am not in a happy mode

been left home alone by mom and baba.
well,actually not really alone.
am a caretaker for my two younger brothers,hanif and iqbal.
have to cook.
have to do all the homeworks.
have to online.
have to monitor them doing online exercises.
have to feed those kitteh.
have to scoop all the poops.
have to do all the laundry.
have to do the dishes.
.......and im in the middle of my menstruation
urghhhh...!
tension.stressed.
im tired.super exhausted.
wanna hang out pun,no moood at all.
sometimes getting bored.
gotta see my taylor again.
there a few more kain that need to be jahit.
last night,been raining.
heavy pouring with all the lightning and thunder
am so scared huk3..
i need mom,my closet and it did blacked out.
3times plak tuh.
definitely wanna test my inner strength.
but am so glad and grateful to Allah as i got a friend..
..such friend that willing to accompany me even thru the line
keeping me calm and made me feel secured.
*cz am too scared of the dark*
gile terrified.
the windows are quivering and trembling.
the lights went out.
it's dark outside and on the inside.
thank Allah,my younger brother called me from the other rooms
and decide to sleep in my room.
*relieved*

anyway,t'shere a new song just came up at Radio Disney.
u shld google it.
c0z it's a song for me.
the pain by Menstruation.
*bhaahaha.jk.dnt google it.im just joking*
am actually..yea
tgh tahan sakit ni. >.< it huuuurts!!!
mom,baba..
pls come back soon.

last night i called salsya.
and i called love.
who had been pretty annoying.
and turned into a scum-douche for a bout few hours.
asking me silly Qs.
talking non-sense.
that's annoying man and im sick here.
pls do consider and understand my situation.
i dont wnna bad things came up when im like this.
coz i was tired,and when im tired i got angry.
and when im angry i can be super annoying.
--not just to u,but to almost everyone.

u guys,im home!

yes.
as stated above.i absolutely am home now.
so-- i feel good.
but most of the time...yah.
i do miss KL very very much.
wait wait..this like gonna be my
100th ENTRY of the year 2010.
what am i babbling here.
okay,try being serious.
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-----*sigh* i cant hahaha
ala,100th entry pon kecoh.


so,as mom said,"it's been day kat sini tak hujan"
and i was like....for real?coz KL had been wet in almost everywhere everyday.
hosho!
asal petang je,ujan.
asal nk gelap je,ujan.

so,i was like praying and hoping that it would rain

...at the very least..rain,can you just pay a visit.

that would be just enough

because...

it's so hot in here.

the air conditioner cant keep me cool all day.

still,i can feel the heat burning the edge of my chin.

choc ice-blended has been my good company two days in a row.

urghh...

and surprise surprise
as i waited and waited and waited
last night,
i heard of drips and drops as i was rumbling in my comfy bed
it's pouring.
yipeeeeee..!
i was superb ecstatic.
im over the moon.
Alhamdulillah,am so blessed.
my prayer had been granted.
i slept with a huge smile on my face.
**dont ever imagine that,cz it'll totally freak u out**

20pcs #1

it is raining outside
and I am super boring
just arrived home from IIUM
and i missed Philly very much

as for the person :P

we're anything but ordinary
I think we're almost legendary


So here something I wrote,

If you're a crunk,crunk
Then you're a junk,junk
Who is always drunk,drunk
Sleeping on my bunk,bunk
Must be hard being a punk,punk
Thrashing on my trunk,trunk

P/s:this is not the one that I mention before that I want to dedicate to Salsya.this is just something tha came up on my mind :) hihhihi

let's do this

omigosh omigosh

can't wait to be home

to see my family and brothers and sisters

i miss 'em so so much

haha

"you can change your hair

you can change your clothes

you can your mind 

'coz that's the way it goes

you can say goodbye, you can say hello

but you're always find the way back home...

you can change your style 

you can change your dream

you can laugh and cry

but everybody knows

you will always find your way back home"

exactly, i'll always find my way back home

ok.

here it is

me and my onichi got everything prepared

at about 7 p.m. we begin our journey

hehe...

but before that,we went to Cat Centre at

Jln Beserah, owned by our beloved Dr. Jawahir,

a very kind-hearted vet to buy Hill's Science Plan Feline Adult Tuna 

as for kakaaang. Lyna will come and get the pack as

we are quite rushing so that we won't arrive too late 

we also stopped by the Mc Donald's Drive-Thru Telok Chempedak to grab

something to eat cause onichi was like  so annoying complaining that

she's so hungry.

ok then,we ordered one large set of McChicken and regular set

of Double Cheese Burger with iced Milo and Coca cola.

then we received one chocolate sundae as McD's appreciation 

to Drive-Thru users hahaha.whatever.i like it.

first 2hours,onichi was driving....until 8.45 p.m. she asked

me to take over the car as she said that her shoulder's hurt so bad

so,we pulled over by the road...and i took over

 we really didn't expected that it's gonna rain last night

in the beginning,the rain did showered quite a few drops

then about 5mins later,it was a huge splash

i can't believe it

onichi was sleeping like a baby...i supposed

cause i saw her was so quiet and calm

and then she did asked me wether i'm ok or not

i said,i'm ok [thou my eyes was quite blurred and i'm actually rabun haha]

but i was actually really am okay

still can see hehe

during the heavy shower, there are lightnings all over the sky

quite scarred sometimes but,

.... i do feel grateful to Allah and the lightnings

cause it could help me to see better as the lightning stroke

hihi...

so,as i drove along the night... i changed the radio station from Hitz.fm to

TraxxFM. . . and again, i couldn't believe it, TraxxFM aired most of the song

from my favorites haha. thanks TraxxFM...maybe Traxx do knew that

in my onichi's car there's none of her CDs are great with good songs haha

oh gosh,the rain was so heavy and thick

so we stopped at a Petronas gas station in Bandar Permaisuri

as the weather is getting cold and colder, we really need the toilet haha

...and i again, continuing my drive to kelantan

we arrived at about 11.30 p.m. and been welcomed warmly

by my sibling

so very happy to be home

...yet,so tired and felt like i was totally drained

sleep time after that

zzzz...

it's raining and i'm a bit bored

yes,it is raining outside while this entry is posted. 

i am having this lame feeling, my mind starts to creep in a very slow mode, small and tiny paces, going no where.

what am i going to do today??

well, i think i can take a nap for a while.. no no no no. a big 'no-no' over there because i rarely sleep at daytime because it can cause a total headache when i woke up. 

so, turn on the tv. haaa, merah puteh is  airing haha. 

that drama do reminds me of khay, who told me she fell in love with merah... kah kah kah. khay that's funny. khay, i will help you to get up if you 'fell' again. 

funny funny.

 

had a great chat in YM [Yahoo! Massenger] with hanif, my lil bro. 

miss my family so much.

i guess i should stop now.

since, i'm kinda lack of idea now

so,tata

have a pleasant Wednesday everyone!!

i'm sorry "TODAY"

ouh TODAY
i'm very sorry
so very sorry
that....

i woke up late
which i should woke up early
since my class start at 8am
demmit!!

again...
a sorry
that i left my campus behind
i didnt show up to class
i absent for today
but...
i do have a reason

a reason that i couldnt resist
it was raining
raining heavily
starting 7.30am till now
it havent stop
i dont know why

...but
for u,TODAY
i beg an apology
that i neglect u TODAY
forgive me TODAY
i hope u forgive me TODAY

still....
the rain wont stop
thou i had finished with this entry
im afraid there will be
water...maybe a lil flood
but i dont know

coz i havent went outside yet
or even flip the WIDE window's curtain
all that i heard is just
tears of the sky
raindrops dripping
...still...raining

i wonder what had happen
to the entire space that
put the sky to tears...

and for me...
im in the comforter
having my lappy on my lap
typing this entry

...clueless...