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oh yeah! its the weekend! wee~ this marks my 1 week of relief teaching yeah. well this time it wasn't that nice as i thought it will be since i am relefing such a teacher who is busy till she never mark all ther assignments and i have to mark 9 stacks for her. and i am proclaimed as the most pitiful relef teacher she has seen from my ex physics teacher. well at least the students are not that bad. =) still like my sec3 class yeah! =) sec4s are always sec4s and forever having their tests and rushing through syllabus.

oh yeah, that was the 2J collage! had some problem digging up the old photos on my computer because i didn't bothered to sort them out my comp. well at least it didn't look that bad. the center photo was chosen though not everyone looked nice in the photo but its the most significant event of all, our dear ms goh aka mrs chak wedding day! =) and yeah its the first and last time i have been to a church. then here comes the other photos. i look so toot and retarded as ever lol. oh well. haha back to the good old days at the west coast campus.

still miss my old campus. the present campus is so old and the school is shifting in june again. oh well. the nice pandan reservoir ( everyone remembers that ) that we have to run for our napfa and pe lessons is much nicer and better than running on track on so on. things change as time passes so quickly. even now the school rules are more flexible and they actually played so recent and popular songs on the PA system like jay chou's shan hu hai in the morning for song dedication. omg. feel quite old now.

and yeah, finishing my guitar book now, moving on to the next book. i shall try and master romance de amor and romance, slide waltz. they sounded so nice! i shall try them on my newly restringed guitar yeah! =) crappy instructor but well at least he trys and teach us how to tackle different parts. all thanks to his rushing through of pieces now i can sightread much faster except for chords. and my class is shrinking. now left 4/5 of us. soon i guess it will be a 1 to 2 lesson. mr kwok to me n xh. LOL. lets see how. i like guitar classes.

oh yeah. kids are always kids. =)

8:43 PM //

altos whacking the pres! =P

well. a new design to signal the end of another phase of my life, moving on to a post 18 years of my life. =) code written by myself with a little help from the old code that i have. =) given that i haven't touch html for a long time and the title "web head" is given wrongly to me back in com club, an accomplishment. =) feel free to give comments! =)

anyway its a bad hair day for me. went to cut my hair and now people say my hair is cute! my mum says i look like a small kid with a mushroom hairstyle. oh no. i wonder how am i going to survive in office tommorrow and teaching next week. reliefing the infamous physics teacher for a week back at my sec sch =) and yup i am shortlisted for the smu interview. now people can start laughing about my hair for weeks before it grows back. oh well. i look like a village girl. hai. i shall burn my hair.

job ending tommorrow i suppose =) then teaching. then freedom! not gonna work quite soon unless i find a reason to. time to go visit teachers and friends soon. cya dudes =)

10:12 PM //

RT bbq! =)

oh yeah. it had been a great week for me given that i got 3 days off and i had great outings! =) except i feel a bit cheated when i receive my first paycheck. well forget it. just feel its a stupid cheap labour. want whole story ask me personally. but at least i did learn some new stuff bah and everyone in office treats me well. =)

back on thurs we had RT bbq! wee~ its been a long long time i see everyone of them again after i left that place. 9 of us =) strangely though i did not really stay for long there seems to be like we can really like bond very well or something. at first i was feeling quite strange but later its gone. =) must be the 'sufferings' back then and the time we had in the RT room marking, slacking on the sofa, looking at kj's stack of science wbs in front of me (he sits in front of me and took up some of my place) and snacking! hahaha. i had enjoyed myself. =) vicky, felicia, sihui, kaijie, zhongye, yuhua ( my senior! ), caryn ( who came after i left) & isksan. so fun! bbq cum captains ball in the dark ( i was wearing t-shirt w jeans -___-|| ), volleyball whoa. =) i had difficulty seeing the ball in the dark and guys are always guys =) 6 gals vs 3 guys for captain's ball n we are still like losing out LOL. but its a great night for me! =) miss them!

and friday i was asked to go somewhere else to work for half day after morning was spent in my office. went to this building next to the escalator to marina square from city link. and the view was GREAT. woo~ everything is so high tech there and i finally see what is a real CBD office man! but i did the usual stuff so it was still quite the boring haha. after that i did an evil thing. i met up with free to play xbox at douby and now we are both addicted to dynasty warriors! oh no haha. played 2 hours non-stop and it was madness. die. but its pretty cheap =) woohoo~ i shall go back often and play again. =) went back home at 9+ near 10 haha.

today even better. i am such a money spender these days oh no. kbox( it turned out very lame with 3 guys ), mahjong, bridge and xbox again( now my thumb hurts like mad )! it was so fun! i would go out with this group of people no matter the distance no matter the activity and with no purpose in mind to achieve. its just so fun and relaxed being with them. swimming, pool, arcade blah blah. its so fun! can't believe we can actually lame and crap for so many years haha. and xbox is great! woo~ can't believe i can meet such lame people from com club =)

great week, great people that i went out with, great fun what more can i ask for =)except more offdays and stop working so hard since it is not as worth it as i thought. hahah. hope to meet up with other people soon too! for now back to essay n resting =)

12:55 AM //

me & my cousin at his POP

well after being at home for so long without work ( I'm lovin it! ), finally settled all my university application for all 3 universities, just left with the paying up and sending the supporting documents over. =) its better to just settle everything once and for all and quickly before i start reconsidering everything again. accountancy, chemistry, information system management. guess wouldn't be staying in hostels given that i am such a dependent girl. mum doesn't seem to be happy about me putting in business admin w accountancy, hoping that i wouldn't do the same thing as what she is doing now, but they just let me be oh yeah. =)

had 07 dinner back then on mon nite at kenny rogers, it was pretty nice and comfortable actually when we got a whole corner to ourselves. guys being as usual, we treated them and now my pocket has a big big hole oh yeah. wonder am i going to survive the rest of the week given that today is only wednesday. broke man. but the waffles with ice cream at gelare which i had yesterday is really worth it! yummy! especially the banana walnut ice cream! ohps feeling kinda of guilty now lol.

bought my harry potter goblet of fire dvd! oh yeah! and i am going to rewatch it despite that this isn't my favourite movie among all the other ones in the series. my favourite is still chamber of secrets hahaha. and my conan bk 52! i wonder when it will end man. spent 52 X 5 = $260 bucks on them already! omg. and i am considering buying the full metal alchemist comic series too! oh man. please my paycheck pls come soon! i haven't gotten my pay for so long. and yeah i am suppose to pay quite a lot for the new notebook that my parents bought for me and my bro. oh dear.

was busy preparing for scholarship application these days, finding the suppporting documents blah blah. one of the essay questions asked about goals that i have set for myself. whoa. this makes me realised how i haven't really thought about my goals in life and what i really want to do for the future. i am just those type of as what the chinese saying: 走一步，看一步. well i got till the end of the day to think what is my main goal in mind before submitting this essay by today. still got at least 2 or 3 more essays to go despite not having high hopes on my applications due to my GP grades.

for now, off days are still the best =)

12:11 PM //

meeting up with guitar peeps! =D

whoa i love off days suddenly! its a time to rest and engage in our own stuff and whatever and surprisingly i vacuumed the whole house without anyone asking me to since i cant take it that my house is so dirty lol. and i am officially having off days till the end of the week due to there is nothing much for me to do for them already. i just love off days and understand the boredom of going to office and work.

met up with guitar peeps back on tues. celebrated the march babies' birthdays aka huilin's minjoo's and mingxiu's birthday! wee~ 10 of us turned up! its been ages since i last met them and its really like everyone try and make an effort in turning up for this when they are either working schooling or ns-ing. and the organiser aka me was the latest to arrive due to me having OTs lol. though its just a short meet up like 2 hours and the surprises didn't turn out that well, we had a great time together laming around and all those! =D miss and love those guys which made a difference in my life! =) its been some time since i can laugh so much when going out. its like i laugh and smile for every little thing that we do even during our conversations. and i had never been so lame and open after so long for not meeting up with them. hope we can meet up quite soon again either before or after those guys enlisting in march or april.

spend my day watching the passing out parade of my cousin this whole afternoon before rushing off for my guitar lesson ( which i was late for about 20mins again). though it may seems nothing to us the spectators and so on, but i bet deep inside everyone of the recruits aka privates they went through all those trainings together and this parade must have been very important and significant for them. 2 months training together had certainly brought them very close together. seeing them like being so close together and all stuff, taking photographs and so on, it just warm my heart somehow bah. and oh yeah i spotted mr lee in the spectator stand hahaha and saw many people that i know. whoa.

well what a week man. and guys are starting their block leave. so nice man. uni application i think i will go submit after visiting the openhouses this weekend. cya dudes! =)

11:31 PM //

07 dinner =)

well well. finally the long and irritating wait for the results are over. headed back to school well today. with all the good wishes and so on, i had achieved what i had expected myself to get. whoa. surprised my whole family. happy? sad? jubilant? just say that i am in the middle range. =) happy that for my econs and purposely telling lina low that which makes me feel so happy haha. who asked her to give me so much stress for econs? i finally took my revenge and throw that apple in her face. muahaha. mission accomplished. sad for my gp though pass but still require to take QET if applying to nus. oh well. still didn't do as well as what my bro did though i thought i could. parents are happy enough though given that they have given up hope on me seeing my pathetic year2 grades and complaining my endless practices and horrible results. and yeah i paid extra $$ to have that extra long chunk of word printed on my slip and studying for an extra 1 week.

but anyway i have at least met my own expectations. as the saying goes, the higher the expectation the harder you fall. thats why i have learnt to set lower expectations on myself. seeing how worried the others are after hearing the news of the release on the results and complaining to me, i fully understand why they are in such anxiety while i appear to be in a cool state of mind which can't be bothered by my results. they set high expectations on themselves, set out on a hard and long path to meet their target and of course, expect the fruits of their effort. for me, after failing so many times, i have already somehow given up hope and just didn't dare to set too much hope and expectations on myself, praying that at least i wouldn't fall so hard if i fail to reach. such a coward i am to be afraid of more failures and not maximising my full potential. expectations vs reality.

for now, i have to decide the future path that i take. no more of being a follower and decision for my future career. application all closes on the 1st April and smu n ntu's one are already opened. whoa. let me consider carefully again. meanwhile hugs to all =) no matter its hugs for comfort or hugs for joy. =)

1:07 AM //