I am as far along in this pregnancy today as I was when my DB was born. I kept an eye out for this day when I was pregnant with JT, and now again with this one. 27 weeks and 6 days is kind of a "magical" number for me even after how well things went with JT. I feel some sort of amazed accomplishment every time I make it past today. I still have no idea exactly how far I will make it past this point, but the fact that I made it past gives me a bit of peace of mind and lets me relax--just a little.
I know this has nothing to do with me or how well I take care of myself, because believe me, I really could do a lot better. I know it is just in the Plan for me. Heavenly Father had some lessons to teach me with DB that still affect me, even in subsequent pregnancies. It has been almost 7 years since the kiddo was born, and I still often reflect on that experience. There is A LOT I can't remember, as my brain has decided to protect me from SOME of the especially hairy stuff I think, but I can remember enough that it still affects me.
Fear is the absence of faith, and as I remind myself of that every now and again it helps me to go forward every day with faith, not doubting that I am just an instrument in bringin these little ones to earth in the way (and at the time) that they were meant to come.
Utah Summer Vacation 2009
Spring Break 2009
Our trip
3 comments:
What a blessing. It really is so awesome that you have made it past that with the last two pregnancies. I just found out that I am having a girl also. AREN't YOU SO EXCITED!
What a thoughtful post. DB has influenced a lot of people on this earth! What an amazing boy he is.
You have sacrificed a lot to bring these little ones into the world. I have a lot to learn from you!
I needed to hear that...so well put. So many people keep reminding me about the chances of twins coming early and being in the NICU. I don't know how my parents survived the 5 months my little brother was there in LA, but the thought has always really scared me. And as uncomfortable as I am, I hope I get really close to full term (for the boys sake). Watch me go to 42 weeks again! Oh, I would die!
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