Exam results

Just by reading the tittle, I suddenly got heavy goosebumps. 

Sigh.

Life indicator guys. 

I must be frank, I once got Dean Award when I was studying diploma and dad's response was, "Are you sure? Go double check". I said, "Already double check". Dad, "Oh okay".

See, I was a lil bit playful back then. Nobody can expect  me to be like my elder brother. He was once failed getting Dean Award. Once guys, once. And me only once getting Dean Award. Funny.

But now I'm doing a degree, it must be a new beginning to all of this. New spirit, new aims yada yada yada. So my semester 1 result  is out! Freak me out to death, I swear I went to the toilet more often. My heart's thumping crazily like it wouldn't want to stop. And all I've could ever think is my dad. 

Or excuses to him.

Well, Alhamdullillah, my result is okay. I don't get Mumtaz. Mumtaz is when you score 3.9 and above or let's say 4 flat la. But still, 3 pointer and above, I've maintained that since my diploma year. I must be thankful I know though this is not what I want and this is actually a lil bit disappointing. I must be thankful la after all. Allah has written this nicely for me, who knows good thing is waiting for me.

Sigh, very very nice muhasabah session I've had.

And it was such a relief that Dad was happy with this, he even calmed me down (cause I cried, they say, crying is a woman's weapon, so I used that), which was rare. Usually after getting my result, I'll be the one who comforting him, saying I'll do better in my next exams bla bla bla, such a manifesto one I tell you, but this time was different, my dad comforted me instead.

And after all, Alhamdulillah. 

It was quite scary actually. In order to pass a paper, you need to score 60 marks above. Crazy, right? And if you get 85 marks, you only  score A-. If you wanna get a solid A, you need 90 marks and above. Of course, this is difficult. 

But why some people are still manage to get A? Nothing is impossible. *self-motivated

And of course, I won't telling you my pointer, I won't embarrassed myself then. Hahaha.

Wear them all

Coming back from Cairo for couple of days there, I still need my heater to function on its high temperature, socks, blanket and a cardigan. Cause Zagazig is still cold. Am shaking while writing you this hehe. No kidding. Cairo wasn't this cold, I swear. I slept with short sleeved shirts with no socks, sharing blanket with Ain but I was totally okay. I mean, I took bath at 2 am. Hot shower, of course haha.

Well, I told Ameerul about this.

Me: It is so cold here. I feel like hiding under this mattress.

Him: I thought you're going to Cairo to buy a blanket. You didn't buy, right?

(Okay, there's this one thick blanket, specially design for winter season. It helps to keep you warm, very comfortable. The moment you immerse yourself in that, you'll feel like you just don't want to wake up. But I still don't have any. I said, I wanna buy it in Cairo, so all these while, I'm sleeping with my only half-inched blanket that I bring from Malaysia (it's quite thick, heat-absorbed material too, don't worry), socks and cardigan - but I can take it).

Me: Well, hm, no.

Him: I knew it! So what did you buy? Clothes? Wear them all then. How many of them? Six? Wear all those six.

I can't help but laughing instead.

Me: How could you let me die in coldness?

Him: Serve you right, shopaholic!

Me:  Urghhh.

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New year resolutions

Nah, forget it. I'd broke them already.

But wait, I know we should have these missions or they call it wishlist for 2013. So basically, we are going to try so hard to fulfill these aims. And I'm no exception. I want 2013 to be better than I had on 2012.

 2012 was the best. I've resigned from work for good, I came to Egypt, I made new friends and I learn how to be more independent (I mean, I tried to manage my money well, cause I couldn't simply do something crazy with my money anymore since my dad and I are now sharing the joint bank account. My dad will receive a text message regarding the money flow and I'm in a trap. Haha).

(I remember my conversation with my dad few weeks ago telling me to manage my money well and be discipline. Ay ay dad!)

But well, that's the challenge. I hope 2013 will help me doing some money saving. But Zara, H&M and Esprit did some sales off and I accidentally broke my promise. Okay, I'm sorry. Uncontrolled action.

And, attitude. I must change something about this too. My punctuality. I know it when I say 4 pm, I will only go out at 5 pm. Awful, I know. I need to be more discipline and 2013 will help me be better in time.

People can change guys. So, why go too fast on judgement?

I believe everyday is always a new beginning of something. It doesn't mean that you're fail when you can't achieve something. Life is full of surprise and it's a miracle. Nothing is impossible cause Allah created this with reasons. The key is to try, honesty and tawakkal. Allah will help you in that.

And my new year wishlist is to be a better person (so random!), a better muslimah, a better daughter, a better student, a better friend and whatever that I'll do, I'll do it earnestly (including shopping. Well, I have few wishlists over new handbag and shades, well to prove you that I'll be so much determined into this - but all that I've got to do is saving some money and discipline).

Remember guys, the beginning is always the hardest. Keep calm and try and tawakkal. :)