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my world
My World
Avril Lavigne
Please tell me what is takin' place,
Cuz I can't seem to find a trace,
guess it must have got erased somehow
Probably cause I always forget,
Everytime someone tells me their name,
It's always gotta be the same.
(In My World)
Never wore cover up,
Always beat the boys up,
Grew up in a five thousand population town,
Made my money by cutting grass,
Got fired by fried chicken ass,
All in a small town, in NAPANEE.
You know I always stay up without sleepin',
And think to myself,
Where do I belong forever,
In whose arms, the time and place
Chorus:
Can't help it if I space in a daze,
My eyes tune out the other way,
I may switch off and go in a daydream,
In this head my thoughts are deep,
Sometimes I can't even speak,
Would someone be and not pretend
I'm off again in my World!
I never spend less than an hour,
Washin' my hair in the shower,
It always takes five hours to make it straight,
So I'll braid it in a zillion braids,
So it may take a friggin? day,
There's nothing else better to do anyway.
When you're all alone in the lands of forever,
Lay under the milky way,
On and on it's getting too late out,
I'm not in love this time, this night.
Take some time,
Mellow out,
Party it up,
Don't fall down,
Don't get caught,
Sneak out of the house!
i rawk.
that's a statement. not an exlcaimation. (: hahas i got this catchphrase from sumwhere/sum1 - i think
i knew it. i just had to endure for another 3 more days. and i blew it. this uncertainty in me has got to go. at times when u are so unsure where to go, don't even think of moving an inch. all right, things might work out for u, but evitably, it hasn't work out well for me. patience. talking abt patience. right, i just talked abt patience during cell just last sunday. apparently i wasn't listening to myself. and clearly i didn't take it seriously. great. if only i cld listen more clearly.
felt sick ytd, again, wasn't quite all right this morning. i am so afraid of catching another fever. seriously, i don't want to c any fever bugs running ard me. *shakes head* the only time when i really felt sick studying, or just plain irritation of studying was when i was studying for chinese and chemistry..i just wished,then, that i wld quickly finish reading up my notes, do qt and get to bed asap. hahas i totally find it a torture to read chemistry!!! y wld ppl be so interested in chem. I WONDER! *faints*
i've never felt so happy studying for exams in my entire life. not exactly happy but probably the happiest moment when studying for exams. except for a few sneezes and coughs, ya..(: thank God! :)
it's times like this when i really wonder y the tears came.
agape
someone once told me that i was still too young to make grave mistakes in my life
i guess that's true..
have u ever really wished that smth wld happen but it didn't happen? most often, those r just things which are totally impossible to happen. ya...like getting full marks for a chinese test which u always fail.. hahas that's smth which i don't wish for...i don't waste my wishes..lols
sometimes, things that u wld nv ever wish for wld happen, do happen. most often, it's ur worst nightmares...and ya, nightmares are dreams that will so come true....
have u ever experience coming so close to being 'gone' that u just used every ounce of strength to hold on and not fall? i believe that when u do experience that, thots that come to ur mind are what's most impt to u....somehow just looking back makes me...kinda...heartbroken....
agape
just one person in the world
Don't Say You Love Me
M2M
Got introduced to you by a friend
You were cute and all that, baby you set the trend
Yes you did oh
The next thing I know we're down at the cinema
We're sitting there, you said you love me
What's that about?
You're moving too fast, I don't understand you
I'm not ready yet, baby I can't pretend
No I can't
The best I can do is tell you to talk to me
It's possible, eventual
Love will find a way
Love will find a way...
Chorus:
Don't say you love me
You don't even know me
If you really want me
Then give me some time
Don't go there baby
Not before I'm ready
Don't say your heart's in a hurry
It's not like we're gonna get married
Give me, give me some time
Here's how I play, here's where you stand
Here's what to prove to get any further than where it's been
I'll make it clear, not gonna tell you twice
Take it slow, you keep pushing me
You're pushing me away
Pushing me away...
breathe
Breathe
Michelle Branch
I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain
You say I've been driving you crazy
And it's keeping you away
So just give me one good reason
Tell my why I should stay
'Cause I don't want to waste another moment
Saying things we never meant to say
And I… take it just a little bit
I hold my breath and count to ten
I've been waiting for a chance to let you in
If I just breathe…
Let it fill the space between
Oh no, everything is alright
Breathe… every little piece of me
You'll see everything is alright
If I just breathe
Well the talks are overrated
Am I saying how you feel?
So you end up watching chances fade
And wondering what's real
And I… get you just a little time
I wonder if you realize
I've been waiting 'til I see it in your eyes
If I just breathe…
Let it fill the space between
Oh no, everything is alright
Breathe… every little piece of me
You'll see everything is alright
If I just breathe…
Breathe… 'til I whisper in the dark
Oh can you hear… me?
Do you hear… me?
If I just breathe…
Let it fill the space between
Oh no, everything is alright
Breathe… every little piece of me
You'll see everything is alright
Everything is alright
If I just breathe… breathe
I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain
flash
one down, four more to go....*sighs* prelims are getting more and more draggy...i really really feel that for this wk, it shld be 2 papers per day..i can't wait to get back my results and c how well/horrible i've done..hahas ya...of coz im so excited to just c how horrible i did for my hcl paper....*shakes head* hahas then again, i so can't wait for exams to end!!!! then i shall wreck hevoc on friday....tt's if my mom allows me out the whole day, else i'll be stuck at home, prob playing ping pong, entertaining myself..hahas oh yeah..and it's childrens' day on friday too...shall celebrate childrens' day by myself..hahas (:
i rawk (;
just this thot that flashed in my mind and ya, everything start clogging up my thinking system again. *whistles* have to do well for prelims...hahas esp the last few papers....yupyups...face it, it's just a facade - u just want to escape from everything else.
spending my free time now watching kim possible...yea, a cartoon..hahas i just love cartoons..(: there's just this strange attraction to just sit infront of the telly watching cartoons and more cartoons, and nth but even more cartoons...and ya, more comedies....just cracks up my day....
soon.....soon....i'll whip up smth to revamp the class webbie....*shakes head* been taking up too much time on making the class movie....blame it on trial versions....*sighs* i'll never trust 'em ever again....hahas...just like swish...gone after like 2 months or smth..
great! going for eoy church camp...(: after which, i still have zone camp, class chalets...yups...gonna be real bz...y am i forever so stuffed with activites? just wish that i cld just stay at home and slack..hahas oh yea, i hafta outgrow it already....too old to slack anymore...
apparently ppl act ignorant
agape
plans
plans..what comes to ur mind when u think abt plans? hahs...i just think abt giving up already when i just think abt it...somehow, i just don't go well with plans...everytime i plan, oh yeah, the planning part went well, definitely..i can plan *hahas* (i'm trained to plan) but, problem is that not all plans turn out fulfilled....esp my plans....hahas everytime i plan, i so can predict that i will totally not follow according to the plan after a few days..it's really a miracle if i can even follow that timetable for a week....but after that? nah..it just doesn't go well with my daily activities..hahas
there's a saying that goes "if u fail to plan, u plan to fail" it just gets stuck in my brain..i wonder y
oh yeah, but i planned?
studies, exams, the planning part just doesn't seem to work..i'm not trying to say here that u shldn't plan to study for exams..all the more u shld plan what to study for exams...draw up a timetable or smth..ya...it works for others..i don't c y it doesn't work for me *sighs* but ya...it's better to plan a timetable than motivate urself everyday forcing urself to study everyday....it takes alot of effort..but i thank God (: thank God for the peace and motivation to study (: heees...
sometimes, i just really thank God for putting so many rules in my life, putting so many constrictions..it's like even though i face laws and rules, my life just seem to get better and better...hahas amen!
the feeling of persecution can never be worse than having been hurt by ur loved ones...the meaning of carrying the cross and denying oneself is to suffer for Christ..ya. i don't mind being hurt by ppl i don't like...
agape
procrastination
procrastination - the thing ppl experience, or rather i experience everytime, everyday of my life. "shld i? shldn't i?" such a common phrase which happens to pop inside my brain all the time and usually the ans' a negative. i wonder y
it's such a nice feeling being back online again. today...did some touch up on the blog...it looks really pretty right? yups...rach i totally agree with u...it looks so much nicer than the run-down one in od..hahas...
yups, i found an old webbie i created like ages ago....unfinished as usual...but the effects are like so nice!! yea..nice as in really nice...but one thing's that ppl can't view the webby...only i can...hahas *weird* mebbe i really didn't upload the pages....oh wells....
great! i have a day off 2mr...coz i don't take bio and lit...that's one thing i don't regret abt nt taking bio..hahas :p
yea..i must really learn to write shorter and consized entries...(:
agape
no one else
If I Ain't Got You
Alicia Keys
(yeah)
Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power (yeah)
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define us within
And I’ve been there before but that life’s a bore
So full of the superficial
Some people want it all
But I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain’t you baby
If I ain’t got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain’t got you, yeah
Some people search for a fountain
The promise is forever young (you know)
Some people need the dozen roses
And that’s the only way to prove you love them
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me
Some people want it all
But I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain’t you baby
If I ain’t got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain’t got you-you-you
Some people want it all
But I don’t want nothing at all
If it ain’t you baby
If I ain’t got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain’t got you, yeah
If I ain’t got you with me baby, oh
Ooh, nothing in this whole wide world don’t mean a thing
If I ain’t got you with me baby
salutations
salutations to all...
right....finally i get started on writing this blog. hahs. it's been a long time since i last written on opendiary. i am so over with open diary. hahas not that on any bias account but ya, there's been a whole load of problems happening over at open diary and ya, whatever the hacker's point of hacking into the server does really work for me though - i'm changing server. (: hahas talking abt disloyalty..right...
the first entry of my blog. i guess it must a significant one. have written 3 blogs already,or u wld consider them as diaries. this wld be my fourth one and yes! 4 is my fave number! hahas..i am so totally on this blog. oh wells...been a long time since i last wrote something. something as in not the history essay i wrote this morning. hahas. i don't know why, but i just feel that this prelims is going way too smoothly, much much more smoothly than i expected it to be. and ya, i'm here, slacking in the middle of my prelims...oh wells...i AM taking this too lightly. hahas....
*faints* yesyes, talking abt prelims, don't think i'll(hahs) be doing well in my math this time, rather i think i'll be doing much better for my humanities than my math and sciences. i've gotta really thank my Heavenly Father for helping me in my prelims. it's like those chpts i studied for both ss and hist came out. even source base. wow. and to think i was getting so jittery over studying 2 or 3 chpts only for PRELIMS, that i've gotta stress. it's like really thank God! (:
yea, this prelims is so much more different from all my other examinations. unlike other majors, im like so in the mood to study for everything. that's amazing and of coz thank God i've got the peace. (: man..i'm so happy (: hees... well, i think me staying away from the computer contributed all the peace and everything. not going online for like weeks already helped me alot, and letting me stay away from all the trouble i cld cause online..hahas..ya, what trouble cld i cause online? hacking into someone's system? hahas...*shrugs*
differences. yes, this prelims? i'm like getting sick every day...*SIGHS* sick sick and nothing but sick...hahas...some kind of spiritual attack? *shrugs* the first day i got sick was on the day i started studying during the hols, had a fever which lasted till sunday. chem prac on monday went pretty well but i don't think i'll be scoring there, just hoping for a pass in prac and ya, hope to do well in my other 2 papers due a week's time..hahas..(: then ya, was well until on sunday, nearly fainted on the way home on the mrt.....so scary, scary as in i was half-conscious and i cldn't do nth...strange feeling, but i ain't want to every experience it again..never...no way....hahas and then i was well...till today...hopefully....i wonder if it's myself of the weather....so sickly..*sighs*
i guess that's abt enuff juice for one entry...rather long entry compared to longer ones i've wrote..hahas...oh yea, i'm long-winded (:
agape
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it reminds us that God has a greater plan than what we have for ourselves.
it's alright when friends fail us.
it reminds us to trust on God because He never fails.
it's alright when we feel inadequate in our service to God.
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