It's Beginning to Look A lot like Christmas

Oh I should be studying for a final I have in 2.5 hours..But I really don't feel like it. I FINALLY feel good about all my classes. I passed my Basic Insurance Competencies, all of my Clinicals, and only have 2 papers left to BS, I mean do for Communications. I also rigged my schedule so I have at least 3 classes so Im not a quarter behind for graduation. School in general still sucks, but at least after tomorrow, I have 3 weeks off. Im not gonna know what to do with all that free time. Hopefully the "boss" lets me work some serious hours. If not, we may have to throw down.

What else? Wedding wise nothing is really happening right now. We (my mom, Angel,and I) are going to a bridal show on the 6th of January, hopefully we'll get some flower/cake/invitation/bridesmaid dresses ideas. We are scheduled to attend a tasting at JB's on the 9th of January (Evan, my parents, & myself) and I think we have to pick out our wedding cake that day. We'll see how that goes too. My dress should be in sometime in February and I know we need to order invitations and OBVIOUSLY the girls dresses and make sure Kristi is on schedule for making the junior bridemaid & flower girls dresses. I still haven't settled on colors..Surprise..I really like the burnt orange, but Im also a big fan of chocolate brown & ivory and a deep wine/berry color (since my favorite color is purple). Evan said he doesn't care (yet another huge surprise) and he'd be fine w/anything. My mom wanted him to go to the bridal show and I was like "yeah, that'll work, it's a BRIDAL show, on a Sunday during the NFL playoffs." Probabley not. So thats that, basically (trying) to focus on Christmas and my parents big anniversary celebration. That will be so much fun!

In other news..My cousin Grant is engaged. He is getting married on August 18, 2008. Now lets chat about this for just a quick second. When we went to the Heidorn family reunion the first weekend in December, I asked when the wedding date was & Grant's mom (aunt Chris) told me it was 08-18-08. No big deal, but later my mom was asking details about it & she said "none of YOU are invited." WTF?!!?!?!? Why? My mom and her brother aren't EXTREMELY close, but they have never had a falling out. Why would her (the bride, Sandy) family be invited but not us? What kind of sense does that make. And the 4 year old in me says "well if you aren't inviting us to his wedding you can't come to mine." Well coincedently, the 18th of August in 2008 is a....MONDAY!!! So no one wil be able to go. I don't know what the deal is. I understand about having a small wedding if you want to, but to not invite even immediate family? Maybe not even cousins, but at least aunts & uncles? I don't know. It just seems fishy.
In other family news, Carol & Marty's wedding is this Saturday. It's honky-tonk. Let me explain. They are getting married at 10:30AM..Okay, no big deal. But it's like they were going to jeans & t-shirts until we convinced them otherwise. Not to mention the reception? At the SHONEYS in JASPER!! WOOT WOOT!! Bring it on! I bet we have to pay for our own meal and everything. I think they are having the dessert bar as their wedding cake. I made her buy a new, pretty outfit for the wedding and told her she at least needed to have a bouquet. I figured, no matter what the scenario, a wedding is a wedding. ANd it's not like it's her 15th. Her husband passed away in February of 2005 and she is getting remarried and she's very in love and he treats her well so we might as well celebrate it. So Im making her a bouquet which I keep forgetting about and we are going down Saturday..The one maybe major glitch in the plan is that the weather people are forecasting a "Nor'Easter" for our area on Saturday, including ice & snow accumulation. If that occurs, we won't be able to travel to the wedding (which does kind of suck, even though it's hokey). I don't want ANY snow or ice unless it's enough to close Wayne Township Schools. I won't have to work if they are off from school. Now, what happens if we have a lot of snow while Wayne township is on break? I don't know. But anyway, that wedding is this weekend. I do hope this Nor'Easter skips us. It's been HORRIBLE out in Oklahoma and other parts of the midwest.

Okay, my arm is starting to hurt cause there aren't any supports on these stupid computer desks at school. I think Im going to start listing prayer requests at the bottom of my entry for anyone who wants to leave any or emails them to me. Also, just a random FYI, there are 4 marriages in my family in the next year.
12-15-07 Aunt Carol & Marty
05-31-08 Megan & Tim
08-18-08 Grant & Sandy
10-04-08 Evan & I
EXCITING!!




Prayer Requests:
1. Those affected by the ice storms in the midwest
2. The presidential race
3. Safety at preschool and church
4. Evan's ISP test(s)
5. Finals this week at IBC

In the last 48 hours I have realized...

I have studied for 22 of them
I have realized that sometimes I HATE studying
That by studying medical terminology, i am classified as a nullipara, primagravida. Look it up.
If my baby had been born, she'd be 4 next month..WOW! Miscarriage is a terrible thing.
I am a HUGE bitch when I am stressed out & working on next to no sleep
Im dating a really nice guy who has some REALLY annoying tendencies
I need to get over it
I want to get married.
I want to have the huge wedding
Watching too many wedding's on television can make you obsessed.
I still want 4 kids..But NOT quadruplets.
In 4 days this house will be full to the breaking point w/friends I consider more like family. This time of year is my favorite..Besides Christmas.
Sometimes I just want to go on vacation, ALONE.
I havent..ahem, had "relations" in almost 4 months. Good grief. Notice how the number 4 just keeps appearing.
I miss the beach. I havent been there in forever. Maybe I can convice deputy E to take me there soon.
He wants to go to Cedar Point I want to go to Kings Island or Holiday World..They are closer which=less driving=less gas=less money..He just loves rollercoasters..Must make a decision.
When I think about people I know who are just living life by the seat of their pants w/no responsibility, it really upsets me.
When I think about the 3 years I WASTED at ISU and how I could have my RN by now, Im really upset w/myself
When I think about the fact that had I said a simple "yes" to caliboy, I would've been married & prob. divorced by now, I say a silent thanks that God gave me the heads up early.
When I think that 4 years ago, I would've had my baby girl, I tear up every single time. Maybe thats why Im so ready for a baby. I miss her all the time.
I need to sleep.
Im off to take a bath, read, & go to bed.