MERRY XMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
haha but one thing's for sure im not looking forward for school.:P
but dont worry..im still using this page..for two or three days time.coz i wont be using any coms that has internet starting tmr..anws happy birthday to me!LOL.
im so weird..i've been weird lately..as in i make random sounds..and ppl wld think im weird and funny.but it also have their limits u know.so yeah

u know whats the best thing?
im starting move on..well im not sure..but i have moved on.yupp.i kinda sent a message to jesse..bout it.yeah and plus its for dylan too.soon i'll find my match..but not now..not him.i deserve better=)

did u know that the feeling of missing someone is always there..with u but u probably dont know who ur missing.thats kinda freaky..coz i feel that way too.he's my hero.the one who's always been there for me and understand my problems the way i do..well somehow.he likes MCR.and shares most of his knowledge of punk songs too..haha.although he wld be busy all the time which cld happen sooner or later,but he knows what am i going through.he told me that we'll be friends forever.i hope so...don't make promises u can't keep.coz its pointless if u can't.one said,don't get ur heart in love coz its such a waste of feeling if the heart's broken,and as well as waste of time.guess im not ready..

i admit.i like him alot.i really do.but i have no idea what is his feelings towards me.but i didnt leave dylan bcoz of him.no its not true.i left him coz i know i made the right choice.and im not sorry.instead im relieved and much happier.
i know he might not like me as the way i do towards him.we only knew for a couple of months and its too fast for me to have this kind of feeling.so its better off to let it go.dont u think so?
i have no idea whats in my mind right now..lol.crazy.
oh btw,i heard that we can't really use the net.coz this quake or something.probably will take bout 3 weeks?red the papers..
so i can't go online anymore.so once again i remind u,don't make promises u can't keep.it means remember me if u can,but if u can't.then its alright.
my motto for 2007 is to study harder.and pay more attention in class..no room for love for me:)
much love to jake,anthea,nadiya,the mcfly boys,jesse,zac,ness,ash,and lastly dylan.
thank you guys so much.and sorry if i say anything wrong towards u all.much apologize from me.have a great life!

love,
Shahira
xoxoxo

she told the story ... 6:06 PM

THIS HEAD ACHE IS KILLING ME!

yes it is killing me!well i think i died because of it already but it doesnt matter.arghh first of all my computer is really making me mad..it feels like my head is about to explode coz of it.. oh well lets get straight to the point alright?

i recently went to the movies to watch this spectacular show called Eragon.yes i'm sure you all know it.while i was on the way.my cousin told me that she and her boyfriend had a fight.and she told me that never get into a relationship so soon.but its too late for her to say that..if only she knew that i have the same thing thats going on.luckily for her,their war of love is over.mine's not yet.she said once u get into relationship,u can never get out of it.*sighs* hopefully i'll get out of this misery of love.

she's such a strong person.and i admire her because of that..she doesnt mind if he leaves.she's somehow my 'rolemodel'.yupp.she gave me an early birthday present.she's so nice.

i'm being so emotional right now.i dont even feel like typing anymore.drops of water dripping on my keyboard.i dont know why.i just don't know why.the excitement waiting for my birthday is fading away.i'm just too weak.i'm not ready.nobody seems to talk.as always.and used to it.used to being so alone.its kinda sad to me and pathetic.if only they knew how i feel inside.but only i do.

i realised most of my posts that i posted was more to my confuseness and loneliness and miss towards him.its just how i feel everyday.even if there's so many ppl around me.but i just dont seem to talk to them about it coz they seem to not care nor understand what im going through.well not my closest mates of course.they're the best.wish i could do something for them in return.you know who u are.

laughing with your pretty mouth.laughing with ur broken eyes.laughing in your lover's tounge.guess what song am i listening to right now and u cld win a prize of hearing the whole song in my page..haha toodles.

she told the story ... 9:21 PM

good morning everyone.its 9 in the morning and its such a wonderful day to enjoy.but i won't enjoy it anymore..all the sadness and loneliness leads me to the place where i call it home.yes,home.this year is a very good one to me.because i could treasure the feelings i want the most.just to let you know.i'm not playing games here.its how i feel inside.i found the worst and the best feeling ever.i don't know where it is now though.it feels like its...lost from my boundary.coz the person i need and want the most is no where out of my sight.its alright if he wants to leave me.there's so many girls out there that are better than me.i admit it.i'm not good enough.i'm not ready to be in love.i have a long way to go.and this is definitely not my stop to live.i would not say this is the most challenging of all my times.no i won't coz i know there would be more to come.who knows i'll forget about him and found the right one that would understand and getting through all the things that i'm going through.who would cry,laugh with me.one makes me smile all the time.never would leave me alone and love me.yupp.what a perfect guy he would be.Friends,i love you all.you guys are the best.and always keep me in company when im so alone.and keep me in comfort when i'm sad.i have more mates this year.weird ones,nice ones,short-tempered ones.gosh they're so many of them.i only have one wish from you all.don't forget about me.these are the things i get to know in 2006.i hope we could keep in touch.hopefully.

she told the story ... 8:39 AM

heylo...
not in a mood that i want to be in right now..so yupp
a mood that its hard for me to say..
maybe a mix of ignorance,lonely,worried,scared..yeah that kind of mood.
if u get me

i just received news tht its quite okay to me..i feel happy for him,i know i didnt help much.coz all i can do is stare at the screen.wait for him.but now its by far different.yupp different situation meets with different people and different emotion.
i do still miss him..but i certainly dont like him the way i use to.we cld be friends,i have no problem with that.so just to let u know

i've wasted ALOT of time..and i'm not going to repeat that mistake again.not anymore
i have many directions that i cld go to.imagine a road that has 3 lanes..one leads to the woods.one to the sea.and one to the city.i wld go to the sea..and u know why?
because i wanna be free like the birds flying in the sky.i wanna be smart.i wanna be respected by all means.i wanna be everything that is good in life and i could enjoy it for the rest of my life.i know u think this is lame.but its what i want.

i know i cld accomplish that dream of mine somehow..but there's no path that i cld start with.everything seems wrong.and i dont know how to fix it.i just have no hope.

everybody seems to ignore me.but i don't mind.they cld anything they want.its not my life to interfere their personal life.i dont have a problem.im not confused either.just alone.i'll make it through somehow

a pencil and a paper keeps me up just to let me draw.draw all kinds of things.love.hate.crushed.broken-hearted.tears.and such.in my thoughts.i was wondering if i could stop myspace for awhile and do other things tht keeps me occupy.
i have a secret.but im not sure if i wanna tell.so just wait for now.

music keeps me happy.till i turned on L.O.V.E to full blast.jump around,danced like no one's watching..and scream no one's hearing.i felt really good.so alive!till i went online again.and no one seems to talk.but i dont mind.so right now im just typing whats in my mind.

regarding of the yesterday's post.i got too carried away.so i'm going to delete it after this.so here's my stop.goodnight sleep tight.and enjoy my new tune.
later~

she told the story ... 11:49 PM

*sighs*..how cld things get worse..
u guys just take me for GRANTED
HATE is a really really strong word..but i really really DON'T LIKE you guys
WHY am i ALWAYS the odd one OUT???i don't CARE what u guys TALK about..just not my freakin brothers or ME..look i don't even care what u talk about me..
its just so bloody ANNOYING when ur around and certainly DON'T give a DAMN about me
i'm PATIENT on whatever u say or u want from me...but do u even CARE what i WANT??
i just want u to NOTICE me like u guys did with other ppl..i know you guys BACKSTAB about me ..hey please im NOT that STUPID!
i'm being STUPID..thats what u all think..u guys think im PATHETIC.a LOSER..
i try to be the BEST so i could talk to you..i do.you share SECRETS with each other..and u guys just don't let me IN..but its fine..for ONCE i cld tell myself how painful it is to be around PPL like you.i'll just be on my OWN.i don't need YOU or any of IT.seems like there's nothin for me anymore..except my FRIENDS..u see..they're BETTER than YOU..i feel hurt coz u guys just DON'T give a DAMN bout me ..but its okay..i moved on.with my FRIENDS..they share SECRETS..STORIES..that u guys don't tell me..IF they're being bad towards me or WHATEVER..it doesn't MATTER,coz i feel needed among THEM.they somehow KNOW ME BETTER THAN YOU GUYS.i dont CARE if they're losers or weird ppl..they UNDERSTAND how i FEEL EACH DAY.i just want you guys to SEE me..the REAL me.

she told the story ... 2:24 AM

hello lovelies!
im great here thank you :)
GOSH!Time flies so fast..it gives me the creeps
don't ask why..im being crappy these days.hahaha
i just can't wait for korea !!so excited..
i'll post about it after i come back ayte?
pics are not a guarantee..but the info's all in..
we're leavin wednesday night which is like 1 am at nite??
late much.i know i can handle it..yeah !!coz i've been staying up real late for quite awhile now..and i mean really LATE
i've been thinking lately..since me and HIM are over ..well according to myself..[dk about him though]why not we just be friends again?its no harm right?
i feel so happy now.real great!!:p
OH YES..that cupcake,deliciously lovely <3
i still have the pic..made it meself..hehe..my cousin made icing on top of it and it looked like earth..real cool aye?
haha well there's nothin much these days..only SCHOOL and HOMEWORK.yeah..dont wanna talk about it..lol and BREAK-UPS..there's also CRUSHES..and maybe LOVE
yupp..told ya im crappy.enjoy my music anw..lovin it <3

she told the story ... 11:46 PM

I can't sleep at night
Thinking of what is right
and what is wrong
Cause it all seems so wrong
This depression and confusion is the only thing
that could make me hold on
where are you now?
this loves seems so unfair somehow
listening to our song
makes me cry all night long
i think of us every night and day
what are we now?
a couple or just two people living so faraway
that is what i want to know
but please don't let go
i beg you,just don't go
i wanna know how you've been
but somehow you just won't let me in
i wanna share our lives together
but it just seems so hard
when we're apart from each other
i bleed for you,i cry for you
just to let me get back to you
what else do you want me to do?
just to make you understand that i still love you?
yes i do still love you
if you don't love me no more,just let me go
don't lead me to misery anymore.
i'll take your decision calmly
and eventually forget it slowly

thoughts by shahira

she told the story ... 12:18 PM

hello lovelies! the names Shahira.i'm 14 years old this Christmas.i love all the things around me and im thankful for it even if it hurts alot.

~ Music is my life and i can never go anywhere without it
~ i love all my friends and my dad and mum.they mean so much to me:)
~ i love bags,watches..thats what i go shopping for

~ i wish i could get good grades.
~ find my one true self in this life.
~ and not to forget my one true love that wld make us both happy for the rest of our lives

then talk to me cause i miss u too!

haha loveyahs!

ANTHEA
MIKE



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