas..
he needs to wake up..

...is troubled over milk

he just wants to make some lame jokes out of the milk brand names..

...is moving on F1 success

he wants to avoid Marina area at all cost this week..

...everyone is enjoying their recess

Isaac is going to be so busy this week
or so he thinks..

...people want a healthier lifestyle

Isaac wants too, but
despite exercising a whole lot
but eats even more
especially at unearthly times
which makes him fat

Isaac wants too many things
but he can't be
and he needs someone to constantly alert him
that he is not superman

someone.. anyone..

miloboi says: "being alone lets you think more,
about the endless possibilities..
and not needing to concern yourself too much
about the feeling..
or what is love, really.."

:: i am sick ::

I am sick
i feel warm
i have a sore throat
but i don't want to miss school
especially since tmr there's jap lesson
and its the last week before recess
i bet it will be a nice comma to end the "term"/"week"..
but i feel bad..

i'm tired
lethargic
sleepy
feverish
sad

:: shows to watch . monetary crisis ::

i need to work for my money soon
if not the way i go
my card will go boom
and the companies will be chasing me like those gangster films..

i need money to pay for many things..
bills.. show tickets.. food..
so many things i want..
so little money..
haiz~

anyways.. here's a list of the shows i'm gonna catch in the following few months..
21 Sept (sun) 8pm - SRT's Boom
4th Oct (Sat) 8pm - A*mei Star Tour Singapore Concert
1st Nov (Sat) 8pm - Lee Hom Music Man Tour Singapore Concert
2nd Nov (Sun) 3pm - Avenue Q
28th Nov (Fri) 4pm - SRT's The Office Party

shows i want to watch..

First week of oct - The Vagina Monologue (By zebra crossings)
18th Oct - Sandy Lam Live in Singapore
25th Oct - Singapore Hits Awards
29th Nov - Lee Guitars All Star Concert
(feat. Emil Chau, Tanya Chua, MayDay, Zhang Zhenyue and Lee zhong shen)
13th Dec - Andy Lau Wonderful World Tour Singapore Concert

place i NEED to go!!
ZOUKout 2008!
yeah!
its coming..

on a sidenote..
i'm forced to join a gym
i hope i will like it
its an investment worth making
but for the sake of the better..
well well..

fats.. fats.. go away..
don't come again another day...
never!!

anyone wana go swimming?
sentosa tanning or running?
gymming?
badminton?
volleyball?
bowling?
ice-skating?
next week!!! recess!~

:: now till then ::

the silence fills up the room
as scholarly souls enter and go
he sits alone at a table
wondering of the things that happen.

years and months and weeks go by
in a blink of an eye
not knowing what happens next
working hard for something unknown.

endless possibilities await
the one who pursues it hard
but each has his own will
but road is not always equal.

he who dreams of one
might be working on yet another
the constant perseverence
does it quintessentially result in the best?

he knows that aspirations
are to be clean forgotten
for he is striving towards another goal
that of the society's.

May happiness be bestowed upon him
that can only be known
if he sees the end result
for he feels forgotten by the world

and because
he has forgotten himself already.

:: insecure ::

i feel so insecure
each time i wear a top
that is slightly not so loose
(u know what i mean)
yes
i'm fat..

i'm trying hard to loose weight..
its hard..
but i'm trying..



really..

:: Piling . Troubles ::

i've got everything piling up the way it shouldn't be
and as i look back
I really haven't changed for the better
the way it ought to have gone..
oh no..

troubles are all piling up my way
5 weeks in school and entering the 6th
I am just afraid that I've taken on a little too much!
(once again..)

I've got educational trouble..
organisational trouble..
sports and physical trouble..
monetary trouble..
relationship trouble..

heres a summary..

education troubles:
-project piling up, especially for HW210.. its a sucky project, though it seems essential..
-tutorials.. they are secretly piling up, and I seemed to have missed a lesson or two sometimes..
-thus leading up to missed tutorials and lectures.. notice the s behind? oh no.. how? i need to seek the real importance and the meaning of studies in life for myself and prioritise. plan my life properly..
-and because i've missed the above, the tests coming up will be damn fierce. though it might juz be tests, but things add up, and i hope it will not be in a bad way. I'm going all out to mend these holes, i promise!
-I need to buck up of my school work, desperately..

organisational troubles..
-as u may know,
I have joined a few main committees this year after a bad year in onli sub-committees last year. and as they say, the job is fiercer. oh no.. so the work is really getting heavier and i need to "wake up" my idea and get things done so as to not fail or give up in any of the projects..
anyways, the election for Epiphany main com is tomorrow! yeah! fingers crossed!
(I've currently got CAC JDC and Impresario to take care of.. both PnP posts.. well well)

sports and physical trouble..

-I am fat
-I am unfit
-I've got IPPT coming
-I've not trained well enough..
-I can only run (long distance, not 2.4 n 4X10m..)
-I got tedious dragonboat training which i hope helps.
-i've regular runs thanks to a certain person..
-I am still fat despite trainings and my physiques in not building up.
-i hate that!

monetary troubles...
-really, officially, i am POOR.
-i'm near bankrupt.
-my 4 bank accounts are running on less than 2 or 3 figure sums.
-my three credit cards are running on debts.
-i'm afriad each time the statement comes each months.
-why does time past so fast?
-where am i going to get money to pay
-why am i still in the blur and keep spending endlessly without the constant effort to thrift and spend less despite knowing i HAVE to?
-i am officially a "ka-nu" slave to my cards

relationship troubles:
-for those who do not know
-i've got a 31 year old partner
-who is quite prominent in the circle due to some unspecified reason
-who is desperate to get into a stable "family environment"
-but travels around the world for holiday/work so so often
-and loves sports to much that pressurizes me..
-he is a freakin' 6-pac believer
-and a uber IT professional and closetted entrepreneur wanabe
-who happens to have a military background.
-and is a guy.
-the trouble?
-well..
it is about me acknowledging his existance to my friends
-who might be able to take it, or may be homophobics..
-another challenge:
-he takes care of me too well.
-i feel insecure
-yet he offers a great sense of security
-and now officially wants to have an official "union"
-but it sounds good. but i dun know what will happen next time.
-or even the near future.
-i'm afraid of my poisition in school, friends, family, society...

troubles...

:: stepping over the line ::

I am angry
I biah like siao
and in the end
my championchip did not receive a proper result
lodged a complaint against that to safra..
i'm pissed
really!