Deli Thai - USJ

Oh, so long didn't had somtam the other day me and my sissy also my aunt decided to had thai food somewhere around USJ the food there aint bad all the meal are delicious also no need to wait for so long for everything to get serve that's what I like the most!! 

Fried rice for me and my auntie and the other meal is for my sissy forget what is called hahahaha, all i have in my mind is to eat the somtam you see i'm so hungry liao!! overall all food are yummy and cheap also cheaper!!

I love my new hairstyle VS. The craziness of me and my sissy

My new hairstyle, awhhhh I cut my hair again yesterday kinda bored with long hair already so I decided to make some changes then I make up my mind to go for shorter more this time and  here is the outcome thank's to my friend which is also my hairstylist for the idea of this hairstyle, I'm lovin' it!!

I'm ZOoooming... Who call me at this hour?? HAHAHA

The craziness of me and my partner in crazy activity no other than my sissy!!

Here we are again acting crazy to the maximum. Just look at my sissy showing her mafia face and some more wanna rob me but then at the end both also showing sob..sob face hahahaha..

This pictures was captured after playing american pool with my sissy he..he thanks for the pix sissy xoxo.. the two of us lepaking at the snooker centre again, my sis sulk like a baby when she lose the game to me HAHA.. she said how come I enter all the ball one?? she also asked me to left some  for her to enter cause she don't want me to finish the game yet I bet so overall last night was fun!! =D

Snapshoot - It's the plain me LOL

ME + PLAIN = I AM WHO I AM

Just now ♥ macam lain aje bila tak pakai eyeliner so plain hahahahaha..

Unreciprocated Friendship - The Bitter Truth

I smile, that’s what I do when I’m happy and even when I'm feeling upset or down. I smile, deep within my heart is to let myself know that it's the only way that keep me awake and see all the reason to why I am still smiling. Although I know that I should be doing something like getting upset and angry and then rebel againsn't them people who upseted me and tell them all straight and forward right at their face about thing’s that they made me disappointed. But I still keep on smiling inside me trying to keep my two feet on the same ground where I'm standing now and keep my ego and pride away low to the ground yet not any of them seems to notice and realized my existence and I know for sure the reason to why they couldn't see all those hidden smile that I have inside me because not any of them take some time to figured it out.

I guess the least i can do is remain in the silence rather than telling them this and that as for what I know that I have no any rights to disturb them they are too busy on thinking about themselves and their disappointments too busy on looking for some mistakes to point back at your face and convincing themselves that it’s the right thing to do and then find a selfless reason so that by the end of the day when they come telling you all nonsense and the reason to why they misbehaved is nothing to do with them cause it's actually not their faults they aren’t the one to blame as for a reason they only did it cause we made them do it!! They don't care about what you felt who cares anyway..?? and why should they care right?? you ain't nothing to them eventually someday they will tell you that.

I continue smiling again inside me although on the particular moment's there are time I felt like exploding my temper and just lose control. Patiently I told myself to hold back all those evil thought’s I have in my mind and try to keep on the ground to where I stand then I smile again and flashback every little thing’s and slowly let myself remember again about every single thing they had done for myself,  for all the good memories that they have shared and for all the great thing’s that they have made upon me like for keeping me accompany when I have nobody other them, I try to remember how they been there for me when no one seems care to be there.

I try to recaptured all the moments back then and then think as hard I could whether to let my mind decide what should be done and asked myself this is it still worth remaining on the same ground and having them around or perhaps it’s time to take the path and learn to walked on my own again and because I am too exhausted on smiling at every disappointments they have made upon myself it breaks my heart all over again.

But does any of them seems to care..?? does any of them realized that the things they are doing is hurting you from the inside..?? still not one of them atleast to try understand your place and situation as a human being with feelings even the machine will collapse getting hammer over again and again will you let them to wreak you all over again..?? Because I won't let any of them break me from the inside all over again.

They got too carried away with all their suspicions and making a false assumptions about yourself and then finally judge you on something that isn't even true and happening. They just forgotten about many things the good thing's that you done and sacrifice for them are forgotten the memories you once shared are lost and forgotten everything about you and little data of you and what you are to them are corrupted from the storage of their mind the only space that is left there is the malwares. 

I AM UNRECIPROCATED for having a UNRECIPROCATED FRIENDSHIP that I know for sure but still I am smiling and talked nothing about it nor look for a reason to blamed or pointing out my finger on their faces and tell them that it's all their faults! and then grab myself a calculator for me to start calculating all the mistakes they have done  to myself and so that I could find the perfect reason to stop holding on and just let myself exploded out freely lose all my temper without having any regret’s or feeling guilty for losing my anger at them. Yet, I did nothing than just smile and smile again, why..?? why..?? what kept me smiling all the time, am I actually dumb and how can I give and take so much with all their madness and also insanity!! remember we're all have demons and angels of our own.

PEOPLE CAN SAY WHAT THEY WANTED TO SAY AND LISTEN ONLY TO WHAT THEY WANTED TO HEAR. BUT EXCUSE ME, NO I’M NOT DUMB OR STUPID NOR WEAK, AND NEVER UNDERESTIMATE WHAT I CAN DO OR WHAT I COULD AND COULDN’T DO. YOU’LL NEVER KNOW WHAT I’M ACTUALLY CAPABLE OF DOING’S. THE ONLY THING YOU KNOW ABOUT ME IS THE SMALL DETAILS THAT PLANTED INSIDE YOUR HEAD.

FYI, FIGHTING, ARGUING OR ACTING BY MY OWN RIOTS IS ISN'T MY THING CAUSE I LIKE TO SETTLE THING'S ACCORDINGLY IN PEACEFUL WAY AS I KNOW MYSELF VERY WELL ONCE I START FIGHTING ABOUT SOMETHING I WILL NEVER, NEVER, NEVER STOP!! AND I NEVER  QUIT NEVER  EVEN IT TAKES ME A THOUSAND YEARS!!

1.  I smile because when people make mistakes I forgive after all they are just human not a saint they made mistakes that they probably dont realized and so do myself I made mistakes too and i'm not perfect.

Yes, I forgive those people that hurt my feelings and for all their mistakes I give best chances only upon the limit cause I believe that every blind road has an end and stop signs which means when I finally said, I'm done and had enough. It's enough. The mind games has to stop.

2.  I smile, when I think of all the promises they made but none of their word’s are kept truly for breaking their promises to me, yet dare to made promises again and  convinced me to actually believe on the things they said but never done and for keep breaking their promises over and over again.

3. How can I trust them again or should I give myself a reason to trust them again..??  

If you want my trust then come and gained it!! cause to me being fooled for once and twice is enough but not for the third time and fourth cause I can guarantee that it would happen all over again and again there's no such paper that can wrap a fire. And the most bitter truth to swallowed is you try everything to make them happy to keep the friendship lasted forever with all your efforts but at the end none of the single thing  that you did for them are remembered. 

THE BITTER TRUTH, NO MATTER HOW GOOD AND KIND YOU TREAT THEM AT THE END YOU ARE UNRECIPROCATED NOTHING COULD PLEASE THEM.

Some people tend to realize how important you are to them when they look around and found that you are not there anymore the moment when they find that you are still "useful" to them and losing a friend like you is a greatest mistakes they had ever done. 

Could you ever imagine if this thing's could actually happen to yourself and what will you do..? I just smile. Honestly not everyone could smile on their disappointments. ☺ 

The fragments of connection - Art is the objectification of feeling

The fragments of connection : Those who are themselves are those who keep their every words, and those who are not themselves are those who are soul less - and those who are soul less are those who dont complies their words and promises. 

PROMISES IS MADE TO FULFILLED NOT TO BREAK AND WORD'S ARE STRONG AS WEAPON.

( my words of wisdom )

Brainy Quotes : Herman Melville

It is not down in any map; true places never are.

The only thing they keen of knowing when they talk of the dignity of work. The dignity is in leisure.

Yet habit - strange thing! what cannot habit accomplish?

To be hated cordially, is only a left-handed compliment.
When truth is in things, and not in words.

They say a friendship at first sight, is like love at first sight,
is said to be the only truth.

A man thinks that by mouthing hard words
he understands hard things.

To be called one thing, is oftentimes to be another.

There is all of the difference in the world between paying and being paid. 

There is nothing namable but that some men will, or undertake to, do it for pay.

There are some enterprises in which a careful disorderliness is the true method. 

In this world, shipmates, sin that pays it's way can travel freely, 

and without passport; whereas Virtue, if a pauper, is stopped at all frontiers. 

**We cannot live only for ourselves. A thousand fibers connect us with our fellow men.** 

**At sea a fellow comes out. Salt water is like wine, in that respect.**

**It is better to fail in originality than to succeed in imitation.**

**He who has never failed somewhere,that man can not be great.**

" Whatever fortune brings,
 don't be afraid of doing things."  
To know how to grow old is the master work of wisdom, and one of the most difficult chapters in the great art of living. 

***There is one knows not what sweet mystery 

about this sea whose gently awful stirrings seem to speak of some hidden soul beneath.*** :-)

Mysterious girl - whatever pictures for my TIMELINE cover

My new FB timeline cover  I love the girl on the right her eyes expression is beyond every word's he..he

I wonder if the girl on this picture really do exist in real world or just an illustrative art by a great painter, love how she cover half of her face with those hoodie scarf wrapped on her face . 

And this is how i came up after editing the image with mixture colors ha..ha my friends say it look like a painting and she love the color as it look kind of weird like a soul-within-soul LOL

The unseen emotion

What she need is space not forbidden freedom, 

What she need is support not breaking down.

What she need is encouragement not criticize, 

What she need is guidance not bad influence. 

What she need is trustworthy not compromise, 

What she need is loyalty not denial.

What she need is adventures not emptiness, 

What she need is happiness not sadness.

What she need is love not hatred,

What she need is more colors not only black and white.      

For awhile she got everything that she ever wanted
Space where to fit herself in and freedom with no limits.  
For awhile she got every strength to keep herself strong,
regret's nothing but getting caught  at the end.
 She betray herself by a moment and thought.

By: ZaarahJasmin ( dedicated to angelic ) :-)

The Greatest Challenge

WHO are your challenge?

Have you ever asked your self that question,

did you get the answer and figure it out?

Cause I found my answer to that question.

The challenge is my commitment.

The challenge is my duty.

The challenge is my mission.

The challenge is my plan.

It is the responsibility upon myself.

It is the goal that I must achieve!

My challenge is NOT them, whom or they.

My challenge is YOU, no other than YOU.

My one and only biggest challenge.

IF, it’s not because of YOU, (my other self)

I won’t be who I am now.

I won’t be who I am tomorrow.

I won’t be who I was yesterday.

I won’t be who I want to be in the FUTURE.

Hey, there (my other self)

the one that keep’s challenging

the inside me all this time.

The one that reminding me,

to be strong againsnt all odd’s.

The one that there to keep an eye

on my conscious mind about all

the challenge’s that I have to strived to!

Hey, there (my other self)

The one that never turned back on me.

The one that always keep remembering me

not to give up on all my challenge’s in LIFE.

Hey, there (my other self)

Hey, there (the one that is inside me)

Hey, there remember me..? (I am you and you are me)

We’re once was a greatest challenge in our ancient TIME.

Hey, there (my other self) Hey, there remember me?

YOU are the challenge to fulfilled all my commitment.

YOU are the challenge to fulfilled all my duty

with responsibility and without any hesitation.

YOU are the challenge to complete all my mission.

YOU are the challenge to all my planned

and to do my TASK on details.

For it’s the goal that I must achieve!

The challenge that made me WHO I AM NOW,

and the challenge on being WHO I WOULD BE IN YEARS TO COME.

By: ZaarahJasmin ( Dedicated this poem to someone )

My today readings - Supra-celestial being, have anyone heard of it...??

My readings for today explained by an astrologer lady not to mention her name here.  So, i started reading this file each and every paragraph then suddenly i was surprise and stunned upon reading through it, instantly i stopped before i can decide whether to continue reading the next sentence or not, my concentration got caught-up for awhile when she called myself a supra celestial being. Have anyone of you heard of that words before? cause i tell you what it's the first time in my whole life my eyes came to read those words and i really have no idea what it means until she explained into further more details.

Am i one of those people type that called as supra-celestial being? Bluntly telling i dont know what are those words  stand for and meant but i like to seek the truth and the hidden meaning to it, and the only thing i could say after reading the the letter's to end is basically most of what she had explain to me in over 100% - 70% of it are showing like a mirror to myself (does it make sense i asked myself as it's hard for me to believe on something unless it has a huge point that could convince me that there are some truth on it, you see some of this thing could be a scam and etc.) So, i still didn't get the whole point and details of the readings and so i decided to make a quick analysis about supra-celestial beings i googled-it!! 

Here's what i found some believe that the supra-celestial being, the intuition,the telepathy. Is there any sort of definition or special phenomena for these words? Supra celestial being (which what we most heard) and they has some contacts with a magnetic field of this universe, that man can well in advance knows the things which are going to happen in the future.

It is said that a supra celestial being is one who is not directly ruled by his or her planets. They have such great will powers that they are able to make their own fortune they are masters of their own destiny with their strong will powers, they are able to overcome the effects their planets put on them and live the life which they want, which is according to their own wishes and not the life which their planets force on them. ( Oh, amazing huh, cool!! ha ha). But the question is, how many of you will believe this? do they really exist..??? 

But frankly speaking i had experience them myself before, all the above words that stated like can well in advance know thing which are going to happen well they happened to myself  not once but most of time it's always sharp and details. Yeah, i know it's sounded weird and strange enough but i always noticed them myself many times right before the happening and actual event comes i've will knew it in advanced and here i want to early clarified on this post why i intended of creating this post at the first place is to share my views not to bragged about anything, as my purposed and my one and only intentions is to share my thought and view to those who have the same interest and been through the same situation as myself. 

Are this thing are normal..?? well it might look's simple and some of you probably gonna think it's an easy no-biggie thingy, but honestly if you asked me the questions like do i feel disturb about it..?? my answer's is yes.  I admit that sometime i feel very disturb and confused yet i felt amazed at the same time knowing for myself that having those characteristic which not everyone has it and there not many people could think differently in such exceptional ways. As some of them probably only takes it as a normal but the truth is those are the things that actually doesn't always happen in someone life unless they are bound to it.

And only he who experience the same thing would understood what is it like to be in that person shoes and how it is takes concerned, as i'm aware that not many can accept or believe in the statement about vision and etc. In fact there are some event that happen to me which is really beyond my understanding somehow like i just said i'm a truth seeker and i'll do anything to explore and learn, to see thing's in a different perspective or views and to gain every knowledge that i am fortunate to take part of it.

But sometimes there are thing's that remain as the unknown those thing that not every human being can explain except for HE the creator of our universe.  

NOW THERE IS ONLY ONE TRUTH AND THE TRUTH CAN ONLY BE ONE IT'S THE TRUTH TO EVERYTHING. :-)