Opposition

It seems in life there are relative periods of calm and tranquility and then times of opposition. In my experience, the periods of opposition signal something wonderful on the horizon. I have a personality that generally tries to be the "act positive, be positive" approach. I don't love dwelling or feeding into the negativity because that doesn't help anyone.

We are very up in the air right now. The house is up for sale. It's the right decision, but it's a lot of work to move everything. Change your life. Physically and emotionally. I gear up differently than Ben. My organization skills and list making tendencies go into high gear. Sometimes it feels like robot mode. Process the To Do's. Do them. Check.

So, it begs the question, when life IS really hard, what's the best way to process it.

I'm dealing with severe disappointment and frustration with others choices. Some people are so selfish. I try to rationalize the selfishness with the thought of, I know that everyone else is in a different place and the way that people deal with stress varies. But I just want to say out loud (is this out loud? It's not going to count today) COME ON PEOPLE! The selfishness comes with people not seeing how their choices are affecting others. People are suffering because of those choices. I actually mourn the loss of faith in humanity. That's the part that hurts the most. I mourn it like a death. The selfishness turns into a disease. A slow, quiet disease that seeps into everything else. Others see the negativity and it affects them. It makes them feel unsure of their own feelings.
I understand to an extent.

It's easy for me to say, guess what? That's life, DEAL WITH IT. My tendency is to say, look, listen, I'm pregnant with #5, have a busy calling, have my house on the market, running a side business, have a husband with a crazy and intense work schedule, he has an intense calling AND and and. My gut feeling is, how I deal with the opposition is important. If I can forgive, shove my sleeves up higher and REFUSE to give into the bad, that is what Heavenly Father is looking for. How will Rachel deal with these trials. Will she be the better person and try to uplift, gain a stronger testimony and try my hardest? Will I forgive? Or will I wallow, dwell on the negative and not learn the lessons that are sitting there in a nice, pretty box.

From this point on, I will face the opposition face on. Good, bad and ugly. I can't control others, but I do have the power to influence others for good.