Lost the flair for writing. Would say i have no time but that would be a lie. Shall blog soon, or at least a decent update of what's going on.

Till then!

Stop, and ponder

"It's suspended there to remind us before we pop the champagne and celebrate the new year, to stop and reflect on the year that has gone by. To remember both our triumphs and our missteps, our promises made and broken. The times we opened ourselves up to great adventures or closed ourselves down for fear of getting hurt coz that is what new years is all about- getting another chance. A chance to forgive, to do better, to do more, to give more, to love more. And stop worrying about what if and start embracing what would be. So when that ball drops at midnight and it will drop, let's remember to be nice to each other, kind to each other. And not just tonight but all year long." - New Year's Eve.

How true.

i've to admit that it feels really different to be on stage, even if it's in front of a thousand people.

On my way

I've come to the conclusion that if having things turn out the way you wanted them to is a measure of a successful life, then some would say I'm a failure. The important thing is not to be bitter over life's disappointments. Learn to let go of the past and recognise that everyday isn't sunny. And when you find yourself lost in the darkness and despair, remember, it's only in the black of night, we see the stars, and those stars will lead you back home. So don't be afraid to make mistakes, stumble and fall, because most of the time the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you'll get everything you wished for. Maybe you'll get more than you ever could have imagined. Who knows where life will take you? The road is long, and in the end, the journey is the destination.

If you ask me what I came into this life to do, I will tell you, I came to live out loud.

I can, therefore I am.

"when you love someone but it goes to waste"

Running to a stand-still

There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroad, afraid, confused, without a roadmap. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course when faced with the unknown, most of us prefer to turn around and go back.

Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small, like when we do a bad thing, for a good reason. Some are bigger, like when we let a friend down. Some of us escape the pains of regret by making the right choice. Some of us have little time for regret, because we're looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past. And sometimes we bury our regret, by promising to change our ways. But our biggest regrets are not for the things we did; but the things we didn't do. The things we didn't say that could change the world of someone we care about.

The rest of your life is a long time and whether you know it or not it's being shaped right now. You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate or bad luck or bad choices or you can fight back. Things aren't always going to be fair in the real world, that's just the way it is but for the most part you get what you give. Let me ask you a question. What's worse: not getting everything you wished for or getting it but finding out it's not enough? The rest of your life is being shaped right now with the dreams you chase, the choices you make and the person you decide to be. The rest of your life is a long time and the rest of your life starts right now.

21 years of my life is gone. Ask me if I have regrets I sure as hell do. We all wish to go back in time to right the wrongs in life, don't we? Sad to say, that's not going to happen. Not in this lifetime at least.

I was looking back at old pictures and being all nostalgic thinking about past memories and was reminded of a quote someone wise once said,

You never truly treasure someone till you lose them

Now I know what that truly means and how it feels like.

I miss the times we had, and this would be one wrong I would right if I could go back in time. Maybe I don't have to go back in time, but use the time I have now to do so.

I'll give this one last shot. It's all that I have left.

What doesn't kill, makes the heart stronger

Most people think that Love is just a feeling, but really the feeling is just the perk. Love is a choice. It doesn't come easy; you have to work for it. The feelings may not always be there, but then again, love isn't exactly a feeling, now is it?

If it's a feeling then, this love you are talking about is not going to last you through the hard times, and trust me, they do get hard.

Don't be mistaken, I am not some love guru with the best advices or practices. I have been a sucker for love and still probably am. Just play the guitar and have an angelic voice and there, you'll have me running in circles. Haha.

But honestly looking at where I am, I believe I have gone past the looks and right straight to the heart. Simply put, no longer does a person with flawless looks and the perfect figure attract me, but rather so, her character, her deeds, her heart.

If there's one thing I have realised and will be constantly realising is that Love is about giving and taking. It's more of bettering and fulfilling the other person, rather than just getting what you want, or satisfying our own selfish need of wanting to be loved, to be desired, to be cherished.

Love is awesome, but it isn't easy. It wouldn't be worth as much if it was as easy as just a feeling.

Shandai!

You.

Before I met you I thought my world had everything I needed to be happy. I had nothing else to compare it to, then you walked into my life and everything changed. I realised how empty my world was without you in it, and my old life was no longer capable of making me happy; not without you. I love everything about you. I love the way you challenged me like no one ever has.

Before I met you my world revolved around one thing- me. And I liked it that way on my own, but then I met you and you saw through the facade. You saw me. You’ve taught me to trust, how to let someone in, and what it truly means to love. I can’t possibly describe how much I love you, so I’ll tell you why I love you. You see the world in a way that no one else does and you appreciate everything, including me. I hope I’ll get to spend time trying to see the world through your eyes, appreciating everything, including you, the most unique, wonderful, and terribly awesome person I have ever met.

brooke and julian.