the reason i live...

This year is somewhat different. I didn't make any end-of-year speeches, didn't pray for any cell vision, didn't do any cell planning.. Best of all I didn't attend any meetings :) Heh.

Then again, it's somewhat strange and uncomfortable because I usually start the year with God's direction and proper praying through. I was having quite a bit of fun, and was tired of having fun too by end of last year that I didn't spend much time in prayer and asking God for a direction this year 2012.

I did have some constant thoughts and quick prayers, but a quiet time with God during the service today was a moment I haven't had for a very long time. It's time to buck up on my spiritual life. It has also been a constant nagging to read my Bible and start looking through the library of Christian books people have painstakingly bought for me.

I can't even describe how good a year 2011 was (I consciously know I've repeated this countless of times). For the most, God was awesome in leading us to a church and providing us with great company that settling down and adjusting to another culture wasn't that much of a chore.

I can still remember conversations I had with people regarding my leaving and searching for a new church. I appeared very confident that God was going to lead us and was adamant that this was what God wanted for us. Saying was so easy. To actually believe in those words were very frightening especially when the first Sunday of January neared and we had conversations of which church to attend. We were basically clueless.

Pastor Daniel gave me a few tips on how to settle down into a new church but I didn't really consciously remember it. What worked for us was really through the guiding of the Holy Spirit. God was just faithful in providing our needs that settling down was not that difficult as most people had warned me.

Basically, my lesson learnt in 2011 was really to trust God in something that I could have never imagined. Come 2012, God's going to mess up my schedule a bit and give me something to do with the free time I have on my hands. I sense impending work to do. Haha.

Anyway, spiritual discipline comes first followed by exercising, which, I am having a very hard time volunteeringly including it in my life. But well, all for a better tomorrow, if tomorrow comes :)