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    memories carved at the back of my brain

    Sunday, January 22, 2012

    jan...
    sunset at hakone


    its been the 35 days since i've arrived at this place and tomorrow is cny. its yet another year that i'm not in SG to celebrate it, even though this means that i've escaped another time of cleaning the house and my room lol. no matter what, its the time for gathering, for eating, for meeting up and for collecting ang pows. being away at a place is indeed lonely, when you have to work on the days that your family and friends are celebrating without your presence. despite that, its the belief that you are being missed there that keeps you going, and you will sincerely hope that it will be a good new year for them, whereby a new year with a new beginning starts on the lunar calender.

    i would say this 90 days is actually much tougher to get by than the previous 7 months in sweden, given the difference in the type of exchange, and the people you are interacting with. working style, working attitude is totally different as compared previously, and definitely the reluctance to put your heart totally to adapt and work hard is greater given the increase in age, whereby we got used to being in the comfort zone. though yes i will sometimes curse my boss for sending me over for this collaboration program where i have to slog and get used to being alone and independent, but it does give me more time to reconsider things carefully, and its beneficial for me in the long run. new techniques, new ties formed, new items that look good for my CV in the future as well as application of skills in my future work to jump ship to other sectors is also much easier. painful, yet beneficial. i guess thats probably what boss really want us to learn, though he may seem like the bad guy, but its beneficial to everyone. though me and wangfei have devised many ways for me to come back earlier, it wouldnt actually work as this will harm ties as well, all because of my selfish and childish thoughts. till then, endurance is the best policy.

    its here i finally witness and see myself in the japanese scientific hierarchy system whereby theres not much possible discussion and sharing of ideas and thoughts. its doing what they say and theres no way that you can reject. at here, everything that i do is restricted. its only under instructions that i can perform my experiments else its somewhat 'illegal' and they would be unhappy if they found out. believe it or not, the asst prof actually watch you do the expt and tell u WHAT exactly to do, even as to a simple reflux, like what rbf to use etc. how wonderfully human rights are being observed here. no matter what, i shall comply just to make my life easier, and make time pass by quickly too. and having a language barrier also makes communication harder, which means im mostly alone and don't talk much to anyone other than wangfei. when he's busy that means im mute for the day. nevertheless, its the people in SG that keeps me sane, who talks to me and know that im being missed there, and keeps me looking forward to going back there. and ive made my point abt that to boss who sent me an email to ask hows life here.

    let time pass quickly and hit 90 days soon! week 6 of 13 starting tomorrow! sadly theres no mid sem break. haha. happy cny everyone! =)


    2:55 PM //