:: 9th August . 8.22pm ::

We, The Citizens of Singapore
Pledge ourselves as one united people
Regardless of Race, Language or Religion,
To build a democratic society,
Based on justice and equality.
So as to achieve happiness, prosperity,
And progress for our nation.

____________________________________________________________________

On 9th August 2009
at 8.22pm,
wherever you are,
whatever you may be doing
put it down, stand up,
clench you right fist and put it at your chest.
When you hear the public warning system go off
recite the pledge with the rest of the country
and affirm your loyalty to this country we call home.

feel the passion
feel the dignity
feel the patriotism.

the pledge moment.
I will be a part, will you?

:: Hot or Not? ::

Haha.. happen to chance across this thing about hairstyling from Studio lin by L'oreal..

then happen to come across some of my friends..

do check out and decide if they are hot, or not.. LOL..

Studioline - Toh Ting Shu :: Hot or Not?

Studioline - Choy Wen Ting :: Hot or Not?

Studioline - Chia Wei Long :: Hot or Not?

:: retro ::

Recently
W has been randomly singing songs
which he said he has been waking up and humming to..
these old songs has some which are classic
and others are just random
he would then hunt for it on youtube
and then continuing to rest and snooze for a while on bed..

then during the day
he will pester me with these weird old songs
and ask me to entertain him by singing the songs..
without fail each day i meet him this two weeks
he will have some old old songs..
making me majiam a ge tai singer..

really.. with such songs like this.... dotz....



(apparently, this was taken at a Ge Tai at Eunos MRT, in feb 2008..)

and this...

:: 放空 ::

是一个很奇怪地感觉
似乎一世界脱了节
那一瞬间，我脑子有感觉是到了另一个空间
顿时什么都想不起
什么也不知道
刚发生了什么都不了了之
稍候会做什么也捕打清楚
有种感觉，现在处生在哪里也不太清楚
世界停了电
何去何从都是个未知数
那段时间
周围地声音都好像知识杂音
自己再说话
也不怎么知道是在说什么

很可怕。。
silence.

:: 困 ::

被捆绑住的感觉真的很不好受。
当你神经紧绷的时候
你盼望的是自由

奇怪的是
当你太过自由
却似乎失去了原有的自我控制
这时候 感觉无助、彷徨、害怕
因为失去了的 找不回
错过的机会 不会回头
浪费掉的时间 不可能倒转
世界只会继续旋转

困
困惑
困难

戒 解 接 借
戒掉坏习惯
解开绷住的线
接开前路的门槛
借用世界的时间与机会

我不要在让生命控制我了

我要掌控我的一切
现在～未来～

:: definitions (by me) ::

Happiness :: Having friends, brothers, mummy, home, dearie.

Lonely :: Not feeling happy.

Trust :: When there is someone I can think of when I am in doubt.

Emo :: Moments when I feel "suddenly lonely". When I get temporarily tempramental.

Very emo :: When I am obviously down but no one notices. I will act unusual, but no one will notice.

Friends :: Very important. I take everyone as friends. But apparently not everyone returns that.

Partner :: Someone I can trust. Alot.

Marriage :: Not really found in my dictionary.

Bonding :: Being by friends side, doing anything (not stupid) together. And everyone else have a chance to hear me.

Isaac :: Someone who has to talk and vent anger. Silent at times, but do pay attention to his hidden emotions. Don't give him his way? He will keep quiet, but beware.. 所谓，福建话说：静狗咬死人。don't corss over the line.

Isaac Lim :: Don't mess with me unnecessarily. Known for being 笑里藏刀。

Isaac Jue Hao :: Friendly guy. If you talk to him, he will soften up and talk crap to you. Not a very tough nut to crack. But first, make the effort.

Me :: Friends are key. Talk is essential. I may be a lame joke person. But, first you need to be friendly with me. When the bottle is opened, I will ensure you don't hear silence.

I :: Quiet person. Lonely. Enjoys loneliness.

我 :: 你不会真正的了解我。我的多层次面纱，只让你抓狂。要小心。要很小心！

:: i hearts v ::

Dearest vincent ywk!

You will be my bestest bestest friend

ALWAYS

no matter our other relationship status
our friends
our studies
our work
our sexual preference

22 years le
how can you ever doubt it?

and say such dumb things like
"will we still be friends if you have another bf?"
dotz la
we are not mutually exclusive to one another lo
and since you don't believe my words
i must put on my blog
so that everyone may know
and your new baby will not suspect..

i got mine you got yours
we are still friends, buddies, brothers..
OK???? dotz..

:: boo junfeng ::

Boo Junfeng

this is a talent..
he is uber cute to begin with
and has unique thoughts..

my newest ou xiang..
watched his new short film yesterday
Tanjong Rhu (the casuarina cove)
it was about the 1993 police entrapment at the once popular gay cruising spot
where 12 men were arrested one night
when undercover was there to trap these gay men
and thereafter charging them with outrage of modesty.
it was the last known entrapment exercise
and was deemed by the High Court after rounds of appeal
that this was a highly uncivilised action taken by the police.
more importantly
it was hearfelt, poignant, and it was not overtly explicit like many
pink related movies
it was also not overtly "activist" style..
the short film conveyed to us that the pink community can be all around us
be it our brother, friend, officer in military, neighbour...
like your nice and friendly boy next door here.. LOL..
and we have more than ever, merged them into life
and the "lifestyle" we've chosen doesn't have an impact on others directly,
really..

now back to Junfeng, my ou xiang..
haha.. his story creation is superb, the angle which he looks at the stories
are just so unique and fascinating
i really hope to be a film director/writer/creator like him la!

read more about him..

Boo Junfeng was born on 4th December 1983 in Singapore. He first attended film school at the age of 16 at Ngee Ann Polytechnic, Singapore. During his course of study, he went on an exchange programme at the Escola Superior de Cinema i Audiovisuals de Catalunya (ESCAC) in Barcelona, Spain, where he wrote and directed his first short film UN RETRATO DE FAMILIA (2004). The short won the Best Film and Special Achievement awards at the Singapore International Film Festival (SIFF) in 2005.

In late 2005, he attended the Asian Film Academy at the Pusan International Film Festival in Korea. This inaugural session of the programme was headed by esteemed Taiwanese director, Hou Hsiao Hsien.

After two years of mandatory military service, he made the short films KATONG FUGUE (2007) and KELUAR BARIS (2008). The former, a film adaptation of a play, won the Special Jury Prize at the SIFF in 2007; and the latter, a semi-autobiographical take on a boy’s experience of being conscripted, took home the Best Film, Best Director and Best Cinematography awards at the SIFF in 2008.During this period, he also directed a segment in LUCKY 7 (2008), an experimental feature film aimed at promoting collaboration among filmmakers in Singapore.

Between 2007 and 2008, he continued his film education at The Puttnam School of Film at LASALLE College of the Arts, where he graduated with the valedictorian honour, the McNally Award for Excellence in the Arts. His thesis film, TANJONG RHU (2009), is featured at the Panorama section of the 59th Berlin Film Festival.

He is currently working on his full-length feature debut with Zhao Wei Films, a production company helmed by acclaimed Singaporean director-producer Eric Khoo. The film project – SANDCASTLE – was selected at the Pusan Promotion Plan in 2008 and is slated for production in mid-2009.

It was interesting during the post show dialogue
(the film was shown as part of Singapore Panorama Shorts 1
as part of Singapore International Film Festival)
that Junfeng mentioned that he was not an activist and never wanted to be
neither was he trying..
and that although viewers thought Tanjong Rhu and Keluar Baris had parralels..
he said he didn't see it that way and was trying to do straight films.. Haha.


by the way he is really supportive of Pink Dot
which I am too..
so for all my friends who are in the pink community or supportive of the pink community
do join us at pink dot event on 16th May at Hong Lim Park..
where we can all gather and have an aerial view picture taken
to commemorate our unique community
in pink clothes, and with pink umbrellas n balloons..
and when we do it in future years
we can see the pink dot growing..!!

:: it's a Happy world! ::

it feels great making new friends
especially friends whom you can talk freely to
without any prohibitions

first,
its my sports camp friends from NP
wow
they are young, nubile, innocent
and they are soooo fun to be with
its interesting to see the world through these youngster's eyes
without being tainted by the troubles of adulthood yet..
orh....

next,
my friends from Trevvy
one afternoon together of bitching and yeah!
instant hit off..
its the kind of friends i've always looked forward to..
yes! they ARE friends..

btw..
i'm sooo looking forward to the new project we will be undertaking
which we will have a room up on mt emily
which we can hang out
play games
and chill with fellow people
and feel "belonged"
more importantly
we can be there to help others like us
to feel save, to "belong"
and we can all be together without feeling awkward
cool eh?

its time such a place is set up for queer youths in Singapore
somewhere not sleazy
somewhere where theres no alcohol and sex
somewhere which is common in overseas
somewhere which is lacking in Singapore
really..
being queer should not be simply constrained to random sex
dancing and party..
no no no!
its time this place came!
yeah!

Its going to be such a nice place..
so uber looking forward.

:: to 宅 or not to 宅 ::

宅男.. I am becoming a 宅 kia la!
due to my leg pain (probably because of suppressed vein)
i hardly go out if not for work
and most of the time
i lay on my bed..
coz even sitting down is painful..
bleah!

and the kaypo in me decided to quit my job as an admin assistant (fulltime)
and then the next day accept the job as events coordinator (part time)
now let me make a comparison between the jobs..

admin assistant:
-full time pay (alot lo)
-average three day work week in office (each less than 5 hours)
-work from home the rest of the time on comp
-some nights on comp working on website admin stuffs..
-very easy job..
-climb stairway to heaven thrice weekly

-event coordinator:
-part time pay (1/2 to 2/3 of full time pay)
- work average three day in office ( less than 3 hours, in evenings..)
- noting to do at home, just some simple admin
-many nights at clubs!!! INCLUDING SUNDAY! bleah!
-i have to be out and show my face in the clubs.. bleah!
-i've to climb stairway to heaven to collect things/get a ride whenever there's event.. bleah!
-i get sick and tired of muscle marys sticking up to me with their naked bodies!!
bleah.. they are so bloody disgusting.. and giving them a condom does not mean i want you to fuck me! bleah!


luckily Play is temporarily closed..
the "new" job is quite relaxed actually
just tt i'm now really out in clubs almost every other night
really don't know what to tell my mum
working at a club? salah leh
then? hmm..

but the pay is quite okay
and i can still study and handle this job
(boss say i can stop handling superstar sundays when i start school)
and most impt.. the PAY!
i need money, alot..

one PLUS thing..
i now attend parties which W attends too!
in the past i shun the events because i'm just not such a social butterfly
now
i'm constrained by the job
so i get to eye him while i'm working and
the work practically entails me being friendly and partying..

whats there not to like of a job that is just partying?
the CROWD! i really have yet to feel totally comfy about it..
alright.. its just me!
its a dream job to some of my aj friends
but for me..
if not for the money..
bleah!

but next sunday's Superstar Sunday will be interesting..
haha
there's the contestants of Manhunt 2009..
and i've a ex-schoolmate who's in the competition la! so cool right..
do support him okay?
MH12.. Ryan Chong..

totally nv expect la..
but well.. he looks quite good la..
didn't realise back then..

W should have taken part back when he was younger lo
will have won..
but his youth was wasted on..
overseas studies / working in tt green company..
bleah!

well.. based on the fact tt i'm blogging at such wee hours..
yup.. because i just came home from work
and yup.. i'm back to my 宅 days until the next work day.. on wed.. hmm..

:: random notes.. ::

I have COMPLETE/LY my ippt/failed my ippt for this year..
so its bye bye to tt four letters till next year.. boo!

anyway
i'm really looking forward to LNY's arrival
its juz slightly more than a week away
i shall TRY to scrimp and save and not eat so much until Chu 1 arrives..
(or maybe until reunion dinner)

btw, i plan to not cut my hair this new year
i refuse to pay the extra $5 / 10% salons charge as "surcharge" for new year due to "peak period"
its just nonsense..
Zen (my stylist) will just have to wait a little longer till he next sees me..
instead
i bought a new fedora hat from topman.. so this year i'll for for a snazzy spring/summer look
for LNY..
on most days i'm out visiting,
it will be the same combination of clothes,
just tt the tee shirts (which are all of the same design n cutting)
are of different colours..
haha.. not much surprises.. well.. when one gets older
he doesn't really look forward to YET ANOTHER new year
coz it simply means age is catching up. right!

for now,
i've really been slacking for the past three weeks..
i did try to clean my room up a little each day
but its still in a mess overall
i promised not to go out so often and buy too many things
but i think my credit card have been wokring out extra hard..
and that's bad, coz when the bills arrive.. wahahaha!!

my options are still pretty open for further studies
actually.. VERY open
i can't make up my mind
and what i can say is,
friends.. i kinda noe you all care.
but please help me by not offering comments
i'm rather tired of justifying myself to you all
then after that feel a sense of guilt like my choice is wrong..
it feels bad.. and uncomfortable..
so.. well.. my mind is kinda made up to go for whatever poly course.
any degree/diploma is useful (never useless)
and what i'm more looking forward to is the experience i'll get at the institution.

well.. that's all for now.. will update more when new year arrives..
to show u all my newest update of my obscene collection of new clothes..
muahahaha!

:: save me! ::

just chanced by this joke..
taken from apple yee's blog...

有一天魔王把公主抓住, 公主一直叫…

魔王: 你尽管叫破喉咙吧, 没有人会来救你的! 哈哈哈!!

公主: 破喉咙~ 破喉咙~

没有人: 公主~ 我来救你了!

魔王: 妈的! 说曹操曹操就到!

曹操: 魔王! 你叫我干嘛?

魔王: 哇唠! 看到鬼!

鬼: 靠! 被发现了!

靠: 胡说! 谁发现我?

谁: 关我屁事?

魔王: Oh my GOD!

上帝: 谁叫我?

谁: 没有人叫你啊!

没有人: 我哪有?

从此, 魔王精神分裂…

damn hilariously lame..

:: Sapir–Whorf Hypothesis ::

In linguistics, the Sapir–Whorf hypothesis postulates a systematic relationship

Between the grammatical categories of the language

A person speaks and how that person both understands

The world and behaves in it.

The hypothesis postulates that a particular language's nature influences

The habitual thought of its speakers:

That different language patterns yield different patterns of thought.

This idea challenges the possibility of perfectly representing

The world with language, because it implies that the mechanisms

Of any language condition the thoughts of its speaker community.

:: and so it is christmas.. ::

Guess i'll be prety much alone this Christmas

because someone wants to go far away

and my schedule before chirstmas can't fit into his loooong holiday

yup..

not even for our first christmas together..

anyone wana date me?

:: time flies ::

deja vu
when i sat in the exam hall
facing the paper which i took (also) last semester
and wow
flipping thru the paper
it felt so familiar yet unfamiliar at the same time
still not prepared it seems
difficult or not?
i do not know..

well..
at least

the exams are 3/5 over...
haha.. 2 more papers..
but a long time more (25th nov.. so loong.....)

:: change ::

If there is one thing that
You'd like me to change,
What would it be?

:: sinner ::

how many times have you sinned knowingly

but yet

with a great sense of guilt

indulge in the action of sin?

:: amnesia (-ic) ::

i tink i'm either ill
or over worked
stressed out
maybe just simply
i'm going to die soon
due to some unknown illness

i get sudden bouts of dizziness
those when you feel faint
and suddenly do not know what you are doing
where you are currently
and seem to be doing something completely senseless

that sounds pretty bad ah?

i use to have it mayb once or twice a month
but now it seems more regular
sometimes during my gym workouts
sometimes at home
sometimes simply on the go..

it feels weird and scary
really
because you are not in control

am i really ill?
am i going to die soon??

:: (gushing) random thoughts ::

i'm suddenly overfilled with emotions
of anger
love
pain
happiness
eagerness
frustration

everything

i've a million thoughts running through my brains now

i shall tell them (i hope)
when i feel like the time is right..

i've got a million things to type
but i just don't feel like blogging them now
so just wait
for the potion to overflow
for the burst..
for everything to fall into place

i'm tired
really tired

so it ends

:: hello?? halloween?? ::

Epiphany is celebrating Halloween with a party at staff club this thursday
i have to go..
but i'm so dead with no ideas and no money to get costumes too..
what can i do??

any ideas????

btw.. its really interesting tt i read tt singapore really celebrates halloween in a blast
look at all the major clubs, zouk, butter factory, double o, st james
everything is so thought out
interesting themes n great prizes (a trip to cape town is zouk's top prize for the best dressed)
with so much money n effort involved
i'm sure it will be great..
but i'm not in the mood to spent money
and i'm desperately out of creative ideas..

well well..

maybe next few year
when i do have the hardcore clubbing friends back (haha.. guys.. i've not forgotten u, but we are v busy la hor, so dun tink u all will be free..)
maybe when we all got our job n is ready to fun
then i shall go all out and scare all during halloween..

but then again
if anyone of u are going and dun mind me tagging along
or wants to just pull a few of us and go party this friday
do contact me ya..

i want to dress up..
just dunno how n dun have the $$
well..
the fun's onli for a night..
and the exams in the next few weeks are gonna be more fun.. hiak hiak hiak..