Wednesday, February 16, 2005
7:14 pm ♥ long long.
yes yes. havent blogged in a long time... you all wanted me to do some posting aint u... hahas... okies, so here i am. ive got alot to say, seriously.
lemme first start with this... i though alot over all these times. i realise that i am hating somebody for a foolish thing he had done. yah. i think all of ya know what talking me. yupp. he is
jun. yupp. just realise. he just hacked me and i lost my
virtual neopoints, but by quarrelling i lost a friend in the
reality. isn't it stupid. lolls. but. i
dun regret. the quarrel made me understand that even your best friend or the one u trusted the most could betray or turn their backs on u. its unpredictable. so. yah. i want to confess. i cursed him alot at the first two months when the incident happen.. (wonder if he died or met an accident or what? cos i cursed quite seriously lei.) but i eventually got on with life. looking back at all the neoprints we all took on my bdae.. hao xiang you hen duo hui yi yong shang xin tou. memories of the past. yahh. sigh... i think i cursed him on myother blog. can go thr if u want. haha. i want to
forget everything and hope he doesnt hate me too. haha. a friend is better thatn a foe afterall. lol!! yes.
i think i changed.
from the beginning of school until now. i think i am getting more and more temperamental. for example, i get fed up with
bernoooood for crumpling my new note, then i realised that its only money and i'll use it eventually. i am getting angry at things i dun usually get angry about. i think i am lame. i need some soul searching. also, i get angry at
rachel for like nothing. i thought of alot. alot of things. ithought of people like
thomas who discriminate me for nothing,
jeroel and the others who made fun of me,
eugene who always like to embarass me,
yiwen my good friend and how she and i overcome obstacles and still are good good friends,
kailing that always like to ignore me when i see her,
andrea who is always there for me...
laipao who is so so so crazy and fun to bee with...
i realised that there's alot of people who cares abt me and those who doesnt. i hate hurting people. but i always do, do i?? lol.. i dunno. i make myself unfriendly and form a protective cover to the "outer world" to shield myself away from being hurt by people and things, but as a result i seem to have lost everything. i am trying to open up, but nths there to help me. i can say, i have became better as compared to sec1. heh heh. but i think as i "open up", more and more people hate me. is it true? as i open up, i seem to have to come into contact with some
fuggly bitches that talk bad about me behind my back and act so good in front of me. yes. looks are deceiving. if u think i am an easy target for bullies, think twice. i am not as simple as u think i am. i am nice when u treat me nice. i will get all revenge-gy when u offend me. lol. beware.to the few people that say i seem to be always talking bad about others behind their backs, pleas lah, do u have brains? arent u doing the same? dun think that i dunno anything. in fact, i seem to know everything. i dont have to even do anything to it, its ur mouth, u can say what u want. if u think wrecking my reputation or seeing me suffer gives u a sense of accomplishment, just fuck off. u are just another useless parasite in my life. feed on some other leaves in u want. dun offend the pitcher plant.now i am thinking of a friend i just got to know this year. as in, just got to know her better and better this year. i used to just hi and bye to her. i heard alot of her talking bad behind my backs. you should know who u are. dun come asking am i the one? am i the one? if u think u are, do some soul searching. ask ur conscience if doing that makes u happy. in fact, it doesnt. to me, i think. if u want to gain popularity, have a big heart. dun think by backstabbing others will gain u new friends. as i always said to people lah. if u want some popularity and think that ur friends u are with now are treating u like shit, for gods sake just lave them. u might be alone for like 1 month? 2 months? so? u will eventually get better people. you are just like a gem before it is being discovered. nice on the inside, ugly (??) on the outside. someone who realise ur talents will come "polishing" u and show the nice side of u to others. yahh. i believe that everyone has a nice side no matter how bad they are. goes for teh same for u. think over what i have said alrites. hope u will change into someone better in the future.i think i am talking crap.
i have so much to say. and i think i need sumone to confide into. i dun want to tell a bitch sumthing and she goes around publicise it. i want a friend whom i can trust and not like sum heartless arse who betrays me. no, not refering to any beings at point of time while im typing. will anyone be the one?
i think i am numb towards love. haha. i dun get jealous when people talk about their boyfriends. i dun get jealous when they receive gifts from their bfs. i dun even get jealous when i see them -aheming-. hahas. i think i finally overcame everything. i hope i dun get despo someday and want to look for a bf. i believe that love is something that will look for u, not u looking for it. xun zhao ni de ai qing shi zhen ai, ni xun zhao de ai qing shi shang hai. isnt it so true. i thought of it myself ok. pls copyright it to me. hahas... lol.
i think i should just end here. its tired typing so much... i wanna go do a new blogskin lerhhs.
takkire yahs.
Wednesday, February 16, 2005
7:14 pm ♥ long long.
yes yes. havent blogged in a long time... you all wanted me to do some posting aint u... hahas... okies, so here i am. ive got alot to say, seriously.
lemme first start with this... i though alot over all these times. i realise that i am hating somebody for a foolish thing he had done. yah. i think all of ya know what talking me. yupp. he is
jun. yupp. just realise. he just hacked me and i lost my
virtual neopoints, but by quarrelling i lost a friend in the
reality. isn't it stupid. lolls. but. i
dun regret. the quarrel made me understand that even your best friend or the one u trusted the most could betray or turn their backs on u. its unpredictable. so. yah. i want to confess. i cursed him alot at the first two months when the incident happen.. (wonder if he died or met an accident or what? cos i cursed quite seriously lei.) but i eventually got on with life. looking back at all the neoprints we all took on my bdae.. hao xiang you hen duo hui yi yong shang xin tou. memories of the past. yahh. sigh... i think i cursed him on myother blog. can go thr if u want. haha. i want to
forget everything and hope he doesnt hate me too. haha. a friend is better thatn a foe afterall. lol!! yes.
i think i changed.
from the beginning of school until now. i think i am getting more and more temperamental. for example, i get fed up with
bernoooood for crumpling my new note, then i realised that its only money and i'll use it eventually. i am getting angry at things i dun usually get angry about. i think i am lame. i need some soul searching. also, i get angry at
rachel for like nothing. i thought of alot. alot of things. ithought of people like
thomas who discriminate me for nothing,
jeroel and the others who made fun of me,
eugene who always like to embarass me,
yiwen my good friend and how she and i overcome obstacles and still are good good friends,
kailing that always like to ignore me when i see her,
andrea who is always there for me...
laipao who is so so so crazy and fun to bee with...
i realised that there's alot of people who cares abt me and those who doesnt. i hate hurting people. but i always do, do i?? lol.. i dunno. i make myself unfriendly and form a protective cover to the "outer world" to shield myself away from being hurt by people and things, but as a result i seem to have lost everything. i am trying to open up, but nths there to help me. i can say, i have became better as compared to sec1. heh heh. but i think as i "open up", more and more people hate me. is it true? as i open up, i seem to have to come into contact with some
fuggly bitches that talk bad about me behind my back and act so good in front of me. yes. looks are deceiving. if u think i am an easy target for bullies, think twice. i am not as simple as u think i am. i am nice when u treat me nice. i will get all revenge-gy when u offend me. lol. beware.to the few people that say i seem to be always talking bad about others behind their backs, pleas lah, do u have brains? arent u doing the same? dun think that i dunno anything. in fact, i seem to know everything. i dont have to even do anything to it, its ur mouth, u can say what u want. if u think wrecking my reputation or seeing me suffer gives u a sense of accomplishment, just fuck off. u are just another useless parasite in my life. feed on some other leaves in u want. dun offend the pitcher plant.now i am thinking of a friend i just got to know this year. as in, just got to know her better and better this year. i used to just hi and bye to her. i heard alot of her talking bad behind my backs. you should know who u are. dun come asking am i the one? am i the one? if u think u are, do some soul searching. ask ur conscience if doing that makes u happy. in fact, it doesnt. to me, i think. if u want to gain popularity, have a big heart. dun think by backstabbing others will gain u new friends. as i always said to people lah. if u want some popularity and think that ur friends u are with now are treating u like shit, for gods sake just lave them. u might be alone for like 1 month? 2 months? so? u will eventually get better people. you are just like a gem before it is being discovered. nice on the inside, ugly (??) on the outside. someone who realise ur talents will come "polishing" u and show the nice side of u to others. yahh. i believe that everyone has a nice side no matter how bad they are. goes for teh same for u. think over what i have said alrites. hope u will change into someone better in the future.i think i am talking crap.
i have so much to say. and i think i need sumone to confide into. i dun want to tell a bitch sumthing and she goes around publicise it. i want a friend whom i can trust and not like sum heartless arse who betrays me. no, not refering to any beings at point of time while im typing. will anyone be the one?
i think i am numb towards love. haha. i dun get jealous when people talk about their boyfriends. i dun get jealous when they receive gifts from their bfs. i dun even get jealous when i see them -aheming-. hahas. i think i finally overcame everything. i hope i dun get despo someday and want to look for a bf. i believe that love is something that will look for u, not u looking for it. xun zhao ni de ai qing shi zhen ai, ni xun zhao de ai qing shi shang hai. isnt it so true. i thought of it myself ok. pls copyright it to me. hahas... lol.
i think i should just end here. its tired typing so much... i wanna go do a new blogskin lerhhs.
takkire yahs.
