VFP @ 4dp5dt

Do ya'll remember K's new acronym during our last cycle?

VFP = very faint positive

Yep, that's what we have again at 4dp5dt! :) K is a super Type A and came home from work and took a test. I received a phone call while out shopping to keep me from obsessing and she said "guess what? I'm pregnant!" I'm sure she could "hear" the smile on my face through the phone. K said she asked her 7 year old to look at the test to ensure that she wasn't seeing things. He told her that he saw 2 pink lines. K has been trying to email me a photo of the test, but it's not coming through. Once I receive it I'll post the photo of the test!

OMG ... I'm still in shock that we got a bfp so early! Can you see me doing a happy dance? Keep thinking + thoughts for us. We want to see the test get darker and darker until the beta on Monday!

Like a good obsessive infertile

I drove out to K's house last night, which is about 20 minutes from my house, to closely examine and photograph the pee stick she did at 3pm yesterday. I told J that I was going to K's house and he naturally asked what for. I told him that I was just driving out to drop something off. He pressed me for more information and I finally told him that I wasn't going to tell him because I didn't want to hear his critical response. J promised not to criticize me, so I explaine why I was going. With a completely shocked look on his face J proceeded to say "so let me get this straight you are driving over 20 minutes to examine a pregnancy test and take photos of it?" I said yes and he said something along the lines of thinking it was a little crazy. I fully admit that I'm a crazed infertile and that driving over 20 minutes to look at a pee stick in comparison to others seems completely normal to me. 5 years of infertility can make a girl a little nutty when it comes to reproductive stuff! I know all of you completely understand! So, without further ado here are the photos of the tests. The top test that's not labeled is the one that K did last night. I put it next to the tests from Friday and Saturday morning, which were done with fmu, and I think last night's test is as dark if not slightly darker than Saturday's. What do you think?

POAS #2

Many thanks for the congrats and well wishes! I appreciate everyone's continued support and encouragement!

So, being the neurotic woman I am I tested again this morning. I was hoping for a darker line to show up, but was disappointed when the line showed up just as light as last night. I'm trying not to read into this, but given my history of chemical pregnancies I'm having a hard time not. I know a line is a line, but I would expect a darker line at 9dp5dt. This makes me wonder/worry if my beta levels are really low. I still "feel" pregnant and have most of the symptoms I listed yesterday, so I'm trying to think positive thoughts.

I have my first beta tomorrow and my 2nd on Monday, but my RE's clinic doesn't call with the results until they have the 2nd beta results. However, I have the blood drawn locally at my ob/gyn's clinic. Last time I called them the day of the 1st beta because I know that legally they can't withhold my medical information from me, so I just asked them to tell me the results of my bloodwork. Of course the triage nurse knows nothing about my infertility clinic's policy, so she told me the results. I think I'll have to "cheat" and do this again tomorrow. I'm hoping for an average beta (notice I'm not asking for it all), but don't have any expectations of hearing good news. Being a recurrent miscarrier sucks and makes being hopeful very difficult!