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I am Back Finally!!
01 October 2011

Hello Everyone,

I am back. I have just changed my blogskin to something nice, hope it suits me eh?
So what actually have I been up to?
Well, a lot of things have happened this year... like I broke my foot bone just at the start of Chinese New Year and it took me up to like July ~ August to fully recover.
But no matter how much it has recovered, it will not be the same like before already.

So well... for my that one and only relationship, it really ended... I am not able to 'cover' for him and say that he isn't selfish anymore... things he said really hurts a lot. Again and again, he stab knives into my heart. Back then after he decided to left me, he said things to me like he wanna let us both try to get back together again. All along we are like close friends and maintaining this special friendship even after breakup. But ever since he stated working officially in the company where he had his internship, he changed.

I notice he added new female friend on his msn profile and Facebook, well, I peek at that girl and start to suspect that she is the one he is aiming at or something like that. Soon he even sort of distanced himself away and I confronted him... then one day, he said everything is over, it's enough. First of all, he is not even able to give me the reason for deciding to leave me back then... then he told me that he opened the chance for both of us to get back together and closed it himself. So, what am I to him? I'm a human and I don't get the chance to 'choose'?

It's ok... I even put on my MSN personal message saying that I just hope people can be honest with me. Then he saw it and said there is no other third party or dishonesty, it was just that the (his) heart died. I asked for the reason and cause for the death of his heart, but he is not able to tell me. After the confrontation and stuff, soon, I was being deleted from his friend list on FB. It was a big blow to me, seriously. I don' think I did anything wrong to deserve all this. I asked him why, and he later on add me back and said he have no idea how did that happen. So, does it means that he indeed has a new gal already and even shared his FB account with her? So the gal knew about me (maybe?) and deleted me on his behalf w/o telling him? Nobody knows.

It really was not easy for me... to get him off my mind as he is my first boyfriend, first relationship. I've told myself to let go of everything... but last night before I slp, I suddenly though of him and wonder how is he doing. So I peeked at his Facebook. Then i saw this gal post on his wall about some kind of staff trip. This gal is the very same girl I long suspected as his new gf. And her profile photo, the background scene of the place where she took the photo is exactly very similar to the new profile photo of my Ex.

What does all this mean?
Very simple. My guess and what I had suspected was not wrong. He changed because he met this new girl at his work place, all those 'romantic' MSN personal messages are meant for her. And finally, they are together as an item.

I does felt even more heartbroken but what really upset me is that he choose not to be honest with me from the start... not even once. I am truly disappointed and dishearten... I wanted to still think of him as a good guy because he was once really an angel to me back then when we are still together. But now all these that's put right in front of me... how can I still lie to myself and how good can I still think of him? Words which he once said to me, those was never fulfilled and became beautiful lies. I won't say that he did not love me back then, but maybe he do not know how to truly love a person.

It's all too painful but because you can't kill and you can't bring yourself to forgive, you can now only choose to forget.

I was glad that I once met that 'Angel' of him back then even though the angel had fallen and vanished from this world. Human beings should not have a wicked heart even if someone else did bad things to them, so I will still give him my blessings.

I still remember what I promised to myself and announced on my FB, so I will keep my words and move forward to it. Welcome back FiOh Dadako.

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<> |《一切从遗嘱开始》
20 December 2009

I just watched channel U's new original short film titled 'The Will 《一切从遗嘱开始》'.
It was quite hilarious and funny at the start actually. The story is about two brothers suddenly will be inheriting a huge sum of money from their dad who just passed away. But then they also got to know that they have a younger sister (illegitimate child) who will be sharing the 5 million SGD with them.

Hahaha, then the younger brother tried to think of ways to kill the younger sister so each of them will get 2.5 million instead of dividing among 3 person. The story is really interesting... but then on the day the siblings to sign on the will, the younger sister got into some kind of trouble... in the end the younger sister passed away...

Quite a sad ending... in the film the younger sister got sing one song which is really meaningful and touching... part of the lyrics (translated from Chinese) is something like 'Losing someone is part of life, cherish people who are around you always'. I really like this phrase very much...

How sad the reality may be, 'losing someone' (either as in the life is gone or the certain linkage with that someone has been broken) is really part of life...

Here I'm telling myself to keep this phrase in my heart always.. and learn to be strong to step forward.

Jia You to myself.

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It's Been A Long Time Since I...
18 January 2009

Yeah... since I last updated something here...
Actually nothing much to update also... it's all the same... UPs and DOWNS of times on a certain day certain time @ certain place...

2009 Is another year... soon it will be CNY...
My room is still in a mess...

Wish for the year:

SMOOTH SAILING FOR EVERYTHING PLS!

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So, That’s It…
07 July 2008

I’ve said it out… and things were no longer the same anymore.
I knew it; I’ve guessed it and I just sensed it.
So… you can’t just keep your s/o and your special friend together at the same time.
Ignore and Coldness will be it…

Don't Care Don't Ask Just Let It Be...

Because We Live In The Present So We Should Just Say It Out If There's Something We Want/Wished For...

- Sleepy

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Inferior Is Not Good~
22 June 2008

I’ve been too careful with this friend of mine… yeah… I shouldn’t be actually… Well… from now onwards I will just treat this friend like any other friend of mine… just bomb when needed and I’ll see how things go. Eh fren ah... I have heard from my jie and actually i am just afraid of making you angry... and my that apology sms... I didnt know that (to you) it seems like a cheating gf apologising to a faithful bf or something like that... and i am sort of 'disturbed' by ur misinterpretation somehow... I mean... I just dont like the feeling of ppl mis-read and misunderstood me.

Was searching for Rozen Maiden dolls and came across other dolls as well (not those whereby they just have the ang moh look and their eyes will open and close when in standing/sleeping position, those are plain scary and my cousin used to have one when we were younger.) and they were great!

I mean those dolls, their features really look ‘alive’ and are really pretty. In fact there are some people who are born with very similar features like those dolls. Sometimes I really envy people with such refined and beautiful features. Then I think I also see too much pretty things/people recently that my old problem came up again -> Inferior.

Actually not only seeing too many pretty things caused the inferior in me to surface, another cause is also the fact that I have some miscommunication with a friend, who will say words that make me really think I am sort of stupid. Plus the fact that I did something quite embarrassing last week lah… so… well… when everything just come together at the ‘right time’, ‘some things’ will just start to surface up.

Then I was also moody and I told Tsenre about it loh… and he said that don’t need to compare myself to those born with the features I admire. Then was sort of bored also so we just play some games while we chat loh. We were playing the ‘Reversi’ and he keep saying I am giving him chance letting him win the game. But serious speaking, I am really lousy at board games de, especially when it has something to do with math or similar concept. >.<

Since he said that I am letting him on purpose for the game, so I suggested playing the jigsaw puzzle game and he shall not say that I am letting him win on purpose. Heehee… I just love jigsaw puzzle lah and I think I am better at it as compare to board games. He lost loh, and then said ‘Ai yah don’t want to play alr, keep losing’. Lolx, but actually we only played two rounds of jigsaw. Anyway he has some assignments to do also so we stopped the games and just end our chat. ^^

Oh yah… now that I think back… I really should find some time to tidy my messy room… bui tahan alr… and I should get my curtain ‘frame’ fixed… need to practice my guitar as well… really cannot slack le, already so dead meat liao. =X
And oh yeah… last but not least my personal website has been under constructions for like a few years already? Omg is that for real? No lah!! Eh… I think at least 2 years… this is so bad of me… I should really do something about it. And not forgetting about my stories… still has lots of series to finish. ~.~

P.S: Should blog in my other blogs too sometimes. =X
Btw, here's one pic of those dolls that I really like.

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Just Learn To Take A Pause Bah
18 June 2008

Maybe I took things for granted alr. I am a bad person… I knew it… I just know it… And I always know it yet I just don’t want to face it. Keep running away from it only… just learn to take a pause bah…

I dont want to hurt anyone!!
>_<

P.S: Just ignore this emo entry...

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No Offence But I Really Don’t Like It
28 May 2008

WARNING: THIS ARTICLE CONTAINS PESONAL POINT OF VIEWS. READERS WHO ARE FROM CHINA, PLS REFRAIN FROM FURTHER READING. DON’T TAKE THE RISK OF READING IT AND SPAM DEVIL’S TAG BOARD DUE TO UR OWN DISAGREEMENT ON THIS ARTICLE. THANK YOU FOR YOUR COOPERATION.

Yesterday morning on the way to work, after boarding bus 269 (to get into the school area) and seated down, the bus driver suddenly asked me a question which I find it rather offensive.

I was the first and only passenger on bus that time (because I took it directly from the bus interchange). The uncle asked ‘Miss, are you from China?’ Okay, I don’t know why but I just had the very bad image of china people in my mind and of course, it would be very offensive to me if I were bring asked such question.

I replied in a slightly ‘bu shuang’ (bui song) tone that ‘I’m Local!’
It’s not really that I hate certain country but, it’s the image of how those china females projected in SG. I don’t mean all of them are bad but most of them are doing things which are really… well… I shall not go into details. Anyway after that reply of mine, the driver keeps quiet all the way le.

Then this morning… as I was wearing rather different from my usual style, the security guard uncle whom happened to be in the same bus as me asked if I’m on a date later on after knocking off from work. I told him no, I dress up coz it’s my 2nd last day in school.
Then he stepped on my bomb… ‘Are you going back to China?’ Upon hearing this, I totally have the idea of WTHHHH?? in my head.

Seriously… I hated it when people see me as a china gal… it just feel uncomfortable and I am really offended. I am happy that I am a mix child of two diff countries and of cos I am confident to say about my looks and stuff BUT… ppl thought I am from China… totally piss me off. Even though its minority of these ‘offenders’ who thought so but it still affects my mood. Usually I’m being misunderstood as a Korean or Japanese. But China…no way!! I suggest to people who like to simply guess someone’s nationality to ask ‘Are you local?’ or ‘Which country are you from?’ rather than straight away assume someone’s nationality. There are also some people who are very sensitive and particular about such issues like me in this world.

P.S: It’s the bad experience I have had with those china gals and of cos, a lot of those kind of ‘cases’ are in the news as well… and… I really hate those china gals who think so great of themselves… think they are so wonderful so pretty and stuff… I don’t like it.

Like I have warned earlier at the beginning of this entry, those who cannot take it and still wanna read it, any negative or personal attack kind of message found on my tag board will be removed.

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Count Down... Alot of Thoughts~
27 May 2008

Met the new replacement gal for my role in SNGS last friday. Surprising that she turns out to be my Poly Year 2 Classmate's Girlfriend. Haha, no wonder on first meeting she could pronounce my name [FiOh] correctly. ^^

Today Mabel gave me a delicious muffin as a farewell gift.
Then TZ, Mabel and I were having lunch together and we chat about alot of things.
Was shocked that Mabel broke off with her bf for 4mths and... its a 5 years long relationship. As TZ was also having some problem with her r/s, Mabel and I were suggesting some ideas on her thoughts on certain incident. We just tell her not think so much into it and see how things goes. Afterall TZ and her bf's r/s is also 5 years long.

Mabel said that she dont trust long distance relationship... for me... actually even local r/s can be so unstable... so why wont even give chance to long distance r/s?
And I do know of ppl who's doing quite ok with their long distance r/s. For now i dont wanna think so far about it. What will come will happen one... just someday somewhere in this world. =)

Oh yah, just recently got 2 frenz getting moody and none of them wanna talk to me about it, so I just put 'Why Are You Moody? And Why Are You Moody Too? Why is it that Everyone's Moody? T-T' as my msn personal message. Then the funny thing is... those whom i am referring to didnt respond while those whom i am not shooting at actually responded to me telling me 'Dont worry, I am not moody... '.
Well, its good that some people actually take notice of my personal message. It just feel that they are still noticing me and am being concern. I'm glad about that.

29th May... This coming thurs... is Hika's Birthday!! Lolx... ok lay...back to the topic... its my last day in SNGS. Fri will be my official day of returning to HQ, PET Team le~ But working hours will be 8:30am - 6pm. T-T I hope that i will get used to the new culture in PET Team. Thought about Mabel and TZ saying which male colleague still single really LOLX loh. I dont wanna talk abt r/s for now... well... cos its 'secret'. =X

Last Saturday meet up with vonUtteresk at Orchard there. Ok, I brought Yun along too but then the two seems to be of 2 different channels and von said that Yun's hogging onto me only. Hmmm... i'm sorry to have let von felt sort of being ignored. I'm a bad host and introducing new frenz ard. >.< Then at a pt of time Yun suddenly say she wanna intro me her few handsome jap guy frens she know from online game. Lolx. I say 'anything loh~' cos as if she's really gonna do that. =X Make frens only mah... ok de loh~

Haiz... at the thought of PET team... and hearing the culture frm TZ... i think i will still be the cold one loh... i wont mix with them for dinner after work since they go for expensive food. And i dont allow myself to spend so much on foods (also i contribute to quite alot of my salary to household... give my mum, wont have enough to go 'entertain' expensive food). Straight after work i will go home one... HQ, its abit far frm my house... Maybe from then onwards will be so sian and tired that I will MIA from the online world for a period of time? I dont know about that for now.

Argh~ really wanna go study degree alr... GE pals so many still students really make me wanan be a student again. >_< But will take part time degree lah... continue my MIT course (diploma) loh... cos hard to switch course of study for degree oso... then programming will be coming back to me loh~ it will be Java most probably... but its ok... Just Drink more Coffee and Do More Java (afterall java means coffee), this is my self quote phrase, idea by Kuan Ko the poly engineering maths lecturer who often said 'Eat More Rice and Do More Maths, and You will Pass'. Lolx!! None of the
graduates will forget this lecturer i guess.

Oh yah... just now napping... suddenly dreamt abt SH... hmm... we in a weird place doing some project (I supposed?). We both have a station at a side directly facing each other in opp direction. Then i was tired and just lie down take a nap.. eh, more like its napping time for all... donnoe where other students went... and SH lie down looking str8 at me while lying on his own bed at the opp side. From his eyes it seems like he has alot to tell yet doesnt dare to approach. I dont know... the feelings... and in the dream i really don wanna talk to him 1st before he does. Is it some feelings that both of us felt deep within us? But why out of the blues SH suddenly came into my dream? No matter what happened in the past and even if we are just frenz now... I can never forget about this guy name SH, and neither can he (yeah he told me that).

Okay to Marhou... I want to tell u again... dont waste ur prepaid sms on me pls~ You dont sms a fren so much u get it? Hope u get what I mean... u're still a student and so... just concentrate on ur studies.. no matter how bad the gals in ur generation are, I'm sure there will be some nice gals ard too. ^^

P.S: I think I am Invaded by Sleep Bug. ~.~

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That Day… Decision Has Been Made
17 May 2008

When was it? I couldn’t remember… after the clear explanation and admitting of the dishonesty towards the feelings, both cooled… and he thought about it. That day he came to a decision for both. He even told her that he was heart broken when she starts to feel for him… then slowly he felt the same towards her. But she doesn’t want to admit and be honest to her feelings due to the fact that she needs confirmations. She doesn’t want to be of a trouble to his mind if it’s only a one way communication.

Upon hearing her answer he was heart broken again… but she knew that he’s not okay at all so she admitted her dishonesty and told him the truth. Yet, he has already been hurt. She doesn’t want him to be hurt and she didn’t mean to do it on purpose.

He asked for some time to give some thoughts and she agreed. Then that day… he told her his decision… for the both of them. He confessed as he tears that he really like her too but it’s difficult for the both of the due to the physical distance. She told him that distance doesn’t matter to her. He told her to keep the feelings aside for now and wait till the day they ever get to meet up. It was a hard decision made; he doesn’t want to hurt her like how the guy in the past (whom she used to have a crush on) did.

For now… just remain usual and be cool…
To Him: Be Strong.

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What to do with 'It'?
15 May 2008

People get confused by all sorts of things... especially this thing call feelings... He said it that way... does that mean i should not hold on to the little bit of feelings any longer?

What do one wants in life? If only its always as clear as glass... but one just cant see certain things that's even right infront of one's eyes.
Why are ppl always not daring enough? Because people hestitated....
Why should circle starts to move first before triangle tries any attempt?

Cirle's lost and confused, so does Triangle...
What if the two shape came into each other's path?
What will happen? Will it be more realistic?

Minds are such weird and complicated thing...

If only...

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Black Out Party Baby~ =.=
12 May 2008

It was the examination period last week and all the teachers are busy with the invigilation as well as checking out the student’s health condition for each day.
Recently, there’s a rise in the Hand Food Mouth Disease (HFMD) in schools, and I was surprised to hear that there are cases from the Primary 3, 5 and even 6 students. Was surprised coz this HFMD is commonly found in very young children… now the disease has sort of got ‘stronger’ that it actually even spreads to the adults.

Hmmm… is it a Wednesday or a Thursday? Anyway, there was a black out again in the school last week… it’s around 2pm plus (luckily it’s after school hours for the pupils). And the black out came without any warning as usual. Okay, this isn’t the first time; it’s like the 3rd time in school… but the first for this year.

Last year when I was given a desktop at my workplace, the power supply still continues to keep the desktop working but this year I was given a laptop instead and yet the power supply wasn’t there… so the laptop has to ‘survive’ on its on battery. Luckily I always connect the charger to the main power supply when using, so the battery was full.

The most ‘happening’ thing is that all of us are locked in the staff room. Hahaha!! Because there’s no power supply~ after some time the lights came back… but soon, it went away… and for the 2nd black out, I was in the toilet… super dark and creepy loh~

The black out just on and off come and go lah… so sian as its quite dark and hard to see the keyboard of the laptop… =.= Anyway it last until my knock off time… luckily my laptop battery survived else I cant do anything at all.

This school seriously is too old… I hope that it can still ‘support’ the staff and pupils in school till the end of the year, as they are moving out to an empty primary school temporary… They are going to tear down most of the parts for the primary section and rebuild. They should have moved out last year actually… well, maybe something pop up that drag the moving out thing. I don’t really know.

Oh, by the way… what would you do if someone 5 years younger sort of confessed to you?? And you don’t know him in real life… but in via some online game… I asked if he is confessing but he say it’s just his feelings… anyway for now I’ve told him that he’s too young for me but he said that he want me to like him one day~ well… I hope he will get the suitable girl for himself.

Was chatting with G last night through MSN… he said he will be offline starting today for a period of time and may not come back to the game… well… study is important that’s why the decision… now, seeing so many students in the game all so hardworking studying really make me wanna be a student once again… I really enjoy school life… its fun even though there are exams and ‘rumors’ (ok… I’m referring to the ‘FiOh- Terence’ or ‘Terence-FiOh’ thingy that those E6 ppl played around with when I was in poly.) But if I were to study full time, I won’t be able to earn money and it feels quite sad… I know that full time working and part time studying will be tough but I think I will try it.

Will be going back to HQ really soon… probably after this week… but my Account Manager Liling always bluff me one… last week said she would bring the new replacement gal to school to meet up with me… yet she never call me and they did not came… so, will she bring the replacement gal to me this week?

Going back to HQ… actually more disadvantage than staying in this school… going to GQ means longer and fixed working hours (9am – 6pm), more expensive transportation fees (because I have to take the expensive NEL), have to wear formal (which I don’t really like it… coz its hard to find formal pants/skirts with pocket for my wallet n HP) and last of all… the lunch will be more expensive as compared to staying in the school.
But since Victor told me that I will get to learn something new back in HQ, I choose to take up this path… if I were to stay with the school, I will be teaching the Primary 1 and 2 IT lessons, quite fun and cute but then I won’t have much chance to really use my skills that I learnt in poly… and I actually don’t intend to be a trainer and stay with this company for long… I still want to pursue my degree…

Oh ya... back to the chat with G on MSN, cos he makes it sound like he’s going to disappear for a long period of time… and its quite enjoyable chatting with him… so I asked for his contact number... but I will only sent him nice sms when I have coz it will be international sms. Lolx. But then again when he wished best of luck for the other guy and me, it feels so weird… coz I never really thought about that other guy as more than friends… but at times I do have abit of special feeling for him, but maybe I am confused with my own feelings too. Coz ppl tend to be confused of their own feelings towards someone when that person treats him/her quite good. I don’t know… and maybe that day I was emo… so I recalled about SH and confused myself with the feelings toward that other guy even more.

PLEASE READ!! IMPORTANT NOTICE BELOW~

Anyway… for those who knows that I am currently using two HP numbers, please take note that because of the IDA, I have been told to choose one number out of the two while the other one will be terminated. And I have choose the old number, so those who know my ‘another new’ number that starts with 9, pls just keep it for now… but do remember to keep my old number… I don’t know when exactly will this ‘9’ HP number be terminated. Ehm… for those who don’t know about the ‘9’ hp number, just ignore this notice here. ^^

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Want to be Angry See 'Him' also Cant Angry Le
27 April 2008

Actually was sort of pissed off by deer in GE one...

In mission T4 he ask me to build things on a certain spot but then i already told him that cant build near his constructions he also like nv see... then dont know what's wrong with him... he said use a certain skill for fighter but my fighter was actually using another stance and I dont have the time to change his stance becos I switch back the e84 ring mail from angie to my scout le.

And the other person's scout was too far so he wasnt healing my char at all...
Its already so tense up keep potting on my own three char and finding the right place to build things on... I dont even have the time to change stance and then deer suddenly said wat I am banned from mission? WTH loh.

I dont think he even know why am i angry de loh... he always make me angry w/o knowing how he did it one... =.= Then he go cook noodle after the mission and i saw him using his Jack in town opening personal shop selling the elite ring mail.

See his jack standng alone there selling erm and recalling that he said he is poor (and he cant get Gpoints) make my anger went away... want to be angry with him for longer also cant be angry le... cos the jack see so pityful so ke lian so han suan. The feeling is so sad... T-T (Ok i am emo ppl). Then i told my sis and she actually laughed she said she understand if she sees his 'jack' too. >_<

Then i just give him the elite coat recipe for musk (donnoe how to spell the name) i got frm the mission and something else... but i didnt notice he go put in a xx amount of vis... =.= He took advantage of my 'blur-ness' to 'sneak in' his vis as payment for the other item. Then i said he shd listen to me since he made me so angry. Then i return him the amt of vis he put and he return some also, saying he buy that item at lower price then. Well...

Then he need HQ cloth to make the elite coat and I see MM ppl sell, I have 12 for myself i can help him buy 40 to make up the total 52 needed (will be 2m in total for the 40 pieces) but he dont want. Why dont want ppl to help him when he can help ppl one? Anyway... i hope that he can learn how to 'receive help' from others when in need lah.

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The Whiteness is So Obvious?
26 March 2008

It's the period of emo lately and I am like another stranger to myself.
Yesterday Yating asked if I applied moisturizer or whatever cream onto my face. I told her no and asked why. She was sort of shock for a while and told me that I look very white, or rather pale lately…

But I don’t know it’s so obvious? Even my parents commented that I am already turning panda lately… seriously I need to sleep and rest more… my body temperature is always rising, so high that my brother’s temperature loses out (usually guys have higher body temperature).

Oh yah, regarding the GE friend who I quarreled with, things were cleared… but things were no longer the same like before. Last night in GE faction chat, I was just joking with Span but then he got so angry that he wouldn’t even reply to my apology PM. What was wrong? I don’t know… then they went for PY to hunt boss and I skipped again.

Since they do not have enough slot for squad members in PY, one of them suggested kicking someone out of the squad. Then Span and someone else (if I didn’t remember wrongly) said “Kick Ix” and “Hurry Up”. Actually when I see the way them guys talk to this girl player call Cath from Halycon, I feel so uncomfortable for some reason that I am not even sure of myself. Esp. Span, he talks so differently to her as compared to me.

In my memory, Span is a really wonderful guy and he leaves a very good impression in my mind. He was very nice to me long time ago (yes, before his previous faction went apart and stuff), so nice that he even go to the ice field just to take a few screenshots for me. It’s a very simple thing but yet it touches me somehow because he don’t have to so this for a stranger (me) whom he only met for the 1st time and talked for a short period of time. But now things are so different… sis says that it could be because I am not ‘obedient’ to him (for PY thingy) and so on. I feel very upset that people changes so differently… but then again, do I really know him that well for me to even start to feel upset over? I think I should just take it that I know him in a dream, so I won’t be so upset.

Jin asked why aren’t I talking in faction nowadays and I told him that there are no difference whether I talked or not so why talk (unless necessary)? I am online at the time when they are busy… so sometimes I am being ignored… and I am easily emo + mood swing, once I talk... the chances of having a quarrel with Span will increase.

The thought of leaving the faction [‘family’ they call] starts to float on the surface nowadays… what should I do? Its either I stay there and remain silent all the time (like Yukies) or I just get my ass out of it. My sis and bro started GE lately too and sis said that she would never join a faction. My bro asked if it is a must to join a faction. I said no to him, you could get so pissed off or upset in a faction even most of them are really good people in the game itself.

I should work harder on training now… maybe afk for the time being… should focus on other things in my life.

Happen to came upon this...
Rape & Its Effect
Hope all females out there are always safe from it.

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