The Cavitenyo is Back.

I missed Menela. I missed the sense of independence that it gives me.

Ang tagal ko ring nawala dito sa Menela. Dami ko tuloy realizations during those oh-so-bakasyon days.

Once again, i experienced how to think.

Quote from MRT Radio Station, "Alam nyo ba na ang taong madalas daw na mag-isa at malungkutin ay ang mga taong madalas na dinadapuan ng Alzheimer's disease?"

Natakot ako. Hindi para sa sarili ko, kundi sa mga taong naisip kong prone sa sakit na it. Scary.

Magpapasko na! Ilang araw na lang.



I love you very much Q. Happy happy birthday! Mwaah!

sembreak

Photo from ABAM Plansem earlier
proof of freedom from school

Gagayahin ko si Nica...

Konti na lang, sembreak na! SEMBREAK NA!

BA 173 Final Paper
BA 173 Final Presentation
BA 190 CEO project
BA 190 Case Writing I won't be doing this, i think
Span 11 Final Exam
GE 1 Lab Exercise
GE 1 3rd Exam
GE 1 Final Exam
BA 129 Feasib Presentation
BA 191 KM Research Paper
BA 191 Reflection Journal

AND I'M FREE!

Just came from ABAM PlanSem held in Makiling Green Heights, Calamba, Laguna. Pictures to follow. I wanted to write about the experience but i am too sleepy (too tired, too drunk for the last 3days, too overwhelmed) to actually bring out all the emotions i felt during the last 4 days.

Sidenote: Got my first grade for this sem. Span 11 = 1.75. Who's the man?

65 days na lang Christmas na!

42 days na lang, veinte anyos na ako!

You're So Near Yet So Far

SEMBREAK.

You're really so near yet sooooo far.

4 things na nga lang requirements ko, pero ang hirap mo tapusin. Sana mag October 18 na. Or better yet, sana mag 2nd sem enrollment na.

This night's Trinoma get-away is the best Trinoma experience i ever had. With Allen, Carla, Michelle, and Sharry. Miss you!

Gagayahin ko si Nica...

Konti na lang, sembreak na!

BA 173 Final Paper
BA 173 Final Presentation
BA 190 CEO project
BA 190 Case Writing I won't be doing this, i think
Span 11 Final Exam
GE 1 Lab Exercise
GE 1 3rd Exam
GE 1 Final Exam
BA 129 Feasib Presentation
BA 191 KM Research Paper
BA 191 Reflection Journal

AND I'M FREE!

70 days na lang Christmas na!

47 days na lang, veinte anyos na ako!

I Hate Endings

Reasons why i hate endings:

• That's it. Nothing follows.
• I'm always left behind. I always find it difficult to move on.
• Endings are always sad. I really don't believe in happy endings.

Previous endings i hated (the ones I remember, at the least):

• The end of my OJT in SEAIR. (At least here, I've already moved on.)
• High School Grad
• a looooooot more. TMTM

Endings i hate and i fear:

• this sem
• this school year
• YOU

_________________________

I always picture our relationship as the "happy" one. A healthy one, where quarrels and arguments are the usual things. I was too confident that we, at least you, are mature enough not to end the relationship just because we fought and didn't agree on some things.

These recent events, however, are different. You've changed. I'm not sure if it's only you, but i'm certain that you changed. Gone are the days when you're the one who comforts me.

I miss those days when i always feel that you are the shelter that i have always looked for.

I admit, i might be too self-centered. Thoughts only centered around my feelings - my aches, my sufferings, myself. You might not have changed. Maybe it's just me. This too-selfish me.

I sincerely regret the things i said. I'm not sure, though, if you think that i voiced it out only because i'm mad and that i didn't really mean it, but, it's too late. It's all been said and done.

_________________________

I always had a problem on expressing my thoughts. Oftentimes, they just come out of my mouth, without even consulting what's in my head nor my heart. But it's out of the question now. IT CAME OUT OF MY MOUTH. I hope, you, did not take it seriously.

_________________________

This one's the ending I (insert-superlative-adjective-for-regret) feared to happen.

i don't know what's gonna happen tomorrow. i just wish that no matter what happens, neither of us go home broken. it's been 8 months. i wish we could still count, together, until 8 years.

i cant continue with my countdown to christmas and my birthday. not now...

i smell sembreak

Gagayahin ko si Nica...

Konti na lang, sembreak na!

BA 173 Final Paper
BA 173 Final Presentation
BA 190 CEO project
BA 190 Case Writing I won't be doing this, i think
Span 11 Final Exam
GE 1 Lab Exercise
GE 1 3rd Exam
GE 1 Final Exam
BA 129 Feasib Presentation
BA 191 KM Research Paper
BA 191 Reflection Journal

AND I'M FREE!

Will be posting our Feasib overnight na super saya!

WE ARE THE BEST FEASIB GROUP.
Wala ng kokontra.

73 days na lang Christmas na!

50 days na lang, veinte anyos na ako!

Buhay UP

Sorry, cliquish. Pero since graduating na ako, pag bigyan na.

ANO’NG STUDENT NUMBER MO?
2005-40621 (Oops. Wag tingnan ang mga grades ko)

NAKAPASA KA BA OR WAITLISTED?
Pasado. First choice. Quota course. Yabang.

PAANO MO NALAMAN ANG ENTRANCE EXAM RESULT?
Yung HS classmate kong si Mailany ang nagsabi sa akin. Di ko alam kung paano nya nalaman. Ayaw pa nga nya agad sabihin kaya kinabahan ako na baka bagsak ako. Sarap ng feeling!

FIRST CHOICE MO BA ANG UP?
OO. Premier State University. Lahat pa ng valedictorian sa school namin dito nag-aral.

ALAM MO BA ANG UPG SCORE MO?
Nope. Gusto ko sana kaso may bayad daw?

ANO ANG FIRST CHOICE MO NA COURSE?
BS Business Administration

SECOND CHOICE?
BS Statistics

ANO NAGING COURSE MO?
Bobo ka ba?

NAGPLANO KA BANG MAG-SHIFT?
Yep. Gusto ko mag shift dati sa BS Chem. Kaso wala daw masyado job opportunities, so BS Chem Engg. Pero tinamad na. BS Business Ad na lang. Nasanay na naman ako at nag-enjoy.

NAKAPAG-DORM KA NA BA?
Boarding House. Apartment.

NAKA UNO KA NA BA?
Oo naman. Haha. 3 times yata.

NAGKA-3?
Wala akong tres. Dapat hindi na magkaroon!

HIGHEST GRADE:
Bobo ka ba?

LOWEST:
2.5 - Soc Sci 2, Quanti Methods 1, Business Law, Math 17

WORST EXPERIENCE SA UP:
Kapag nagcracram ako ng papers saka kapag gutom na gutom o kaya antok na antok ako tapos ang init init pa.

LAGI KA BANG PUMAPASOK SA KLASE?
Nung first year. Guilty pa ako pag late. Patanda ng patanda, patamad ng patamad. Sarap umabsent lalo na kung walang kwenta yung prof.

ANO’NG ORG MO?
UP Association of Business Administration Majors (Wuhooooo!)
UP Aniban ng mga Kabitenyo (Yemen! Inuman na!)

MAY SCHOLARSHIP KA BA?
Oo.

PINANGARAP MO BANG MAG-CUM LAUDE?
Oo. Sana ma realize ko na yung pangarap na yun.

KELAN KA NAGTAPOS?
April 26, 2009. Shet.

FAVE PROF (s):
Sir Vlad (MPs 10), Mam Bea (Psych 101), sa BA? Wala yata.

WORST TEACHER (s):
Dami. Sobra.

FAVE SUBJECT (s):
Psych 101,MPs 10. BA? Finance?

WORST SUBJECT (s):
GE 1

FAVE LANDMARK:
BA
Sunken Garden
Oblation

BUILDING:
Bobo?

PABORITONG KAINAN:
BA Caf. Saka yung mga kainan sa KNL.

NOONG ESTUDYANTE KA PA MAGKANO BA ANG BINABAYAD MO SA JEEP?
Dati 5 yung ikot. Naging 6.50. Ngayon 7 na.

LAGI KA BA SA LIB?
Tanga ba ako? Haha.

NAGPUNTA KA BA SA CLINIC NUNG MINSANG NAGKASAKIT KA?
First and last nung medical.

MAY CRUSH KA BA SA CAMPUS?
MADAMI.

BF/GF?
Sa campus? La nga eh. sigh.

MAY BALAK KA BA MAG-MASTERS O MAG-PHD?
OO.

ANU-ANO ANG MGA NAGING PE MO?
Street Dance, Weight Training, Social Dance, Cheerdance

KAMUSTA NAMAN ANG BLOCK NYO?
Walang kwenta block sa BA pag freshie. Pag third year na panalo. Tangna namimiss ko na yung dati.

NAKAPANOOD KA NA BA NG GRADUATION SA UP?
Hindi pa nga eh.

MEMORIZE MO BA ANG ALMA MATER SONG?
Oo.

MEMBER KA BA NG UP VARSITY TEAM?
Papa macho muna ako.

NAKA-PERFECT KA NA BA NG EXAM?
Yata. Di ko na matandaan.

ANO’NG AYAW MO SA FINALS WEEK?
Malungkot. Wala ng tao. Nakakapuyat.

DITO KA BA NATUTONG UMINOM NG BEER?
OO. Haha. At magyosi!

ANO’NG GUSTO MO SA UP?
The name itself. Openminded people. Freedom.

ANO’NG AYAW MO?
No SMOKING

MAGANDA BA ID PIC MO?
Hindi. Nawala yung magandang kuha ko eh. Papagawa na lang ulit pag may extra money na.

MAY GINAWA KA NA BANG ILLEGAL SA LOOB NG CAMPUS?
Yung immoral ba illegal din?

Gagayahin ko si Nica...

Konti na lang, sembreak na!

BA 173 Final Paper
BA 173 Final Presentation
BA 190 CEO project
BA 190 Case Writing I won't be doing this, i think
Span 11 Final Exam
GE 1 Lab Exercise
GE 1 3rd Exam
GE 1 Final Exam
BA 129 Feasib Presentation
BA 191 KM Research Paper
BA 191 Reflection Journal

AND I'M FREE!

79 days na lang Christmas na! 56 days na lang, veinte anyos na ako!

...

I’ve known you for so long
You are a friend of mine
But is this all we’d ever be?
I’ve loved you ever since
You are a friend of mine
And babe is this all we ever could be?

You tell me things I’ve never known
I shown you love you’ve never shown
But then again, when you cry
I’m always at your side
You tell me ’bout the love you’ve had
I listen very eagerly
But deep inside you’ll never see
This feeling of emptiness
It makes me feel sad
But then again I’m glad

I’ve known you all my life
You are a friend of mine
I know this is how it’s gonna be
I’ve loved you then and I love you still
You’re a friend of mine
Now, I know friends are all we ever could be

GOD I WANT SOME BEER!

Gagayahin ko si Nica...

Konti na lang, sembreak na!

BA 173 Final Paper
BA 173 Final Presentation
BA 190 CEO project
BA 190 Case Writing I won't be doing this, i think
Span 11 Final Exam
GE 1 Lab Exercise
GE 1 3rd Exam
GE 1 Final Exam
BA 129 Feasib Presentation
BA 191 KM Research Paper
BA 191 Reflection Journal

AND I'M FREE!

83 days na lang Christmas na! 60 days na lang, veinte anyos na ako!

Experiment

Yesterday, i did an experiment. That one which i think everyone will agree that it's an insane, adik, weird, and worse, emo experiment.

Simple lang naman. I drank Red Horse in Can while walking along the streets of Cubao, Quezon City.

Sooo weird feeling. Parang nag-eenjoy ako at naeexcite gumawa ng bawal. Pakiramdam ko kasi, ngayon, lahat ng bawal kaya ko ng gawin. That explains the satisfaction i was feeling while doing the odd experiment.

It happened nga pala while i was shopping for groceries sa Rustan's gateway. After getting all the stuff i needed, i felt a sudden thirst and there i decided to get a bottle of soda. Pero to my kademonyohan, red horse was the first thing that strucked me sa may refrigerator.

THERE.

Hindi man lang ako nag dalawang isip. Ininom ko sya sa kalye, habang naglalakad sa ingay ng mga jeep, sa mga taong natatarantang umuwi sa bahay galing trabaho, sa harap ng mga nagkwekwentuhang pulis, pulubi, adik (yata), kendi vendor. Take note: around 7.30 pm ko ito ginawa, at may bitbit pa akong dalawang malalaking plastic bag.

Result:
Pinsan ko ang nakapansin. Natural isinumbong nya ako. Pero huli na ang lahat, sandali lang naman kasi ako nawala, tapos pag dating ko naligo agad ako. Kaya naman hindi nya majustify kung saan at kailan ako umuwi.

Evil me.

Gagayahin ko si Nica...

Konti na lang, sembreak na!

BA 173 Final Paper
BA 173 Final Presentation
BA 190 CEO project
BA 190 Case Writing I won't be doing this, i think
Span 11 Final Exam
GE 1 Lab Exercise
GE 1 3rd Exam
GE 1 Final Exam
BA 129 Feasib Presentation
BA 191 KM Research Paper
BA 191 Reflection Journal

AND I'M FREE!

84 days na lang Christmas na! 61 days na lang, veinte anyos na ako!