take me with you please.
Friday, May 12, 2006
hey there evryone.
it's a friday now.
ytd ended e 2nd wk of exams, counting fer majority of our papers. currently left w geog paper 1 on e coming monday. kinda relieved actually. felt like, a huge burden has been finally carried off me.
but nvrtheless, papers were all and jolly well screwed up.
monday- history+ maths paper 2
tuesday- chemistry
wednesday- pure geography paper 2
thursday- physics/chemistry mcq+ maths paper 1
hist, chem and phy/chem mcq was rather okae. more of manageable. maths paper 1 was on e easy side too.
BUT.
geog paper 2 and maths paper 2. total killer papers. i noe i screwed it up. din hav enuff tym t finish geog paper, and i gave up on maths. sigh. it's a sure fail.
been spending loads of evenings studying w ppl recently, esp syb and pris.
hopefully all those studying pays off. HOPEFULLY.
wells today was a public holiday. had no exam so yeah, it was rather of a relief.
went over t nat(natalie)/jon/david's hse in e afternoon w mummy and jenna.
slacked arnd w jon and nat. many others came, and den dear little tylia poh came over.
me and jon played w her. haha golly she's so cute!! i love her.
and she loves me too. haha really. e dearie little cutie pie kept calling my name and following me arnd.
had thai food fer dinner after tat. speciality of uncle colin. yums. it was awesome. ooh and during dinner all of us held a 'freak show'. golly i was screaming my whole way thru. bryan can actually use his tongue to touch his nose AND HIS ELBOW. holy holy is tat freaky or wat. and his shoulder can really bend backwards.
and the weirdest thing was jon/nat/david could all do freaky stuff w their hands and fingers. goodness e things tat run b/w siblings.
yepps and david made me lose my appetite after flipping his eyelids inside out. i duno how he did, but it juz made me wana scream like mad.
haha but yeah, after tat, fooled arnd a bit more, and came back hme.
wells tmr's studying thingy again. me pris nat xunny over at nat's hse.
so yeah. geog geog geog. mug. mug. mug.
i'm awaiting e end of mid-yrs.
shall end here now.
tc evryone.
love,
vianny.
10:05 AM
Saturday, May 06, 2006
hey there.
i'm exhausted.
woke up early dis morning and went fer maths tuition.
was late, and e rest was alrdy there. ning ning fang fang allan.
ng chiang piang was supposed t keep me there til much later. din care though, finished one paper and left.
hme, den out again. went w xunny t nat's hse t study.
started out w chem, den switched t maths w e rest.
but after 10 mins of staring at e ten-yr series and not understanding and taking in anyth, i gave up. totally.
i cant stand trigo.
i cant stand circle properties.
gah.
switched back t chem in e end, managed t absorb some of it.
wells, better than nth anyways.
i'm feeling lethargic and burnt out now.
i tried t slp juz now, but my eyelids refused t close. my insomnia's back, and i'm feeling really weak. my health is deteriorating. incessant coughing and a really bad sore throat. worse stil, i hav e flu too. darn.
it was so bad, mummy brought me t a doctor. now i hav t depend on slping pills juz so i can slp.
and tat's not e end yet.
i'm feeling BOTH physically AND emotionally lethargic.
there's dis sinking feeling inside of me. it's really exasperating and depressing. it's affecting my mood, tearing me apart and shattering me. i tried t shake it off me, but i couldnt. e weight is juz intolerable. and i duno why i'm like tat. i really feel lost.
my brain cells r alrdy dead. i hav no idea how i'm gona study. i juz hope my insomnia's transitory.
sigh. shall end here now.
tc evryone.
love,
vianny.
6:58 AM
Saturday, April 29, 2006
hey there.
haha. e past few days has been gg really well fer me. better than i way expected.
daddy got me a new fone on thurs. sony ericsson W55Oi. MY DREAM FONE. golly i was so hyped-up. so happy.
and i got a new plan too.
FINALLY.
i changed my number though. so yeahs.
ytd was e official start of mid-yrs. and tat means, fer all of us, DOOMSDAY.
english compo paper was okae. kinda confident and self-assured tat i wunt fail or do badly. but i cant say e same fer e chinese compo paper though. i think i screwed it up. i wrote like i was some primary skul pupil. i'm juz hoping fer a pass now.
wells i met my new maths tuition tcher fer e first tym ytd too. went t her hse w fang fang yannie and driel. she teaches quite okae, but i gotta admit she's kinda of 'odd'. ayee duno how t say. we laughed e moz compared t her other students. driel managed to find out a lot abt her supposedly 'antique' table.
50 yrs old??
i doubt it.
yeahs and we tried bargaining w her fer a cut on e tuition fees. she said she consider. and golly driel actually asked her to upgrade her hse.
i gues tuition's not tat bad actually. =)
went nat's hse t study today. me pris xunny nat.
did some productive work. studied physics. really really happy and glad. i managed t understand half-life, thanks t e help of nat and xunny.
big thanks. really. =)
okaes. 12.15a.m.
off t hit e bks now.
it's late alrdy, but sigh no choice.
tc evryone.
love,
vianny.
8:56 AM
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
hey there. =)i juz realised, my mondays are cursed. seriously. bad things always happen to me on mondays, i hav no idea why. maybe it's becuz i'm allergic to it or wat, but i gues, it's juz monday blues. and right now i'm alrdy anticipating nxt monday. juz to see wat happens. gah.today was juz another same old passing day. i've managed to finish studying two chpts of hist in skul. i feel accomplished. whatever yeah. gona continue studying again lata. gotta finish hist by TODAY. golly i hope i make it. so yeah. btw i copied dis frm tan tan's blog. our hilariously funny convo during chinese ytd. pris: REALLY. ***** has natural scent! (honest and sincere expression)vianny: huh? where got such thing wan? (wide grin mixed w confusion)pris: but i can smell it. its very nice and strong..vianny: -laughs hysterically-vianny: pris says ***** has natural scent. you think so? (smirks)vans: scent? (intellectual look) no la.. odour you mean. (BIG SMILE)pris: nothing to say. DIAO.haha. we're a lil nuts and not right in e head so yeahs. time to hit e books. tc evryone.love, vianny.
1:14 AM
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
i think i'm having mood swings.
but i'm not too sure either.
i dun deny, i'm still feeling very unhappy over wat happened. but whatever it is, it's over. i noe i cant possibly keep ranting on and on abt it cuz it will be totally meaningless. besides, i cant turn back time. though i wish i could.
i'm juz gona say, to e person who's involved, i'm very disappointed in u.
really.
u may take it as a trivial matter but i think likewise.
so yeahs. it's ur own problem now.
oh wells, putting those aside, i had a relatively fun day at skul today. my cheeks really hurt frm all e luffing. me and dearie pris TAN TAN talked thruout chinese klas. sumhow, we talked abt smells. scents. of guys we noe. haha golly we really luffed like shit. and i really couldnt take it in cuz it was juz unbelievable. wells maybe she has an ultra sensitive nose but i duno. ooh and she kept me so amused when she tried sniffing jin kiat w/o him noeing.
i broached e subject to xunny and driel afta tat. couldnt get definite answers out of them, and i ended up luffing again.
but yeahs anyways, thanks pee. =)
physics was fun too. gohleefang was really lame, and she kept e whole klas so amused and hyped up w all her 'blurness'. and yeahs she blushed so much, she reminded me of dear fang fang. =)
4.25p.m. now.
gona start studying lata. wells hopefully i succeed.
past few days i've been fairly disappointed in myself. evrytym i try to study and get some work done, i procrastinate and end up getting none done at all. i lack e discipline and e determination to do productive studying even fer 1 hr.
i took 3-4 days juz to study ss fer e mid-yrs, and i only finished in klas today. and counting down t e days where e actual exam wk starts, i only hav 7 days.
to complete my geog, physics, chem, e maths and hist.
that's abt one subject a day. and i dun even noe how i'm gona manage it.
i regret not studying earlier. seriously seriously regret. i've began to experience e consequences that awaited me.
how i'm gona study, i duno. maybe i shld juz start burying my head into books and juz take in all tat i could. sigh.
off t take a short nap, den to study hist lata.
i hope i dun overslp.
i hope i can finish AT LEAST half of wat i'm supposed t study.
so yeahs. wish me gd luck.
tc evryone.
love,
vianny.
1:03 AM
Monday, April 24, 2006
okaes. so here i am again.
a chain of events happened throughout e past wk. i feel so drained by whatever's gg on arnd me. mid-yrs are juz nxt wk, and like mr freddy wong counted fer us during morning devotion today, we only got 120 days left til e 'O's.
freaky.
but whatever it is now, im juz feeling PISSED.
ever thought of e consequences of wat ur each and every action do to e ppl involved?
ever considered e feelings?
or has the thought that ppl's day might juz be ruined by ur silly actions ever crossed ur mind?
to that particular YOU.
i doubt u ever thought of it.
there are times wher i juz dun get ppl's foolishness. their immaturity and childishness juz simply surpasses even a 3 yr old toddler's mindset. yes their IQ might be higher den e child's, but their EQ is OBVIOUSLY NOT. at least a 3 yr old kid doesnt do silly and stupid things like jeopardising a person's mood and their frenship.
BUT you did.
all you ever thought of was ur own goodwill. ur own happiness, joy and laughter, all at e expense of other's feelings.
obviously u dun hav brains.
it's either that, or ur brain is as small as a pea, or ur brain is simply juz made of stone.
you dun even CARE. u think it's funny. u think it's amusing and it hella makes u luff to bits. it might be ur form of entertainment, whatever, but hav you ever put YOURSELF into e shoes of e other's?
i dun think so.
u profess it to be a joke. a light one not meant to cause any harm. not meant to be of any offence to anyone.
but u took it e wrong way, u had e wrong mindset.
quite COINCIDENTALLY, e other person's day was RUINED.
happy?
satisfied?
at ease now?
and how do u expect e other side to forgive u? u made e person feel like a FOOL.
a fool so easily taken in by others.
e joke of e day.
e dumbest person on e earth.
i doubt u even feel guilty.
u can still joke and luff abt it like it was juz another one of ur evryday's routine. where is ur conscience?
and u kept e person in e dark, laughing and giggling away while e other is out there, a big fool to you. a silly target which u think it's so nice and fun to play with. like a toy.
and worst thing was, u din noe when to stop. u only did when e other found out.
there you go.
u're such a jerk.
u had a gd laugh, a gd day, all at e expense of others.
maybe u din noe it, but now u noe. HOPEFULLY.
so, dun blame me.
it's e best tat i could do alrdy.
tc evryone.
love,
vianny.
4:11 AM
Sunday, April 16, 2006
Easter sunday. =)
i received a lot of chocolate eggs and kinder surprises today.
today was an awesome day.
skipped cell and went t family church svc in e morn. was jolly excited cuz it's been a long while since i've been there. besides, I MISS NAT(natalie). nvr seen her since feb and really, i miss evryone else. esp jonathan and chris. my gr8est lame joke+youth grp partners. haha.
svc was really okae. there was a talk on e da vinci code and yupps, it opened up a whole new load of things to me.
chionged t expo afta tat. met cindy, jess, yannie and sarah. had lunch and went fer youth svc. golly it was totally AWESOME. really happening and worship was gr8. watched excerpts of passion of e christ and even though i watched it alrdy, i teared. it was juz too touching.
i love God, and Jesus too.
sermon was rather okae. went fer dinner at airport w cindy afta tat. couldnt make up our minds on wat t eat and in e end, we ended up at fish & co. again. cindy taught me locus and golly i could finally understand evryth. im so thankful. thanks cindy!! and yupps, i finally did some productive work. =)
oh wells, nth much to blog abt alrdy.
btw, t yannie, jess, jonathan, chris, darius, eugene, cheryl and joselyn.
thanks fer all e easter surprises. =)
tc evryone.
love,
vianny.
8:42 AM