In the last 48 hours I have realized...

I have studied for 22 of them
I have realized that sometimes I HATE studying
That by studying medical terminology, i am classified as a nullipara, primagravida. Look it up.
If my baby had been born, she'd be 4 next month..WOW! Miscarriage is a terrible thing.
I am a HUGE bitch when I am stressed out & working on next to no sleep
Im dating a really nice guy who has some REALLY annoying tendencies
I need to get over it
I want to get married.
I want to have the huge wedding
Watching too many wedding's on television can make you obsessed.
I still want 4 kids..But NOT quadruplets.
In 4 days this house will be full to the breaking point w/friends I consider more like family. This time of year is my favorite..Besides Christmas.
Sometimes I just want to go on vacation, ALONE.
I havent..ahem, had "relations" in almost 4 months. Good grief. Notice how the number 4 just keeps appearing.
I miss the beach. I havent been there in forever. Maybe I can convice deputy E to take me there soon.
He wants to go to Cedar Point I want to go to Kings Island or Holiday World..They are closer which=less driving=less gas=less money..He just loves rollercoasters..Must make a decision.
When I think about people I know who are just living life by the seat of their pants w/no responsibility, it really upsets me.
When I think about the 3 years I WASTED at ISU and how I could have my RN by now, Im really upset w/myself
When I think about the fact that had I said a simple "yes" to caliboy, I would've been married & prob. divorced by now, I say a silent thanks that God gave me the heads up early.
When I think that 4 years ago, I would've had my baby girl, I tear up every single time. Maybe thats why Im so ready for a baby. I miss her all the time.
I need to sleep.
Im off to take a bath, read, & go to bed.

Here I am

Good Lord it's been about 20 years since I posted..or what 5 days? Anyway, Im at school right now getting ready to go to class..Lets see, what's happened since last time?
1. D-R-A-M-A at preschool & school-school. Preschool: some teachers & director knocked heads-->no resolution because director left town for 4 days-->teachers start planning summer program w/o director (who incidentally, had decided a couple of months ago that she was leaving at the end of May)-->director comes back and announces that she is not leaving in May (yay!)and that we shall commence w/summer plans (I wasn't one of the teachers that knocked heads & I was asked to make the summer schedule of hours, so hopefully it's approved cause if it isn't Im gonna be pissed, it's fantastic. Everyone got the hours they want/need and there's no room to budge. We have 9 employees and we have to keep the hours below 210, we're at 189 now)
School: 2 girls cheat-->I turn them in because I don't think it's okay for them to cheat & me not be able to. I would've gotten an A also if used my notes for the test-->last week (Wednesday) I skip said class and the shit hits the fan-->one of the girls gets in the teachers face because he marked her absent because she leaves early EVERY SINGLE CLASS or falls asleep-->she and another girl get into it-->she gets written up-->yesterday I go to said class & she starts w/our teacher again who goes ballistic and has someone from the office escort her out of class-->she is talked to (I don't know what happened or whom she spoke with)-->she's allowed to come back to class-->ends up not doing her test-->leaves early-->gets marked absent..Does she not see a trend here?!?!?!? What an a-hole.
2. I am SOOOOOOOOOOO tired. I swear I don't sleep at all anymore and Im not sure why. I think last week/weekend it was just stress at work and now my body can't get it together to go to sleep. Im also inundated w/homework so Im constantly thinking about what I have due, what tests are coming up ETC.
Okay..thats all for now..I just looked at the clock & I have to go to class..I'll update after school tonight..